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2023.05.30 23:03 ChazmaniatimesTM You didn't ask. I don't care.

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2023.05.30 23:03 HercHuntsdirty My (24F) Girlfriend Ended 6 Year Relationship With Me (26M) - I Don’t Understand (Advice/Guidance Needed)

I (26M) was recently broken up with by my (24F) girlfriend of 6 years right after opening up to her about how I had been struggling a lot mentally recently. That's not necessarily the cause, but it happens to be a terrible coincidence.
Backstory to the unfortunate mental struggles:
About 10 weeks ago I had a very long night out and woke up extremely hungover. My brother met up with me that night in our parents car and ended up staying with us for a few drinks, so evidently he left the car.
Of course, I woke up and had a boatload of caffeine so I was already on edge a little bit. My brother was still asleep, so my mom asked me if I could quickly drive my dad to the car so he could take it home. No problem, I hopped in my car and drove there with my dad.
On the way home, completely unprovoked and no anxiety prior, I had an insane panic attack. I’ve never experienced anything like it before. I think I’ve only had one panic attack in my life, and for some reason it left me with a very small amount of social anxiety. During this attack, my hands and feet were completely numb and sweating. At first, I had literally no idea what was going on - I thought it was a legitimate health issue. I ended up taking a bit to drive home, but I made it.
Since then, I've just had heightened anxiety. I've had one other panic attack in the past and I eventually got over the lingering anxiety, so I knew it wasn't permanent.
Mental Health Backstory on her end:
To preface this, we both have anxiety/depression in our genetics unfortunately. In fact, her mom spent some time in the hospital when they were young because of how bad it got.
She also apparently had a ton of anxiety from work recently (she's a nurse, I'm in tech).
On my mothers side of the family, my mom, grandma and great grandma have struggled with anxiety their entire lives, some of them taking antidepressants.
Not fun genes for either of us to have, but we persevered!
Our Relationship:
This is what has been getting to me, our relationship was very healthy. We argued probably 2-3 times per year, we spent the majority of days together - as we lived only a 5 minute drive apart. We were both fully a part of each other's families. All of the normal relationship stuff, we were completely engulfed in it. We had also been looking at engagement rings for a bit and ALWAYS talked about our life together.
When I was about 19 before we were together, I used to drunkenly talk about her all of the time to my friends saying "if she ever gets out of the relationship with her boyfriend (at that time) she's the one I'm going for". When I was graduating high school, I went into her class on yearbook day, grabbed her yearbook and wrote my number in it. Long story short, she ended up single and within a month of that happening, we were together.
The "problems" we had over the years that were semi-recurring:
I didn't suggest enough of our plans. I explained to her a number of times that I'd happily go anywhere, I just don't tend to suggest ideas because sometimes she wanted to, other times she didn't. I've lived by the motto "happy wife, happy life" in that relationship, so I tended to go along with whatever she suggested.
We didn't take enough pictures together. I don't really like being in too many pictures and that bothered her.
We didn't travel together enough. This goes back to the anxiety, I hate flying and haven't done it in almost a decade. However, I have an appointment with my doctor in early July where I'm requesting some "emergencies only" anxiety medication to use for that exact scenario. Note - she went on a number of trips over the years with her closest friends. Furthermore, we had done weekend getaways via car together but those apparently don't count. To add, her friends are hopping on planes at least once per month to go somewhere, I think comparison became the thief of joy here.
I didn't tell her I loved her enough or hug her enough. This one is hard for me because I felt like I definitely told her I loved her a lot. She used to occasionally say "do you even love me", semi-joking but also serious, and I always told her of course I did and even though I may not say it a number of times a day, of course I do. I also did a TON of things for her to show how much I cared (ie. she very rarely had to make a lunch for work, I cooked for her almost every day and we don't even live together) The hugging thing is a bit different, as she's always been extremely affectionate and I never really have been. I truly think it comes down to how I was raised, affection just wasn't a huge part of my childhood. (note, that's not a problem for me or anything, I had incredible family/parents, it just wasn't as prominent as it was in her childhood)
I cared a lot about money and how we could set ourselves up to move out. She had taken 5 trips (two of them by train, three by plane) with her friends in the past year and after the 5th one I asked if she planned on slowing down so she could focus on tackling her student debt and so we could start saving to move out, have a wedding etc. Specifically, I wanted us to be in the position where we weren't renting a home, ESPECIALLY given how much money we were making combined. This part kind of confused me because she was the first one to suggest moving out, but when it came time to adjusting the lifestyle to prepare for it, she didn't like the idea. But, I did use it as a crutch for my anxiety to get out of things sometimes and I did open up to her about that. As an example though, I still went with her to the Gucci store and helped her pick out a very expensive purse to celebrate getting her first real nursing job after graduating. I don't feel that I cared about money (especially given the stage we were in in our lives) more than any of my buddies with girlfriends. I wanted us to be set up well for the coming stages of our lives; they were fast approaching. Furthermore, her friends are catching a plane every weekend and are living with their parents but pay cheque to pay cheque with no prospects of ever leaving unless it's renting
The Situation:
About 7-ish weeks ago, a few weeks after my panic attack, my girlfriend was very adamant that we needed to book a trip together. She said we hadn't been on a "real" trip during our relationship (by real, she means getting on a plane). We were sitting down in her bed on my laptop looking at destinations and flights, but I was incredibly anxious about the whole thing. As we were about to book, I broke down and was fully vulnerable to her for one of the first times in the 6 year relationship. I said that I just don't see myself getting onto a plane right now without some kind of medication to calm me down. On top of that, it would stress me out financially a bit, as I'm a full-time masters student and working full time. Plus, it was during my one-week semester break, so I honestly just wanted to relax.
From that day on, our relationship started going downhill. She said she felt extremely disappointed by the whole situation and she couldn't shake the feeling. We then started only hanging out maybe once per week and it was very bland when we did. A couple weeks after that incident, I slept over at her house and I could tell she was genuinely just not happy at that time.
Brief backstory - despite being 26, my mom still gives me a ton of flack if I sleep at her house. It was rare that I got away with it. But, I did it that night anyway because she always asked me to sleep over but I rarely wanted to have to deal with my mom. I thought it would help show her I'm really trying to get better. She also invited me over the following evening and I obviously went.
After that day, I don't think we saw each other for about 2 weeks. I texted her on a Friday evening and said I just don't feel like she wants to be with me anymore. She picked me up so we could talk, and explained that she felt very disappointed about how we were so close to booking the trip and ended up not doing it. She said she needed a break and I was fine with it, I understood where she was coming from.
During this time, I started seeing a therapist. I found one online who was one of the highest rated in my province and was also extremely experienced in marital/pre-marital counselling so I could tell her about the relationship issues I was having along with my anxiety.
Fast forward about 2 more weeks (last weekend) she texted me saying she was ready to talk and picked me up. She said it's probably best if we just end the relationship for the time being. She explained that she felt she had been disappointed a few times over the years and was bottling a lot of things up. She said she needed time to "find herself again" and didn't know if we would get back together at all in the future or not. Then, we sat there talking in her car for another 30 minutes like things were normal so it really threw me off.
I ended up texting her the next day and asked if I could pick her up because I was confused from the night prior since we talked so normally after the breakup conversation. We ended up talking again, sharing some tears and what not, but I kind of understood why she felt she needed to be alone for a bit, even though she didn't know if we would get back together or not. She said that people do this all of the time and sometimes they come back stronger, but if it was meant to be then we'll get back together. I also told her about how much help I'm getting and how I'm setting a goal to take a vacation when I finish my masters in November. She was noticeably happy and asked a lot about how I was talking to my therapist about improving as a person and a (what I thought was soon to be) fiancé. She asked for all of the details about what we talked about in regards to our relationship and was very happy that I was putting that much effort in.
A couple days ago is when she deleted are photos together, but it came right after she posted an Instagram story while out with a friend who has no stability whatsoever. This friend has been on and off with the same guy (who treats her terribly) for as long as we were together. Not to mention, she sleeps around a ton. I can't help but feel like some of this breakup is being influenced by her friends (specifically this one) wanting her to be single like they are out of jealousy or something. Or, they want her to be flying somewhere once a month with them with no plans for the future. My girlfriend has cried to me in the past because she had been brought to places she didn't want to be because her friend wanted to go for a guy. That friend has also been binge drinking several times weekly for years. The following night, her two friends posted a story of her incredibly drunk in the back of a car with her feet out of the window I'm sure in hopes that I would see it. We're grown ass adults, I can't help but feel like that's just not a cool thing to do to your friend in general? I don't care how drunk you are, in fact I expected her to have a night out with her friends and let loose but posting someone else like that is just insanely stupid to me! To put the icing on the cake, one of my long time buddies from high school decided to go for one of her friends and I gave him substantial warnings about her. Within a year, that relationship was completely over with and she was on to the next.
Neither of us were ever the type one to have one-night stands or get around, so I'm not concerned about anything like that during the breakup. If it happens it happens, but I won't be sleeping with anyone until I've put in all of my effort to saving everything we've built. She's only ever been with me and her ex, while I've had a handful more partners before her - but I've experienced enough in my 26 years to know that there was is only one woman for me.
After all of this, I still couldn't shake the feeling that I felt I was being abandoned during the one time in my entire life I've opened up to anyone and really wanted some support. I'm also just having a hard time processing why it happened and how I can salvage it.
I've texted her once per week since the breaks & breakup happened just telling her that I loved her and wished we were going to XYZ events coming up. I also always say in the message that "You don't have to respond or even read it, I just want you to know". I'm having a hard time deciding if I should continue giving her that weekly text or not, but I really do want her to know how much I care and thought we were a dream team.
I just can't help but feel like we had "problems" that were very fixable and were very minor compared to 99% of couples. Her two best friends have had 5+ boyfriends each in the time that we were together and countless one-night stands. Every time they would break up, I'd hear a story from my girlfriend about how terribly they were treated by these guys and we talked about how lucky we are to have each other. There was no forms of jealousy or self-consciousness between us either, neither of us were bothered when we went out alone with our respective friend groups. I also never for a second worried when she travelled with her friends that she'd cheat or something.
This wraps in with why I can't process the breakup. Aside from the few things we argued about here and there (few times a year) it was an incredibly healthy relationship. I had a great relationship with her friends (despite some of the things I've said about them above) and would often times opt to go out drinking with her group over my group of buddies. I acknowledged my shortcomings as a boyfriend (ie. the affection) with my therapist and she's giving me some help with it. Am I crazy for thinking 1. that I can fix what's happened and 2. Part of this breakup might just be her wanting to see how much I actually care?
Anyway, I might add to this if I remember more important points. I just needed to get some of this off my chest. If you've made it this far into my story, thanks for reading!
TL;DR - Our relationship was very healthy, we never argued, the breakup came essentially because I wasn’t ready to travel despite the fact that I’m actively getting help
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2023.05.30 23:03 darknyght00 Some DIY Questions

