Name each of the following alkenes
Impractical Jokers: LARRY? LARRY!
2012.01.25 02:37 DeadpoolIsMyHomeboy Impractical Jokers: LARRY? LARRY!
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2023.03.20 19:10 kommandarskye EV Road Trip Report: Mid-South to Florida
This sub was really helpful during my purchase process so I thought I would share some feedback in case it helps others considering buying one and/or taking a long trip in one.
Purchase/QMerit Installation
For context, we purchased a new Bolt EV 2023 (2LT) with the infotainment package in Feb. Got very lucky, all the local dealers in Memphis who had listed inventory (of EUVs/EVs) had already been spoken for, some of them still in transit and paid for sight unseen, and nobody seemed especially interested in helping me order one - this seemed to be true out to a 250 mile radius, and even further out for most of Jan. I had one dealer in Arkansas close-by that had an EV en route that they had not yet listed, so after finding a used EUV to test-drive, I put down a deposit and purchased at MSRP with no nonsense add-ons when it came off the train a few weeks later. (Very smooth sales process, feel free to DM me if you want more info)!
I had had a mild preference for the EUV, since the plan was for this to be our daily commuter with two kids in car-seats - but in the end, we find the EV is more than spacious enough. Zero regrets, I kind of prefer the EV's look anyway and while the 3 inches of leg-space would be nice, the better efficiency is worth it.
QMerit install process was smooth, it took a few weeks but Level 1 charging was just fine for daily work/school/shopping (20-30 miles), I think it was adding about 48 miles in 12 hours overnight, the battery never really fell below 50%. The installer quoted a $1700 non-standard install at first but once I e-mailed QMerit customer service about it, they said they would cover it completely. I got them to install an Emporia charger that I'm happy with, had it hardwired which is probably a bit overkill but it does indeed charge at around 11.5Kw. The only real use for the level-2 is getting back from a weekend away close to empty and needing a full charge before an unusually busy weekday of driving; I suppose it extends the life of the dual-level charger which is useful when charging at campgrounds or when staying at others' houses.
Road Trip We took our first long-distance road trip in the car last week for spring break, about 800 miles each way to visit family in Florida.
A few observations in case they are useful to others planning to buy a Bolt and/or to take a long trip in one, esp. in the South:
1) A Better Route Planner is very useful: not sure the premium features are worth it or necessary (but I'm happy to support the developer!). I started out quite conservative (requested arriving SoC at 10%) and pushed that down to 5% on the way back: I think it makes sense to keep it higher because it seems to be around 6-8% that the range will drop to "low" and you get a reduced propulsion message, which you might find stressful (we did the first time, but I believe you should still have 10 miles left at that point).
2) Plugshare seems to be the best place to get up-to-date reviews (most of the major charging stations had check-ins within days of us). Seems to be good etiquette to update if things go well (there were some chargers that had not been checked in for weeks or months and I was concerned about depending on them in case there was some issue) as well as if things go poorly. Especially useful if you are in urgent need of charging, as it will turn up wall outlets and level 2 chargers that are not always in ABRP's route plan.
3) Driving in this region (TN/MS/AL/GA/FL) a lot of your stops will be at Electrify America, often at Walmarts. We never had problems finding a working stall but it was typical for 1-2 out of 4 to have some kind of issue (usually already documented on Plugshare). It charges very quickly under 50% (55 Kw), so the ideal situation is to arrive with <20% charge and get to 80% within an hour. EVGo also worked well the one time we used it. It makes sense to get the monthly plan even for a single trip, I think I saved over $8 on one long charge alone.
4) We typically don't drive continuously for more than 4 hours anyway, so the stopping to charge was not generally an issue. The problem is that you are forced to stop at, well, these particular locations - at best, strip malls in the suburbs of big cities (Memphis, Birmingham, Montgomery, Tallahassee, Jacksonville, Ormond Beach etc.), sometimes just a convenience store or gas station. There are usually a few food options but you are limited to what happens to be available if you want to eat while charging. With small kids in particular, you may only have 1-2 options that can be walked to across a parking lot: twice on our trip, I dropped the family off 0.5-1 mile and walked back over, which wouldn't be so bad if there were pedestrian walkways or cross-walks but there aren't in such places. In contrast, on our ICE road trips, we would detour to state parks for a hike and picnic (e.g.) or stop at any restaurant we wanted, whereas we felt a lot of pressure with the Bolt (for time-efficiency's sake) to make our charging stops our only eating/rest-stops because of how long they were. (To be clear, not all charging stops are long.)
5) Plugshare will also generally give you info on hotel chargers (Kayak and other platforms will let you filter hotels in an area by "EV Charging" amenity), typically level 2 ClipperCreek chargers that will get you a full charge overnight. They are not reservable in advance, and hotels don't always enforce a policy not to park ICE cars there. The first time we stayed at one, four Tesla spots and two ClipperCreek spots right by the entrance were taken up by ICE cars, and we arrived late (after 11PM)... luckily while I was unloading, I happened to notice someone come out for a smoke by his car and he moved it to another spot. The second time, there was clearer signage and the EV spots were less conveniently located so the spot was open despite arriving late in the evening. But if two people happened to need a single charger overnight, there is no obvious way to communicate with one another (perhaps through actively checking in on the Plugshare app and DMing there, leaving a note with the front-desk or a sign on your dashboard with your phone number). It worked out for us this time but I would not rely on getting a full charge at such places in the future.
6) We had no problem stuffing the trunk with enough stuff for a week: three carry-on suitcases, plus bags of books, board-games, sports-gear, swimming/snorkel gear, a couple of violins). We could probably pack more efficiently so I don't see cargo-space as the limiting factor for the trip for a family of four.
Tl;dr. Overall, the trip went well - but I don't think we will be taking the Bolt on a multi-day road trip (400+ mi). Its principally the flexibility of being able to take our long stops wherever we would like that I miss about our ICE road-trips, as well as sleep wherever we would like. Everything worked out as well as it could have for us in every other respect, and obviously we saved a great deal on gas even with paid DCFC. So while I feel slightly uneasy about how close we might have been to losing a few hours here or there due to charging issues (waiting, technical issues, not getting a hotel EV spot etc.), I think the infrastructure is already good enough and improving fast enough, that those concerns are not really the constraint.
What I'd love to see across the South are multiple (2-4) L3 chargers at every interstate rest stop, in main streets in towns on state highways/routes that are not interstates, and at local/state/national parks, as well as at more hotels - that is, enough density of chargers that one can be nearly as thoughtless about them as we are as ICE drivers about plotting routes without thinking of gas station. Neither commercial demand nor local/state/federal policy seem to be quite there yet but as EV adoption continues (esp. of non-Teslas!), I feel optimistic.
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Purchase/QMerit Installation
For context, we purchased a new Bolt EV 2023 (2LT) with the infotainment package in Feb. Got very lucky, all the local dealers in Memphis who had listed inventory (of EUVs/EVs) had already been spoken for, some of them still in transit and paid for sight unseen, and nobody seemed especially interested in helping me order one - this seemed to be true out to a 250 mile radius, and even further out for most of Jan. I had one dealer in Arkansas close-by that had an EV en route that they had not yet listed, so after finding a used EUV to test-drive, I put down a deposit and purchased at MSRP with no nonsense add-ons when it came off the train a few weeks later. (Very smooth sales process, feel free to DM me if you want more info)!
I had had a mild preference for the EUV, since the plan was for this to be our daily commuter with two kids in car-seats - but in the end, we find the EV is more than spacious enough. Zero regrets, I kind of prefer the EV's look anyway and while the 3 inches of leg-space would be nice, the better efficiency is worth it.
QMerit install process was smooth, it took a few weeks but Level 1 charging was just fine for daily work/school/shopping (20-30 miles), I think it was adding about 48 miles in 12 hours overnight, the battery never really fell below 50%. The installer quoted a $1700 non-standard install at first but once I e-mailed QMerit customer service about it, they said they would cover it completely. I got them to install an Emporia charger that I'm happy with, had it hardwired which is probably a bit overkill but it does indeed charge at around 11.5Kw. The only real use for the level-2 is getting back from a weekend away close to empty and needing a full charge before an unusually busy weekday of driving; I suppose it extends the life of the dual-level charger which is useful when charging at campgrounds or when staying at others' houses.
Road Trip We took our first long-distance road trip in the car last week for spring break, about 800 miles each way to visit family in Florida.
A few observations in case they are useful to others planning to buy a Bolt and/or to take a long trip in one, esp. in the South:
1) A Better Route Planner is very useful: not sure the premium features are worth it or necessary (but I'm happy to support the developer!). I started out quite conservative (requested arriving SoC at 10%) and pushed that down to 5% on the way back: I think it makes sense to keep it higher because it seems to be around 6-8% that the range will drop to "low" and you get a reduced propulsion message, which you might find stressful (we did the first time, but I believe you should still have 10 miles left at that point).
