i(24f) have known this guy(27m) from work for a year now. I had a crush on him for awhile and we were sort of friends that would hang out until this other girl from work we were both friends with started to go after him. her and i knew he had a tiny crush on her, but she had made it clear she didn't feel the same way. she also knew how i felt about him and then suddenly 2 weeks later, she started going on dates with him and lying about it to me so i completely just dropped her because it wasn't worth my time. I also fessed up to him about how i felt about him but he made it clear he just saw me as a friend. about 3 months later in january he reaches out to me and we begin our friendship again. i hadn't;t really seen or talked to him outside of work so i went into this friendship with a fresh slate and also wanted to keep things platonic since he made it clear months beforehand that he only saw me as a friend.
as the months progressed, we began talking everyday outside of work, hanging out everyday outside of work, going to get food, shopping, running errands, and cooking together at my house. pretty much every moment outside of work and sleeping we were spending together. he then started doing small things like cuddling up to me when we would watch a movie, and then one day he kissed me. that entire week, we went on a date and kissed and ended up hooking up. then a week later he said he was just testing the waters but still just sees me as a friend. i wasn't upset or mad, i was just confused but okay with it and then we fell back into our normal routine of hanging out, but agreed no funny business. 2 weeks after that, we ended up hooking up and had been over the last month. on top of that, we were going on hikes still, meeting up for lunch or dinner at places, and going on dates and still just doing everything together. i finally brought up a few weeks ago how we were doing all this stuff and basically dating without actually agreeing that we were dating. he said he was glad i brought it up and that he had been thinking about things too but wasnt ready to have a conversation about it yet since he had alot going on at the moment. we had also both admitted we were seeing anyone else besides each other. he said he wanted to continue our conversation becuase i had put in the work (i've estientally have been helping him get his shit together) and then 3 hours later he decides he just wants to be friends so then i told him i wanted some space.
now we're in such a shitty place. ever since then, its felt like we've been going through a break up (at least on my end). i hate being around him now because it just makes me so sad and depressed at the though of what could have been. to top things off, i had met and had a drink with an ex that was in town for the night. i had asked him if he would be mad or upset or bother if i had met up with this ex for a drink and he said he wouldn't be bothered at all. the next day we had plans to go grocery shopping together and he gets in my car, acuses me of hooking up with my ex in my car, and said i was trying to rub it in his face. we talked a couple of days later where i told him that nothing happened in my car and i had no intention of rubbing anything in his face. he said alot of mean stuff too like that i don't think and i just do what i want to do when i want to do it, that i'm a person who needs a project to work on and that he was my project, and then i need/should work on myself.
everything just fucking sucks. i want to be around him. he's my best friend and he says that i'm his best friend. we were supposed to move to a new city next year after i graduate. i told him the other night how i've been feeling depressed and i want to just move when my lease ends and he said that he wouldn't let me, at least not without him. he also got annoyed and thought i was ignoring him at work yesterday, but i told him i just didn't want to be there or around anyone or talk to anyone. after i told him that, he apologized and said he wants to do whatever he can do to help and that it hurts to see me hurting. so everything just sucks because ive been trying to not talk to him in general but its so hard not to. i don't know if i actually want to move away, but i know it would help with not being able to see him anymore. it just feels like we're constantly walking on eggshells around each other now and i hate it.