I'm a software engineer by trade and my typical work setup is usually a closed laptop (because all tech jobs in the US are apparently always "on call" so portability is important) hooked up to my mechanical keyboard and a couple external monitors. I've been thinking lately how neat it would be to build a machine that's still usable on the go but gets rid of the stuff I don't use in a typical laptop (boring keyboards, webcam, trackpad). The 3d printed Framework case got me thinking about sandwiching the guts of the laptop under my own custom keyboard with maybe a little ~7" screen for info/terminal use in a sort of cyberdeck fashion.
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2023.05.30 23:03 imThe_great1 About the material productive forces

What to respond to this :
The essential concept of Marxian materialism is "the material productive forces of society." These forces are the driving power producing all historical facts and changes. In the social production of their subsistence, men enter into certain relations—production relations —which are necessary and independent of their will and correspond to the prevailing stage of development of the material productive forces. The totality of these production relations forms "the economic structure of society, the real basis upon which there arises a juridical and political superstructure and to which definite forms of social consciousness correspond." The mode of pro- duction of material life conditions the social, political, and spiritual (intellectual) life process in general (in each of its manifestations). It is not the consciousness (the ideas and thoughts) of men that determines their being (existence) but, on the contrary, their social being that determines their consciousness. At a certain stage of their development the material productive forces of society come into contradiction with the existing production relations, or, what is merely a juridical expression for them, with the property relations (the social system of property laws) within the frame of which they have hitherto operated. From having been forms of development of the productive forces these re- lations turn into fetters of them. Then comes an epoch of social revolution. With the change in the economic foundation the whole immense superstructure slowly or rapidly transforms * itself. In reviewing such a trans- formation,1 one must always distinguish between the material transformation* of the economic conditions of production, which can be precisely ascertained with the methods of the natural sciences, and the juridical, po- litical, religious, artistic,2 or philosophical, in short ide- ological, forms in which men become conscious (aware) of this conflict and fight it out. Such an epoch of trans- formation can no more be judged according to its own consciousness than an individual can be judged accord- ing to what he imagines himself to be; one must rather explain this consciousness out of the contradictions of the material life, out of the existing conflict between so- cial productive forces and production relations. No so- cial formation ever disappears before all the productive forces have been developed for which its frame is broad enough, and new, higher production relations never ap- pear before the material conditions of their existence have been hatched out in the womb of the old society.Hence mankind never sets itself tasks other than those it can solve, for closer observation will always discover that the task itself only emerges where the material con- ditions of its solution are already present or at least in the process of becoming.3 The most remarkable fact about this doctrine is that it does not provide a definition of its basic concept, ma- terial productive forces. Marx never told us what he had in mind in referring to the material productive forces. We have to deduce it from occasional historical exem- plifications of his doctrine. The most outspoken of these incidental examples is to be found in his book, The Pov- erty of Philosophy, published in 1847 in French. It reads: The hand mill gives you feudal society, the steam mill industrial capitalism.4 This means that the state of practical technological knowledge or the technological quality of the tools and machines used in production is to be considered the essential feature of the material productive forces, which uniquely determine the pro- duction relations and thereby the whole "superstruc- ture." The production technique is the real thing, the material being that ultimately determines the social, political, and intellectual manifestations of human life. This interpretation is fully confirmed by all other ex- amples provided by Marx and Engels and by the re- sponse every new technological advance roused in their minds. They welcomed it enthusiastically because theywere convinced that each such new invention brought them a step nearer the realization of their hopes, the coming of socialism.5 There have been, before Marx and after Marx, many historians and philosophers who emphasized the promi- nent role the improvement of technological methods of production has played in the history of civilization. A glance into the popular textbooks of history published in the last one hundred and fifty years shows that their authors duly stressed the importance of new inventions and of the changes they brought about. They never con- tested the truism that material well-being is the indis- pensable condition of a nation's moral, intellectual, and artistic achievement. But what Marx says is entirely different. In his doc- trine the tools and machines are the ultimate thing, a material thing, viz., the material productive forces. Everything else is the necessary superstructure of this material basis. This fundamental thesis is open to three irrefutable objections. First, a technological invention is not something ma- terial. It is the product of a mental process, of reason- ing and conceiving new ideas. The tools and machines may be called material, but the operation of the mind which created them is certainly spiritual. Marxian ma- terialism does not trace back "superstructural" and"ideological" phenomena to "material" roots. It explains these phenomena as caused by an essentially mental process, viz., invention. It assigns to this mental process, which it falsely labels an original, nature-given, mate- rial fact, the exclusive power to beget all other social and intellectual phenomena. But it does not attempt to explain how inventions come to pass. Second, mere invention and designing of technologi- cally new implements are not sufficient to produce them. What is required, in addition to technological knowledge and planning, is capital previously accumu- lated out of saving. Every step forward on the road to- ward technological improvement presupposes the re- quisite capital. The nations today called underdeveloped know what is needed to improve their backward ap- paratus of production. Plans for the construction of all the machines they want to acquire are ready or could be completed in a very short time. Only lack of capital holds them up. But saving and capital accumulation presuppose a social structure in which it is possible to save and to invest. The production relations are thus not the product of the material productive forces but, on the contrary, the indispensable condition of their coming into existence. Marx, of course, cannot help admitting that capital accumulation is "one of the most indispensable condi- tions for the evolution of industrial production." 6 Part of his most voluminous treatise, Das Kapital, providesa history—wholly distorted—of capital accumulation. But as soon as he comes to his doctrine of materialism, he forgets all he said about this subject. Then the tools and machines are created by spontaneous generation, as it were. Furthermore it must be remembered that the utiliza- tion of machines presupposes social cooperation under the division of labor. No machine can be constructed and put into use under conditions in which there is no division of labor at all or only a rudimentary stage of it. Division of labor means social cooperation, i.e., social bonds between men, society. How then is it possible to explain the existence of society by tracing it back to the material productive forces which themselves can only appear in the frame of a previously existing social nexus? Marx could not comprehend this problem. He accused Proudhon, who had described the use of ma- chines as a consequence of the division of labor, of ig- norance of history. It is a distortion of fact, he shouted, to start with the division of labor and to deal with ma- chines only later. For the machines are "a productive force," not a "social production relation," not an "eco- nomic category."7 Here we are faced with a stubborn dogmatism that does not shrink from any absurdity. We may summarize the Marxian doctrine in this way: In the beginning there are the "material productive forces," i.e., the technological equipment of human pro- ductive efforts, the tools and machines. No question concerning their origin is permitted; they are, that isall; we must assume that they are dropped from heaven. These material productive forces compel men to enter into definite production relations which are independ- ent of their wills. These production relations farther on determine society's juridical and political superstruc- ture as well as all religious, artistic, and philosophical ideas.
From mises book theory and history
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2023.05.30 23:02 StormTheTrooper My personal Trade Down board