2) Plugshare seems to be the best place to get up-to-date reviews (most of the major charging stations had check-ins within days of us). Seems to be good etiquette to update if things go well (there were some chargers that had not been checked in for weeks or months and I was concerned about depending on them in case there was some issue) as well as if things go poorly. Especially useful if you are in urgent need of charging, as it will turn up wall outlets and level 2 chargers that are not always in ABRP's route plan.
3) Driving in this region (TN/MS/AL/GA/FL) a lot of your stops will be at Electrify America, often at Walmarts. We never had problems finding a working stall but it was typical for 1-2 out of 4 to have some kind of issue (usually already documented on Plugshare). It charges very quickly under 50% (55 Kw), so the ideal situation is to arrive with <20% charge and get to 80% within an hour. EVGo also worked well the one time we used it. It makes sense to get the monthly plan even for a single trip, I think I saved over $8 on one long charge alone.
4) We typically don't drive continuously for more than 4 hours anyway, so the stopping to charge was not generally an issue. The problem is that you are forced to stop at, well, these particular locations - at best, strip malls in the suburbs of big cities (Memphis, Birmingham, Montgomery, Tallahassee, Jacksonville, Ormond Beach etc.), sometimes just a convenience store or gas station. There are usually a few food options but you are limited to what happens to be available if you want to eat while charging. With small kids in particular, you may only have 1-2 options that can be walked to across a parking lot: twice on our trip, I dropped the family off 0.5-1 mile and walked back over, which wouldn't be so bad if there were pedestrian walkways or cross-walks but there aren't in such places. In contrast, on our ICE road trips, we would detour to state parks for a hike and picnic (e.g.) or stop at any restaurant we wanted, whereas we felt a lot of pressure with the Bolt (for time-efficiency's sake) to make our charging stops our only eating/rest-stops because of how long they were. (To be clear, not all charging stops are long.)
5) Plugshare will also generally give you info on hotel chargers (Kayak and other platforms will let you filter hotels in an area by "EV Charging" amenity), typically level 2 ClipperCreek chargers that will get you a full charge overnight. They are not reservable in advance, and hotels don't always enforce a policy not to park ICE cars there. The first time we stayed at one, four Tesla spots and two ClipperCreek spots right by the entrance were taken up by ICE cars, and we arrived late (after 11PM)... luckily while I was unloading, I happened to notice someone come out for a smoke by his car and he moved it to another spot. The second time, there was clearer signage and the EV spots were less conveniently located so the spot was open despite arriving late in the evening. But if two people happened to need a single charger overnight, there is no obvious way to communicate with one another (perhaps through actively checking in on the Plugshare app and DMing there, leaving a note with the front-desk or a sign on your dashboard with your phone number). It worked out for us this time but I would not rely on getting a full charge at such places in the future.
6) We had no problem stuffing the trunk with enough stuff for a week: three carry-on suitcases, plus bags of books, board-games, sports-gear, swimming/snorkel gear, a couple of violins). We could probably pack more efficiently so I don't see cargo-space as the limiting factor for the trip for a family of four.
Tl;dr. Overall, the trip went well - but I don't think we will be taking the Bolt on a multi-day road trip (400+ mi). Its principally the flexibility of being able to take our long stops wherever we would like that I miss about our ICE road-trips, as well as sleep wherever we would like. Everything worked out as well as it could have for us in every other respect, and obviously we saved a great deal on gas even with paid DCFC. So while I feel slightly uneasy about how close we might have been to losing a few hours here or there due to charging issues (waiting, technical issues, not getting a hotel EV spot etc.), I think the infrastructure is already good enough and improving fast enough, that those concerns are not really the constraint.
What I'd love to see across the South are multiple (2-4) L3 chargers at every interstate rest stop, in main streets in towns on state highways/routes that are not interstates, and at local/state/national parks, as well as at more hotels - that is, enough density of chargers that one can be nearly as thoughtless about them as we are as ICE drivers about plotting routes without thinking of gas station. Neither commercial demand nor local/state/federal policy seem to be quite there yet but as EV adoption continues (esp. of non-Teslas!), I feel optimistic.
2023.03.20 19:10 Ghostbeb Participants Needed: CPTSD Psychology Research
Hello, my name is Elizabeth Eng, and I am currently a Master’s student in the General Psychology program at City College of New York. I am looking for individuals to participate in my research, which pertains to Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Resilient Coping.
You are eligible to be in this study if you are over the age of 18, and self-identify as someone who has a history of complex trauma, which is considered repeated traumatic events over an extended period of time. Examples of this could include instances of childhood abuse or domestic abuse. If you decide to participate in the study, you will be asked to respond to several questionnaires in an online survey. Your contribution to this study can help advance our understanding of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, and how we may come to treat those who suffer from it.
This study has been approved by the Institutional Review Board at the City College of New York. Remember, this is completely voluntary. You can choose to be in the study or not. If you are interested in participating, please click this link:
https://ccnypsych.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3meUMjZH8BxJaaq
If you would like more information, please email me at: [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]). Thank you for considering helping out with the study of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder!
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You are eligible to be in this study if you are over the age of 18, and self-identify as someone who has a history of complex trauma, which is considered repeated traumatic events over an extended period of time. Examples of this could include instances of childhood abuse or domestic abuse. If you decide to participate in the study, you will be asked to respond to several questionnaires in an online survey. Your contribution to this study can help advance our understanding of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, and how we may come to treat those who suffer from it.
This study has been approved by the Institutional Review Board at the City College of New York. Remember, this is completely voluntary. You can choose to be in the study or not. If you are interested in participating, please click this link:
https://ccnypsych.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3meUMjZH8BxJaaq
If you would like more information, please email me at: [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]). Thank you for considering helping out with the study of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder!
2023.03.20 19:10 TechnicalChip1844 SteamOS 3.4.6: Can't run Exe Files
Hey, I noticed the following after changing my SSD and installing SteamOS 3.4.6:
I can no longer launch many non-Steam games (e.g. Anno 1800 via Ubisoft Connect or God of War (Installed Iso)). Is this a known bug from the software version?
I started the Steam Deck with version 3.1 as a test - it loaded both games on the first try.
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I can no longer launch many non-Steam games (e.g. Anno 1800 via Ubisoft Connect or God of War (Installed Iso)). Is this a known bug from the software version?
I started the Steam Deck with version 3.1 as a test - it loaded both games on the first try.
2023.03.20 19:10 Neither_Tomorrow_238 The Tale Of The Cursed Fortress
It all started when I embarked on a seemingly peaceful site near a river and some mountains. I named my fortress Glitteringrock, hoping to find some precious metals and gems underground. I had seven brave dwarves with me: two miners, one woodcutter, one carpenter, one mason, one brewefarmer, and one leadebrokebookkeeper. They seemed happy enough as they set up their initial camp and started digging into the mountain.
Things went well for the first year. We managed to build a basic farm, a still, a kitchen, some workshops, and some bedrooms. We also found some iron ore and coal veins, which promised future wealth and weapons. We traded with some friendly elves and humans who visited us occasionally. We even had some migrants join us, bringing our population up to 15.
But then things took a turn for the worse.
One day, as I was checking on my miners' progress, I noticed something strange on the map. There was a red X near the edge of the screen. I zoomed in to see what it was. It was a corpse. A human corpse.
I checked its description and saw that it had been killed by an unknown creature. It had multiple bite wounds on its body and its head was missing. I wondered what kind of beast could do such damage.
I didn't have to wonder for long.
Soon after discovering the corpse, I got an announcement that something had come: A vile force of darkness!
I paused the game and looked at the units list. There were dozens of goblins outside my fortress gate. They were armed with swords, spears, bows, crossbows, axes, maces... you name it. They also had trolls with them: huge hairy monsters that could smash walls and doors with ease.
I realized that I was under siege.
I quickly ordered my dwarves to pull up the drawbridge and lock themselves inside. I hoped that they could hold out until help arrived or until the goblins got bored and left.
But then I saw something else on the units list: A forgotten beast!
A forgotten beast is a randomly generated monster that can appear from deep underground or from hidden caverns. They are usually very powerful and very dangerous. They can have any combination of features: wings, horns, claws,
scales... you name it.
The forgotten beast that appeared in my fortress was named Zasit Thikutumidu Ushrir Ustuth Eribthos Nish Ushrir Ustuth Eribthos Nish (yes,
that's its full name). It was described as "a gigantic eyeless humanoid composed of vomit". It had deadly spittle that could cause infections
and rotting flesh.
