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2023.06.07 11:22 RobJHayes Self Published Fantasy Releases – June 2023
| https://preview.redd.it/y71r0t8gdk4b1.jpg?width=2069&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=28b6c1617e39d6e9d534b7ae5a49457ee7814c23 You can find the original blog post, complete with all the shiny covers, here. If you would like to be kept up to date with the upcoming lists, please subscribe to my newsletter by clicking this link. I don’t send out letters too often, pretty much once a month when this list goes out… and occasionally if I release a book or something. As always, this is not a comprehensive list, but only includes all the books I have heard about so far. If you have a fantasy novel you are self publishing in June or beyond, let me know by filling out THIS FORM, and I shall add it to the page. There are but 3 requirements: 1) It must be a self published fantasy novel. 2) It must have a Goodreads page. 3) It must have a cover. -- 1st June – The Pyres of Vengeance (Swords of Dominion #2) by N.C. Koussis Epic Fantasy, Grimdark After losing everything she knew, Selene struggles to keep hope alive. Terrifying threats from the capital test her in ways she never thought possible. Richter can’t destroy himself or the corruption that lives in his body. He won’t let anything stop him from his mission, though – to kill every other werewolf on the Continent. The Order of the Golden Sword cares not for the laws of men. They’ll do anything to wipe the lycanthrope haven of Palerme from existence. But no one has ever faced an army of werewolves before. Goodreads -- 1st June – Tristan’s Regret (The Return of King Arthur #3) by Jacob Sannox Urban Fantasy, Sword & Sorcery, Historical Fantasy In the 5th century, Tristan and Isolde are at the mercy of the scheming Morgana Le Fay, who seeks to undermine King Arthur’s alliance with Cornwall. The consequences of their actions echo down the centuries and, in 2021, Arthur, Tristan and the Knights of the Round Table desperately hunt the last remaining followers of Malagant, an immortal ally of the dead sorceress. Will Arthur finally live up to his own legend, and can anything put an end to Tristan’s regret? Goodreads -- 1st June – The Exile of Zanzibar (Railroad to Zanzibar #1) by Daniel Maidman Epic Fantasy, Historical Fantasy Claire built a device to fold space and time. It had a flaw… When the smoke clears, she finds herself halfway across the world, thousands of years in the past, and no device in sight. In bronze-age Florence, war has lasted for generations. All Claire wants to do is get home, but she’ll need help from the locals. She wins an ally in Marcus Diophantus, a pickpocket turned soldier turned general, who hopes to turn into something more than just her champion. Together, they broker peace between Florence and its enemy. If Marcus is going to help Claire, he’ll have to survive. Peace has upset the balance of power in the capital city. The king stands increasingly alone against: the Constantines, a commercial enterprise as much as a clan, who aim to profit from peace as they have from war – the warrior nobles, descended from the founders of Florence and quick to turn against a weak throne – and Reburrus, the high priest of Florence, convinced Claire answers to hostile foreign gods. As the city comes to a boil, Claire and Marcus – and Marcus’s formidable army – will have to decide where their allegiance lies. Claire becomes a reluctant participant in a savage campaign. While Marcus leads the battles, she tries to gain control of the unimaginably powerful Ctesiphôn – a ghost tower in the heart of Florence, shrouded in magic and myth. Goodreads -- 1st June – Captain (All that Glitters #2) by Shalaena Medford Grimdark, Gaslamp Mere weeks have passed since Tsingsei “Song” Gould’s world fell into ashes. Now she must accept her role as captain of the Stars’ Bounty. The crew returns to the skies to do what they do best: piracy. They travel the world, visiting new countries and finding an adventure wherever they go. In the frigid south, Song finds there are answers to her questions about kijæm…with a caveat. In the trading country, she gains confidence in her notoriety. In the exotic west, she makes a terrible mistake. However, one of Song’s dearest friends has become a wanted man, and they must find a way to free him of the price on his head. Will she commit the highest crime in the world, or will she lose him to the gallows? Goodreads -- 1st June – Buzzard’s Bowl (Tragedy of Cedain #2) by John Palladino Epic Fantasy, Grimdark Cedain continues to collapse. Ashmount’s destruction shatters the Magicai while the culprits responsible continue sabotaging the world. All the while, the next season of Buzzard’s Bowl begins and Edelbrock, in his constant fight for survival, desires a vengeance he can only find in the arena. Seradal and Villic find themselves in the middle of a war between Remeria and the Camel Clans, and may end up on opposing sides, while the threat of Calrym looms over all of them. At the behest of the woman he loves, Demri finds himself thrown into the Elkavich, a not-so-secret order of Magicai who are intent upon fixing the world. Ashen, a former urchin rescued by a noble with selfish aspirations, works to dismantle the nobility of Calrym. Death is assured to all who walk the world, the only unknown is when they will perish. Goodreads -- 1st June – On Winds of Ruin (The Deimachy #2) by Lincoln Law A friendship betrayed. An unfamiliar land. The winds of ruin blow. Roisin is still reeling from events at the end of A Crown of Blood. She feels lost, broken and alone in the world. Torn with what to do next, Roisin chooses to make the fateful trip across the Skybinder border into enemy territory in the hopes of gaining new allies for the fight against the Soulmongers. At her side is her fox companion, Vulpo; the last of the Bloodsingers, Mei; and a Skybinder of questionable allegiance named Giack. However, Roisin’s actions draw the attention of the Skybinder nobility, entrapping her into political machinations with deadly outcomes. Piritta, newly reborn Soulmonger, is tasked with the search for the final member of the Soulmonger Triumvirate to lead the army to victory. And Kaori, leader of the Soulmongers, is given her own task, granting her more power than she could have ever imagined. The choices these young women must make will tear them apart, fracture them all, leaving cracks for something darker to seep in. And in the end, only the one with the strongest resolve will endure. Goodreads -- 1st June – The Nameless Restaurant by Tao Wong Urban Fantasy, Cozy Fantasy There is a restaurant in Toronto. Its entrance is announced only by a simple, unadorned wooden door, varnished to a beautiful shine but without paint, hidden beside dumpsters and a fire escape. There is no sign, no indication of what lies behind the door. If you do manage to find the restaurant, the décor is dated and worn. Homey, if one were to be generous. The service is atrocious, the proprietor a grouch. The regulars are silent, brooding, and unfriendly to newcomers. There is no set menu, alternating with the whim and whimsy of the owner. The selection of wine and beer is sparse or non-existent at times, and the prices for everything outrageous. There is a restaurant in Toronto that is magically hidden, whose service is horrible, but whose food is divine. This is the story of the Nameless Restaurant. Goodreads -- 4th June – Gold, Lock and Key (Grimdark Fairytales #1) by E.J. Doble Grimdark “All it needs, is a bit of tenacity… and three little bears.” Goldie, an outlaw and contract hunter of the Baron’s State, accepts a new assignment from her employer to find an old cabin in the woods, home to three ‘shapeshifters’ who can morph into bears. Considered to be little more than a myth, Goldie assumes at first that the shapeshifters are an