y'all prolly don't care but I did it anyway so ¯(ツ)¯
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2 afi - Miseria Cantare - The Beginning
3 a-ha - Take On Me
4 Journey - Separate Ways (Worlds Apart)
5 Pearl Jam - Future Days
6 Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
7 Alter Bridge - The Other Side
8 Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
9 Killswitch Engaged - This Fire
10 Motorhead - the game
11 Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
12 Michael Jackson - Earth Song
13 Michael Jackson - Remember the Time
14 Saliva - I Walk Alone
15 Linkin’ Park - Crawling
16 Michael Jackson - Stranger In Moscow
17 Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror
18 Michael Jackson - Bad
19 Imagine Dragons & JID - Enemy
20 Michael Jackson - Blood On The Dance Floor
21 BANKS - The Devil
22 Eminem - Godzilla ft. Juice WRLD
23 Elton John - Goodbye Yellow Brick Road
24 Billie Eilish, Khalid - lovely
25 Luniz - I Got 5 On It
26 Dr. Dre - ETA (with Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes & Anderson .Paak)
27 Michael Jackson - They Don’t Care About Us
28 grandson & Jessie Reyez - Rain
29 The Cranberries - Zombie
30 Linkin Park - BURN IT DOWN
31 Bruno Mars, Anderson .Paak, Silk Sonic - Smokin Out The Window
32 Earth, Wind & Fire - September
33 Doja Cat - Woman
34 Linkin Park - Numb
35 Shakespears Sister - Stay
36 Michael Jackson - The Way You Make Me Feel
37 Britney Spears - Toxic
38 Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
39 Michael Jackson - Beat It
40 Michael Jackson - Thriller
41 Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal
42 Bray Wyatt – Shatter
43 Doja Cat - Vegas
44 Linkin Park - In The End
45 Dr. Dre - The Scenic Route (with Rick Ross & Anderson .Paak)
46 Imagine Dragons - Natural
47 Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson - Scream
48 Imagine Dragons - Cutthroat
49 Coolio - Gangsta's Paradise (feat. L.V.)
50 Nirvana - Something In The Way
51 Limp Bizkit - Rollin'
52 Katy Perry - California Gurls ft. Snoop Dogg
53 Doja Cat ft. SZA - Kiss Me More
54 Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
55 Post Malone, Swae Lee - Sunflower )
56 Bring Me The Horizon - Can You Feel My Heart
57 Living Colour - Cult Of Personality (Official Video)
58 Queen - Killer Queen
59 Queen - Another One Bites the Dust
60 BANKS - Skinnydipped
61 Doja Cat - Say So
62 Michael Jackson - In the Closet
63 Rev Theory - Voices
64 Disney - We Don't Talk About Bruno
65 Michael Jackson - Rock With You
66 Britney Spears - Circus
67 Madison Beer - I Have Never Felt More Alive
68 Dua Lipa - Physical
69 Eminem - River ft. Ed Sheeran
70 Jefferson Airplane - White Rabbit
71 Imagine Dragons - Bones
72 Britney Spears - Oops!...I Did It Again
73 Lil Nas X - MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name)
74 Doja Cat - Get Into It (Yuh)
75 Dua Lipa - New Rules
76 Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)
77 Michael Jackson - Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
78 Michael Jackson - Jam
79 Eminem - Lose Yourself
80 Queen - I Want to Break Free
81 Childish Gambino - This Is America
82 Joji - Glimpse of Us
83 Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
84 Hamilton - The Room Where It Happens
85 Snoop Dogg - Gin And Juice
86 Michael Jackson - Heal The World
87 Louis Armstrong - What A Wonderful World
88 NF - The Search
89 Hamilton - Satisfied
90 Ren - Money Game
91 Queen - We Are The Champions nn
92 Tech N9ne - Face Off (feat. Joey Cool, King Iso & Dwayne Johnson)
93 Jessica Darrow - Surface Pressure
94 Michael Jackson - Money
95 Motionless In White - Demons in Your Dreams
96 Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK
97 BANKS - Gimme (Official Video)
98 Dua Lipa - Break My Heart (Official Video)
99 Idina Menzel, AURORA - Into the Unknown (From Frozen 2)
100 Warriors (ft. Imagine Dragons) Worlds 2014 - League of Legends
101 Dr. Dre - The Next Episode (Official Music Video) ft. Snoop Dogg, Kurupt, Nate Dogg
102 Eminem - Venom
103 Céline Dion - Ashes (from Deadpool 2 Motion Picture Soundtrack)
104 I Want You Back - The Jackson 5
105 Imagine Dragons - Sharks (Official Music Video)
106 Joan Jett & The Blackhearts Bad Reputation - Official Music Video (1983)
107 Guns N' Roses - Welcome To The Jungle
108 FOZZY - Judas (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
109 Waterproof Blonde - Just Close Your Eyes
110 Sam B - Who do you Voodoo, Bitch
111 Skillet - Legendary
112 Billie Eilish - bury a friend
113 Ren - Money Game part 2
114 Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
115 Kevin Sherwood - Where Are We Going?
116 twenty one pilots - Heathens
117 Eminem - Without Me
118 Heavy - Linkin Park (feat. Kiiara)
119 Lady Gaga - Paparazzi
120 As The World Caves In - Sarah Cothran
121 Dr. Dre - Still D.R.E. ft. Snoop Dogg
122 Obie Trice ft. Eminem & Dr Dre - Shit hits the fan
123 Eminem - Big Weenie
124 Michael Jackson - Black Or White
125 SZA - Kill Bill Feat. Doja Cat
126 Clean Bandit - Symphony (feat. Zara Larsson)
127 Dua Lipa - Levitating Featuring DaBaby
128 Imagine Dragons - Believer
129 Mario Judah - Die Very Rough
130 Dua Lipa - IDGAF
131 Sabrina Carpenter - Thumbs
132 Ed Sheeran - Bad Habits
133 Imagine Dragons - Radioactive
134 Ariana Grande - thank u, next
135 D'LOURDES - How Did You Get So Good?
136 Queen - We Will Rock You
137 Imagine Dragons - Thunder
138 Eminem - White America
139 Olivia Rodrigo - good 4 u
140 Lorde - Royals
141 Billie Eilish - bad guy
142 Wiz Khalifa - See You Again ft. Charlie Puth
143 Leonard Cohen - Hallelujah
144 Michael Jackson - Who Is It
145 Hamilton - We Know
146 Michael Jackson - Speed Demon
147 BAD BUNNY - CHAMBEA
148 K/DA - MORE ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Lexie Liu, Jaira Burns, Seraphine
149 Shaman’s Harvest - Broken Dreams
150 Michael Jackson - I Just Can't Stop Loving You
151 Skillet - Hero
152 Michael Jackson - Leave Me Alone
153 Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons w/ Logic & Ty Dolla $ign ft X Ambassadors - Sucker for Pain
154 Ava Max - Sweet but Psycho
155 RISE (ft. The Glitch Mob, Mako, and The Word Alive)
156 Downstait - Kingdom
157 Hamilton - Say No To This
158 Eminem - Survival
159 Backstreet Boys - I Want It That Way
160 Alter Bridge - Metalingus
161 Britney Spears - ...Baby One More Time
162 Michael Jackson - Dirty Diana
163 Michael Jackson - P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)
164 Super Smash Bros. Ultimate Main Theme - Lifelight
165 PinkPantheress, Ice Spice - Boy’s a liar Pt. 2
166 Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive
167 Motorhead - line in the sand (Evolution)
168 K/DA - POP/STARS (ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Jaira Burns)
169 Dua Lipa - Don't Start Now
170 Sam Smith, Kim Petras - Unholy
171 Imagine Dragons - Bad Liar
172 Ed Sheeran - Beautiful People (feat. Khalid)
173 Imagine Dragons - Birds
174 BANKS - Deadend
175 Mark Crozer and The Rels - Broken Out In Love
176 NWA - Gangsta Gangsta
177 Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer
178 Toto - Africa
179 Michael Jackson - Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
180 Ariana Grande - 7 rings
181 Eric Reprid - Vam
182 Imagine Dragons - Demons
183 Halsey - Without Me
184 Calvin Harris, Dua Lipa - One Kiss
185 Mark Ronson - Uptown Funk ft. Bruno Mars
186 Jim Johnston - Domination
187 K/DA - DRUM GO DUM ft. Aluna, Wolftyla, Bekuh BOOM
188 Lil Candypaint & Bhad Bhabie - 22 (Remix)
189 Dr. Dre - Gospel (with Eminem)
190 Lady Gaga - Applause
191 Shawn Mendes, Camila Cabello - Señorita
192 Billie Eilish - when the party's over
193 Phoenix (ft. Cailin Russo and Chrissy Costanza)
194 K/DA - I’LL SHOW YOU ft. TWICE, Bekuh BOOM, Annika Wells
195 Idina Menzel, Evan Rachel Wood - Show Yourself
196 Ash Costello - Brutality
197 The Gentle Men - Obsession
198 Imagine Dragons - Whatever It Takes
199 Demi Lovato - Sorry Not Sorry
200 Ed Sheeran - Perfect
201 BANKS - Beggin For Thread
202 2WEI and Edda Hayes - Warriors
203 Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
204 Dr. Dre ft. Snoop Dogg - Nuthin' But A G Thang
205 Fall Out Boy - Centuries
206 The Greatest Showman Cast - The Greatest Show
207 Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande - Rain On Me
208 Valerie Broussard - Awaken
209 Eminem - Rap God
210 The Weeknd - Blinding Lights
211 PVRIS - Burn It All Down
212 Fall Out Boy - My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up) (Part 1)
213 Michael Jackson - Will You Be There
214 K/DA - THE BADDEST ft. (G)I-DLE, Bea Miller, Wolftyla
215 twenty one pilots - Stressed Out
216 Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
217 K/DA - VILLAIN ft. Madison Beer and Kim Petras
218 Loren Allred - Never Enough
219 Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe
220 One Direction - Drag Me Down
221 Endeverafter - No More Words
222 Eminem - Fall
223 Zendaya, Zac Efron - Rewrite The Stars
224 Lil Nas X - Old Town Road ft. Billy Ray Cyrus
225 Disney - Remember Me
226 Bone Thugs N Harmony - 1st of tha Month
227 Lukas Graham - 7 Years
228 Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody
229 Ed Sheeran - Shape of You
230 Camila Cabello - Havana ft. Young Thug
231 Selena Gomez, Marshmello - Wolves
232 ZAYN - Dusk Till Dawn ft. Sia
233 The Greatest Showman Cast - This Is Me
234 Lewis Capaldi - Someone You Loved
235 Lil Nas X - STAR WALKIN'
236 Dove Cameron - If Only
237 U.S.A. For Africa - We Are the World
238 Dr. Dre - Fallin Up (with Thurz & Cocoa Sarai)
239 Tyler, the Creator - SORRY NOT SORRY
240 Nicki Taylor - Worlds Collide
241 Taylor Swift - Blank Space
242 Maroon 5 - Girls Like You ft. Cardi B
243 The Gentle Men - 2019 Guy
244 The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
245 Eminem ft. Rihanna - The Monster
246 Charlie Puth - Attention
247 Bruno Mars - Grenade
248 Queen - Radio Ga Ga (Official Video)
249 Julia Michaels - What A Time ft. Niall Horan
250 The Greatest Showman Cast - A Million Dreams
251 Rihanna - Umbrella ft. JAY-Z
252 Lady Gaga - Poker Face
253 Clean Bandit - Rockabye feat. Sean Paul & Anne-Marie
254 Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna
255 Sam Smith - I'm Not The Only One
256 The Chainsmokers - Closer ft. Halsey
257 Eminem - Not Afraid
258 BAD BUNNY - BOOKER T
259 Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do
260 Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper - Shallow
261 David Guetta - Titanium ft. Sia
262 E-40 - Captain Save A Hoe ft. The Click, D-Shot, B-Legit, Suga T
263 Sofia Carson - Love Is The Name
264 Christina Perri - A Thousand Years
265 Maroon 5 - Moves Like Jagger ft. Christina Aguilera
266 Against The Current - Legends Never Die
267 Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers
268 Abba - Dancing Queen
269 Eminem - My Name Is
270 Shawn Mendes - Stitches
271 Malia J - Smells Like Teen Spirit
272 One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful
273 ZAYN, Taylor Swift - I Don’t Wanna Live Forever
274 Lil Nas X - Panini
275 Fergie - Glamorous ft. Ludacris
276 Ke$ha - TiK ToK
277 Sabrina Carpenter - Can't Blame a Girl for Trying
278 Shawn Mendes - Treat You Better
279 Shawn Mendes - There's Nothing Holdin' Me Back
280 Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS
281 Pitbull - Timber ft. Ke$ha
282 CORPSE - E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE! ft. Savage Ga$p
283 Hudson Mohawke - Cbat