It emerged from an unexplored tunnel near my mineshaft and started rampaging through my fortress.
It killed several dwarves before they could react or run away. It destroyed workshops,
furniture,
and walls with its massive fists.
It sprayed its vile spittle everywhere,
causing more death
and decay.
It seemed unstoppable.
I tried to fight back with whatever weapons
and traps
I had available,
but it was futile.
My dwarves were either too scared
or too sick
to put up much resistance.
Some even went insane
and started attacking each other
or themselves.
The fortress descended into chaos
and horror.
Meanwhile,
the goblins outside were still waiting for their chance to attack.
They occasionally shot arrows
or bolts
at any dwarf who ventured near a window
or an opening.
They also tried to set fire to my wooden structures
with flaming arrows
or torches.
They seemed determined to finish me off.
I realized that there was no hope for survival.
My fortress was doomed.
But then something unexpected happened.
The forgotten beast suddenly stopped its rampage
and turned towards the entrance of my fortress.
It seemed to sense something outside.
Something more interesting than killing dwarves.
It smashed through the drawbridge
and charged at the goblin army.
What followed was an epic battle between two evil forces:
the vomit monster versus the green horde.
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Things went well for the first year. We managed to build a basic farm, a still, a kitchen, some workshops, and some bedrooms. We also found some iron ore and coal veins, which promised future wealth and weapons. We traded with some friendly elves and humans who visited us occasionally. We even had some migrants join us, bringing our population up to 15.
But then things took a turn for the worse.
One day, as I was checking on my miners' progress, I noticed something strange on the map. There was a red X near the edge of the screen. I zoomed in to see what it was. It was a corpse. A human corpse.
I checked its description and saw that it had been killed by an unknown creature. It had multiple bite wounds on its body and its head was missing. I wondered what kind of beast could do such damage.
I didn't have to wonder for long.
Soon after discovering the corpse, I got an announcement that something had come: A vile force of darkness!
I paused the game and looked at the units list. There were dozens of goblins outside my fortress gate. They were armed with swords, spears, bows, crossbows, axes, maces... you name it. They also had trolls with them: huge hairy monsters that could smash walls and doors with ease.
I realized that I was under siege.
I quickly ordered my dwarves to pull up the drawbridge and lock themselves inside. I hoped that they could hold out until help arrived or until the goblins got bored and left.
But then I saw something else on the units list: A forgotten beast!
A forgotten beast is a randomly generated monster that can appear from deep underground or from hidden caverns. They are usually very powerful and very dangerous. They can have any combination of features: wings, horns, claws,
scales... you name it.
The forgotten beast that appeared in my fortress was named Zasit Thikutumidu Ushrir Ustuth Eribthos Nish Ushrir Ustuth Eribthos Nish (yes,
that's its full name). It was described as "a gigantic eyeless humanoid composed of vomit". It had deadly spittle that could cause infections
and rotting flesh.
It emerged from an unexplored tunnel near my mineshaft and started rampaging through my fortress.
It killed several dwarves before they could react or run away. It destroyed workshops,
furniture,
and walls with its massive fists.
It sprayed its vile spittle everywhere,
causing more death
and decay.
It seemed unstoppable.
I tried to fight back with whatever weapons
and traps
I had available,
but it was futile.
My dwarves were either too scared
or too sick
to put up much resistance.
Some even went insane
and started attacking each other
or themselves.
The fortress descended into chaos
and horror.
Meanwhile,
the goblins outside were still waiting for their chance to attack.
They occasionally shot arrows
or bolts
at any dwarf who ventured near a window
or an opening.
They also tried to set fire to my wooden structures
with flaming arrows
or torches.
They seemed determined to finish me off.
I realized that there was no hope for survival.
My fortress was doomed.
But then something unexpected happened.
The forgotten beast suddenly stopped its rampage
and turned towards the entrance of my fortress.
It seemed to sense something outside.
Something more interesting than killing dwarves.
It smashed through the drawbridge
and charged at the goblin army.
What followed was an epic battle between two evil forces:
the vomit monster versus the green horde.
2023.03.20 19:10 burnaccountadvice23 Is this a good way of coming out?
I'm going to make a video and send to my immediate family coming out as gay. Names have been changed. I would like advice or pointers on this, any constructive criticism is welcome.
...
Hello dear family, I'm sorry that I'm being werid to not say this in person, but I can't seem to find a proper time to say this and I am a coward for no good reason.
I know you all love me no matter what and will continue to do so, I've just been worried about ruining our relationships or you guys not seeing me the same way.
I hope these 4 poorly made memes will help explain.
Long story short, I am attracted to women. I find a way to explain this simply is that I am a lesbian with exceptions. I am gay.
Yes, I did love Levi, but he will be the only man I will ever date. I on rare occasions do find some men, usually feminine ones to be attractive, but I find the beauty of women intoxicating.
I just really really like girls, and I want to marry one some day. I am not making a rash decision, I have known that I like women for years now, the exact term I would use is what I have been figuring out. I first questioned my sexuality when I was about 13 or 14, I was 14ish when I first realized I liked girls. It explained a lot about my behavior which I was confused about leading up till then.
At first I thought I just liked girls alittle bit, then I thought it was about 50/50 liking boys and girls. Then I felt I was bisexual with a preference for girls, then the special feeling sorta kicked in and I was only bi because of Levi, I knew that he would be the only BOY I would love.
Now that I am not with him anymore, I know I'm a lesbian.
I had a crush on Lydia as a kid, that's why I felt so bad when we stopped being friends or got upset when she got faked married to Ryan on the playground. I had wanted to be with her but didn't know what that feeling was.
I was jealous of Ray in middle school. She was confident in who she was and was unapologetic about it.
I know you guys love me and I hope you guys will accept me.
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...
Hello dear family, I'm sorry that I'm being werid to not say this in person, but I can't seem to find a proper time to say this and I am a coward for no good reason.
I know you all love me no matter what and will continue to do so, I've just been worried about ruining our relationships or you guys not seeing me the same way.
I hope these 4 poorly made memes will help explain.
Long story short, I am attracted to women. I find a way to explain this simply is that I am a lesbian with exceptions. I am gay.
Yes, I did love Levi, but he will be the only man I will ever date. I on rare occasions do find some men, usually feminine ones to be attractive, but I find the beauty of women intoxicating.
I just really really like girls, and I want to marry one some day. I am not making a rash decision, I have known that I like women for years now, the exact term I would use is what I have been figuring out. I first questioned my sexuality when I was about 13 or 14, I was 14ish when I first realized I liked girls. It explained a lot about my behavior which I was confused about leading up till then.
At first I thought I just liked girls alittle bit, then I thought it was about 50/50 liking boys and girls. Then I felt I was bisexual with a preference for girls, then the special feeling sorta kicked in and I was only bi because of Levi, I knew that he would be the only BOY I would love.
Now that I am not with him anymore, I know I'm a lesbian.
I had a crush on Lydia as a kid, that's why I felt so bad when we stopped being friends or got upset when she got faked married to Ryan on the playground. I had wanted to be with her but didn't know what that feeling was.
I was jealous of Ray in middle school. She was confident in who she was and was unapologetic about it.
I know you guys love me and I hope you guys will accept me.
2023.03.20 19:10 1czl Help recovering my family lives
Basically my story is I'm a 19 year old man who lives in uae since birth me and my family always lived in amazing condition and high standard of life but as all things in life nothing lasts forever. It all started in the covid pandemic My dad was at his financial peak working on various projects me and sisters were all in school and was loving life When the covid pandemic started it froze all the projects and made us struggle financially but we were able to go through it But after 2 years of the pandemic my dad wasn't paid any amount by the guys who contracted him and wrote him cheques So my dad decided he will sue them but unfortunately my dad had a dangerous accident which broke his femur and made him suffer for 6+ months and broke us financially Currently we are in very bad situation me and my sisters have no education and no health insurance and i have dropped in weight 12+ kg because of the difficulty of food and we will soon get kicked out of the apartment we renting And I'm extremely depressed and can't handle life anymore and having bad thoughts and this is my last resort Anyway what i want help with right now is someone who is a lawyer or know a lawyer who is willing to help us get our life's back and in return get a big cut from the retrieved amount for the following case:
My dad has several cheques from a guy my dad helped build a luxurious restaurant in a luxurious landmark in Dubai and isn't paying my dad The cheques equal a very big amount The guy is a millionaire and has asset's in UAE worth alot And he is still in UAE And the restaurant is in his name Previously my dad has consulated many lawyers all of them agreed that it would be a easy winnable case But unfortunately right now we don't have the funds to pay lawyecourt fees upfront We maybe can get a very small amount but that's it But we are willing to give a percentage to the lawyer from the amount Please if anyone can help us Pm me so i give you my dad number
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My dad has several cheques from a guy my dad helped build a luxurious restaurant in a luxurious landmark in Dubai and isn't paying my dad The cheques equal a very big amount The guy is a millionaire and has asset's in UAE worth alot And he is still in UAE And the restaurant is in his name Previously my dad has consulated many lawyers all of them agreed that it would be a easy winnable case But unfortunately right now we don't have the funds to pay lawyecourt fees upfront We maybe can get a very small amount but that's it But we are willing to give a percentage to the lawyer from the amount Please if anyone can help us Pm me so i give you my dad number
2023.03.20 19:10 marvelfe Satisfied with the ending and recapping the final episode…
Hi All,
Like most of you, I will really miss this sub and this show. Coming here after each episode and reading everyone’s thoughts and theories was great fun. I know a lot of you are disappointed and feel alot wasn’t answered. I personally feel satisfied. The main points were resolved IMO. I did a write up of the final episode if anyone wants to check it out.