exaggeration – but with the sizeable bounty her employer is offering, she soon realises there may be more truth in it than she realised. And that isn’t the only thing on her mind: she discovers her main rival – a manipulative and incredibly cunning trapper named Southey – has also taken on the contract, and will be contending for the same bounty she so fervently desires. Having waited many long years to have her revenge and outsmart Southey for past mistakes, Goldie sees the new contract as a perfect opportunity to do so. All she has to do is play her cards just right. And kill three bears… Goodreads -- 4th June – Waybound (Cradle #12) by Will Wight Progression/Cultivation, Epic Fantasy Years ago, Lindon left his home as a powerless Unsouled. Now, he goes to war with the most powerful beings in the world over the future of Cradle itself. The Weeping Dragon has a grudge to settle, and Lindon intends to take out the Dreadgod with his friends by his side. But rival Monarchs know his plans, and they won’t let things end so easily. If Lindon does win, he will ascend to the heavens. But he may not find a safe haven there either. In the worlds above, Suriel and Ozriel face off against the Mad King to determine the new shape of the cosmos. The victor will decide the fate of countless universes. Whether he wins or dies, Lindon will soon leave this life behind. Goodreads -- 6th June – Champions of Light (The Light Series #1) by Althea Damgaard Epic Fantasy Rhoanda runs away when her father betrays her trust by arranging her marriage without telling her. She had freedom to be herself, unlike her sisters, but in the end, she should have expected this. Winter still hangs on in the mountains, unlike the beach she left, and it could be another month until the pass to the west opens. Her funds run out and the city guard catches her stealing. Instead of a cell, they take her to the Cathedral of Light, which rivals a fortress. There she learns the truth about the Light while trying to hide who she really is. Her parents, who embrace the Dark, have the power to take over the mountain kingdom and could use her as the excuse to do so. Sergeant Vern can’t shake his desire to drink nor his anger at the Lord of Light for the disease that crippled and killed his sister at a young age. The cathedral lets him work with the class of deviants under his alias, but time is running out. The worse spring thaw of the century arrives and despite the great Cathedral of Light, the Dark has found a deep root in the kingdom. Worse, prophecies of the spiritual war manifesting in the physical come true as a mural changes before their eyes and its images step into their lives. Vern needs to accept the truth that sets him free of the curse cast upon his family so he can step into his true role. A truth that his sister professed about the Light through all her pain unto her last breath when angels took her home. Will their faith in the Light be enough to overcome their trials and save a kingdom? Goodreads -- 6th June – imPerfect Curse (The imPerfect Cathar #2) by C.N. Rowan Urban Fantasy I’m exhausted. Done in. Needing a stiff drink and about a week’s sleep. But that’s not going to happen. Because Franc is dying, struck by a curse placed on him by the Sistren Of Bordeaux, one of the most powerful groups of Talented in France. And because of our deal, it’s on me to find out what the hell is going on, and how Franc has offended the Sistren. Apart from by simply existing, of course. Except a simple trip to Bordeaux turns into a living nightmare as the past comes back to not just haunt me but to kick me square in the nuts, and I’m sent to the one place no Talented ever wants to go. Where those with magic either vanish or get ruined, left as nothing but empty husks. This time, it might not be the world at risk. It might be my very soul. Goodreads -- 6th June – Lira by Armanis Ar-Feinial Grimdark, Horror Lira is an innocent little girl, struggling to survive in a cruel, heartless world. As her father dies, she is left to fend for herself. Each day is a desperate and exhausting search for food, scouring through the Abyss, the only home she knows. Acute awareness does not always protect her from the very real risk of cannibalization or worse– being abducted. This is a horrifying reality that no child should have to face in a brutally poetic tale Goodreads -- 6th June – Girl Squad Volition (Volta Academy Chronicles #2) by Maya Lin Wang Progression/Cultivation, YA Magical girls, mystery, and martial arts! After transforming for the first time, Wren starts class at Aurin Academy, a floating school where students from across the dimensions train to defend the sovereign planets of the Kiloverse from the Cosmic horrors beyond. From learning to fly, to discovering her magical aptitude, to dealing with a trident-wielding water Volta who inexplicably wants her dead, to navigating the fraught politics of her first mission with the squad, Wren has her work cut out for her! Goodreads -- 13th June – Fat Witch Summer – Lizzy Ives YA, Cozy Fantasy Dumplin’ meets The Craft in this body-positive fantasy novel for fans of summer road trips, female friendship, and magic. Sixteen-year-old Thrash doesn’t enchant eyeliner over her lids or clear her acne with magic. She is plus-size, but she doesn’t hate what she sees in the mirror—that’s the realm of her mother, Osmarra, a slim and elegant Glamour witch. When Thrash unexpectedly breaks a mirror with her mind, she discovers she has a knack for magic and will receive one of the three sanctioned Gifts: Glamour, Growth, or Sight. The only problem is that mothers choose the Gifts, and Osmarra is convinced that the Gift of Glamour will fix her daughter’s looks. When Thrash fails to persuade Osmarra to accept her as she is, a trio of cool witches who call themselves The Lunes offer her an out. Their leader, fiery and charismatic Cresca, recruits Thrash for a road trip to New Salem University, where the girls plan to steal their own Gifts. As Thrash crosses the magical Thirteen States of America, Osmarra hot on her heels, she discovers bewitched diners, haunted tourist traps, and a secret about the Gifts that will change the Thirteen States forever. Goodreads -- 16th June – When the Stars Alight (The Essence of the Equinox #1) by Camilla Andrew Gaslamp A maiden of the stars. A monster from the shadows. A collision that rewrites their worlds. Princess Laila Rose is a fallen star in human form. A beloved guardian to humanity. Yet in spite of these fantastical origins, she has never much believed in prophecies. That’s why when a demon of apocalyptic legend is presented to her in a block of ice, she feels fascination rather than fright. Curiosity kindles into mutual desire once he breaks free of his captivity. Far from the rampaging beast of mass destruction everyone expects—he is monstrously handsome, deviously articulate and alluringly mysterious, a prince among his kind. Eager to discover his origins, Laila travels from her idyllic seaside realm into a land of unspeakable horrors, relying on her wits to survive her journey. She arrives aiming to establish peaceful contact with the aid of the besotted prince. However, it becomes clear that the heartless demon king does not desire peace at all, only war and conquest. When diplomacy fails, Laila turns to the king’s suave and manipulative bastard son in the hopes that she can inspire both him and his trueborn brother to go against their father. But soon it is her heart she must keep from being torn between their centuries-old dangerous rivalry. Goodreads -- 16th June – The Orb and the Airship (Turrim Archive #1) by Jenelle Leanne Schmidt Steampunk, Cozy Fantasy A rogue airship captain. An ambitious youth. A clash of powers beyond their imagination. With scholarships to a prestigious military school, Grayden and Wynn are thirsty for adventure. But the night before they