I 25F have been with my partner 25M for just under 4 years, we’re due to be married in October. Our libido’s are the same, one is not higher than the others. We haven’t had sex in months….
It’s hard to pin point where it all started, but to keep things brief I’d say 2 years ago. I broke the bombshell to him by saying I don’t come from penetration and I actually never have, he took this well because I think he already suspected. I told him I need to be stimulated by my clit and he did try.
He’s never one to shy away from eating me out or genuinely trying to get me off, it just never happens. I feel as though even after showing him what to do he’s clueless, I have to constantly direct and guide him which is a complete mood killer for me. So in the end I just give up, accept I’m not going to cum and roll over and let him finish. I’m surprised he can even finish with how defeated and dead I am.
Even though he tries his best he’s always the one cumming, and I never am. I resort to finishing myself off after he falls asleep. What’s worse is he knows this. If it were the other way around, I couldn’t imagine being so bad in bed that he had to resort to masturbation. This whole situation is leading to built up resentment on my part which is spilling into our otherwise perfect relationship. I am so sexually frustrated I have fantasies about having sex with him and then saying I’m too tired before he gets the chance to finish. Just to he can have A TASTE of what I go through Every. Single. Time.
You men wanna know why we women don’t want to have sex with you? What is the point if you don’t get to finish. Women fake it and we’ve been doing it since the dawn of time to satisfy your precious egos. And that’s exactly what I said to my partner, why on earth would I want to have sex if I never get to finish? That’s what I’ve been doing for the past 2 years and I’m fucking miserable. Just lying there while he pounds away.
Not to mention I was ALWAYS the one initiating! Always. Now I like a dominant man who takes what he wants and my fiancé, although I love him is a complete doormat. I’m not asking for him to be King Kong all of the time but just sometimes I’d like to be the one pursued. I gave up initiating and guess what? We just don’t have sex at all.
We have had 100 conversations about this and I have been VERY clear about what I need/expect. Each time he says he understands and tries to do better but nothing changes. I cannot have another tear filled conversation, do not suggest therapy as he is very shy and will never open up to a stranger.
It’s so bad now, I masturbate before going over to his house because I know we’re not going to do anything. That reality hit me and got me down. He picked up on my defeated mood last night when I came over to his house and I ended up leaving shortly after a while with an excuse that I had work.
He sends a message saying “I feel like I've upset you somehow” I reply with “You’ve always been perceptive”
He responds with “I've been trying to ask, you've barely said a word to me all night.” And I text “Because it’s nothing we haven’t talked about a million times before.” Since then, nothing. No response, no reply. Zilch. And that right there sums up the entirety of our failing sex life.

Hello. This is a weird request. But recently for about 8 months I have been going to therapy.
Therapy has been working, I have developed better self confidence. Better coping mechanisms. I have made new and better friends and hobbies.
But one thing that kills my drive. Is cleaning my room. I have my own room and my own bathroom. But....I absolutely hate everything about the place I live. I share an apartment with roommates. But they are always messy. But my main issue is my room. When I'm home. As soon as I enter my bedroom. I am depressed. I don't clean. And I just lay in bed with intrusive thoughts. My therapist says cleaning my room and buying things I may want will help. And I'm 100% sure she is right. However I'm always depressed in my room. Always lonely in my room. Always crying in my room. I hate living here. And I know the problem is because I am always alone in my room. I always think to myself in my room. I never have motivation at home. I do not have good discipline at home. I just want to clean my room and have it the way I want. But this one area (literally) is one of my biggest depression spots. And I really don't have the luxury to move anytime soon. Does anyone have any good ideas or anything I can do to help with this silly fucking problem. Why am so fucking depressed in my room? Where is the motivation or discpline to clean? Anyone have anything to help me to stop being so lonely here?

1. My favorite weapon, the STG, has too little horizontal recoil and overall feels like the best weapon in the game. It's too effective at long ranges to the point where I feel extremely comfortable challenging any SVT's down the hallway or ANY gun for that matter. It's overall just an extremely effective weapon in all scenarios which feels odd since it doesn't even require any attachments to reach it's full potential [unlike the L1A1].
   
2. The Krasa's very fun and a great niche weapon with high damage, RoF, and recoil. Great example of a gun with clear identity.
   
3. I think the EM2 is a fun short to mid-range rifle but I really wish there was an extended mag attachment for it. 20 round clips are a big limiting factor and I fail to see why I'd ever pick an EM2 over a K1 or a Stoner.
   
4. The M16 feels like filler with too much recoil to make it an effective mid-range option. What if we add compensator attachment to try to increase it's viability?
   
5. I'm glad the L1A1 needs the additional attachments to make it so powerful. Absolute S-tier weapon.
   
6. The MP-40 with attachments is also wonderful and is my go-to when I want to try-hard without a rifle. Extremely quick reload time, low recoil, quick ADS, and very clean iron-sights. I recommend all new players to master it, especially when all the attachments and the weapon is craftable.
   
7. The Thompson by comparison, is kinda bad? Although I do love role-playing as a 1920's thug.
   
8. A naked Mac-10 slaps and one of my favorite ship-breaching weapons when I want to cheese someone and take their hard-earned Panzer Rig + Radio Backpack.
   

tl;dr: The STG is the best gun, MP-40 with attachments is the 2nd-best.

Hello!
I'm 15 and a gamer and have been all my life. I recently saw that Dark Souls Remastered was on sale on the PSN store for $20. Unfortunately, I only have $10 in my PSN wallet. I don't have a job so money isn't readily available. The only times I get money to purchase things i'd like is during my Birthday or Christmas when given gifts from my family.
The main reason why I would like this game is because i'm a HUGE fan of Fromsoft ware games. I deeply love Bloodborne (its my favorite game of all time) However, I've never played the original and beloved Dark Souls 1. I've seen plenty of videos about the game and desperately want to play it. I also like to call myself a completionist/ trophy hunter. I always try my best to 100% complete a game as I believe every game should be fully played to get the full experience. I currently have 44 platinum trophies and it took me years to get here. I would LOVE to add Dark Souls 1 as my 45th. Also, my friends love Dark Souls Remastered and are constantly asking me to buy it to play with them.
Lastly, the game is on sale. DS1 is rarely on sale. For some reason these games are always really high priced ($40) and only goes on sale a few times out of the year. I would hate to let this sale go to waste then have to wait until the next sale comes.
If you've read this far i'd like to say thank you and please make my year! If you have any questions or anything my PSN is: https://psnprofiles.com/Junkkster
Thank you so much, Have a good rest of your day! :))

The post I'm referring to is going viral on TikTok, it is posted on Reddit by a guy with Indian parents born in the US facing racism from other minorities.
As an ex Muslim with an Arabic name, who lives In India, I'm not comfortable to say my name, on all shopping apps I use fake names, I hate social media because I'm judged based on my real name, so I don't use any social media with my real name too. Finding a job with and having to the courage to apply knowing that you will be rejected and judged first by your name is a real struggle. When we had to move from our first house we paid two landlords in advance to keep their houses for us, but after a family decision they both rejected us, I have seen people eyeballing and their faces completely changes as soon as they hear my name, one of the worse thing about having an Arabic name is Muslims wishing you Eids and expect you to celebrate with them or their Ramadan, non moz sometimes assume you must be fasting or celebrate Islamic Eids too. I used to use a fake name on Uber but that acc got banned and now I have to use my real name and I hate it. In school, in banks, in any interaction with cops, if I want to enroll somewhere or join an online community I can't join and I'm not comfortable at all when and one of the first thing must people start talking about with me is Pakistan or religion of piss. My brother used to worked for a company and one day he could get access to the salary lists and he said the they paid him and two other guys less than others because he has an Arabic name. There are a lot more examples like this.
I hope that I don't trigger anyone here. I'm asking anyone to be extra nice to me or treat me differently, I just want to be treated normal and not based on my name, I thought of changing my name but I have lived with this name for years and picking another and changing is not easy too.
After a long time, I will be leaving India soon anyway and this post is not about India and Indians at all, an ex moz with Arabic name has to apply for a job in the west too and I bet he will be judged by moz and non moz too.
Have you guys had any similar experiences?