Conditions: Hendricks and Walker are off the board and at least Wallace or Black are available. The only thing that can entice a team trading up, other than big wings, which are what we are thirsty for as well, is PG. Wallace and Black, at this juncture, are the only names that I could see teams getting nervous about losing and ready to trade up aggressively. Hendricks and Walker are the only top-10ish names that I want in Dallas (discounting the obvious top 3). In our situation, where we need to squeeze every possible route of long-term improvement and we cannot do anything just for the kicks, I don't think it is advisable at all to draft a guy like Wallace, Black, Dick or even Whitmore. We have an extremely tight window to maneuver around and we need to be clean, precise and assertive in our moves. We need to get what we need, not what is cute.
Condition #2: we are not packaging this pick for a veteran. I will have a stroke if we use this to get Ayton, Grant or whatever guy on a bloated contract to make us lose in the 2nd round and get stuck in a roster with Luka, Kyrie, said guy and a bunch of G-Leaguers because the CBA will rekt hard teams with a lot of big contracts. I do want us to get a veteran, but with the 2027 FRP and trying to balance the contracts going out and coming in, specially length-wise.
Partners (going in a crescent order):
a) Toronto: #10, Timmy for #13, Boucher
I still get a bit iffy about that one because we all know Masai loves trades where either he wins or the other partner loses. He doesn't play fair if he is selling, so this would rely hard on him not wanting to pay FVV and wanting to get younger with Wallace or Black. Wallace is smaller than his usual but I'm shocked people are not talking more about Black. A 6'7 PG that cannot shoot? This is Masai's personal dream /s
Jokes aside, I have a little hard time seeing this happening, but more than one Raptor fan told me this would be realistic and within the Raps' MO. A small trade down, although not getting us another FRP, would net us Boucher, an amazingly solid PF/C hybrid, that can either start or come off the bench and contribute now alongside Maxi. At #13 we can still make other moves trading down further or we can even have some flexibility in our choice, specially if we are eyeing a C with the 27 FRP package (we would need to involve Bullock, though, and this starts to snowball in a way that I'm too tired to think right now). Boucher can eat up 25-28mpg from the 4 and the 5 right off the bat. As I said, I think this is a price too steep for what Masai usually likes to spend, but I trust Toronto fans more than myself on their own FO.
b) Utah: #10, Timmy for #16, #28, Olynyk
I always thought that one for Bertans but then I thought "This is Ainge, why in the world would he accept Bertans?". The fact that I like Bertans doesn't mean the league does and the league does not. To get Olynyk, I believe we would need to offer Timmy, which is at least a neutral asset. Olynyk doesn't require explanations, I believe. He would be our starting C right off the bat, he can play the 4, he can get boards, he can set screens, he can pop. He isn't great, he should not be starting, but as an expiring making just 12M? Hell yes. I love Timmy, but he is probably the most expendable guy in the roster with some trade value.
Utah has #9, so we would need to believe here that they would take Hendricks or Walker at #9 and then want to get back at #10 to get their PG of the future. If they get Black at #9 or something like that, there's no incentive at all for the trade-up. Sitting down at #16 will get them in the Hood-Schifino territory, but Wallace and Black will be far gone, specially with Toronto at #13 and teams wanting to trade up. If they do not get their PG at #9, they will want to get one and, if they do not get a PG, they're getting a big wing, which makes Olynyk expendable.
At #16, with #28 available, we are in solid footing. All the 2nd tier bigs (Lively, Clowney, Murray, TJD, Nnaji) and good wings (Miller, Coulibaly, Howard, Cissoko) should be on the board even at #28. We could very well walk out of the draft with a starting-caliber veteran frontcourt guy on a good deal and two young guys ready to contribute now and to be part of our core later. Pretty much one of our best possible scenarios IMO.
c) Brooklyn: #10, Bertans for #21, #22, Doe, Sharpe (maybe)
Best case scenario for emotional reasons. I want Doe back. Yes, he was starting to show some physical decline, yes, he was not the same, yes, he had a hard stint with the Nets...don't care. Doe is the Mavs. I would be extremely thrilled about having a Finney-Smith wearing 10 again, he would make our wing rotation back to a good level with Green and Bullock splitting minutes with him. The Nets actually want to get rid of him (losers), so I would be more, more than up to get Doe back home. I read that, since it is a new season, we can trade for Doe right back at the draft night, but if we cannot, this idea goes down the sink. O'Neale is too rich of a price, Sharpe alone is too poor of a price. Doe is the perfect price for both parties. Going from the 20s into the lottery isn't cheap, after all, and the Nets needs an actual, real PG. A Wallace-Dinwiddie-Bridges-Cam-Claxton starting 5 will rob more wins than people will give them credit for.
At #21 and #22, most of the guys from above would still be available. Lively and Murray should be off the board (people are severely underrating the desire that contenders will have over Kris Murray, a plug and play 3/4, 3-and-D guy), but all the others should be on. If Nico can make some magic and get Sharpe back as well (a tall, tall order), we could walk out of this with Doe, Clowney, Sharpe and Miller (I'm trying hard not to let my love for TJD do the writing, but make of that what you will). The Kyrie trade would pretty much be: Dinwiddie, 2023 and 2029 FRP for Kyrie, Sharpe, 2023 and 2023 FRP. We would see it under way better lights.
I usually had Indy as other option, but I cannot convince myself. Sure, they want less rookies and getting another lotto piece would be neat, but...what are they trading for? They already have a starting PG and a bench PG. Sure, they could trade Nembhard in a splashy move for OG, but I would believe they would be using 26 and 29. If they want 10 to package with 7 for a star, they would be giving up pretty much their whole depth.
I don't believe this would happen, I think they will stay put and actually rebuild the proper way, but if they get too anxious and, for some reason, want to move up, I could see something like this:
#10, Timmy, Bertans for #26, #29, Isaiah Jackson and Duarte
A hefty price, but a sufficient one for trading pretty much two SRPs to get into the lottery. If they need #10 to make a move for OG or whatever, they could pull the trigger here. For us, it would be very, very good. First, considering it would clean up 30M from our cap space if I'm not mistaken, considering Jackson and Duarte are on their rookie deals. This would allow us to actually have something other than the TPMLE to offer in the FA market, which could allow us to bring in some wing or even overpay a C. Second, Jackson and Duarte are two young and good players. Duarte is not that good of a defender, yes, but a solid shooter with the tools to not be a revolving door, that has the potential to be a really special shooter. This is just a cherry, though, I think it is forcing the issue. My real prize here would be Isaiah Jackson. A rugged defender, big body, good rebounder, that can play down low on both ends of the court. He doesn't work as well as a PF without a stretching 5, but he is thick enough to be a C in the NBA. Intelligent, good BBIQ, solid instincts, he would find minutes right away and he is riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight there in order to breakout. This is the move that we need to make: get guys that are about to breakout, not after they broke out and are demanding big-time money. Could we ask for a future FRP here? I think it is forcing the issue too much, but who knows.
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2023.05.30 23:00 chlysm Anybody Ever Notice the Sephiroth Copy in Cosmos Theatre Has a Different symbol on it's Back?

This is the symbol, the symbol has the same paint daubed appearance as the 'reunion symbol', but it appears to be totally different.

I tried wrapping Marco's robe to this robe in Photoshop to see what similarities may exist. Or lack thereof in this case.

I think this could have been an earlier version of the reunion symbol that made it into the finished product because this cut scene uses different assets. What I am curious about is the 'painted on' appearance because that is something pointed out in the Ultimania for the reunion symbol you see on the other copies. I take that as a subtle implication that it is related to Aerith's drawings. This reunion symbol is pretty obviously Jenova. But I can't think of anything that relates to the symbol shown in Cosmos Theatre.

The shape on the bottom is the only thing that is vaguely discernable.
At first, I though the shape resembled a chalice. Which might explain the change as that gets a little too close to religious symbolism for a rite that also ends with 'union'. But that doesn't explain the the protrusion at the 'stem' and I've never seen a chalice without a base. That said, there's another possibility that I find a little more intriguing.
The resemblance is vague, but no less than the other reunion symbol being Jenova. That said, the lily also symbolizes reunion.
The reunion lily is the only canonical thing I can think of that bears a resemblance to the symbol. The fact that it is a reunion symbol thematically makes sense. But I still have doubt because I am now left wondering why a Sephiroth copy (virtual or otherwise) would have a symbol of a flower on it's back.
These lilies are from the scene in the Cosmos Theatre. The company that made this scene also made the scene with Zack in the Church. In that scene, the white and yellow lilies are shown together.