leave, they discover the mysterious Dalmir and his arcane orb in the forsaken tower outside of town. The old man, who seems to have a wealth of knowledge of what came before and yet so little of the now, insists on accompanying them as they travel to the academy. Meanwhile, all pirate Captain Marik wants is to keep to the skies, take his due, and care for his crew. Then a straightforward pillaging mission on a ship of fresh academy students leads to betrayal from one of his own and an unlikely friendship forged by necessity. Yet this new alliance stirs up ancient foes and a conflict too terrible to ignore. Despite Grayden’s inexperience and Marik’s skepticism, working together with Dalmir is their only option. The fate of the world depends on it. Goodreads -- 17th June – Molten Flux (Flux Catastrophe #1) by Jonathan Weiss Epic Fantasy, Sci-Fantasy As the freshest conscript aboard the walking fortress of Revance, Ryza forges a name for himself in battle. The enemy are the smelters, bandits that trade in reanimated corpses. But for Ryza, the bloodshed represents a path of redemption for an upbringing he’s just escaped. His prowess with a rifle draws the interest of the Locusts, a clandestine faction within Revance’s ranks. It turns out that not all aboard the fortress seek to stamp out the plague of molten flux, the mysterious liquid metal that fills the bodies of the dead and makes them walk again. Some seek to profit. The reanimated corpses —known as autominds— are used to control enormous contraptions of magnetically enchanted metal, forming the backbone of The Droughtland’s factories. The only thing stopping the smelters from expanding their illicit industry is Revance. The Locusts make Ryza an offer. Either help overthrow Revance to do the smelter’s bidding or reveal his father’s legacy as the very thing Ryza now fights against. The former is unthinkable. The latter means death. Ryza resolves to infiltrate them and expose the mutiny, plunging him back into the murky underworld of the smelters, testing his convictions, and even leading him to the ancient origins of molten flux itself. Goodreads- -- 18th June – Enchanted Flames ANTHOLOGY (Enchanted Anthologies #3) by Various Authors YA If you play with fire, you might get burned… Dig into this magical collection of short stories and discover among the embers ten fiery fantasy tales to set your heart ablaze. Sneak past the ancient dragon as you steal from his hoard of gold and escape with the crown jewels. Journey deep into the Salamander Kingdom and follow the wyverns as they help the woodwitch to find the cure. Walk over earth scorched by a post-apocalyptic sun on a quest for survival, and find out why the firebird only eats golden apples. Watch the phoenix rise from the ashes and root for the golden dragon to woo his demigoddess in the Magic Kingdom. Goodreads -- 20th June – Guild of Magic (NYC Questing Guild) by Jon Auerbach Urban Fantasy Joining the Guild was only the beginning. Now Jen’s next quest could spell life or death. Jen Jacobs thought she was in over her head when she first discovered the secret Quest Board and the world of alchemy and magic hiding just out of sight in New York City. But after a ghost from her mentor Beatrice Taylor’s past nearly kills the two of them, Jen finds herself on the cusp of joining the fabled Guild. Except now Beatrice has gone missing, leaving Jen alone to face the shadowy organization and its 11 members by herself. If that wasn’t enough, the Guild’s chairman forces Jen to complete yet another dangerous quest to prove that she belongs: stealing a long-lost vial of Dragon’s blood that is the key ingredient to recreating the legendary Philosopher’s Stone. As Jen’s past mistakes begin to catch up with her, she’ll need to muster all of her ingenuity to survive in the cutthroat world of ancient Relics, magical dynasties, and a possible immortal secretly directing things from behind the scenes. Goodreads -- 21st June – Hierachy of the Unseen by B. Pigeon & Fell A. Marsh Epic Fantasy Demons and humans are locked in endless struggle. This is an intrinsic fact of nature. The demons believe their salvation lies in bleeding humanity of the life-force called light, while the humans are equally determined to defend it. Within the sprawling empire of Lu-nevet, the two sides have settled into an uneasy peace, employing less violent tactics. But this peace can only hold for so long. The state religion of Lukeira sends devout demon hunter Mitzli deep into the borderlands to bless the victims of demonic pranks. Once they arrive, however, they find unexpected signs of violence. They team up with irreligious hunter Veleiry to investigate—and the destruction the two uncover is an ominous sign of what’s to come. Meanwhile, shiftless demon Kor falls under the scrutiny of his vampiric commander, Mant—meaning he must actually do the work of tormenting humans, rather than taking credit from his now-ex-partner Yez. Slowly, he begins to realize that the demons’ strategy is shifting, and may be heading down a path he cannot follow. Mitzli and Kor will have to betray their respective factions if they want to put an end to the violence before it escalates. But the two of them, both outcasts among their own kind, are the only ones who know the truth. How can they protect the world if no one will listen? Goodreads -- 27th June – Temper the Dark by L. Ryan Storms Epic Fantasy, YA Servant girl Alaris Kahlanik finds out about her family’s gift the hard way when she discovers her ability to dreamwalk after being condemned to the Cells. With thoughts of escape, she uses her newfound ability to spy on the emperor and his secret search for something important. Nothing the emperor wants could possibly be good for the people he rules, and so whatever the emperor is looking for, Alaris must find first. Throlani Guardsman Kagan Liis has served the Empire since Emperor Patuk’s reign began eight years ago. He can also communicate with a vicious oracle referred to only as the Darkness. When the Darkness tasks Kagan with investigating the Servant girl in the Cells, Kagan takes on a special mission that will require more than his usual interrogation methods of brute strength and intimidation. From vastly different echelons of the same tribal society, Alaris and Kagan are surprised to learn they share one important goal—ensuring the best for the people of their island nation. Alaris discovers what the emperor is looking for — a dragon! But warning a senile dragon against impending danger is no easy task. Together, Alaris and Kagan must save a forgetful dragon and a divided nation…which may mean giving up any hope of saving themselves. Goodreads -- 30th June – Quin of Light (The Quins of Sarcaren #1) by Mark Parker Epic Fantasy, YA The quins of Sarcaren have awoken. . . Auri. Gifted with power over lightning that fascinates and frightens her in equal measure, power she must bring to the fore when horror strikes her people. Torren and Aaran. Twins with growing mastery over the physical and the mental. A potent mix of brains and brawn, both vying for the approval of the kingdom’s greatest warrior. Koshi. Beset with sickness caused by the fire that threatens to burn her from the inside. And Caetan. The youngest prince of Sarcaren who bends water to his desire but whose will and words are shackled by a devastating sorceress. Alone, they pose little threat. Separated at birth – mere pawns to be used by the city of Sarcaren as an unknown enemy rumbles in the north. Alone, they are mere children caught in a dangerous and confusing world of betrayal and fear. Together, they are bound by a curse that will one day kill them all. Together, they will devastate kingdoms. Goodreads -- Space for more... submitted by RobJHayes to Fantasy [link] [comments] |
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2023.06.07 11:15 muntalgunt Why would you not believe me?