I'll never forget the first time the mask slipped. You did something to hurt me in a horrendous manner. And even though this letter is to you I will not write out what you did as I'm sure you know exactly what I'm referring to. You killed a part of me that day for good. The mask slipped and I saw you for who you really are. Yet still I loved you.
I remember the first time you made me feel like my problems didn't matter. "Suffer through it" was the best you could give me. I saw the mask slip again, seeing the monster behind it once again. Yet still I loved you.
I'll never forget the day you viciously bodyshamed me for no reason other than a small, innocent misunderstanding that bruised your massive ego. I was shocked and hurt. Given your previous pain and struggles from body image issues and your full awareness of my own I wasn't expecting something like this from you ever. The mask slipped a bit more, and I saw the monster a bit more clearly now. Yet still I loved you.
The night I asked you for some time alone after you'd been rude to me I told you I'd rejoin you in bed when I had some time to feel better. I had given you the same courtesy hundreds of times prior so it wasn't an outrageous request. Yet in your rage you punched holes in the walls and left the house. The mask slipped again. I didn't want us to fight or argue despite your unproportional reaction to the situation so I hugged you when you came back. I was seeing the monster more and more. Yet still I loved you.
When you started to treat me in a more and more disrespectful, abusive manner, dismissing any concerns or attempts to communicate how you were making me feel I began to emotionally prepare myself to leave. I knew this wasn't healthy. The week I was going to do it you were diagnosed with cancer, I didn't want you to struggle through this alone or immediately after a breakup. You'd been cruel for months prior, the mask took longer and longer to be put back on. Yet still I loved you.
As I helped you get through your battle, doing everything I could to support you and be there for you the mask didn't slip much, if it did it was put on so quickly I don't think I really noticed. I was beginning to doubt my own memory, was there ever a monster? Yet as your health came back and you cheated on me months after finally becoming healthy again the mask fell off entirely. I saw the monster, as your tears flowed and your web of lies being exposed after I let you dig yourself into a hole you couldn't get out of, the mask didn't come on. The monster was there, and no apologies followed. Despite the pain I thought of the mask, and how it hadn't slipped for so long. The monster was there staring at me. Yet still I loved you.
As you slowly ramped up your abusive behaviour towards me and began to break me down until there was nothing left the mask wasn't on. I was suffering while holding on to memories of the mask. Yet still I loved you.
When I confronted you for making the most disgusting "jokes" about my family and deceased relatives and you retaliated by physically attacking me for daring to stand my ground and insist you apologize I wondered why I loved you. The monster was always there, but I focused on the mask laying on the floor, no longer in use anymore. Yet still I loved you.
As I finally broke up with you after resembling nothing more than a disliked roommate I wondered why you had treated me like this. I still desperately clung onto memories of the mask despite the thick layer of dust that had now accumulated on it. Yet still I loved you.
When you started to play mind games to prolong my pain and impede my healing after our breakup, showing no regard for me or my situation I started to realize the mask for what it really was, a mask to hide a monster. Yet still I loved you.
When I finally, completely realized who you really were it broke me. Seeing you replace me so instantly that it seemed I was never even there put me through a lot of pain. Realizing you had convinced yourself that you were the victim in this entire situation as you tried to push made up versions of our breakup to make yourself look good made no sense to me. I realized I couldn't love you. I knew exactly what kind of monster you were. Yet still I loved you.
The day came that my pain, sadness and sorrow were replaced by a bitter anger and disgust. Each passing day the web you had entangled me in fell apart just a little more. I was hurt and angry at how abusive you'd been. I didn't deserve any of the things you'd done to me. I hated that I loved a monster so unconditionally for so long despite being treated so horribly.
And I no longer love you.

Today I got scammed through my college email. I was told that a lady at the college was trying to get rid of a guitar after her husband died and I only needed to pay shipping. In hindsight, I should’ve known it was a scam. But I got so excited that it was hard to see. The past year has been hell for me. I’ve been fighting chronic illness that makes me feel completely unlike myself. I found out about 4 months ago that my mom has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I thought that getting a nice new guitar would be an incredible way to uplift my spirits. I’ve been battling mentally and considering how to move forward — whether that be through antidepressants or another way to stop feeling like nothing matters anymore. Not a lot has seemed to help but I’m trying my best to do things like working out, making new friends, and developing hobbies. They asked for $150. Money is really tight for me right now — I pay for my own college and I’m trying to help my parents out with other things as much as I can. But for something like this, i figured I could work it out. In the time when I thought I was getting it, I looked into books for improving guitar skills. I was excited to stop laying in my bed, depressed. I felt excited to do things again for the first time in forever. But now, it feels like nothing matters again. It’s just my luck for something like that to not work out and it just seems like a sign that all I should do during my free time is lay in bed and try to hurt a little less.

hey y’all so I don’t want to get into too much details but I’m wwoofing right now and I love the farm I’m at literally could not be happier with it it’s great but right now we’re 4 girl wwoofers me included plus the host that’s a male. I love 2 of the girls they’re absolute sweethearts and I vibe so well with them and the host is also awesome but there’s one girl that’s literally unbearable to be around I can’t stand her I’m at a point where I’m happy and feel way more relaxed when she’s not around, which is not the majority of the time. We’re on a really remote farm so it’s hard to just get a break when someone annoys tf out of you. I try my best to work on my patience and tell myself that I won’t be stuck with her forever but I learned that she’s planning on leaving at the same time that I am and I feel like I’m going to go crazy. every move she does annoy the f out of me and I considered that maybe I could be the problem but the other girls pretty much feel the same way about her. so I need advice wtf do you do when you’re stuck with another wwoofer that you just want to scream every time they talk because they frustrate you too much lmao. Thanks for your advice I feel like I’m gonna break under pressure and snap at her eventually and I don’t want that to happen. She’s just so annoying and not a enjoyable person at all to be around Im struggling I’m trying so hard to learn patience and kindness for everyone without exceptions but it’s not working with this girl I literally want to drop kick her everytime I see her my anger issues are coming out like crazy she’s just a huge drama queen that complains every fucking minute

If you take the time to read this thank you!
Yes I did play Pokémon throughout the years but never ended up keeping any of my older games. Now Legends Arceus was my first game back and now Violet is my first main series game back. The only Legendaries I have are from PoGo. So, I need help transferring legendaries into Violet since the only ones I have are from Pokémon Go. If anyone wants to help I can get a full list of the ones I want to transfer. But essentially what I’m asking is if anyone has spare legendary Pokémon (from a pain series game) they can trade me so I can transfer them into Violet and then back out and I can send them right back to you. I would/could trade you the exact Pokémon for insurance purposes. I would try my best to compensate anyone for their time. Thanks!

I'm an undergrad graduating from a public ivy in 2024 and am planning on applying later this year for PhD programs that would start Fall 2024. I've seen some people post on here putting stats/experience and getting advice on where they stand in terms of getting accepted to programs, so I thought I'd see if anyone has any input on my situation.
I have a pretty decent GPA (3.89) and am double majoring in Neuroscience and Chemistry. I was a teaching assistant for organic chemistry. I have a decent bit of research experience: I interned at a Cellular Biology and Neuroscience lab for a summer in high school, worked at a clinical lab studying neurodevelopmental disorders for 1.5 years, and I have been working at a neuropharmacology lab for 1 year now and will do so for the next year. I don't have any publications out, which is what I'm worried about. I might be able to have a first author publication under review for a scientific journal by the time I apply in the fall, but it's not 100% sure. I also might be a coauthor on one or two other projects that I've been largely involved with over the past year. But, again, I'm not 100% sure any of those will go through publication review by the time I apply. I really want to pursue a PhD in Pharmacology or Biochemistry and have a focus in Neuroscience as my career moves forward, and I'd love to go to schools like Boston University, UChicago, or Harvard. I'm wondering if there's still a solid chance I could get into these schools by applying this year or if I'm going to have to take an extra year or so to work as a research technician or something similar to get publications.