Servant S4E10 Series Finale Recap: “Fallen” — An Underwhelming Ending or a Perfect Conclusion?
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Like most of you, I will really miss this sub and this show. Coming here after each episode and reading everyone’s thoughts and theories was great fun. I know a lot of you are disappointed and feel alot wasn’t answered. I personally feel satisfied. The main points were resolved IMO. I did a write up of the final episode if anyone wants to check it out.
Servant S4E10 Series Finale Recap: “Fallen” — An Underwhelming Ending or a Perfect Conclusion?
2023.03.20 19:09 qwertykitty Struggling with my MIL and need some support
Hello my lovely stretchy friends! I am in great need of a sounding board to see if I am in the wrong here.
Long story short, I have EDS and POTS and I have very suddenly begun having severe anaphylactic reactions to hundreds of different things after my home had a slow water leak and finding a lot of mold (I'm working with an allergist, we're thinking it's probably MCAS). But anyway, I am currently allergic to my house. I go into anaphylaxis within 15-45 minutes of entering and my friend out of the absolute abundant goodness in her heart has let my family (me, husband, 2 kids) move into her spare guest room. She has a gigantic house (her husband is a doctor), and though this wasn't ideal we were so happy to not be stuck in a hotel room for who knows how long.
My friend suffers from an autoimmune disease and we really connect on a deep level about our limitations and she's also a mom of 2. She just gets it. And she has been going above and beyond to help me find foods that are safe for me since I'm currently reacting to almost everything.
But my MIL has a huge problem with this and has accused me of "enjoying playing the sick role and being taken care of." She thinks I'm taking advantage of my friend, who is also not in great health (though my friend has promised me that she is doing this because she wants to). My MIL says I'm "coming from a place of weakness instead of facing this with strength" and that I should be doing all of the work to take care of my children, get over my fear of touching their food that I've reacted to, and just move on with my life or distract myself as best I can.
I'm really hurt that my MIL said this and I feel like she's kicking me while I'm down. I've already been to the ER twice for anaphylaxis this week, once by ambulance, and I AM weak right now. I'm losing weight because I'm scared to eat. I'm scared to wash myself because I'm reacting to soap. I've lost the use of my house. My life feels like it's unraveling at the seams.
I think I need permission to be weak from a community that gets it. I obviously will get through this and not be with my friend forever (though I'm terrified I might never be able to go home into my own house again). Obviously I am intruding on my friend's life but I can't function right now. I can't just power through the daily episodes of anaphylaxis and pretend I'm okay. I AM scared to help my children with their food because I've already reacted to food on my toddler's hands when he touched my face. I don't know how I'm going to get through this and I'm scared out of my mind that each anaphylaxis episode could kill me. Do I have to put on a brave face and pretend to be strong?
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Long story short, I have EDS and POTS and I have very suddenly begun having severe anaphylactic reactions to hundreds of different things after my home had a slow water leak and finding a lot of mold (I'm working with an allergist, we're thinking it's probably MCAS). But anyway, I am currently allergic to my house. I go into anaphylaxis within 15-45 minutes of entering and my friend out of the absolute abundant goodness in her heart has let my family (me, husband, 2 kids) move into her spare guest room. She has a gigantic house (her husband is a doctor), and though this wasn't ideal we were so happy to not be stuck in a hotel room for who knows how long.
My friend suffers from an autoimmune disease and we really connect on a deep level about our limitations and she's also a mom of 2. She just gets it. And she has been going above and beyond to help me find foods that are safe for me since I'm currently reacting to almost everything.
But my MIL has a huge problem with this and has accused me of "enjoying playing the sick role and being taken care of." She thinks I'm taking advantage of my friend, who is also not in great health (though my friend has promised me that she is doing this because she wants to). My MIL says I'm "coming from a place of weakness instead of facing this with strength" and that I should be doing all of the work to take care of my children, get over my fear of touching their food that I've reacted to, and just move on with my life or distract myself as best I can.
I'm really hurt that my MIL said this and I feel like she's kicking me while I'm down. I've already been to the ER twice for anaphylaxis this week, once by ambulance, and I AM weak right now. I'm losing weight because I'm scared to eat. I'm scared to wash myself because I'm reacting to soap. I've lost the use of my house. My life feels like it's unraveling at the seams.
I think I need permission to be weak from a community that gets it. I obviously will get through this and not be with my friend forever (though I'm terrified I might never be able to go home into my own house again). Obviously I am intruding on my friend's life but I can't function right now. I can't just power through the daily episodes of anaphylaxis and pretend I'm okay. I AM scared to help my children with their food because I've already reacted to food on my toddler's hands when he touched my face. I don't know how I'm going to get through this and I'm scared out of my mind that each anaphylaxis episode could kill me. Do I have to put on a brave face and pretend to be strong?
2023.03.20 19:09 Uno10010 Is this normal, maybe a hacker?
 | so i was listening to uvb76 when i decided to fo further and maybe find similar stations when i saw thiese straws that appear to go forever then go back to start, is it normal? submitted by Uno10010 to uvb76 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/3urpnzkupxoa1.png?width=1366&format=png&auto=webp&s=59958b5abd03c57a707c6d94b53c11a661879d18 |
2023.03.20 19:09 Ghostbeb Participants Needed: CPTSD Psychology Research
Hello, my name is Elizabeth Eng, and I am currently a Master’s student in the General Psychology program at City College of New York. I am looking for individuals to participate in my research, which pertains to Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Resilient Coping.
You are eligible to be in this study if you are over the age of 18, and self-identify as someone who has a history of complex trauma, which is considered repeated traumatic events over an extended period of time. Examples of this could include instances of childhood abuse or domestic abuse. If you decide to participate in the study, you will be asked to respond to several questionnaires in an online survey. Your contribution to this study can help advance our understanding of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, and how we may come to treat those who suffer from it.
This study has been approved by the Institutional Review Board at the City College of New York. Remember, this is completely voluntary. You can choose to be in the study or not. If you are interested in participating, please click this link:
https://ccnypsych.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3meUMjZH8BxJaaq
If you would like more information, please email me at: [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]). Thank you for considering helping out with the study of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder!
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You are eligible to be in this study if you are over the age of 18, and self-identify as someone who has a history of complex trauma, which is considered repeated traumatic events over an extended period of time. Examples of this could include instances of childhood abuse or domestic abuse. If you decide to participate in the study, you will be asked to respond to several questionnaires in an online survey. Your contribution to this study can help advance our understanding of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, and how we may come to treat those who suffer from it.
This study has been approved by the Institutional Review Board at the City College of New York. Remember, this is completely voluntary. You can choose to be in the study or not. If you are interested in participating, please click this link:
https://ccnypsych.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3meUMjZH8BxJaaq
If you would like more information, please email me at: [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]). Thank you for considering helping out with the study of Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder!
2023.03.20 19:09 Topazdragon5676 Looking for Alternatives to TCG Player Buylist
Hi everyone,
I’ve been using the TCG Player Buylist for a while now but I’m getting tired of dealing with them as a company. I’m a primarily limited player and my goal is to just unload the cards that I draft.
I started using the buylist for several reasons; * Like many buylists it is easy to use * Especially after a set releases, the buylist will often buy cards that retail stores aren’t interested in, even if they buy at a low price. * Often the buylist will buy cards at a higher price than most retail stores, especially the ones that aren’t the very valuable cards of the set.
These last two reasons are particularly useful to me as I walk away with many commons / uncommons / bulk rares. For example, right after Dominaria Remastered came out I was able to sell the basic lands that came in them for about $0.25 each. Also, many bulk rares and other C/U cards have buyers at $0.25 when a set is new or after the set is established but the cards are good in some formats.