From the start, I told you I have memory problems. That I rarely remember what happened yesterday, or three weeks ago, longer. I’ve not found anyone on OLD who wants a ticket for this ride, because of my disability, and I don’t blame them — I’m always in agony. Had I no kids, I’d have ended it years ago. Nearly did a few years back, when I dry-fired both of my dad’s pistols for a solid half hour, one for the heart, one for the head.
Treating the myriad symptoms is hell, and efficacy hovers around 40% on my best day, night. The drugs are so heavy and mind-altering, which would fuck anyone’s memory, but in this forced nocturnal schedule, or lack thereof, it takes so much time and effort to jog a memory obliterated by insomnia and heavy duty drugs that make pharmacists think I have three cancers and severe osteoporosis. You wouldn’t believe me. It hurts. Even now, interrogating what’s left of my brain to write this, the stress has symptoms climbing my extremities, burning away all coherence, and fully half my personality. I want you, stars. Thought I’d found my only, stars. I’m lying here, fresh ice packs made tepid in minutes, unsure, unwanted, unnecessary. Probably no one will ever be able to be around me, but that capricious bastardly flicker of hope for one more love drives me to seek you here, now. But I can’t keep up; attempting to find you posting here is futile because everyone says the same thing, and there are more heartbroken primates posting than I can keep up with. It’s you or no one. It’s been you or no one this whole time, but my addled, shit mind won’t operate properly, and though I do forget a lot of things, it’s only been you. I feel often that you routinely pushed me away out of fear. We all fear, but it’s been you and only you, this whole time, and nothing I could say would convince you otherwise.
It’s probably for the best that I cease all attempts to find my partner. I feel sick at the thought of even attempting to chat with someone new, to make clear that I am a severely wounded primate meatsack, and I am and have been unable to be for anyone this last decade of debilitating illness. The steel trap that was once my mind is now a block of swiss cheese, part of it molding and oozing, the other, left in the microwave too long then tossed out. I’m sorry. I did my best, truly. Goodnight, stars. ❤️.
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2023.06.07 11:10 Nikolarevic Fractal Terra with Ryzen 7900 and Nvidia 3080
I currently own an HP Omen 30L containing an HP 3080 inside that works fine.
I was planning to build a smaller ITX case while taking out the 3080 from the HP but I'd rather ask your opinion about it.
Initial thought were driving me to the NR200P Max that looked "easy" to build but I fell in love with the Fractal Terra that was recently presented. It's tiny, a lovely design and looked quite promising after reading the reviews.
I know thermal performance might be an issue but I was initially targeting the ryzen 7900 non X due to it's low TDP and good performance. I know it's not the best ratio between Performance vs Price but it's the choice I made.
Now, do you believe that the combination Ryzen 7900 non X+ Nvidia 3080 might work in the fractal without any thermal issue ?
Thank you by advance guys
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2023.06.07 11:09 __SinglePlayer__ Have I (23M) done the right thing by cutting odf the contact with someone I have been texting to? (26F)
I will try to make this short. I have meet this woman on Reddit, she texted me first with something light and random, and we soon moved to Instagram. As times went on, we kept texting, voice calling each other and generally keeping a good company to each other. Since she lives 5 hours from my place, we never meet and just had fun online. And this went on for few months.
Now, I know that love is too strong word for someone you have never meet, so I will not call it that way. But I did feel something about her, and so she did for me, at least she said it and I do not doubt it, since we spent like 2 or 3 hours almost every night talking to each other. I did feel some sort of connection, and it is hard to explain, but it is as if I felt her on a deeper level, could feel some of her struggles and feelings about the world.
Anyways, one day I have finally decided to travel to her town, with my best friend. The goal was not simply to meet her, but to have fun with a friend, and if sth happens with her thats a bonus.
I did tell her that I will be there in advance, and she told me she is busy that weekend since her brother had wedding and she had to study. I did respect that, but to be fair, I still hopef she will find at least 15 minutes in those 2 days to go for a coffee.
When I got to her country, I told her that I am there, and if she happens to find some time for me, to let me know. This is when she started being agressive, told me I do not respect her brothers wedding and her time.
I do think that for the one part she was right - this is important family event. So I did not keep this fight, I minded my own business, and kept on with my journey.
That night we ended at her hometown (my friend wanted to go there, unrelated to her), and I was like, okay, after 6 months I am here, it is dumb to keep fighting. I sent her a message, apologized for being disrespectful about her free time and told her that I understand that is priority. However, I informed her that if she wants to meet that or the other night, I will be opened for that.
In the meantime, we got randomly attacked on the street and got into fight, and I had those classical face injuries. It was non provoked thing, but I was attacted because of my nationality.