My dad had 10 upper crowns done in 2001 from the best cosmetic dentist in the city at the time - all intact 22 years later. They still look incredible, better than veneers of today but they cost a fortune (literally). In 2001 it was worth the money because so many dentists did unconvincing "chiclet" block teeth. IMO his only issue was doing uppers only, so the lowers were a different shade. My genetics isn't "pearly white" it's a "natural bone" colour so I'd get 10 upper + 10 lower. His were crowns but I'm only referring to veneers in the rest of the post.
I'm seeing amazing work for as little as $1k and up to $6k. I'm finding hard to distinguish $6k vs $1k per tooth, especially in different countries and currencies. Obviously theres many options inside that range. BTW I'm only considering legitimate regulated practices!!
Are technique/technology improvements bringing costs down? I've always understood cosmetic dentistry to be among the most expensive cosmetic work you can have done.
I know experience is a major cost factor, but even skilled dentists vary. What risks come with less experienced dentists (veneer longevity, enamel loss, etc)?
Something that confused me was looking at veneers from well-regarded prosthodontists... the veneers looked good, but not as natural/complicated/artistic as many from normal cosmetic dentists. I thought prosthodontists were supposed to be masters of restorations like this. This surprised me.
When I asked about veneers my dentist shut it down completely and told me to do Invisalign instead, which I did. I took this as a sign he's a good dentist putting the patient before money (4.5k/tooth). If the costs are justified, I'll definitely go with him... but that's roughly $90k for 20 veneers which I could put towards some other things I also want done.
TLDR; Basically I'm seeing some really amazing porcelain veneers (especially on instagram) in the 1-2k range now and I'm finding it really hard to justify (or at least understand) $5-6k per tooth with today's advancements in dentistry.