The IRL version of this flower is known as the Madonna Lily. It's called that because it symbolizes the Virgin Mary.

Shortly after the white lilies, we're shown a figure of whom many believe to be Minerva.

The Japanese version of Crisis Core shows a different statue (right) in the Banora Underground. It was changed for western audiences to avoid associations to the Virgin Mary.
Gnostic Christians regard the Virgin Mary as the personification of divine wisdom known as 'Sophia'. Which is Greek for wisdom. The Madonna lilies are shown to her left and right. The regalia is also very similar to the figure shown in Comsos Theatre. Even down to the gold trim around the robe.
Gnostics, often attribute Sophia to Athena (Greek goddess of wisdom). However. this concept is not unique to Gnosticism either. Christian Orthodoxy attributes 'Divine Wisdom' to both Mary and/or Jesus. Russian Orthodoxy actually has an entire philosophy on the matter known as 'Sophiology'. The word 'philosophy' in Greek (φιλοσοφία) means 'lover of wisdom'.
The Roman equivalent to Sophia is Minerva.

It's hard to say whether this is supposed to be a flower. Aerith's mural shows a single yellow lily that seems to be dying. Most other flowers are drawn from the top view in an assortment of colours.
All I can say is that the lily is one of two canonical reunion symbols. The crudeness of the drawing implies it was drawn by Aerith as a child. Of course this is a simulation, so who knows. The Minerva connections are interesting though.
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2023.05.30 23:00 KedarBayley012 Complete list of notable Kendall losses.

  1. Vote of no confidence - Logan kills him. (1.06)
  2. Failed bear hug due to his involvement in the waiter’s death - Logan now owns him. (1.10)
  3. Forced to axe his greatest contribution to the company in Vaulter, for nothing more than a move from Logan. (2.02)
  4. Attempted suicide failed due to installed glass windows. (2.04)
  5. Forced by Logan to visit the waiter’s family, as nothing more than a power play. (2.07)
  6. Chosen by the family, largely due to Shiv’s words, to be the human sacrifice for cruises despite his brilliant DC testimony. (2.10)
  7. Emotionally abused by Shiv in an open letter to the public, detailing his private life. (3.03)
  8. Physically assaulted and abused by Roman at his own birthday. After being made aware of their plan to acquire GoJo, which was his own idea. (3.07)
  9. Verbally and emotionally abused by Logan for his role in the waiter’s death, denied an exit from the company and a fresh start. (3.08)
  10. Failed suicide attempt and failure to prevent Logan from selling the company. (3.09)
  11. Zero notable failures throughout Season 4 until the failure.
  12. Blocked by Shivs during the final vote to secure control as CEO and keep control of Waystar. (4.10)
Just a few observations whilst writing this list. Firstly, Kendall’s failures are so extensive. Secondly, his arc during the fourth season is noticeably different, he is an entirely different person. Finally, I’m just not convinced his fate was deserved or even logical, considering the lengths the writers went to in painting him as a vastly different Kendall from that of Season 1, 2 and 3.
Probably the most tragic character in television history. Almost zero positive moments until S4 in a 40 episode series.
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2023.05.30 23:00 shemp33 New SER6 Pro from BeeLink... Setup and Deployment Experience So Far

I got my SER6 Pro. It came in the 32gb/500gb configuration with the Ryzen 7 7735HS CPU and onboard Radeon 600 series GPU.
I need a lot of space, and they only technically support up to 2TB drives (onboard NVMe or 2.5" SATA slot). I saw a few videos where people take out the fan plate which is where the 2.5" SATA mounts, which helps with airflow. So with that, my better option was to get a beefier NVMe SSD.
I went with the HP FX900 Pro 4TB, which is on sale for $250/usd.
Knowing the process on BeeLink, my setup process went like so:
  1. put the 4TB into a NVMe-USB3 enclosure
  2. boot the system with Clonezilla, which lets me clone the current drive to the 4TB
  3. power back down, and physically swap the 4tb in / 500gb out.
  4. Booted it up, and the 4tb seemed to work great, until Windows Updates started running. They all took forever, and many times would fail. Also, Windows would not show up as activated. With no rhyme or reason why, I tried and tried to get it to work, even stopping, and re-cloning from the original C: drive again. Eventually got to a Blue Screen (Windows Error: 0x0000000E, if you speak Windows Error Message language).
So, after mucking around with it, literally for hours, I decided I would try a fresh build from Media Creation Tool. I created a bootable USB on my other system with fresh W11 Media, and ran through the installation.
It went perfectly. Unlike my SEI12 build, this time Windows did find the activation code in the motherboard this time. Everything was detected and installed. I know that the bluetooth and NIC drivers on Intel's site are newer, so I grabbed those, and also the latest AMD chipset driver directly from AMD.
Everything is working like a champ.
A couple of notes:
a) On the 4TB SSD, there is a thermal pad that's too thick to let the case close. I peeled that off and replaced it with something similar, but still a thermal pad. With the second HDD not being installed, there's room for airflow now.
b) Still, if the machine goes to sleep, I have to disconnect and reconnect the HDMI cable since I'm using it on a KVM switcher. I don't attribute that to the build, though. Just more of a "if this happens to you, it's happening to me too" sort of note.
c) After the reinstall, at idle, no fans in overdrive or anything, it's running around 55-58C. It's a little warm for my taste, but I'll keep an eye on this under load and see if it's something that needs further attention.
TL/DR: the reinstall to a bigger drive was a ton less complicated than I thought it would be. Had I had data on it to keep, I would have chosen a different strategy.
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2023.05.30 23:00 copperenthusiast [TW: mention of abuse, suicidal ideation, self harm] Finally opened up to a supportive partner and now horrified that I'm going to ruin his life

My partner and I live together and he's been truly amazing - but I'm terrified. I've definitely noticed that I am MUCH more fucked up than I thought I was in the context of this relationship.
He and I get justifiably angry about something at the same time and suddenly I find myself literally shushing him, repeating "It's fine it's fine it's fine don't worry don't do anything we're okay it's not a big deal" - when seconds ago I was equally pissed off, but no harm was going to happen; nobody was going to behave rashly or spin out of control (what I'm used to in my family dynamic). I struggle with hearing him get angry or even just a bit irritable - I go immediately into damage control mode, trying to make him stop, trying to pretend nothing is wrong even when the anger is totally justified and everybody's safe. I've explained this and apologized to him, and I'm working on it.
I also just am so sensitive - I hear one thing from him that indicates that he's even a little unhappy with something I've done or said (for example, he referred to a bad habit of mine - that I literally call a bad habit - "not his favorite thing" once, and the searing feeling of rejection is still somehow physically painful to me).
If we're out doing something or we're with people and he doesn't appear to be having much fun - even if he's just tired or feeling a bit quieter - I'm possessed with anxiety. I feel like I've done something wrong, misjudged the situation, and now need to either fix it or apologize and run away.
The first year of our relationship was a very healing time for me; my life was less chaotic than usual and I finally had someone I felt pretty safe with around me. I cried, a lot. And he was so supportive and kind - I feel like I was processing a great deal of grief, and he helped me through each episode just by being there and asking questions and holding me. But now my life is a wreck again, and it's impacting me financially, taking up my time, and really fucking me up emotionally all over again. He's been great - too great, financially bearing a great deal of the burden even though I never asked him to; I did not want to accept his help financially but I truly don't really have a choice right now. He's not holding it over my head or anything. I can't express enough how great he has been about all of it. I feel horribly guilty about getting my chaos "on" him, and I don't know how I'll ever feel like I've paid him back.
But the problem more than anything else is my mental health and its effect on him. He was once in a long term abusive relationship where his partner would manipulate him into doing as they wished by threatening self harm or suicide, claiming mental health crisis, etc.; I do not do these things, but I am terrified he's going to feel like he *must* care for me or do as I wish or "fix" my crises, and I'm terrified that's going to ruin our relationship. I completely melted down this weekend - emotional flashback, I think? - and was just not okay in ways I don't think he's seen from me yet. Absolutely inconsolable sobbing, catastrophizing, to nearly catatonic numbness, then back, for hours. That was hard, and I know it was hard for him to see. I eventually asked him to just go to bed without me and I stayed up to freak out some more. The next day was better, until it very suddenly was not, and the same thing happened. But I can see he's frustrated, and I'm worried he's upset with me somehow - I feel like he's trying so hard to say or do the right thing to make me feel better, but there's nothing. There's just nothing to do.
I know what it feels like to love someone who's unpredictable, whose feelings you believe are your responsibility, (hello dysfunctional family!), and it is among the worst feelings in the world. A lovely evening where everything's okay, everyone's having fun, suddenly turning dark and anxious and volatile, is perhaps my least favorite experience on the planet - and I'm doing it to him. I'm the one who is making an evening turn to shit. And I do not mean to, and I do not want to, but I can't seem to contain it? The only thing that I have managed NOT to say around him or to him is the loudest thought I have in these moments of chaos, which is just an unending "I want to die I want to die I want to die". I know, even in crisis, that the feeling will fade, at least enough for me to ignore it. I am not in danger of acting on it - it's just the only words that I can put to the experience and I say them over and over in my head. I will never utter them aloud to another human being, especially not him.
When I was living alone I would just hide from everyone, ignore my phone, stare at the wall, and cry myself to sleep eventually, but I can't hide from him here. And I don't want to - it's like I know he can't help me but I want to know he's still there and still loves me. But I can see that this is painful for him, that he's frustrated and sad and upset, and it makes me want to die of shame. I feel so horrible for doing this to him.
I hate that he fell in love with a better version of me, one that was healing, not one that's circling the drain faster and faster. I wish I could protect him from all of my chaos, but I also don't ever want to lose him; I want to push him away, relearn a poker face, pretend everything's ok, but somehow also want to pull him closer and weep and scream until I physically can't anymore. In those moments/hours/days of crisis, I'm torn between wanting to be alone to spiral into nothing, and wanting to be held and to cry forever.
This turned into such a long post - thanks for reading, if you got this far. If anyone has any idea of what the fuck to do, what to say, what might help in those acute meltdowns... I'm all ears. I'm so lost.
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2023.05.30 22:59 LunarPhage Xbox series X bugs and more