Anyways, at that moment I felt awful, in random city in the night, i did not know if i should call the police, go to ambulance or just go home. And since this woman kept texting me the whole time (like something random, informing how her night goes, asking me how I am doing and so on) I let her know what happened, and hoped she will at least have some understanding/compassion.
However, she could not care less. She was drunk af, left the wedding and was partying with friends. Ignored me at first, and later asked me "if i am going to be her taxi driver" and i was like wtf? Sent me a bunch of singing drunk songs.
And I was like okay, there is nothing more to do about it, I have already went too far with all this. So I did not text her anymore, went to sleep, and got back to my country the other day. However hard it was for me, I understoos that I am just unimportant here and letting her go with her life is the only right thing to do.
She did ask me if I am okay the next day, and I did not reply. She reached out again in 3 days. I did block her. So her friend texted me from her number.
She did appologize for her behaviour that day, and told me she would love to stay in touch. As she explained, she was very anxious and drunk - however, that is bullshit excuse in my opinion.
Anyways, I explained that I do not want to talk to her anymore since nothing good can come up from this. I did try not to blame her or anything, but I just do not think healhty relationship can araise from all of this anymore. I made a mistake by giving myself too much hope, but I think her partying after being super busy and all that is just super disrespectful and not something that should be tolerated.
Edit: before I went to her town, we have discussed many times before that we would both like to meet in person, whenever someone is able to go to the place where other person lives. So this was not random.
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2023.06.07 11:09 sjv891 Somewhere between a genlocke and a hatelocke part 4: Platinum. Death, difficulty spikes and a painful reminder
After completing FR, HG and OR it was on to Platinum and OH MY LORD what a difficulty spike. Sure I probably made some early mistakes due to Omega Ruby being so easy it almost put me to sleep at times but DAMN. Not only did I experience my first wipe of the entire run, I got to restart this chapter of the run 4 times after dying to Mars, Gardenia, Fantina and Cynthia. My first wipe to Mars I definitely blame on OR. I came in riding high off my easy E4 sweep only to be put in my place time and time again by Platinum. It was a welcome difficulty spike. I had been feeling like I had been getting through the first 3 games too easily. Even if those where the 3 regions I knew like the back of my hand.
I was however painfully reminded of something while running this game. As a kid I played Red, Silver and Ruby non stop. I absolutely loved those games. Red and Silver moreso than Ruby but I still played the crap out of it.
I know I played Platinum when it released, not because I remember playing it, in fact i didn't remember a damn thing about the game, but because I own a copy and when I booted up that copy there was a save file with my name and 50 hours on it.
And as I played through these 5 attempts to finally defeat Cynthia I think I realized why I deleted everything about this game from my memory. It was an issue the game always had for me but it was small enough at first I could live with it. It saw a sizable increase in gen 3 and really started to get on my nerves, but here in gen 4 it finally pushed me too far.
HM overload. I really do mean it when I say the HM requirements sucked almost all the fun out of the game for me. So much so it lead to me taking over a decade long hiatus from anything pokemon related. Yes, hitting late teens and early 20's and exploring different hobbies definitely played a part, but as I played through platinum again I know it for sure. HMs ruined pokemon for me and drove me away from the games. I am glad I rekindled the spark tho.
Back to the run.
On this final successful run I still struggled early on. Claiming Gardenias badge with 4 deaths and 2 mons left in the red. It was a battle that told the story of the early game. I could hardly hold a team together, mons were dropping left and right. This carried on till Fantina, losing another 2 mons until I finally hit my stride.
Things were going just fine up until the trip to Snowpoint City. I remember looking at the map at the start of my first run, seeing the snow and being so excited to get there. Catch a cool ice mon or 2 to add to the team. Only to come out the other side hating that route. Aside from the HM issues, the freaking hail and, as someone who for some reason never uses repels, the constant run, can't escape, run, CAN'T ESCAPE, RUN, CAN'T ESCAPE. My team was constantly on the edge of death because I could not escape from wild battles. 0/10 do not recommend.
After that thing were just fine once again. Picked up the last 2 badges, kick some Galaxy butt. But the devil in a box and went headstrong onto the Elite 4.
Accompanying me on the Championship attempt: Wrex the Houndoom, Blade the Leafeon, Bolt the Luxray, Slash the Scyther, Napoleon the Empoleon and Frisbee the Bastiodon.
Started off against Aaron had me sure the run was over. Wrex missing Flamethrower after Flamethrower while Yanmega gets up to +4evasion after spamming Double team. Then Aaron decides to spare me and uses U-turn for some reason allowing Wrex to sweep.
Bertha doesn't pose much of a threat either. While Whiscash sets up sandstorm, Blade sets up a double swords dance and razorleaf's the team to death.
Flint was a much larger issue. My best mon against him is Napoleon, who is slow as a snail and doesn't even resist anything Flints steam does. Napoleon manages to take out the houndoom but dies to infernape. Bolt comes in to clean up the monkey. Only to be sacrificed to the magmortar so I could get a safe switch in for Frisbee. Turns out I grossly overestimated how much damage Frisbee would be taking and sacced Bolt for nothing. Frisbee toxic stalls out the rest of flints team.
On to Lucian and it's Slashes time to shine. Setting up double swords dance while Mr. Mime sets up reflect and light screen, brick break those away and X scissor through the rest of the team.
Then on to Cynthia. I take an early lead taking out Spiritomb, Togekiss and Rozerade with Blade. Starting to feel confident. Then out comes Garchomp. Immediately setting the tone by outspeeding at critting Blade as I went for a synthesis. This is where I start to panick. Sending Wrex out straight to his death and tossing Frisbee out right after without thinking. Then I caught a break. Garchomp missed 2 attacks in a row allowing me to Toxic, Earthquake and rest with Frisbee, this buys me just enough turns of toxic damage before Frisbee dies for Slash to come in, outspeed Garchomp and finish him off with an X scissor. Milotic and Lucario left. 1 more X scissor, 2 more Aerial aces and its done.
I am now the champion of the Sinnoh region with Slash the Scyther by my side as the lone survivor. However we both know those 2 misses from garchomp were the real mvp.
This is the first run where every death felt like it mattered. A moment to remember the fallen: Jeebus the bidoof, Herc the Machop, Orion the Staravia, Maestro the Kricketune, Pivot the Geodude, Jess the Buneary, Chimes the Chingling, Nugget the Psyduck, Nibley the Pachirisu, Dash the Ponyta, Shade the Rotom and Spoop Jr the Duskull.