DRAG RACE!
Rachelle Mirage struts the runway wearing a pantsuit in orange and red.
“Hello world!”
“Welcome to Drag Race.”
Rachelle smiles.
“Ms Michaels, how you doing?”
“I’m fabulous baby.” Floss grins. “How YOU doing?”
“Amazing. Let’s kick out Chronologica!” Rachelle cackles.
Floss winks.
“Tanvi Lioness, are you ready to see these comedians shine?”
“It’s time for them to exit the house.” Tanvi smirks.
“For our Challenge, our racers were tasked with competing in the BIG MOTHER improv challenge!”
“And on the runway, they’ll be wearing Red Velvet looks.”
“It’s TIME!”
~
“Category is… Red Velvet!”
Crayola Boxx struts out in a red ball gown, uttering the shape of a cake. She’s got a big, swirly skirt, and she spins around and around, with little bits of ‘frosting’ spurting out of the stage. She’s got a big red updo and a smile on her face.
“Not the spurting.” Floss looks around awkwardly.
“It reminds me of what you used to-” Rachelle stops after looking at Floss’ rageful face.
Aguacate struts out in a full ball gown, with multiple layers of luscious red velvet cake. She twirls down the runway, revealing a big slice has been taken right out of her backside, exposing the real cake, which is completely bare. Aguacate takes a lick of her delicious frosting, and licks her fingers clean!
“Oh… Aguacate did it so much better than Crayola.” Tanvi whispers to Rachelle.
Wearing a surprisingly high-fashion number, Jaslene Bangus walks down the runway. Her hair is dark and slicked back into a high pony. The outfit itself, however, is a two-piece suit made entirely out of red velvet. The collar and front of the suit jacket is made to resemble the red curtains of a theater. As she walks, her face showcases class and poise.
“Thank God it’s not another cake look.” Rachelle says.
Zazu Nova arrives in a Lightning Mcqueen inspired form-fitting red velvet catsuit, hugging the her curves, with black accents in the form of lightning bolts paying homage to Lightning McQueen's design, and red velvet jacket with racing patches adding an edgy and rebellious vibe to the look as she struts with a smile.
“Vroom Vroom.” Floss smiles.
Granny Gorgeous enters the stage in a red velvet cape, a huge one that covers her entire body and makes her frame not so visible. With a long red wig, Granny is serving caftan velvet realness with a smirk.
“Oh, she’s giving Granny.” Tanvi smirks.
Fiore Stravaganza shines in a sleek velvet dress that hugs her body tight. She’s got a massive red headdress, made of the same red velvet material, replacing a wig like Fiore would normally rock. Her face is expressively painted, and Fiore looks like a star.
“Gorgeous.” Rachelle smiles.
Yasmin Raiz oozes sex appeal, strutting the runway in a deep red velvet bodycon dress that hangs low off her shoulders, with a little cream flower pin on her bosom. She wears sheer cream nylon gloves with a small ruffled bow at the wrist, a perfectly coiffed cream-blonde wig, small deep red glasses with flower-shaped frames, and carries a cream fur coat, as if she doesn’t even need the reveal.
“Delicious.” Floss winks.
King Omari Star stuns as he enters the stage in a red velvet kilt, with an asymmetrical shirt that has a matching long, flowy cape along with it. He’s got a massive pair of red platform boots, and as he walks, he gives every inch of royalty with a smirk.
“He loves a cape.” Rachelle chuckles.
~
“Hi Racers.” Rachelle purses her lips. “Nobody is safe.”
“First up… Yasmin.”
Yasmin smiles.
“You really have a soulful vibe, and I enjoy it.” Tanvi nods. “You hit the marks comedically, you enjoyed yourself and I was really quite pleased to see it.”
“Thank you!” Yasmin grins.
“It was a real fun time, and I do think you really were one of the highlights to see. Solid work, girl.” Rachelle smiles, “You have been consistent these past couple of weeks, and you only leave me wanting a little bit more, and I must say that I do think this look is a good switch for you. Keep up the good work.”
Yasmin bows.
“Fiore.”
Fiore smiles.
“You look gorgeous.” Racehelle grins. “Like, wow.”
Fiore flicks back her invisible hair and smirks.
“In this challenge, I did wish I got to see MORE from you in the challenge, though. It feels as if something is keeping you from fully going out like you did in, let’s say, the Snatch Game..”
Fiore nods.
“Just need- more engagement. I feel as if you’re hardening up, going back into that inner shell, when I want you to let us see even more of you. Pretty will only get you so far, Fiore.”
“I can assure you, this is me.” Fiore looks at Rachelle.
“Well…” Rachelle nods.
“Moving on, Jaslene.”
Jaslene looks at the judges.
“YAS! Girl, this look is great.” Floss smiles. “I damn love it.”
“Thank you.” Jaslene nods.
“I feel you have been middle of the road for a few weeks. But this week, I saw the effort baby. But it is not quite enough. I’m going to need you to keep driving- because at this point, I feel as if you’re lagging behind.”
“Noted.” Jaslene says.
“Zazu.”
“Hii…” Zazu says awkwardly.
“I think we know.” Rachelle says.
“Yes.” Zazu responds.
“This wasn’t quite the best performance. Well, you stumbled. I wanted to see you do well, but unfortunately- it wasn’t quite enough, and I’m going to need you to fight for this.”
“I do want to do this.” Zazu purses her lips. “For me, I feel challenged here. But I will always take every single critique and fight for the crown.”
“That is what I need.” Rachelle looks at Zazu. “Keep it going.”
Zazu nods in agreement.
“Omari.”
Omari adjusts his cape.
“You have a royal presence to you.” Tanvi says.
“King Omari Star.” Omari smirks. “Is my full name.”
“I can see it.” Tanvi responds. “I think you had a good balance of funny and real. I enjoyed you this week.”
Omari smiles.
“I wanted you to push yourself out of your comfort zone this week, and you did. And for that I have to commend you” Rachelle responds. “Well done.”
“Thank you.” Omari grins.
Granny.
“Hello.” Granny says.
“I am loving this look.” Rachelle looks at Granny. “It’s giving- a bit generic, but also- I do feel like you’re reinforcing that idea said a few weeks ago- I am seeing a lack of brand.”
“Okay…” Granny smiles, ever the pleaser.
“I want you to get dirty this week, but you did not.” Rachelle says. “And I'm going to need you to further think on what your drag is- what you bring. Because again- at this point, that’s really important.”
“I understand.” Granny smiles.
“Aguacate.”
“¡Hola!” Aguacate winks.
“You’re pure chaos!”
“AHHHHH!” Aguacate screams.
Tanvi giggles.
“That is what I liked.” Tanvi says. “Well and truly, you stole the show.”
“Thank you.” Aguacate smirks.
“I feel like unlike others, you do know who you are. My advice? Keep doing you.”
“I will.” Aguacate adds. “I can tell you that.”
“Finally, Crayola.”
“Hello dear.” Crayola smiles.
“You weren’t funny, baby.” Floss frowns.
“Oh.” Crayola looks surprised.
“As in- you know, I was expecting haha. But I got- oh, nah.” Floss laughs. “Like, damn, there was nothing fun- and I wanted to see you make me laugh!”
Crayola nods.
“For me, it came off- just like you were trying too hard, it wasn’t the smooth sailing we were looking for. And it just wasn't a very clever delivery, or very funny either. It was a shame.” Rachelle adds. “…And this gown doesn’t do you any favors- it looks frumpy.”
“I apologize.” Crayola responds.
“Racers, before we deliberate… I have a question to ask.”
Everyone looks at each other.
“Who should go home tonight and why? Starting with… Crayola.”
“I think this week I disappointed.” Crayola frowns. “And I do really enjoy this, but I am not delivering, and I will be truthful with that. I wasn’t the best, and I’m sorry.” Crayola says.
The others look surprised.
“Okay.”
“Zazu.” Aguacate says. “Ms Boxx at least has two wins. This is what, her… 4th time in the bottom 3?” Aguacate laughs.
Zazu frowns.
“I do agree, Zazu.” Granny sighs. “Sadly, at this point, she is not delivering as consistently as the others.”
“For me, Crayola.” Omari says. “I see a fighter in Zazu. I do not see that in Crayola, as… clearly, neither does she.”
Aguacate giggles.
“I think, Crayola.” Zazu nods. “I’m sorry, but I will not say myself- I can never...”
Rachelle nods.
“For me, Crayola.” Jaslene responds. “At this point, she is not showcasing herself at her best.”
“Now, Zazu is clearly at the bottom.” Fiore purses her lips. “But if I’m being honest, at this point, Jaslene isn’t delivering anything new either, I don’t think.” Fiore nods. “Like you have said she has been, for a lack of a better term… flat-lining these past several episodes.”
Jaslene looks surprised, as well as Rachelle.
Jaslene Bangus: “What the fuck?”
“Let her fight for the bottom.” Fiore shrugs.
Jaslene rolls her eyes.
“I do agree with Zazu.” Yasmin nods. “Unfortunately.”
“Thank you, racers. Whilst we deliberate, you may untuck backstage in the Crystal Lounge, sponsored by Princess Papaya Tropical Drinks.”
~
The racers enter the platinum lounge.
Jaslene stomps in, grabbing a drink before turning to face Fiore.
“What the fuck?” Jaslene says.
Fiore raises an eyebrow. "What's the matter, Jaslene? Did I say something wrong?"
Jaslene clenches her fists, clearly pissed. "You think it's okay to throw me under the bus like that? Saying I should fight for the bottom? What the hell girl? I thought you were my sister?”
Fiore smirks, taking a sip of her drink. “Please, Jaslene. I was just stating m ytruth, what I have been seeing these past few weeks- If you can't handle a little critique, maybe you're not cut out for this competition. I feel as if you haven’t been delivering, and to me, you’re dead weight, right now."
Fiore Stravaganza: “Real talk, I said her name because simply put, at this point, I feel the AE girls have been holding me back. I need my brand focused on me.”
Jaslene's trembles. "You have no right to judge me, Fiore. You act like you're better than all of us, but you're just a mean-spirited queen hiding behind a pretty face."
“Darling, you came up with the name PRETTY GIRLS, I’m not just pretty, I’m gorgeous.” Fiore growls. “I was just being honest.”
“Honest?!” Jaselene rolls her eyes. “You’re acting nasty.”
Fiore's eyes narrow, her composure slipping for a moment. "Watch your words, Jaslene. I may be straightforward, but at least I'm not deluding myself like some queens here. I speak the truth, and if you can't handle it, that's your problem. Now go fix your hair."
Jaslene looks as if she is ready to scream, as Omari raises his hand in between them. “Let’s not.”
“I just..” Jaslene rolls her eyes. “Whatever.” Jaslene walks off.
“Beef.” Aguacate giggles.
“...Can I ask, what is going on Fiore?” Omari asks. “Like, there’s this switch..”
“There’s no switch.” Fiore responds quickly, looking at Omari. “I’ve always been competitive here, and clearly you haven’t been paying attention.”
Omari rolls his eyes. “Alright.”
“How is everyone else?” Granny asks.
“I am disappointed to be in the bottom again, but girl- I love to perform.” Zazu puts in an earphone. “So, I'm going to give my all.”
Zazu Nova: “A stage is where I shine. That- I am not scared of.” Zazu grins.
“For me, it’s-” Crayola sighs.
Crayola pauses, and looks down. "I don't know, guys. I'm just... I'm really struggling right now. I feel like I'm not good enough, like I don't belong here. And seeing myself disappoint week after week, it's really taking a toll on me."
“You won last week, girl.” Fiore adds.
Yasmin puts a hand on Crayola’s shoulder. "Hey, hey, none of that talk, okay? You are talented, Crayola, and you absolutely belong here. We all have our off weeks, but that doesn't define who we are as queens. You have so much more to offer, and I believe in you."
“I just wish you didn’t say your own name.” Omari says.
King Omari Star: “I would never say my own name. I will always fight. And Crayola… it is a strange response.”
Crayola looks up at Yasmin, tearing up. "Thank you, Yasmin. I'm just scared of going home, you know? I don't want to let myself down or let anyone else down."
Yasmin pulls Crayola into a warm hug. "I understand that fear, but remember, this is just a moment in our journey. It doesn't define our worth or our future. We've come so far, and we're all here to support each other. You are loved and valued, Crayola."
Granny smiles. “We're a family here, and we lift each other up. Don't let negative thoughts bring you down. Embrace your uniqueness and shine."
Granny Gorgeous: “I feel the same, though. This is… scary.”
Aguacate chimes in with a grin. "Exactly, mija! We all have our strengths and weaknesses, but together, we make this competition fierce. Keep your head high and remember why you're here."
“Vroom vroom.” Zazu winks.
Jaslene looks in the mirror, combing her hair before sitting next to Omari.
Jaslene Bangus: “Well, I guess that’s over.”
Fiore and Jaslene look at each other for a second.
Jaslene Bangus: “Full steam ahead.”
~
“Welcome back, racers. We’ve made some decisions.”
…
“Fiore, Jaslene, you’re safe.”
The two look at each other before walking separate sides of the stage.
“Omari. Yasmin. Great work. You’re safe.”
The two grin.
“Aguacate, this week you made us CACKLE. Condragulations, you are the winner of this week’s challenge.”
Aguacate jumps for joy. “WOOHOO”
Aguacate: “Another one.” Aguacate winks. “I I think I’m a frontrunner.”
…
…
“Granny, you’re safe.”
Granny bows.
“That means Zazu Nova and Crayola Boxx, I’m sorry my dears, but you are up for elimination.”
“The time has come… for you to lip sync to your life!”
**Conga by Gloria Estefan starts to play**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54ItEmCnP80
“Good luck… and don’t fuck it up!”
Zazu Nova: “I know this is my fourth time, but lip syncing is what I do. I’m never going down without a FIGHT!”
Crayola Boxx: “I’m giving my heart. That’s all I can do.”
~
Next Time!
Racers, it’s time to makeover your loved ones!
“My WIFE!” Omari yells, tearing up.
“Woah.” Aguacate stares awkwardly.
“I’m going to shit on these bitches.” Jaslene smirks.
“Oh, another bodysuit?” Fiore looks at Jaslene.
Fiore Stravaganza: “This is MY moment.”
~
Stats
Voting
Spreadsheet