Let me begin by saying that I'm enjoying the game. I played with some random people online and it was fun. Playing single player right now to learn the game more. I've come across a few issues though, some are rather annoying honestly. I'll list the ones that I've come across the most often so far.
  1. Build menu bug, if I want to construct a workstation, I have to go to a different tab and move around different icons before going back to the station tab and then I'll have a 50/50 chance of being able to select something.
  2. Using a controller, whenever I want to put down a wood wall as flooring or background, it will create one random blueprint block Infront of the character. Not a bad issue but it's annoying to get that everytime I start to build.
  3. Issues with healing colonist
A.Trying to heal colonist that are bleeding or are injured but I can't heal them while they are working or standing near doors or near campfires.
B. It's rather annoying that colonist will not heal themselves, making it a struggle to heal a colonist that's far away or one that is just simply working/sleeping or just standing in a bad spot
  1. Colonist do not defend themselves with melee weapons. If a colonist doesn't have ammo and gun, you have to rush to go save them, and then heal them... like I said in point 3, can be a major struggle.
  2. Not a bug but the UI for crafting feels weird when using a controller. Clicking on an order in your order list with a controller can be a little wonky as you can easily click on the wrong one
  3. Sometimes my character gets locked into looking west or east, so I cant turn around and defend myself
  4. Don't know if it's intentional or not but dying makes me lose all items, accidentally died near my base from fall damage, went to check on my body and I lost everything. I tested it again and equipped some cheap stuff to make but I lost everything again. My body was gone this so I couldn't loot it
Overall, I'm having fun. RimWorld, Starbound, and terraria are my favorite indie games so I have high hopes for this game as well. Can't wait to see where the game is from a year from now! Thank you for a fun game
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2023.05.30 22:59 Delicious_Emotion Apartment flooded, complex refuses to let me out of my lease, what are my options?

Apologies in advance for this lengthy 40 chapter short story that's about to ensue and thanks in advance if you make it all the way through!
I started a business in late 2021 and decided to rent a small apartment where I could essentially utilize that as office space and a place to store excess inventory (not open to customers and I don't have any employees). Found a brand new complex in a relatively nice part of town, I'm the first tenant to ever occupy that unit.
First 13 months, I had no issues and was also an extremely low maintenance tenant because I was nervous about not actually living there and wasn't sure if it would be problematic that I was using the space for business purposes. The interior of the building is quite shoddy so even as stuff needed repairs, I would do them on my own as much as possible because I wanted to minimize maintenance entering my unit.
I decided to renew for another 13 month lease, figuring that I would get actual commercial space next. However, back in March, water started seeping up from the floor, first flooding the hallway outside my unit and then gradually into my unit as well. After drilling a hole in my wall to investigate, contract plumbers concluded that due to the foundation of the building shifting (I'm on first floor), there was a pipe that was leaking and needed to be repaired, which means they had to tear up my floors, jackhammer through the concrete, repair the pipe, and then put everything back.
It took management about 6 weeks to carry out these repairs, during that time I had no access to water in my kitchen (only running water in bathtub and small bathroom sink). Maintenance supervisor informed me that it was taking awhile because they were taking bids for the job since it would be quite an extensive fix. Also, a whole week went by with no action because regional maintenance supervisor went on vacation. The actual repairs took a little over a week, during which I essentially had to vacate due to the excessively loud jackhammering all day and the heavy dust particles flying everywhere.
I cannot stress how disruptive this has been to my business throughout that time period. Because of the flooding, I had to shift all my inventory into these tight little corners (not an easy task with only about 750 sq ft) and I absolutely needed access to water, which I barely had for almost a month and a half, which means I spent quite a significant amount purchasing water and ice out of pocket. I also lost quite a bit of inventory due to cardboard boxes being ruined by the flooding. I already worked 6-7 days a week averaging 10-12 hour days as it was, compound that by not knowing where anything is and having nowhere to create and fulfill orders was nothing short of a nightmare.
I expressed my grievances to management at the front office and they offered me $500 off my $2k May rent. I took it because it was better than nothing and I just wanted the situation to be over. However, things continued to take a turn for the worse.
They recently came back and told me that because my laminate flooring had been discontinued, they'll actually need to come in and re-do all of the flooring in my unit. This would require me to pack up everything and move it out of the unit as I only have one other room (bedroom) that I can shift things to and that's already at capacity. Packing alone would take me at least a week, not including the actual moving. Also, I literally have nowhere to temporarily move all my things to, hence why I even have that space to begin with.
I went back to management to tell them that it didn't make a lot of sense for me to pack up and move all my things out just to move it back in, and felt like given everything that's happened, this would be a good opportunity for us to part ways amicably. I would give the concession back, provide a 60-90 day notice, and then vacate. I am utterly frustrated and exhausted, and I simply don't want to be there anymore. I shared with them my challenges that I would have to come out of pocket to hire movers, plus I don't have anywhere to relocate my belongings, even if it's just for a day.
Instead of offering any solutions, they simply came back and told me that they won't be able to let me out of my lease since they're actively working to fix the problem. I asked if I could just leave the flooring the way it is until I actually move out and they refused, saying it goes against their policy to leave any open repairs in the event that someone decides to purchase the complex. (WTF?)
I have been beyond patient and understanding and now, I'm just straight up pissed. They're pushing me to schedule a repair date for the month of June and my response to them was that I am no longer prioritizing this ordeal as it is not solely my issue to fix, and I am unwilling to devote another penny or moment of my time stressing over something that I did not cause for a place that I do not own. I expressed that I would be open to actual solutions, otherwise there is nothing to discuss.
Can anybody offer any type of advice on what my options are here and if I'm within my right to refuse cooperation on repairing the floors? What would you guys do?
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2023.05.30 22:58 nuclearsurfboard The more I think about it, the more I think Kendall did NOT actually lose ...