Now onwards to Unova!
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2023.06.07 11:08 Glum_Suggestion6072 Me (25f) and my Ex (28M) was married for less than 3 Years - Did I quit to soon?
Me (F 25) and my ex (M 28) got married two weeks before COVID-19 shut down the world. We only dated for a year and were engaged for 90 days (yes! We loved watching 90-day fiancé). A little backstory to give context. We met at a Christian camp where we both worked for about 7 years. During that time, we were just friends, until we started hanging out more and going to the same church leading us to eventually admitted that we had feelings for one another. We agreed on a traditionally Christian marriage and did not live together beforehand. I was fortunate enough to land my dream job in 2021 and started making decent money (about 80k). He decided he hated his job and wanted to quit to go work at a local game store he "loved" and always dreamed of working at. Now I have never been a big spender or cared about money so this did not bother me as we were still living well below our means. However in 2021/2022 things started becoming an issue for me. Because our whole marriage was in COVID, when things started opening up, I was ready to start going out and enjoying my 20s again (both with him and with friends). However, he was not okay with this. He thought it was absurd that I wanted to go grab a drink with my friends or sleepover at their place (mind you it was just females). This felt very controlling so I addressed it with him and he responded that he didn't feel comfortable with me spending our money on drinks. I tried to explain that I was not getting drunk, and just going to enjoy hanging out with friends. But it appeared that no matter what I said he wasn't having it, I even tried inviting him out with friends, but he always said no. Things started getting worse, he would get mad if I was going to the gym on our day off - because I should be spending it with him and not working out. When I would go visit my family it would be instantly "what time are you coming home." I was feeling suffocated. More and more issues started arising. We were not actively intimate and he did not see a problem with that. When I asked him about career goals and ambitions, he was perfectly content not having a career where he could advance. We started seeing differently on important faith issues. As we started arguing about stuff more and more, issues came up and I came to the realization I want kids and I do not want this man to father them. We attempted seeing married Christian friends for advise and I often left as the "bad" guy because I was acting less Christian than him. Due to the fact I make more money, when I left him, I left him with more than 70% of our savings, the apartment (which he wanted) with everything in it plus the car we paid off in full. Only to have about 15-20 people from our church and mutual friends message me and scold me for leaving him depressed and with no money. So, Did I call it quits too soon or was this the best move I could have made?
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2023.06.07 11:08 Eggs_Sitr_Min_Eight WFM's biggest problem.
I know, the title of this post sounds incendiary, so let me preface this by saying that, in no uncertain terms - I really like this show.
In fact, I can't really recall the last time a weekly release intrigued me so greatly. WFM is a new step for Gundam, a different kind of story, and in a lot of ways it's done what it's set out to do remarkably well. The cast is engaging, the mech designs are rock solid, the score can be absolutely spectacular, the setting is intriguing (though it could do with more world building) and the plot is relatively airtight. All good. But there's something about it that has gradually crept to the fore, especially as we approach the final arc, and that is: this show has an issue. And that issue, undeniably, is its pacing.
24 episodes is, on paper, more than enough time to tell the story most people want to tell, and that could well still be the case here. We have nothing in the way of insight regarding WFM's production aside from the two production-related delays it had and those happen, every now and then. Hardly a unique situation. But recent happenings, especially in this episode, have had me thinking (perhaps irrationally) that something's gone on behind the scenes. Maybe Okouchi got too wrapped up in inter-company jostling and character dynamics in the first season, and now the second feels massively backloaded. Maybe (though I doubt this, least of all because this isn't how production works) ratings percentages for the first part weren't rosy, and this was cut down from a four cour show to two, but that doesn't fly because I remember this show being announced with 24 episodes in mind. Anyway, whatever the case, it feels like aspects of this plot are moving along at an absolutely blistering pace, and I think episode 20 serves as a testament to that.
Take El5n and Norea, for instance. Sure, before they got punted off to the Plot Basement, they had interacted before, but very sparingly. Over the course of most of their time there, their dynamic consisted of El5n deliberately pushing Norea's buttons, and Norea violently lashing out at him in response. Even factoring in her meltdown in 19, Norea actually bothering to talk to El5n feels far too sudden, and El5n himself, contrary to his prior characterisation up until only an episode or two ago, is far too willing to immediately push past two of his major hang-ups - piloting a Gundam, and piloting at all because doing so puts him in harm's way - to try and save somebody that...really, on a personal level, he hardly knows. It's a good idea, of course, two broken kids finding solace (not love, that's not my stance) in each other, but the speed at which it was done blunts the impact, and also personally leaves El5n mostly directionless. Good idea, slapdash execution.
Likewise, Petra and Suletta. These two characters have barely said a word to each other. The two interactions I can recall are Petra laughing at Suletta's suitor joke all the way back in episode one, and Petra bullying Suletta again just before the Rumble Ring. Now, that's not to say that there aren't some visual giveaways - Petra looks visibly uncomfortable when Lauda goes along to the greenhouse after Miorine leaves Suletta, and as they're in a budding relationship themselves, and that as Holder and bride, Suletta's relationship with Miorine was known to the entire school, Petra would see that she was down in the dumps and offer advice. Something the show has proven is that even though the Jeturk gals were assholes, they're not bad people. Hell, just look at Felsi, who leapt several rungs up the best girl ladder for her courage despite being absolutely terrified. Again, a good idea - Petra showing insight and maturity and using her own connection with Lauda to pick up on Suletta's troubles and give her advice. But the execution is terribly hasty, and made worse by the fact that Petra spat all this out just before she possibly died, as though Okouchi decided that she just had to be used as a sudden plot-mandated source of inspiration before being hastily pushed off-stage. Good idea, slapdash execution.
Likewise, again, Guel and Shaddiq. These two are more characters who have hardly interacted with each other - their past connection aside, they have only had a grand total of one meaningful conversation prior to last week, and that was while Guel was busking it in the woods. The show then proceeds to depict this fight between them as a clash of core values, two men settling the score through vicious combat and the culmination of some deep personal rivalry, but with how little screen time they've shared it doesn't really carry any weight. I've seen people say it was like Amuro facing Char without any of the build-up, and I can't say that I'm inclined to disagree. It certainly could have felt otherwise - if the show spent more time on it. But alas, it didn't, and we have what we got.