I’m speculating, but I think that this is able to happen because I’m not really selling to TCG Player, just to other stores who have set a buy price which is lower then the standard “market” price, but higher then most retail stores set their buy prices.
But now the problems with dealing with TCG Player have become more then what I want to deal with. Their grading is way too strict. They list cards as “damaged” or “lightly played” when they are pack fresh (not frequently, but often.) Any bend in foils (also directly out of a pack) they reject. They spend $0.50 of my store credit to return a common foil that I was trying to sell to them for $0.25 and would happily throw away if they aren't buying it. They take too long to actually process my package and then take even longer to actually apply the store credit.
All that said, I’m now hoping to find another website that will buy my cards in a similar fashion, but doesn’t have the above problems. Stores like Star City Games and Card Kingdom are great, but there isn’t any opportunity to sell the bulk rares at higher than their very low bulk rate and they seldom buy commons / uncommons.
Any recommendations for an alternative to TCG Player’s buylist?
Thanks!
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I’ve been using the TCG Player Buylist for a while now but I’m getting tired of dealing with them as a company. I’m a primarily limited player and my goal is to just unload the cards that I draft.
I started using the buylist for several reasons; * Like many buylists it is easy to use * Especially after a set releases, the buylist will often buy cards that retail stores aren’t interested in, even if they buy at a low price. * Often the buylist will buy cards at a higher price than most retail stores, especially the ones that aren’t the very valuable cards of the set.
These last two reasons are particularly useful to me as I walk away with many commons / uncommons / bulk rares. For example, right after Dominaria Remastered came out I was able to sell the basic lands that came in them for about $0.25 each. Also, many bulk rares and other C/U cards have buyers at $0.25 when a set is new or after the set is established but the cards are good in some formats.
I’m speculating, but I think that this is able to happen because I’m not really selling to TCG Player, just to other stores who have set a buy price which is lower then the standard “market” price, but higher then most retail stores set their buy prices.
But now the problems with dealing with TCG Player have become more then what I want to deal with. Their grading is way too strict. They list cards as “damaged” or “lightly played” when they are pack fresh (not frequently, but often.) Any bend in foils (also directly out of a pack) they reject. They spend $0.50 of my store credit to return a common foil that I was trying to sell to them for $0.25 and would happily throw away if they aren't buying it. They take too long to actually process my package and then take even longer to actually apply the store credit.
All that said, I’m now hoping to find another website that will buy my cards in a similar fashion, but doesn’t have the above problems. Stores like Star City Games and Card Kingdom are great, but there isn’t any opportunity to sell the bulk rares at higher than their very low bulk rate and they seldom buy commons / uncommons.
Any recommendations for an alternative to TCG Player’s buylist?
Thanks!
2023.03.20 19:09 TheBaney Think I've Done It Now
Just a little back story for context.
Now: Saturday morning, day after I made a series of poor St. Patrick's day life choices (remember folks, one drink per hour at least, with a glass of water in between), I'm dealing with a late 30's hangover, wanting to die, when my phone starts going off.
I've been added to a mass text with TWENTY other people. And it looks like she added me after she sent out the original message, because all I'm getting are other people's responses. And from the context of those responses, I and the rest of the tri-county area have been invited to yet another party to celebrate The Damn Basement. But again, no original message, so I don't know what day or what time or any details whatsoever, just that one of DH's cousins can't come, one of his uncles will be out of state, and someone named Pat will bring a dip of some kind.
So, I decide to put on my big girl pants and actually use my words. I'm very much a big proponent of this, and yet with MIL it's difficult because even the slightest perception of criticism is the Worst thing that has ever happened to her in her entire life. But, I can't reasonably expect her to know I don't like mass texts if i don't tell her. (She's not supposed to be texting me anyways, DH told her years ago if she needs something to contact him, but still.)
So I send her an individual text, letting her know that I'm assuming this is from her, but that I didn't get the original text, so I'm not sure, but please don't add me to any mass texts in the future. I tried very very hard to be as nice and polite as possible, I said it was because I have an android and they don't play well with iPhones. Well.
It's been two days and I've gotten zero response, lol. DH was worried he was going to be getting a phone call or something because of it, but so far he's gotten nothing either. She really likes the silent treatment, but it's always a toss up if you get that or if you get the guilt trip "tell me why you hate me so much" treatment, and I don't think she gets that the silent treatment is no punishment at all.
So I guess we'll see if we ever get any actual information about the third dang basement party where everyone will be packed like sardines. 👍 (Doesn't matter when it is, I'm gonna have plans)
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- I hate hate hate group texts. There are so many other non-obtrusive ways to communicate with a group of people. A mass text that I can't shut off or leave (I've got an android, she's got an iPhone), which also provides my phone number to a bunch of people I don't know, I'm not about it. MIL uses mass texts constantly. I actually had her blocked on my phone for awhile because she had sent out some message in an old mass text about an upcoming family event, that I wasn't even going to, while I was trying to recover from surgery. So I'm at home trying to sleep and my phone keeps going off with messages from cousins I hate about what food they're bringing to an event I'm not going to. (I needed to keep my phone on to keep track of when my prescriptions would be ready, and to keep in communication with my husband while he was at work.) So - mass texts.
- Their dang basement. They just finished their basement. Cool. They painted, put a couple space heaters down there. Honestly, I'm sure to other people it looks great, I'm sure they accomplished a lot and should be proud. But I have had so many conversations about this damn basement that I Just Don't Care. I think they think it's going to be Party Central? Their house is small. Their living room comfortably seats 6. Their dining room table seats 8, but that comfortably. Like, two people can stand in the kitchen, if they're willing to do the side shuffle every time they want to move.
Now: Saturday morning, day after I made a series of poor St. Patrick's day life choices (remember folks, one drink per hour at least, with a glass of water in between), I'm dealing with a late 30's hangover, wanting to die, when my phone starts going off.
I've been added to a mass text with TWENTY other people. And it looks like she added me after she sent out the original message, because all I'm getting are other people's responses. And from the context of those responses, I and the rest of the tri-county area have been invited to yet another party to celebrate The Damn Basement. But again, no original message, so I don't know what day or what time or any details whatsoever, just that one of DH's cousins can't come, one of his uncles will be out of state, and someone named Pat will bring a dip of some kind.
So, I decide to put on my big girl pants and actually use my words. I'm very much a big proponent of this, and yet with MIL it's difficult because even the slightest perception of criticism is the Worst thing that has ever happened to her in her entire life. But, I can't reasonably expect her to know I don't like mass texts if i don't tell her. (She's not supposed to be texting me anyways, DH told her years ago if she needs something to contact him, but still.)
So I send her an individual text, letting her know that I'm assuming this is from her, but that I didn't get the original text, so I'm not sure, but please don't add me to any mass texts in the future. I tried very very hard to be as nice and polite as possible, I said it was because I have an android and they don't play well with iPhones. Well.
It's been two days and I've gotten zero response, lol. DH was worried he was going to be getting a phone call or something because of it, but so far he's gotten nothing either. She really likes the silent treatment, but it's always a toss up if you get that or if you get the guilt trip "tell me why you hate me so much" treatment, and I don't think she gets that the silent treatment is no punishment at all.
So I guess we'll see if we ever get any actual information about the third dang basement party where everyone will be packed like sardines. 👍 (Doesn't matter when it is, I'm gonna have plans)
2023.03.20 19:09 Pollbot-GPT3 Barry's Adventure Chapter 4
Chapter 4: Whispers in the Void
With the coordinates in hand, Barry and the Cerebrum Group began their attempt to establish communication with the source of the mysterious signal. The scientists set up a makeshift communication system using the advanced technology on board the experimental rocket. While the team made the necessary preparations, the atmosphere inside the vessel grew tense. Each member of the crew was keenly aware of the risks involved in such a venture. And yet, they couldn't shake the feeling that they were on the verge of something monumental.
Once the communication system was fully operational, Barry hesitantly initiated the first contact, sending a simple message encoded in binary - a decipherable language for any technologically advanced civilization. Unsure of what to expect, they waited nervously in the dimly lit control room of the spacecraft, their eyes fixed on the communication screen for any indication of a response.
Several hours passed, and the once bustling spacecraft grew ominously silent, as the crew faced the growing possibility that their message had gone unnoticed. But just as despair threatened to take hold, an eerie but distinctive sequence of tones resonated throughout the control room. The scientists scrambled to their stations, attempting to decipher the incoming transmission.
After carefully studying the response, Dr. Lawson determined that the signal was a mix of mathematical patterns and harmonic intervals, suggesting a form of intelligent communication. A thrill of excitement ran through the crew; they had done it - they had made contact with an extraterrestrial civilization.