Okay, let's get the semantics out of the way first: yes he technically lost the horse race for CEO. Obviously. The show ends with Tom as CEO and Kendall staring blankly at the water. In that moment he's about as low as he can possibly be.
But there is a very real chance that IF some time and distance can help Kendall attain a little bit of perspective (a big if, I grant), he may end up in a much happier place in the future.
It really felt like Kendall had just been robotically going for the top spot because his dad promised to him at age 7 and because he simply couldn't see himself doing anything else. He said it during the boardroom argument -- that he was a cog specifically designed for THIS (admittedly shitty) job. He obviously believes that now, and is devastated when it's yanked away from him.
But was it actually going to make him happy? Like, really happy? Deep down inside?
No. Because it would still just be him riding his dad's coattails while trying to live up to his dad's impossibly high standard. But it would never be anything that he built or did, which means any real self-actualization would be pretty hard to come by.
But now he has a legit opportunity for a fresh start, and the money to theoretically do anything he wants. And IF he can actually go out and build something on his own, even if it's much smaller in scale, he'll finally be able to draw some strength and inner belief in himself -- which he never had in his dad's shadow, and would almost surely never get at Waystar. He'd have just ended up miserable ... or worse.
Now? He's got a shot. A slim one, but I think he's chances of finding real happiness and contentment in his life are better away from Waystar than they'd have been inside, not in the short term but in the long term.
Can Kendall take his opportunity and do anything with it? I don't know. Probably not. The show doesn't exactly give us many hints that Kendall will be able to, but we also haven't seen Kendall outside of the context of fighting to be CEO and desperately trying to please his dad. As he gets further removed from the day-to-day pressure of both, is it possible he's able to make some kind of positive internal change?
Again, it's probably doubtful ... but there was no way he was going to end up happy as Waystar's pain sponge, not long-term. And his deficiencies as a leader would always be highlighted trying to walk in his dad's shoes.
His one shot is to do something on his own, whether that's in business or otherwise. I find myself feeling far more hopeful for him now that this future was forced upon him than if he'd "won" the future he envisioned for himself.
Maybe I'm crazy. :-) But I think this was his only real shot, and I hope after a little mourning for the dream he had dashed, I hope he takes his opportunity for a fresh start and does something meaningful with it.
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2023.05.30 22:56 alexspyforever My review of ESC 1957 Germany (Frankfurt)

The second edition of ESC took place in Frankfurt, Germany. Does that mean one of the German songs won in 1956 as the usual tradition is? Well no it was Switzerland who also hosted the first edition but apparently didn't want to host another the next year. To this day rumours persist that Germany got second place probably with "Im Wartesaal zum großen Glück" from Walter Andreas Schwarz but since no ranking was released to this day we can't know for sure. Some even believe Germany won. Anyway the good thing about this contest is that this contest can be fully watched with moving images. The director of this was Michael Kehlmann, an Austrian movie director. I sinceryly hope he was better at camerawork for his movies as it was filmed rather static and with a persistence of keeping the artists heads in close-up for lengthy periods which felt rather disturbing to me. Quality wise the songs were in my opinion a lot weaker than the previous edition with most contestants playing it rather safe and with little variety.
1957 saw the introduction of a real jury system where each country had to divide 10 points over the rivaling countries. So here it was made clear you can't vote for your own country, a rule which probably was not in place in 1956 but as of 1957 it was set in stone and never changed. Don't really know if that meant that 1 country could give the full 10 points to just 1 country. I notice however that only France divided their points over 2 countries while all other countries divided their points over 3 to 6 countries. No one ended up with 0 points and every country got points from at least 2 countries. Strange system but at least better than the shady backroom voting from the previous edition, which certainly was put into question and led to protest. To this day there is still a points system and no matter the result there is always people not understanding why song X ended up so low and song Y so high. Some things never change and this adds to the fun. Apparently the points system was borrowed from UK's 'Festival of British Popular Songs' which decided on the entry representing the UK in the ESC. So a scoreboard was introduced which was adapted after each call (by a traditional phone) from one of the juries of the competing countries.

With the 3 countries broadcasting but not sending a song for various reasons (UK, Austria, Denmark) last year now joining the competition there was no more need for each country to send 2 songs. So 1 song per country (and this remained so for later editions) but 2 people were allowed on stage (in 1956 only solo artists on stage). So more countries involved (10 vs 7 in 1956) but less songs (10 vs 14 in 1956). Last change was a rule stipulating that songs could not exceed 3 minutes but a few countries really went over that limit by quite a margin. Maybe that rule was introduced quite late and therefore no one was disqualified for exceeding it.

We saw a first duet with Denmark. Italy and the Netherlands had a musician accompanying the singer. We also saw a first prop emerging (Germany) and some other costumes than the traditional tuxedo or evening gown (Denmark).

For those wanting more info about this edition check the wikipedia page:

The full show can be watched here:

  1. Belgium - Straatdeuntje - Bobbejaan Schoepen (32 years) starts at 3:15
Just like previous edition the ESC kicked off with a song sung in Dutch however this time it comes from the Dutch/Flemmish speaking part of Belgium (Flanders). Bobbejaan Schoepen was the first Flemmish singer to try. Even though his success period was far before my time I knew that whistling was a trademark of his. He even had a song dedicated to whistling 'De jodelende fluiter' (The yodling whistler). Bobbejaan had an obsession with the Far West and often dressed with a cow-boy hat and later founded a theme park with a Wild West theme giving it his name 'Bobbejaanland'. Here of course he was as expected in a suit but with his hands in his pockets immediately giving him a pretty laid back attitude. The song is indeed a happy one about a melody he hears everywhere he goes making him happy. Don't think this had a chance winning, enjoyable definitely but in the end a bit too simplistic.

  1. Luxembourg - Amours mortes aka Tant de peine - Danièle Dupré (29-30 years) starts at 7:25
Language: French - Result: 4th (tied) - Points: 8
Just like last year Luxembourg send a female French singer to represent them. As expected she went for a French chanson about a break up. I'm absolutely no fan of these type of songs unless it has some quicker pace. Also I often compare French chansons with Edith Piaff whose famous hits at least had some recognizable melody and chorus. Danièle's birth date varies from the source. The most common is that she was born in 1927 but other sources say her birth year is 1938 which is a huge difference. Looks to me 1927 is correct as she already had quite a bit of songs as a minor star and retired from the music business in 1958. She would during the show become long lasting friends with her compatriot entering for France Paule Desjardins.

  1. United Kingdom - All - Patricia Bredin (22 years) starts at 10:55
Language: English - Result: 7th - Points: 6
Patricia Bredin had the honour to be the UK's first ESC entry. She won as part of the Malcolm Lockyer Quartet the first Festival of British Popular Songs convincingly. Patricia was in the first place an actress (Malcolm Lockyer was a film composer and conductor so makes sense) but also did musicals. Presenter Anaid Iplicjian (from Armenian descent) referred to the UK as England a few times. With a duration of 1'52 this song remained the shortest in ESC history until 2015 when Finland came with a song of only 1'27. So yeah I can be pretty short about this entry too. She has a high soprano voice so even if your English is good it's just hard to understand what she is singing most of the time. It felt more like an opera song and I guess that's why it didn't do too well here. Was the disappointing result the reason UK didn't enter in 1958 and also didn't organise the Festival of British Popular Songs? However from 1959 they wouldn't miss a single ESC. Patricia's song was never recorded or released on a single.

  1. Italy - Corde della mia chitarra - Nunzio Gallo (28 years) starts at 13:35
Language: Italian - Result: 6th - Points: 7
In previous edition two young females were sent, this time a male artist got a try. Nunzio Gallo was accompanied by a guitar player who gets quite a bit of exposure with some solos (a really long one at the start). Nunzio sings a ballad which gave me much more latino/Spanish vibes than Italian. He sings a love song not for a woman but for his guitar. This theme actually reminds me of the Belgian entry of 2010 Tom Dice with "Me and my guitar". The biggest problem is the song's duration with over 5 minutes going well beyond the maximum time limit. Also its very slow pace makes it very hard to sit through. Fortunately Italy would bring a real hit in the next edition.

  1. Austria - Wohin kleines Pony - Bob Martin (34 years) starts at 19:45
Language: German - Result: 10th - Points: 3
Debut for Austria but Bob Martin wasn't the first Austrian performing in ESC. That honour goes to Freddy Quinn entering in 1956 for Germany with "So geht das jede Nacht". The song is accompanied by jazzy music. Of course a 30+ guy singing about riding his pony through the fields is a tad weird but at least he seems to be having a good time smiling a lot during his performance. It's also the only song which is (slightly) more uptempo than the other entries. A last place is rather harsh but I can understand this song perhaps didn't really fit well in the contest. After ESC he remained popular in southern Austria. His real name was Leo Heppe.

  1. Netherlands - Net als toen - Corry Brokken (24 years) starts at 23:20
Language: Dutch - Result: 1st - Points: 31
The winning song and this time even a critical one like me will find it hard to disagree. If they stuck to the rules this entry would be disqualified as it is going approximately 1 and half minute over the 3 minutes time limit. However it doesn't feel like ever lasting like Italy's due to a good pacing, great vocals and some really good music accompanying the song. Dutch conductor Dolf van der Linden was so eager to start making the orchestra start before Corry Brokken reached the microphone. Corry's previous entry was a break up song now it's again about a relationship but one that is already lasting a very long time. So yes the couple especially the man have become old (and grey) and their love has become a bit stale. But since he can still flirt (with other women I suppose) his wife wishes he would be sweet and gallant towards her, give her roses, say she is beautiful and all that jazz just like the time they first fell in love (referring to the song's title). Yes it's kinda weird given the young age of Corry and it's rather schmulzy. Also the style is a bit the same as her 1956 song "Voorgoed voorbij". However her vocals and the accompanying music really make up for that. About halfway a violin joins her on stage who also gets a solo towards the end. I'm not surprised this won quite convincingly and deservedly.