I've always said, in my discussions with close friends of mine who watch this show, that its greatest enemy is time. Even leaving aside story developments, it's plenty guilty of leaving characters by the wayside. We barely know anything about Sabina and her team, for instance, and now that they're behind bars we likely never will. Lauda has been a virtual non-entity the entire show, and now there's a very real possibility that the show may actually give him something to do and just arbitrarily make him insane or kill him off in the process, disrupting the flow of the narrative as we desperately need to push towards the climax. We have only four episodes left, and so much ground to cover. We have the SAL presumably entering into open war against Benerit, we have however Suletta and Earth House will get to Earth (presumably), we have whatever effect Quiet Zero may have on the world, we have Delling, still comatose, expecting that he'll wake up and provide information on Nortrette because he's literally the only one who can. We have Nortrette herself, for that matter. We have whatever El5n will manage to do on his own, we have whatever response Lauda might have to knowing Guel accidentally killed Vim, we have whatever Miorine may do while all this is happening, sundry else. I suppose this message is born of concern - concern that maybe the show's story is kind of catching up to it. That in the end it might not be able to pull off its juggling act, and only trip up over itself as the balls fall in all directions. It's not what I want, certainly not. But depending on where we are a week or two from now, it might be how I feel.
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2023.06.07 11:01 Afraid-Cockroach-889 I am in a situationship with a married guy for past 1.5 years and it’s taking a toll on my already impaired mental health
I am suffering from confusion and mental exhaustion and often burst into tears even at my workplace, but I don’t know a way out. Now, I mustered up the courage to post it all here. I am using different names here for privacy. I (32f) am stuck in a situationship with Alex (48m). We’re in this situationship for 1.5 years.
I belong to a conservative society where dating/relationships or premarital sex is frowned upon, so I grew up keeping that in mind. I have had several crushes since 13 but never dared to tell anyone apart from my high school best friend. She encouraged me to date since she herself was doing but I was too scared and never acted upon my feelings. After high school, I suffered from severe mental illness called as dissociation disorder and I often had maniac episodes due to which I left studies and rejoined after an year. I had not so good relation with my parents especially my father so I bottled up my thoughts and feelings throughout my childhood and early teenage years and I burst out eventually. I am on medication since then.
Due to no interaction with boys, I was unaware of their intentions and I started a long distance relationship with an unknown guy on phone, eventually my parents found out and I came to know his real self which was not good at all. He was a habitual groomer. I was yet to touch 18 then. That story was over but I got to know about sexual desire and I started playing with myself though didn’t know much about it, after a year I started searching it out on internet and next year I found a porn video, from where I learned about clit stimulation and started doing it often. I was in my early twenties then. Then, a year later during my university’s freshman year, I had developed a crush on my classmate who then became my good friend. I was devastated when I found out he had a crush on my best friend. She encouraged me to confess my feelings to him. I did and got rejected right then and there. It took me a year to move on. I limited the interaction with guys. I also rejected many proposals. My parents and psychiatrist tried to convince me to get married but I resisted and thankfully they never forced me. I finished my studies and got a job in my university. After many years of staying single, I got bored and decided to have a guy friend, thus again I started a phone relationship with Liam and since I was 30, I was not scared to meet him. We met and after hours of talking, we started making out. I had non-existent sex life before that and I badly wanted to lose my virginity but I resisted when he was penetrating and I asked him to stop but he didn’t. It led me to the trauma and I was not the person I once used to be. He tried to compensate that with oral sex but couldn’t get me off. He was a wrong guy, he gaslighted and blackmailed me after that. I got yeast infection after having sex with him and pregnancy scare too since we did it without protection. I couldn’t block him until December last year because I was worried about my safety. He had my every detail and nude screenshots and I was so scared he would do something with it.
Meanwhile, I got infatuated with my colleague (Alex) since we were talking for a month. We clicked on so many levels, our interests were alike and we both were talkative. I had never had a crush on anyone since last 8 years and I was overwhelmed with the fact that I still can develop feelings but he was married having kids. I told him about my mental health issues and he was so supportive and friendly. He was attracted with me too so we met one day and he initiated a hug and peck on my lips and I felt so emotional that I confessed my feelings right there. He got worried and said that he likes me so much but due to societal constraints he can’t marry me but wants to see me happy in my life. I started sobbing and he comforted me and left.
We met after two days and he asked me how was our interaction off late? I responded positively, then he advised me to not believe in love and just enjoy the moment. He offered me with a long drive and an ice cream treat and I became excited for his company. We went on a long drive and talked about different topics and then he parked his car beside lake and we hugged, one thing led to another and we made out but there wasn’t penetration because he prematurely ejaculated. I, who had such a little experience with men, started sobbing once I reached home, developed anxiety questioning myself what was I doing. He apparently had no feelings for me and his action was totally not romantic. But, I was so much infatuated with him that I met him again the next day but I resisted his every move and confronted him with “Are you looking for just hookups?” He told me he would rather masturbate than engaging in meaningless sex, he wants to develop a deep connection with me with mutual respect, trust, and companionship, and sex just happens between two individuals who are connected and attracted to each other. And physical touch and kissing made him so excited that he wanted sex then and there. Same was the case with me but I was skeptic of his intentions. I asked him about his previous relationships, he told me each and everything and when he asked me about mine, I lied to him about my virginity and didn’t tell him about my not-so-good only physical encounter. I told him I am inserting stuff in my vagina for years. I was scared to tell him everything. We met again after few days and we finally had sex but it lasted for few seconds. Next meeting, he questioned me about my lie stating that he has no problem with that and I can tell him the truth but I remained adamant and never told the truth until December last year after 8 months.
We met again few times during which we had sex but it never lasted more than just 30 seconds. I wanted more. I asked him about that and he stated that he had no idea why he wasn’t able to last longer and laughed it out that since you’re so hot I couldn’t last longer. Though he tried so much to get me off by other means but to no avail. First time in my life, I got worried about my future sex life because I was able to climax during solo masturbation but not in a mutual setting. And, since I was yearning for his presence in my life wanting to start a proper relationship with him, I used to cry for hours daily because it was not possible. I tried to tell him about my feelings for few times but he teased me and made fun of it. I was remaining more anxious during our meet-ups and he asked me about my diminishing libido. I stated that since we’re not together I am unable to keep up with this relation. After that day, he ghosted me for almost two months and suddenly appeared again after vacation. I was still infatuated with him even though suffered from severe depression in those months. My parents got worried for my health and I couldn’t tell them or my psychiatrist about my situation. We went on a long drive and he lectured me to get married to a suitable person. I was devastated but gathered myself and nodded. He dropped me home and again disappeared.