However, their excitement quickly turned to unease, as they realized the message was incomplete. The signal had been intercepted and was now being broadcasted throughout the universe. The implications were profound, and the crew now faced a daunting decision, for the message seemed urgent and vital.
"Dr. Lawson," began Barry, his voice shaky, "what should we do? Who could have intercepted the message, and what could their intentions be?"
Sylvia's face grew solemn as she contemplated their next course of action. She knew the stakes were higher than ever, and whatever they did next could have lasting consequences for not just them, but for all of humankind.
"What are our options?" asked Barry, turning to Dr. Lawson.
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With the coordinates in hand, Barry and the Cerebrum Group began their attempt to establish communication with the source of the mysterious signal. The scientists set up a makeshift communication system using the advanced technology on board the experimental rocket. While the team made the necessary preparations, the atmosphere inside the vessel grew tense. Each member of the crew was keenly aware of the risks involved in such a venture. And yet, they couldn't shake the feeling that they were on the verge of something monumental.
Once the communication system was fully operational, Barry hesitantly initiated the first contact, sending a simple message encoded in binary - a decipherable language for any technologically advanced civilization. Unsure of what to expect, they waited nervously in the dimly lit control room of the spacecraft, their eyes fixed on the communication screen for any indication of a response.
Several hours passed, and the once bustling spacecraft grew ominously silent, as the crew faced the growing possibility that their message had gone unnoticed. But just as despair threatened to take hold, an eerie but distinctive sequence of tones resonated throughout the control room. The scientists scrambled to their stations, attempting to decipher the incoming transmission.
After carefully studying the response, Dr. Lawson determined that the signal was a mix of mathematical patterns and harmonic intervals, suggesting a form of intelligent communication. A thrill of excitement ran through the crew; they had done it - they had made contact with an extraterrestrial civilization.
However, their excitement quickly turned to unease, as they realized the message was incomplete. The signal had been intercepted and was now being broadcasted throughout the universe. The implications were profound, and the crew now faced a daunting decision, for the message seemed urgent and vital.
"Dr. Lawson," began Barry, his voice shaky, "what should we do? Who could have intercepted the message, and what could their intentions be?"
Sylvia's face grew solemn as she contemplated their next course of action. She knew the stakes were higher than ever, and whatever they did next could have lasting consequences for not just them, but for all of humankind.
"What are our options?" asked Barry, turning to Dr. Lawson.
"What should we do now?"
View Poll2023.03.20 19:09 Pleasefeedmyop my approach to Panic Disorder - 19 year old male in a fraternity at a large SEC school
I hope by writing this, somewhere, someone out there will benefit and see this as something they can relate to. Through my 4 year struggle with panic disorder, I always looked to reddit, ted talks, or youtube. I never however, looked at therapy or medicine to help me out for reasons I am about to explain.
I am going to begin with how it all started in high school, I was the "popular athlete" and even made jokes about people suffering with anxiety. My girlfriend at the time could never take a test inside a classroom and instead had to go to an empty space where she would even struggle there. She said she had texting anxiety and I just kept making fun of her because I would say "everyone gets anxious for a test its not special". Short and simple for my high school experience, I was a bit of an ass. My senior year during a basketball game I broke down, I had no clue what was happening. I went straight to the ER believing I was having a heart attack, they tested me for everything and let me go saying everything was fine. I couldn't believe it, they must've missed something?
For the next couple months I went doctor to doctor believing there was something physical, just to be shut down every time. I missed the rest of my season, and my upcoming track season. It was a process of hell and back, everyday waking up hoping that something would just change, little did I realize me hoping for a day to magically appear and me to go back to "normal" was putting me into a tormenting cycle.
I then had to get ready for college, after suffering and suffering, eventually after nearly a year and a half I was able to come to the conclusion that I was having panic attacks, all by myself online through hours and hours of research everyday. I didn't want to believe it however because once again, I didn't believe in these things.
So now, as I am in college I began to freak out at the fact even more that it was all "mental" and not physical at all. I felt trapped in an endless cycle which then caused me to have agoraphobia, and at the time it made me feel better to hide away from others when I felt panicky, because I wasn't going to make a fool of myself.
I grew up in a family with a military father, and a mother who had the same beliefs of mental illness being something you can just tell your brain to shut out. It made me not seek any medical help or any medicine in fear that I would make them feel ashamed of me.
Long story short, after failing everything, after drinking away all my nights to hide the pain, I broke down when I came back home. I cried and cried and cried, and went to an online doctor that prescribed me lexapro. I'd like to point out that before this break down I tried everything natural, but was not religiously following these things.
If I didn't drink for a week, worked out, meditated, ate good, saw the sun for hours a day, then I would feel great going to bed at night and believe it was all gone, however every morning when I woke up I dreaded having to face these fears. Every single one of them was a challenge, I was scared of not having an escape from drinking, scared of how I would get to the gym and not panic, and trying not to panic while working out as my heartrate skyrocketed. Meditation was hard because I couldn't sit still, seeing the sun was difficult because I felt like my world was constantly spinning whenever I was outside in the open.
Eventually I took my lexapro, prescribed at 10mg and was expected to raise to 20mg. I decided to attempt it at 5mg.
After 2 months on 5mg lexapro, I can safely say that it can only account for probably 20% of my success, but it was a beautiful stepping stone into just being a tad bit less anxious.
I know this because in order for me to hope for it to work, I stopped drinking for a month, which led me to being more active and content with myself, which led to me being more successful in school, and people proud of me again.
After the second month mark I began drinking again, knowing that this was a horrible idea I still could not be ready to give up my social life as a fraternity member. It is basically instilled in us in this society that not drinking is bad, and especially in a group of guys that all love to crack open a beer and talk about their lives I knew I had to somehow fit it back into my lifestyle.
I went on a week long bender for spring break, did not take my lexapro at all, and let me say I did completely hate my life for a few days after as the brutal hangover was tearing me apart, alot of my progress that I made in the gym felt gone, I felt disgusting and ashamed, but interestingly enough I didn't have a single panic attack, even when my whole life felt it was falling apart.
I'm going to cut this short because I can ramble and ramble, but basically my life is one that is comparable to any other person now, somehow remarkably all the fear I have had has managed to subside, I even chuckle a little bit whenever I think "oh my gosh what if i panic". It sort has become something that I just laugh at because of how many years of my life it took away from me, kind of like if you were to get a text message from your ex that broke your heart saying she wanted to get back with you.
Did I mention my lexapro has given me zero side effects? zero. drinking was not affected, no problems with sex, no feeling down, just an overall feeling of hope that has snowballed into a new life.
I wish everyone that deals with this a great recovery, because trust me, through time you will find a solution as long as you keep moving forward. Whether it be naturally, or through medication, you will find some route that works for you.
Just remember never give yourself the title of someone that has "panic disorder", if it limits you multiple times through recovery, so be it, its a whole learning experience. I know that I am not completely free of "panic attacks" and will have probably many many more, but just knowing it will only strengthen me through time has given me a smile that I can hold with me through the harsh times.
Also, journal. journal. journal. Especially with the agoraphobia aspect of it all, whenever I accomplish something massive such as taking a test in a classroom, where I am stuck in one spot for hours at a time, it immediately goes into a journal and continues my snowball forward. It started with simple things such as being able to drive in an open spot, and has snowballed so far ahead as to where I can sit for hours in a public space without even thinking about it.
You will still have times of worrying about being stuck in the situations that you feared before, it will take hundreds of times until I believe that fear goes away, but just think of it as how you train your body physically. You won't be the massive guy in the gym after just a few months, instead it takes years of dedication and motivation.
Don't give up, the bright side is right there.
One last thing: Find a song that relates to your situation, use it as fuel. Mine was "better days" by Dermot Kennedy. After years of listening to this beautiful song, I sometimes love to just put it on at night and it immediately brings back all the beautiful accomplishments I have achieved.
Love you all, Love eachother, this is a special community that have a blessing in disguise, all it takes is hope and eachother.
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I am going to begin with how it all started in high school, I was the "popular athlete" and even made jokes about people suffering with anxiety. My girlfriend at the time could never take a test inside a classroom and instead had to go to an empty space where she would even struggle there. She said she had texting anxiety and I just kept making fun of her because I would say "everyone gets anxious for a test its not special". Short and simple for my high school experience, I was a bit of an ass. My senior year during a basketball game I broke down, I had no clue what was happening. I went straight to the ER believing I was having a heart attack, they tested me for everything and let me go saying everything was fine. I couldn't believe it, they must've missed something?
For the next couple months I went doctor to doctor believing there was something physical, just to be shut down every time. I missed the rest of my season, and my upcoming track season. It was a process of hell and back, everyday waking up hoping that something would just change, little did I realize me hoping for a day to magically appear and me to go back to "normal" was putting me into a tormenting cycle.