  1. Germany - Telefon, Telefon - Margot Hielscher (37 years) starts at 28:30
Language: German - Result: 4th (tied) - Points: 8
Host Germany did the opoosite of Italy after sending 2 men in 1956, now a woman was selected. Margot Hielscher already tried her luck at the German National final in 1956 but was unsuccessful. In 1957 she won and became the first woman to represent Germany at ESC. She was the first artist to use a prop on stage. What was more applicable than a telephone since that was the instrument for many years to come for the juries of the participating countries to send their points. Margot used the phone for another purpose though, expecting a call from her lover. Between talking in several languages (mostly saying hello) she sings in a calm and soft voice. The song in itself is not that special but the phone as gimmick is cool. Her song was also too long almost like 4 minutes. Placing 4th wasn't too bad and we would see her return the next year with a more uptempo song (and another prop). For the German audience she was no unknown being active since the 1940s as both singer and actress.

  1. France - La belle amour - Paule Desjardins (34-35 years) starts at 33:40
Language: French - Result: 2nd - Points: 17
A song about love in a French café. I liked this one more than the French song from Luxembourg. It came second and I don't think that is undeserved given she has a lovely voice even though the song in itself quickly fades from my memory. Paule had moderate success with a musical career lasting until 1962. When she married she stopped singing and started working as designer for the lingerie company of her husband. Her full birth date is unknown, Spanish wiki mentioned she was born in 1922.

  1. Denmark - Skibet skal sejle i nat - Birthe Wilke (20 years) and Gustav Winckler (31 years) starts at 38:00
Language: Danish - Result: 3rd - Points: 10
Denmark made its debut bringing the ESC its first duet. They were actually the only contestants in the first Dansk Melodi Grand Prix where 6 songs were entered 2 by them as duet and 2 by each as solo artists. As native Dutch/Flemmish speaker I can clearly hear it's from the same language family (German) as mine even though I hardly understand a word of it. I like the sound of it though and while it's nice that the presenter tells us that the translation of the song is "when the ship is sailing out" looking at the man's uniform it's pretty clear he is a sailor saying goodbye to his beloved girlfriend and future wife who is also wearing a typical dress from the country. There is also some gestures like him kissing a picture of her indicating he will be thinking about her on his trip and putting a ring on her finger meaning they will marry when he comes back. Actually the sailing theme is already clear before we see the couple as the orchestra starts with the sound of a ship's horn. It's all lovey dovey and cute but it works and they sing in harmony, complementary. A top 3 placing was well deserved in my opinion. Oh yes and there was in the end an 11 second kiss which definitely shocked the audience. They were applauded anyway. Did that hamper their chances to win, nah I think the Dutch entry was just too strong.

  1. Switzerland - L'Enfant que j'étais - Lys Assia (33 years) starts at 42: 30
Language: French - Result: 8th (tied) - Points: 5
Lys Assia returned to defend the ESC crown of Switzerland. The new crown however went to the other returning performer from 1956 Corry Brokken. Interesting to note that her birthday was the 3rd of March, the same day as the the contest of 1957 took place. I can't think of any other reason why the ESC took place so early (usually it's in May). She wasn't however gifted a good end result finishing a tied 8th with Belgium. Hard to understand as I found this song about a happy childhood very sweet and more captivating than her entries from 1956. However it was also too long about 4 minutes. But vocally I found her a lot better than the French songs from Luxembourg and France. Was it perhaps too childish or too happy? Notice that the other 2 songs in the bottom 3 were Belgium and Austria both upbeat songs. However Lys would still come back for a third consecutive time in 1958 just like winner Corry Brokken. Lys would do well a year later but Corry suffered even a worse fate as title defender than Lys.

My top 10 was a bit harder to compile except the top 2 which stuck with me after 1 hearing. The rest is not too memorable for me.

  1. Netherlands
  2. Denmark
  3. Switzerland
  4. Germany
  5. Austria
  6. Belgium
  7. France
  8. Luxembourg
  9. Italy
  10. UK

Deceased artists
Paule Desjardins (1962) 39-40 years (only the Spanish wiki has a year of decease)
Gustav Winckler (1979, cause: car crash) 53 years
Bob Martin (1998) 75 years
Nunzio Gallo (2008) 79 years
Bobbejaan Schoepen (2010) 85 years
Danièle Dupré (2015) 88 years, French wiki has birth year 1938 and decease in 2013 (75 years)
Corry Brokken (2016) 83 years
Margot Hielscher (2017) 97 years
Lys Assia (2018) 94 years

Alive artists
Patricia Bredin (88 years)
Birthe Wilke (87 years)
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2023.05.30 22:56 DearMrUnknown Court Trial Session

You can skip to the second paragraph if you want to skip the background. So, I have in just under 2 weeks a session that will be a court trial in the western times. It is a pretty big deal for the party. One player is only involved with the party specifically because the campaign started with the trial getting into the works. His background is he is a new and upcoming lawyer, another player is a deserter in a military like position, and the last player is the marshal who has been escorting the desert to the town holding the trial. They as characters have done a lot of rescuing and town saving on their journey to the courthouse and more importantly they're making common enemies and getting along. But the trial itself has been getting very hyped and the campaign pretty much started because of it. The idea for a defense is the deserter quit soldiering to become a town doctor (only doctor in a 3 town radius) and fought to defend said towns from bandits and therefore has been doing good to the community and is a neccessary amd irreplaceable member of the community therefore he has been honoring his roll as a servant to the public and should be void of punishment.
So I'm not sure how I want to handle this trial mechanically. I want a lot of participation but I don't want it to be scripted and I'm certainly not someone who understands the court of law well. I've seen some movies. So far what I've thought of is to give everyone some HP that acts as credibility. So they could accidentally admit to some crimes or if they say something while on the stand that aids the prosecutor then they take some damage and when they hit zero they're pretty much out of the fight. The jury won't listen to them anymore. And the main big important thing is each lawyer will also have HP that'll be the trial at large. And the 'attack rolls' will be largely based off of charisma based checks that can be given positive or negative modifiers based on that the player says. That way the barbarian (marshal) for example could fumble the roll a bit but tell his low intelligence and low charisma war story of the deserter saving two women from a burning hotel while getting shot at and with the good words gained say... a +3 to the roll and saving the situation. I'd handle something like that with a 3 step of kinda good, good, and great measurement, just one of the possible ideas to help involve everyone. The last thing is that I'd get 4 or 5 pieces of attack points that'll be used against the deserter in the trial and make each point a round of combat and then give each lawyer 5 or 6 actions to call witnesses and present evidence and stuff and then as they get trump cards and whatnot they could turn those into bonus actions or reactions so it is a little bit more fun and less... boring law stuff that can allow the whole party to feel equally involved and allow everyone to help. So by the end of it all the winner is who has the most HP. Naturally the party will only know their own side, but the jury will side with whichever lawyer ended up having the highest HP. What do you think? I don't want this to be tooooo complicated but this will be a whole session I'm pretty sure and a lot has been leading up to this. It is pretty much the first boss fight of the campaign.
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2023.05.30 22:54 Bjrdad1812 Anyone injure themselves self checking for weakness ?

Im little over 3 months into 24/7 leg twitching both legs ankles feet calves all of the above I am constantly walking on my toes , backs of feet flexing legs up and just every kind of leg test i can do. I may be hurting my legs feet and ankles and just wondering if anyone else has done so or is going thru this crazy cycle ?
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2023.05.30 22:51 Alternative-Fox-8523 I'm a slut.