DRAG RACE!
Rachelle Mirage struts the runway wearing a pantsuit in orange and red.
“Hello world!”
“Welcome to Drag Race.”
Rachelle smiles.
“Ms Michaels, how you doing?”
“I’m fabulous baby.” Floss grins. “How YOU doing?”
“Amazing. Let’s kick out Chronologica!” Rachelle cackles.
Floss winks.
“Tanvi Lioness, are you ready to see these comedians shine?”
“It’s time for them to exit the house.” Tanvi smirks.
“For our Challenge, our racers were tasked with competing in the BIG MOTHER improv challenge!”
“And on the runway, they’ll be wearing Red Velvet looks.”
“It’s TIME!”
~
“Category is… Red Velvet!”
Crayola Boxx struts out in a red ball gown, uttering the shape of a cake. She’s got a big, swirly skirt, and she spins around and around, with little bits of ‘frosting’ spurting out of the stage. She’s got a big red updo and a smile on her face.
“Not the spurting.” Floss looks around awkwardly.
“It reminds me of what you used to-” Rachelle stops after looking at Floss’ rageful face.
Aguacate struts out in a full ball gown, with multiple layers of luscious red velvet cake. She twirls down the runway, revealing a big slice has been taken right out of her backside, exposing the real cake, which is completely bare. Aguacate takes a lick of her delicious frosting, and licks her fingers clean!
“Oh… Aguacate did it so much better than Crayola.” Tanvi whispers to Rachelle.
Wearing a surprisingly high-fashion number, Jaslene Bangus walks down the runway. Her hair is dark and slicked back into a high pony. The outfit itself, however, is a two-piece suit made entirely out of red velvet. The collar and front of the suit jacket is made to resemble the red curtains of a theater. As she walks, her face showcases class and poise.
“Thank God it’s not another cake look.” Rachelle says.
Zazu Nova arrives in a Lightning Mcqueen inspired form-fitting red velvet catsuit, hugging the her curves, with black accents in the form of lightning bolts paying homage to Lightning McQueen's design, and red velvet jacket with racing patches adding an edgy and rebellious vibe to the look as she struts with a smile.
“Vroom Vroom.” Floss smiles.
Granny Gorgeous enters the stage in a red velvet cape, a huge one that covers her entire body and makes her frame not so visible. With a long red wig, Granny is serving caftan velvet realness with a smirk.
“Oh, she’s giving Granny.” Tanvi smirks.
Fiore Stravaganza shines in a sleek velvet dress that hugs her body tight. She’s got a massive red headdress, made of the same red velvet material, replacing a wig like Fiore would normally rock. Her face is expressively painted, and Fiore looks like a star.
“Gorgeous.” Rachelle smiles.
Yasmin Raiz oozes sex appeal, strutting the runway in a deep red velvet bodycon dress that hangs low off her shoulders, with a little cream flower pin on her bosom. She wears sheer cream nylon gloves with a small ruffled bow at the wrist, a perfectly coiffed cream-blonde wig, small deep red glasses with flower-shaped frames, and carries a cream fur coat, as if she doesn’t even need the reveal.
“Delicious.” Floss winks.
King Omari Star stuns as he enters the stage in a red velvet kilt, with an asymmetrical shirt that has a matching long, flowy cape along with it. He’s got a massive pair of red platform boots, and as he walks, he gives every inch of royalty with a smirk.
“He loves a cape.” Rachelle chuckles.
~
“Hi Racers.” Rachelle purses her lips. “Nobody is safe.”
“First up… Yasmin.”
Yasmin smiles.
“You really have a soulful vibe, and I enjoy it.” Tanvi nods. “You hit the marks comedically, you enjoyed yourself and I was really quite pleased to see it.”
“Thank you!” Yasmin grins.
“It was a real fun time, and I do think you really were one of the highlights to see. Solid work, girl.” Rachelle smiles, “You have been consistent these past couple of weeks, and you only leave me wanting a little bit more, and I must say that I do think this look is a good switch for you. Keep up the good work.”
Yasmin bows.
“Fiore.”
Fiore smiles.
“You look gorgeous.” Racehelle grins. “Like, wow.”
Fiore flicks back her invisible hair and smirks.
“In this challenge, I did wish I got to see MORE from you in the challenge, though. It feels as if something is keeping you from fully going out like you did in, let’s say, the Snatch Game..”
Fiore nods.
“Just need- more engagement. I feel as if you’re hardening up, going back into that inner shell, when I want you to let us see even more of you. Pretty will only get you so far, Fiore.”
“I can assure you, this is me.” Fiore looks at Rachelle.
“Well…” Rachelle nods.
“Moving on, Jaslene.”
Jaslene looks at the judges.
“YAS! Girl, this look is great.” Floss smiles. “I damn love it.”
“Thank you.” Jaslene nods.
“I feel you have been middle of the road for a few weeks. But this week, I saw the effort baby. But it is not quite enough. I’m going to need you to keep driving- because at this point, I feel as if you’re lagging behind.”
“Noted.” Jaslene says.
“Zazu.”
“Hii…” Zazu says awkwardly.
“I think we know.” Rachelle says.
“Yes.” Zazu responds.
“This wasn’t quite the best performance. Well, you stumbled. I wanted to see you do well, but unfortunately- it wasn’t quite enough, and I’m going to need you to fight for this.”
“I do want to do this.” Zazu purses her lips. “For me, I feel challenged here. But I will always take every single critique and fight for the crown.”
“That is what I need.” Rachelle looks at Zazu. “Keep it going.”
Zazu nods in agreement.
“Omari.”
Omari adjusts his cape.
“You have a royal presence to you.” Tanvi says.
“King Omari Star.” Omari smirks. “Is my full name.”
“I can see it.” Tanvi responds. “I think you had a good balance of funny and real. I enjoyed you this week.”
Omari smiles.
“I wanted you to push yourself out of your comfort zone this week, and you did. And for that I have to commend you” Rachelle responds. “Well done.”
“Thank you.” Omari grins.
Granny.
“Hello.” Granny says.
“I am loving this look.” Rachelle looks at Granny. “It’s giving- a bit generic, but also- I do feel like you’re reinforcing that idea said a few weeks ago- I am seeing a lack of brand.”
“Okay…” Granny smiles, ever the pleaser.
“I want you to get dirty this week, but you did not.” Rachelle says. “And I'm going to need you to further think on what your drag is- what you bring. Because again- at this point, that’s really important.”
“I understand.” Granny smiles.
“Aguacate.”
“¡Hola!” Aguacate winks.
“You’re pure chaos!”
“AHHHHH!” Aguacate screams.
Tanvi giggles.
“That is what I liked.” Tanvi says. “Well and truly, you stole the show.”
“Thank you.” Aguacate smirks.
“I feel like unlike others, you do know who you are. My advice? Keep doing you.”
“I will.” Aguacate adds. “I can tell you that.”
“Finally, Crayola.”
“Hello dear.” Crayola smiles.
“You weren’t funny, baby.” Floss frowns.
“Oh.” Crayola looks surprised.
“As in- you know, I was expecting haha. But I got- oh, nah.” Floss laughs. “Like, damn, there was nothing fun- and I wanted to see you make me laugh!”
Crayola nods.
“For me, it came off- just like you were trying too hard, it wasn’t the smooth sailing we were looking for. And it just wasn't a very clever delivery, or very funny either. It was a shame.” Rachelle adds. “…And this gown doesn’t do you any favors- it looks frumpy.”
“I apologize.” Crayola responds.
“Racers, before we deliberate… I have a question to ask.”
Everyone looks at each other.
“Who should go home tonight and why? Starting with… Crayola.”
“I think this week I disappointed.” Crayola frowns. “And I do really enjoy this, but I am not delivering, and I will be truthful with that. I wasn’t the best, and I’m sorry.” Crayola says.
The others look surprised.
“Okay.”
“Zazu.” Aguacate says. “Ms Boxx at least has two wins. This is what, her… 4th time in the bottom 3?” Aguacate laughs.
Zazu frowns.
“I do agree, Zazu.” Granny sighs. “Sadly, at this point, she is not delivering as consistently as the others.”