I then had to get ready for college, after suffering and suffering, eventually after nearly a year and a half I was able to come to the conclusion that I was having panic attacks, all by myself online through hours and hours of research everyday. I didn't want to believe it however because once again, I didn't believe in these things.
So now, as I am in college I began to freak out at the fact even more that it was all "mental" and not physical at all. I felt trapped in an endless cycle which then caused me to have agoraphobia, and at the time it made me feel better to hide away from others when I felt panicky, because I wasn't going to make a fool of myself.
I grew up in a family with a military father, and a mother who had the same beliefs of mental illness being something you can just tell your brain to shut out. It made me not seek any medical help or any medicine in fear that I would make them feel ashamed of me.
Long story short, after failing everything, after drinking away all my nights to hide the pain, I broke down when I came back home. I cried and cried and cried, and went to an online doctor that prescribed me lexapro. I'd like to point out that before this break down I tried everything natural, but was not religiously following these things.
If I didn't drink for a week, worked out, meditated, ate good, saw the sun for hours a day, then I would feel great going to bed at night and believe it was all gone, however every morning when I woke up I dreaded having to face these fears. Every single one of them was a challenge, I was scared of not having an escape from drinking, scared of how I would get to the gym and not panic, and trying not to panic while working out as my heartrate skyrocketed. Meditation was hard because I couldn't sit still, seeing the sun was difficult because I felt like my world was constantly spinning whenever I was outside in the open.
Eventually I took my lexapro, prescribed at 10mg and was expected to raise to 20mg. I decided to attempt it at 5mg.
After 2 months on 5mg lexapro, I can safely say that it can only account for probably 20% of my success, but it was a beautiful stepping stone into just being a tad bit less anxious.
I know this because in order for me to hope for it to work, I stopped drinking for a month, which led me to being more active and content with myself, which led to me being more successful in school, and people proud of me again.
After the second month mark I began drinking again, knowing that this was a horrible idea I still could not be ready to give up my social life as a fraternity member. It is basically instilled in us in this society that not drinking is bad, and especially in a group of guys that all love to crack open a beer and talk about their lives I knew I had to somehow fit it back into my lifestyle.
I went on a week long bender for spring break, did not take my lexapro at all, and let me say I did completely hate my life for a few days after as the brutal hangover was tearing me apart, alot of my progress that I made in the gym felt gone, I felt disgusting and ashamed, but interestingly enough I didn't have a single panic attack, even when my whole life felt it was falling apart.
I'm going to cut this short because I can ramble and ramble, but basically my life is one that is comparable to any other person now, somehow remarkably all the fear I have had has managed to subside, I even chuckle a little bit whenever I think "oh my gosh what if i panic". It sort has become something that I just laugh at because of how many years of my life it took away from me, kind of like if you were to get a text message from your ex that broke your heart saying she wanted to get back with you.
Did I mention my lexapro has given me zero side effects? zero. drinking was not affected, no problems with sex, no feeling down, just an overall feeling of hope that has snowballed into a new life.
I wish everyone that deals with this a great recovery, because trust me, through time you will find a solution as long as you keep moving forward. Whether it be naturally, or through medication, you will find some route that works for you.
Just remember never give yourself the title of someone that has "panic disorder", if it limits you multiple times through recovery, so be it, its a whole learning experience. I know that I am not completely free of "panic attacks" and will have probably many many more, but just knowing it will only strengthen me through time has given me a smile that I can hold with me through the harsh times.
Also, journal. journal. journal. Especially with the agoraphobia aspect of it all, whenever I accomplish something massive such as taking a test in a classroom, where I am stuck in one spot for hours at a time, it immediately goes into a journal and continues my snowball forward. It started with simple things such as being able to drive in an open spot, and has snowballed so far ahead as to where I can sit for hours in a public space without even thinking about it.
You will still have times of worrying about being stuck in the situations that you feared before, it will take hundreds of times until I believe that fear goes away, but just think of it as how you train your body physically. You won't be the massive guy in the gym after just a few months, instead it takes years of dedication and motivation.
Don't give up, the bright side is right there.
One last thing: Find a song that relates to your situation, use it as fuel. Mine was "better days" by Dermot Kennedy. After years of listening to this beautiful song, I sometimes love to just put it on at night and it immediately brings back all the beautiful accomplishments I have achieved.
Love you all, Love eachother, this is a special community that have a blessing in disguise, all it takes is hope and eachother.
2023.03.20 19:09 dat_mom_chick [Discussion] For Whom The Bell Tolls - Ch. 24-37
Discussion #4
Next week We will read ch. 38-the end. This section was pretty heavy. I have a lot I wanted to cover so let me know your thoughts on any of these notes. I felt a little all over the place due to the amount of content we covered!Summary
Augustín confesses he also loves Maria when suddenly RJ hears fighting in the distance at El Sordos. They don't leave their spot. He orders Augustin and Anselmo to remain in their spots. Primitivo desperately wants to go help El Sordo and his comrades, but RJ says he was expecting this attack all morning and the men have already lost, they lost when the snow stopped. After the snow stopped, their tracks were traceable.Pilar joins them and informs them everything is packed and ready to go while the guns are firing in the distance. An observation planes flies above them towards El Sordos. The firing stopped and it was apparent that El sordos camp had been surrounded and the cavalry were waiting for planes to start bombing them.
While RJ waited for planes, he read through the letters he found on the man he shot that morning. He read letters from his parents and from his fiance. He didn't want to read the rest of the letters.
On the hilltop, El Sordo and his men hide behind his dead horse in the last moments of their lives and make a fool of the Lieutenant Berrendo and his men by playing dead and then shooting Captiain Moro dead when he came close. The planes come and bomb the hill, killing everyone except Joaquin, who is unconscious. Lieutenant Berrendo orders his men to take the head of El Sordo. After some thought, he commands them to take all of El Sordo's men's heads. He does not stay to watch them get beheaded.
Robert Jordan saw the men leave on horse with something he couldn't make out, "the load one saddle bore of a long rolled poncho tied at each end and at intervals so that it bulged between each lashing as a pod bulges with peas. Anselmo sees the heads and prays for the first time since the start of the war. Lieutenant Berrendo grieves his dead friend, Julian.
Anselmo reports the fascists' preparations to RJ. He sends a letter to the general, via Andres across enemy lines to headquarters, that recommends not to blow the bridge and not to start the offensive. Pablo tells Robert Jordan he respects him and his judgment and he has confidence in him, but RJ was not listening.
RJ reminisces about his family…his mother bullied his weak father who finally committed suicide with a rifle his grandfather used in the American Civil War. He regrets never meeting his grandfather.
He then thinks that the bridge will not be called off because the because those making the decision will only think of the success it could bring.
Maria and Robert Jordan spend their last night together before blowing up the bridge. He is optimistic that word will come tomorrow from the general, but he knows either tomorrow or one day he will blow up the bridge or another bridge. Maria tells him Pilar said they are all going to die tomorrow and that RJ knows. They pretend they will go live in Madrid and talk of fantasies. Maria opens up about her past, her parents were shot by Falangists in front of her before they tied her up and cut her hair, and presumably raped her.
Back in Madrid, Karkov discovers the German commander has been spreading word about the next day’s offensive. Karkov talks to a journalist who tells him that the fascists have been bombing their own troops near Segovia. Karkov is annoyed by the indiscretion and is worried about Robert Jordan. He speaks with a Hungarian General who expresses he could go to the general’s headquarters and talk to Golz, but he does not feel welcome to go there so he will not go. Karkov goes to sleep but plans to wake up at 2am to join the offensive.
Sometime in the middle of the night, Pilar wakes up RJ to tell him Pablo has stolen his detonators. He does not get angry with her.
Andres rides through the night to deliver the message to General Golz. He is relieved that he was asked to deliver the message because killing thrills him.
Robert Jordan lies awake angry at the thieving Pablo and then calms down.. He thinks of how he can still complete his task without enough people, weapons, or horses…he thinks they will all die tomorrow but the bridge will get blown. His wedding present to Maria is a good night’s sleep.
Andres is stopped at a checkpoint and interrogated repeatedly because they think he is a fascist with forged papers. Finally they escort him in and take his weapons. Robert Jordan and Maria sleep together for the last time before it starts. He is watching the clock and seems anxious. RJ thinks about how these people of Pablo have become like his family.