When I was 14 I wasn't getting enough attention from my parents,I was pretty much all the time on my phone,there I met a very beautiful world of "internet" which of course surprised me with very older guys than me who assured me they would give me "love and affection" which of course didn't come at the right form or shape.Casually I would talk with 19 guys at the same moment and the word "I love you" full filled my broken soul,it made me so happy but after a little bit I wanted more and more of that!!sadly time pass and I realized in the hard way these guys were not after for my love but instead for my body.
Till my 17 I still was craving that kind of form of love and that's when I met my first boyfriend,things were fine but again it did not end well since he was craving other things than me and it hurts me in many ways,it hurt a lot but I grew into wanting that feeling again and that's when I turned again to internet and met "Brand". He would understand me so well,he would stay up the whole night with me and comfort me,speak me,love me.I loved him so much but my jealousy started growing back to it and I left him.I didn't wanna hurt him with my nonsense brain,he wouldn't want someone from the other part of the world.
I am 19,I finished my first year of university and started working as a pastry chef,I put an end to all of this nonsense and decided to leave it back.I started working as a pastry chef in the biggest restaurant in my town, paying was good, coworkers were fine and there I met my chef.Chef started flirting me and getting closer to me,at first I accepted it and loved the affection/attention I was getting but then I remember the past expirience and kinda back off from him,that's the moment he didn't accept it and he became a monster to me.He bullied me throughout daily at job for my appearance,my weight,my work's progress and everything.
I tried striking a conversation with my parents but they were to busy with their problems,once again only internet was there for me,I tried speaking up for me and of course they would give me love and affection which would turn again to something I didn't like but this time it ended worse.One of the people I spoke had a conversation about my activity with someone else and they started calling me whore and "slut",next day at work my chef said "look at you,look at your body,you look like a fucking slut.What you gonna do at your life huh? Shake your big tits and cry?"
This post is just a cry for help,there's nothing that can be changed.
I just feel extremely lonely and noone would understand me at this rate
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2023.05.30 22:50 Many-Incident2615 Ways to make MyCareer better

Just a couple personal opinions. What are some things you’d like to see change in MyCareer to make it better?
  1. Your Myplayer can be given an actual other than MP. Like your actual name if you wanted.
  2. Your player starts out at a 70OVR when drafted (what top prospect 1st round pick is a 60ovr??)
  3. The storyline is better, you have a good thorough backstory, with options you can pick that will take you down different storylines and career paths.
  4. Make cutscene shorter and skippable the first play through.
  5. Get rid of the neighborhood/city. Shits kinda lame.
  6. Give us the option to be a first rounder, destined for greatness, or pick an underdog, late second rounder who has to work his way up.
  8. Injuries: your player shouldn’t be invincible, no human is. A few ankle sprains or even major injuries would add some realism to the story and game.
  9. The game actually acknowledges big games. Why does nobody say a word when you score 105 points in a game?
  10. Stop adding a trade storyline every year. I don’t want to be traded, that’s why I picked the team I play for, because I wanna play for them.
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2023.05.30 22:49 Agreeable-Read-7661 Help me find a book

I know so little about this book, but I'm desperate to find it. I took a photo of it on my phone a few years ago but it got stolen and I'm starting to feel I may have invented it.
It had a very visually pleasing cover, nice colours and maybe shapes on it, very modern. I don't remember the title, but I think it was something adult maybe about a certain body part or a swear word, I just remember thinking I shouldn't buy it while I was around my grandparents (Regretting that now Lol) I think it might have been something feminist, definitely bright colours. I'm also fairly certain it was either short stories or an essay collection.
I've been to four book shops and nobody knows what I'm talking about. If anyone can help I would really appreciate it, thank you :)
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2023.05.30 22:48 Remarkable_Golf_2287 Squidward

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2023.05.30 22:47 Electrical-Mouse2804 Honestly I'm at my wits end, there just doesn't seem to be a silver lining.

I (21F) just am so overwhelmed and I have a wonderful boyfriend and some nice friends but they come from a different world. I just need a space out of them to vent.
Anyways life has been a tad unconventional for me. Addict bio dad out of the picture by age 3, chaotic and abusive young mom, hardly any familial ties out of my mother and paternal grandparents past age 6. Often acted as a caretaker for my significantly younger siblings one of whom has behavioral problems (adored them both though dearly). Started working at 14 and contributed to family finances/my schooling. Household became abusive in pretty much all the ways.
16 had a mental break and was hospitalized and institutionalized for about 6-7 months total. That's it's own can of worms. Left home at 16 after being back for a month due to a horrible event, ran away and moved in w/ paternal grandparents. Vaguely homeless for a bit at 17, then hospitalized and institutionalized myself at age 18. Horrible experience at the first center, abusive relationship, drug use got worse, clinical abuse blah blah. Finally made the decision for a higher level of care hours away in a smaller facility.
Whole life changed for the better, finally everything was clicking. Went to a sober living after and finally got an apartment with some folks. Sadly this was in SoCal and my roomies were older (30's) and were ready for a new chapter. I couldn't afford rent with no help and had to move in with a coworker and share a bed with her little sister. Finally it was time to let them get on with their lives and I felt guilty enough needing so much help.
Back with paternal grandparents who moved ~2 hours away from where I grew up. I sleep on a twin air mattress in their small office with no door. I appreciate it obviously but it is not ideal and we are not compatible housemates. I sustained a pretty decent injury that required surgery and got to stay in my uncle and his wife's guest room. (Grandparents stay in a small in-law unit in the back) however there is pushback on this even as I'm still healing.
I am constantly scrambling and trying to find anywhere to live. Obviously I would prefer a studio or single room apartment but they are so outrageously priced. $1,600 seems to be the LOW end. There are hardly any rooms for rent even and the one I just almost had rejected me as one housemate's gf was uncomfortable a girl (me) was wanting to move in. My grandmother picked up a job again to help me with half my rent so I can go to school full time finally.
All I want is to focus on school, I come from a family that isn't highly educated. That mostly came from poverty/low-income lifestyle's. I am (not to toot my horn much) quite intelligent and love to learn and have attainable dreams. I haven't had the time to just be my age. And when I do act my age I am ridiculed because I don't have that luxury. And tbh this is true, I don't.
I appreciate the help I am getting. But unfortunately it's just not seeming to be working. I have no financial support other than myself (and eventual help with half my rent ofc) I cannot physically work until July/August. I am on disability pay and nobody is willing to teach me to drive so I'm just stuck. I am so scared and stressed and it is overwhelming me. I haven't had to take my anxiety meds in months but have had to nearly daily the past few weeks. (They are as needed, all safe no worries!)
I also am just so lonely. My boyfriend is wonderful and listens and helps as much as he can. But I'm new here in this town. I don't have a strong support circle. I cannot only rely on him and thankfully I AM in therapy, at least the weeks I can afford it lol.
Anyways I don't know what I'm looking for, it just feels nice to put it out there. If there is any advice I'd appreciate it. I am trying my best. For school I enrolled in FAFSA, got approved for that as well as 2 state grants. I applied for our EOPS program last week. I start school for the first time in over a year in 2 weeks. So I suppose that IS a silver lining. And my boyfriend and dog also are. I shouldn't say there isn't any, and I'm lucky to have my grandparents. I just am scared and feel utterly small.
EDIT: grammar mistakes
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2023.05.30 22:46 ArticFox0917 AITA for telling my mom she can’t be apart of my babies life if she doesn’t invite my grandmother to the baby shower (Part 2)

Coming on here for a part 2 because I realized I didn’t explain it well enough! My mother isn’t as innocent as she seems. My mother and biological father were married to each other for 3 years and he abused her for 1 of those years. Which I don’t really understand why they were married in the first place because everyone said they argued like cats and dogs from the beginning. The arguments between my mother and grandmother sprouted up mostly during the divorce even though they didn’t particularly like each other before then. My grandmother was more than fine with giving her mostly everything she wanted in the divorce beside the house and the car (that my grandmother paid for) and refused to pay for any of her bills including her phone bill, internet bill, etc. which she had paid for during the entirety of their marriage. During the divorce my mother got close to a half million dollar settlement because that is what she demanded of them to keep quiet about the abuse along with full custody of her children. My grandmother being worried about the upraising of her grandchildren agreed. My grandmother shut my biological father out her life (besides letting him continue to stay and use the house and car they had originally bought for them to raise the family in) so that she could continue to see us. Which was the agreement if she wanted to see her grandchildren then she had to shut her son out of her life and so my grandmother did. She has supported me and my brother throughout my whole life, coming to ever little league game, dance recital, and school event. Now back to my biological mother. We have never been on good terms. She always made me feel less than along with my brother. She continuously would not let us do normal things throughout our childhood stating that we weren’t smart enough. At one point I applied to join engineering club, super excited when I got in and told her all about it to which she said that I wouldn’t last a year before they kicked me out because I was talentless just like my biological father. As I grew older I began asking more questions and one day it just slipped out. “Why did you stay so long if he was hitting you?” She had laughed and looked around at the house we were living in. “I was getting fucking rich off it and I still am” later on she would tell me “it would be best if you did the same thing.” She had always been like this so when I turned 17 me and my brother decided to move out and leave her behind. She tried contacting us constantly and showing up at our places of work apologizing and saying she wanted us back in her life. Finally when I turned 19 I allowed her back into my life and we have since grown closer, but she still has a few sharp edges to her and it pisses me off seeing as she can be so joyful about how she “scammed” (her words not mine) my grandmother for close to half a million and not even allow her to come to my baby shower. I’ve decided I’ll be throwing one for myself, but have not decided if she’s invited yet or not.
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