“For me, Crayola.” Omari says. “I see a fighter in Zazu. I do not see that in Crayola, as… clearly, neither does she.”
Aguacate giggles.
“I think, Crayola.” Zazu nods. “I’m sorry, but I will not say myself- I can never...”
Rachelle nods.
“For me, Crayola.” Jaslene responds. “At this point, she is not showcasing herself at her best.”
“Now, Zazu is clearly at the bottom.” Fiore purses her lips. “But if I’m being honest, at this point, Jaslene isn’t delivering anything new either, I don’t think.” Fiore nods. “Like you have said she has been, for a lack of a better term… flat-lining these past several episodes.”
Jaslene looks surprised, as well as Rachelle.
Jaslene Bangus: “What the fuck?”
“Let her fight for the bottom.” Fiore shrugs.
Jaslene rolls her eyes.
“I do agree with Zazu.” Yasmin nods. “Unfortunately.”
“Thank you, racers. Whilst we deliberate, you may untuck backstage in the Crystal Lounge, sponsored by Princess Papaya Tropical Drinks.”
~
The racers enter the platinum lounge.
Jaslene stomps in, grabbing a drink before turning to face Fiore.
“What the fuck?” Jaslene says.
Fiore raises an eyebrow. "What's the matter, Jaslene? Did I say something wrong?"
Jaslene clenches her fists, clearly pissed. "You think it's okay to throw me under the bus like that? Saying I should fight for the bottom? What the hell girl? I thought you were my sister?”
Fiore smirks, taking a sip of her drink. “Please, Jaslene. I was just stating m ytruth, what I have been seeing these past few weeks- If you can't handle a little critique, maybe you're not cut out for this competition. I feel as if you haven’t been delivering, and to me, you’re dead weight, right now."
Fiore Stravaganza: “Real talk, I said her name because simply put, at this point, I feel the AE girls have been holding me back. I need my brand focused on me.”
Jaslene's trembles. "You have no right to judge me, Fiore. You act like you're better than all of us, but you're just a mean-spirited queen hiding behind a pretty face."
“Darling, you came up with the name PRETTY GIRLS, I’m not just pretty, I’m gorgeous.” Fiore growls. “I was just being honest.”
“Honest?!” Jaselene rolls her eyes. “You’re acting nasty.”
Fiore's eyes narrow, her composure slipping for a moment. "Watch your words, Jaslene. I may be straightforward, but at least I'm not deluding myself like some queens here. I speak the truth, and if you can't handle it, that's your problem. Now go fix your hair."
Jaslene looks as if she is ready to scream, as Omari raises his hand in between them. “Let’s not.”
“I just..” Jaslene rolls her eyes. “Whatever.” Jaslene walks off.
“Beef.” Aguacate giggles.
“...Can I ask, what is going on Fiore?” Omari asks. “Like, there’s this switch..”
“There’s no switch.” Fiore responds quickly, looking at Omari. “I’ve always been competitive here, and clearly you haven’t been paying attention.”
Omari rolls his eyes. “Alright.”
“How is everyone else?” Granny asks.
“I am disappointed to be in the bottom again, but girl- I love to perform.” Zazu puts in an earphone. “So, I'm going to give my all.”
Zazu Nova: “A stage is where I shine. That- I am not scared of.” Zazu grins.
“For me, it’s-” Crayola sighs.
Crayola pauses, and looks down. "I don't know, guys. I'm just... I'm really struggling right now. I feel like I'm not good enough, like I don't belong here. And seeing myself disappoint week after week, it's really taking a toll on me."
“You won last week, girl.” Fiore adds.
Yasmin puts a hand on Crayola’s shoulder. "Hey, hey, none of that talk, okay? You are talented, Crayola, and you absolutely belong here. We all have our off weeks, but that doesn't define who we are as queens. You have so much more to offer, and I believe in you."
“I just wish you didn’t say your own name.” Omari says.
King Omari Star: “I would never say my own name. I will always fight. And Crayola… it is a strange response.”
Crayola looks up at Yasmin, tearing up. "Thank you, Yasmin. I'm just scared of going home, you know? I don't want to let myself down or let anyone else down."
Yasmin pulls Crayola into a warm hug. "I understand that fear, but remember, this is just a moment in our journey. It doesn't define our worth or our future. We've come so far, and we're all here to support each other. You are loved and valued, Crayola."
Granny smiles. “We're a family here, and we lift each other up. Don't let negative thoughts bring you down. Embrace your uniqueness and shine."
Granny Gorgeous: “I feel the same, though. This is… scary.”
Aguacate chimes in with a grin. "Exactly, mija! We all have our strengths and weaknesses, but together, we make this competition fierce. Keep your head high and remember why you're here."
“Vroom vroom.” Zazu winks.
Jaslene looks in the mirror, combing her hair before sitting next to Omari.
Jaslene Bangus: “Well, I guess that’s over.”
Fiore and Jaslene look at each other for a second.
Jaslene Bangus: “Full steam ahead.”
~
“Welcome back, racers. We’ve made some decisions.”
…
“Fiore, Jaslene, you’re safe.”
The two look at each other before walking separate sides of the stage.
“Omari. Yasmin. Great work. You’re safe.”
The two grin.
“Aguacate, this week you made us CACKLE. Condragulations, you are the winner of this week’s challenge.”
Aguacate jumps for joy. “WOOHOO”
Aguacate: “Another one.” Aguacate winks. “I I think I’m a frontrunner.”
…
…
“Granny, you’re safe.”
Granny bows.
“That means Zazu Nova and Crayola Boxx, I’m sorry my dears, but you are up for elimination.”
“The time has come… for you to lip sync to your life!”
**Conga by Gloria Estefan starts to play**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54ItEmCnP80
“Good luck… and don’t fuck it up!”
Zazu Nova: “I know this is my fourth time, but lip syncing is what I do. I’m never going down without a FIGHT!”
Crayola Boxx: “I’m giving my heart. That’s all I can do.”
~
Next Time!
Racers, it’s time to makeover your loved ones!
“My WIFE!” Omari yells, tearing up.
“Woah.” Aguacate stares awkwardly.
“I’m going to shit on these bitches.” Jaslene smirks.
“Oh, another bodysuit?” Fiore looks at Jaslene.
Fiore Stravaganza: “This is MY moment.”
~
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Two nights ago, after a lucky year of not doing so, I woke up in the middle of the night and vomited. I’m completely unsure of why, but this symptom has been recurring, usually every six months or so, for about two years, although never before then, strangely, even though I’ve had the gurgles, bloating, and inability to burp for as long as I can remember. It almost always occurs either when I wake up in the middle of the night or very late at night. I feel really lost, as I don’t have heartburn, a hoarse voice, or stomach pain like most with GERD do. I even sleep on an incline, but that doesn’t seem to help. I just get extremely nauseous, bloated, and can feel my stomach rolling with queasiness instead. I often find it’s my throat or my body that feels more sick than my stomach does, and I always puke when I have very little food left in my stomach. Then, for a week or two where I’ll have one of these “flare-ups,” I won’t be able to eat anything without feeling nauseous. I’ll be full after a quarter of what I can usually eat, and moving around too much makes it worse. I’ll have the gurgles constantly, even on an empty stomach. Sometimes, I’ll even puke on and off for the week.
I’m so utterly confused. Before these episodes, I was clearly only suffering from RCPD, but now, it feels as if there’s something different occurring along with it. I feel discouraged and afraid the Botox won’t fix the most distressing symptom.
I also had an endoscopy with a biopsy done a few months ago, and the doctors found nothing.
This is more of a rant than anything, but no one seems to share my symptoms no matter how much I search online. I just wanted to vent. Thank you all for listening, and wishing you the best of luck in getting better and/or getting treatment for RCPD.

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