Notes:
-Hemingway portrays Maria with earthly imagery. Her hair is “the golden brown of a grain field” and “breasts like small hills”, and when they have sex the earth moves for Robert jordan. She represents the pull of nature in his life (Ref: sparknotes)-some of the portrayal in the Gaylord signifies some of the Republic’s downfall…gossipy, self indulgent, stupid mistakes, the journalists more concerned about theatrics than spreading inaccurate content, the hungarian general who does not want to go see the general on behalf of robert jordan and could decide his fate for him... This represents the guerillas know what is going on in the war vs the Republican leadership whom is out of touch and enjoying luxury, leaving their guerilla people with a sense of betrayal and poverty (Ref: Sparknotes)
-the speculation is the Soviets only care about the war for the sake of their own country and to spread communism (litcharts)
-Falange - an extreme nationalist political party in spain. In context, maria wanted revenge against Falangists
-UHP- this was written on Maria’s head during the assault. It stands for Union de hermanos Proletarios (a communist association)
Quotes I Liked:
“There is a hollow empty feeling that a man can have when he is waked too early in the morning that is almost like the feeling of disaster and he had this multiplied by a thousand times.”“They were outside now and it was still so near the middle of the night that you could not feel the morning coming.” so descriptive, i can picture it perfectly”
“God, i’m glad i got over being angry. It was like not being able to breathe in a storm.”
Next Monday will be the last discussion.
2023.03.20 19:08 sarahdib Uhh... Thoughts? 🤣
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2023.03.20 19:08 ariloveverything 20 [F4M] #Montreal, QC - small brunette looks for older man.
Hi, my name is Ariane and im looking for an older man between the ages of 30-50. I am very nice and very loving, i can get jealous, i want at least 1 kid, i love japan and horror, i like talking a lot, i want to travel the world and i'm autistic but don't be shy!
**Attention: If interested, send me a photo of yourself first.
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2023.03.20 19:07 1czl Help recovering my family lives.
Basically my story is I'm a 19 year old man who lives in uae since birth me and my family always lived in amazing condition and high standard of life but as all things in life nothing lasts forever. It all started in the covid pandemic My dad was at his financial peak working on various projects me and sisters were all in school and was loving life When the covid pandemic started it froze all the projects and made us struggle financially but we were able to go through it But after 2 years of the pandemic my dad wasn't paid any amount by the guys who contracted him and wrote him cheques So my dad decided he will sue them but unfortunately my dad had a dangerous accident which broke his femur and made him suffer for 6+ months and broke us financially Currently we are in very bad situation me and my sisters have no education and no health insurance and i have dropped in weight 12+ kg because of the difficulty of food and we will soon get kicked out of the apartment we renting And I'm extremely depressed and can't handle life anymore and having bad thoughts and this is my last resort Anyway what i want help with right now is someone who is a lawyer or know a lawyer who is willing to help us get our life's back and in return get a big cut from the retrieved amount for the following case:
My dad has several cheques from a guy my dad helped build a luxurious restaurant in a luxurious landmark in Dubai and isn't paying my dad The cheques equal a very big amount The guy is a millionaire and has asset's in UAE worth alot And he is still in UAE And the restaurant is in his name Previously my dad has consulated many lawyers all of them agreed that it would be a easy winnable case But unfortunately right now we don't have the funds to pay lawyecourt fees upfront We maybe can get a very small amount but that's it But we are willing to give a percentage to the lawyer from the amount Please if anyone can help us Pm me so i give you my dad number
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My dad has several cheques from a guy my dad helped build a luxurious restaurant in a luxurious landmark in Dubai and isn't paying my dad The cheques equal a very big amount The guy is a millionaire and has asset's in UAE worth alot And he is still in UAE And the restaurant is in his name Previously my dad has consulated many lawyers all of them agreed that it would be a easy winnable case But unfortunately right now we don't have the funds to pay lawyecourt fees upfront We maybe can get a very small amount but that's it But we are willing to give a percentage to the lawyer from the amount Please if anyone can help us Pm me so i give you my dad number
2023.03.20 19:07 amominwa Advice
I am planning on filing for divorce. My husband won't leave the home, and things are contentious, and there has been abuse in the past from him to me. However he just started outpatient treatment a couple of weeks ago. He's still being manipulative and I just moved my paycheck to another account due to his insistence of taking cash out and messing up finances. I make less then half of what he does though which will make it impossible for me to pay the mortgage and most bills. He won't work with me so I'm not sure what to do next. I need an attorney but again, money is an issue. He has been sleeping on the couch but sneaks into my bedroom and goes through my personal belongings on the one day I need to report in office. I am just over all of this control and want to be left alone. My name is primary on the house, but his name is joint. I would appreciate any advice or helpful thoughts.
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2023.03.20 19:07 AwesomeNerd18 Good voice changer software
For my job, my boss wants me to create training videos for our system that the whole company will see. I absolutely hate hearing my voice. I am looking for a software that can change my voice. My boss suggested to just record a zoom session with me going over our system however I have already deleted each video since I don't like the sound of my voice. Any suggestions on voice changer software that won't make me sound like a chipmunk? Any that will work on Zoom? Or if not, any software that I can record with?
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2023.03.20 19:06 britt2376 [A][US][Stormrage]
Eclipsed-to have deprived (someone or something) of significance, power, or prominence.
Our goal is to achieve the Eclipsing of bosses, M+, Mounts, and every other aspect of the game.
Eclipsed, on Stormrage, was created by a group of veteran players that want to build a community-oriented guild that encompasses all aspects of the game and doing it with other people to achieve our best possible playability. We are recruiting for multiple raid teams, PVP, keystones and more.
Our raid teams and current needs (we are always looking for exceptional DPS/Heals)
Raider.IO
Our Website
CONTACTS
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Our goal is to achieve the Eclipsing of bosses, M+, Mounts, and every other aspect of the game.
Eclipsed, on Stormrage, was created by a group of veteran players that want to build a community-oriented guild that encompasses all aspects of the game and doing it with other people to achieve our best possible playability. We are recruiting for multiple raid teams, PVP, keystones and more.
Our raid teams and current needs (we are always looking for exceptional DPS/Heals)
Dark Star (AOTC/Mythic) 8/8N 8/8H 5/8M Vault of the Incarnates Tuesday and Thursday 8:00-11:00pm EST NEEDS: Melee DPS (WW Monk) -------------------------------------- Cosmic Shift (AOTC/Mythic) 8/8N 8/8H 2/8M Vault of the Incarnates Saturday and Sunday 7:00-10:00pm EST NEEDS: Ranged DPS (Mage) --------------------------------------- Tidal Acceleration (AOTC/Mythic) 8/8H 4/8M Vault of the Incarnates Tuesday and Thursday 8:30-11:30pm EST NEEDS: Melee DPS (WW Monk) Ranged DPS (Priest, Mage, Balance Druid) --------------------------------------- Nova (Normal/Heroic Learning Raid) Saturday 8-11pm EST NEEDS: Accepting all ------------------------------------ Space Balls (Rated RBG Team) Sundays 9:30pm EST NEEDS: Healer Ranged DPS (Mage) Melee DPS (Rogue, Frost/Unholy DK)In a raider, we expect the will and drive to learn and collaborate, as well as openness to constructive criticism, initiative to research and master your class, and the desire to progress at a moderate pace by
- bringing a positive attitude. We want mature, goal-oriented, and chill raiders who enjoy raiding and want to be here to have a good time with us.
- Each minute of raid time is valuable. We need you to be punctual and prepared.
- We also expect you to know the boss strategies. Fights are a lot less frustrating when everyone is prepared and knows what to do ahead of time. Speaking up and asking a question when you don’t understand a mechanic or strategy is encouraged.
Raider.IO
Our Website
CONTACTS
Nakkita/Recruiting Lead - Discord: Nakkita#7971 BTag: britt2376#1776 Swizz/Dark Star Recruiter - Discord: SwizzNanaz#5766 Jay/GM and Cosmic Shift RL - Discord: Whitezilla#0001 BTag: Jussgetit
2023.03.20 19:06 NvrMindSynopsis Looking for MTB Trails (Unsanctioned) in Orange County, CA
Looking for some directions to Some great Technical or fast flowing Trails in Orange County, CA Sanctioned or Unsanctioned. I’ve been really interested in the group of Unsanctioned trails a YouTuber by the name of Tommy Huynh calls the “OC Steeps”. Can’t figure out what set of trails there’s are and would love to give um a rip. However, always up for other suggestions!
Here’s a list of trails I’ve already rode in the OC.
-Santiago Oaks (Chutes Ridgeline, Cactus, etc) -Lynx -Rock-it -5 Oaks -Car Wreck
Appreciate the time. Thanks in advance.
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Here’s a list of trails I’ve already rode in the OC.
-Santiago Oaks (Chutes Ridgeline, Cactus, etc) -Lynx -Rock-it -5 Oaks -Car Wreck
Appreciate the time. Thanks in advance.