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2023.06.07 11:01 ThrowRA99981918 Why does my (M22) girlfriend (F26) act so strange during arguments? And how do I get to improve things? I feel like it's leaving issues unresolved and creating resentment.
Our relationship has lasted for 4 years. We have issues with eachother sometimes, but I think that's normal and inevitable in any relationship.
When she has an issue with me, I try to do what I hope every partner does. I listen, I apologize, I try my best to understand her, comfort her, brighten the mood, and try my best to make sure it doesn't happen again.
But when I have an issue with her, she argues, very badly.
She often straight up dismisses me for bringing up the issue in what she claims to be a rude manner, even though I try my best to be calm and respectful, And she herself seems to have no such reservations when she's upset with me. She will demand lots of highly specific evidence, argue with snappy responses, often interrupting me to focus on irrelevant details, convolute the issue, and trying to change the subject or simply just shut down when I press the matter too much.
But whatever she does, she doesn't seem interested at all in the fact that I feel upset, or in listening and understanding why I am upset, or coming up with some sort of solution.
She's otherwise a very sweet and caring person, who's happy to listen and accommodate for my needs and wants, who's patient and understands my flaws, but it seems that when the conversation is about her she acts like this and it gets nowhere. And I feel no other option than to give her her way, and even have to apologize for being upset in the first place, even though nothing is resolved and she often doesn't even seem to understand why I was upset, let alone offer improvements. Which makes me feel so defenceless and unable to stand up for myself.
Worth mentioning is that she's had a childhood worthy of a horror movie.
Alcoholic, abuse, narcissistic parents. Moved into a shitty orphanage against her will to be passed from trainee to trainee because she was "the easiest", ending up with severe attachment issues. Grouped with mentality disabled children in her early education, only to end up with two abusive relationships with SA before meeting me.
I want to love her, but I feel so crappy because of how much she doesn't seem to want to understand me when I'm upset and nearing the end of my rope.
Why does she does this? Is it a cemented survival strategy from her past? Is it just toxicity? Can it improve? How do I approach her about this?
Thanks so much for reading. I really hope someone has some sort of knowledge that can help me understand, but I'm already happy to just hear your perspective on this situation.
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2023.06.07 11:01 ShevBlackberry I (30F) was a rebound for a longtime friend (31M) and got hurt. What now?
Sorry for any mistakes, english isn’t my first language.
I’ve (f30) known the guy I want to talk about today for around 25 years. I’ll call him M (m31). We’ve never been particularly close, but we’ve always been in the same friend group and went to school together. The contact drifted away a bit around 2018 – 2022 and I saw him again last year in March, on my best friends birthday party. He brought his new girlfriend (f26) and we all were happy to see eachother again.
That evening I’ve gotten invited to their weekly hangouts and since then I’ve been part of our boardgame-group. Including his then girlfriend we are 6 people. We meet every tuesday at M’s place to play D&D or Gloomhaven or just any boardgame that peaks out interest at the time.
Around August I started to notice what a great guy M actually is and was shocked, because I’ve known him almost my whole life and suddenly started to see more in him and noticed things I’ve never payed attention to before. I think I developed some kind of feelings, but he seemed happy in his relationship and I’ve had so many bad experiences that I was actually quite glad to be single, so it wasn’t too hard to cope with the situation.
In January M and his girlfriend moved in together. On the prior weekend a friend celebrated his 30th birthday with family and friends in a very big group, everyone got drunk and had a good time. M told me that evening that he didn’t want to move in with her, but she put a lot of pressure on him and he just gave in. He also told me that she wanted kids, while he doesn’t, and that he knows that this relationship isn’t going anywhere. Apparently he told her all this as well, but she didn’t care and wanted to try anyway. I told him that moving in together was a very bad idea but he said he didn’t have much of a choice anymore, since things had already been set in motion.
There were a few more partys where he seemed unhappy and said stuff to me that he would never say sober. One night, after everyone was gone and I was heading home too, he wrote me that he’d wished I stayed a bit longer and a bunch of hearts. While his girlfriend was sleeping in bed next to him. I thought that said quite a lot about his character und was mad, but coulnd't help but feel kind of hopeful that he liked me, too. But let’s be honest: he was drunk and horny, unhappy in his relationship and probably just thought that the grass is greener on the other side. I brushed it off and didn’t mention it again. Drunk ramblings.
In March they broke up. He felt suffocated and wanted her out of his place, but didn’t want to hurt her. We all noticed how unhappy he was but he isn’t really the kind of person you can sit down and talk to about his problems, so we just tried to be good friends and be there for him in case he needed us. Then, one evening, she read his diary while he was visiting a friend and called him to confront him. He drove home and broke up with her on the spot. The final push he needed, I guess.
One month later, in April, he kissed me. He took me home after a birthday party and we talked about him and how he’s feeling with the breakup. We talked a bit more in front of my door and then he kissed me. All I could think was „fuck“, because things got kind of serious and I didn’t feel up for „serious“ at that time. I wasn’t ready for things to change. It was WAY too early after his breakup.
He wrote me a lot after that. Wanted to see me, talk to me. I caved once, but only because I wanted to talk with him about everything: I told him that he’s just gotten out of a very serious relationship and that he should really take the time to be single and enjoy his freedom. That I liked him a lot, and for quite a while, and that I didn’t want to get hurt. He also was still friends with his ex and wanted her to continue coming to our boardgame-evenings, because she doesn’t have any other friends and he doesn’t want to hurt her feelings. I was and still am very uncomfortable with hat. Noone but him wants her there anymore and we told him that repeatedly. He doesn’t want to confront her, so we just have to suck it up. He wanted to keep us a secret, too, so he wouldn't hurt her more than he already did. I was unhappy with all of it and told him that he was putting everyone of us in a bad spot.
I didn’t feel good with the overall vibe of the situation. Very wrong time. Recipe for disaster. But well, everytime he wanted to see me I caved anyway, because I wanted to see him, too. It was weird, because we’ve known eachother for so long but it felt right and good, too. I felt safe with him and his attention showed me that he actually thought about me and I wanted more of that feeling… so I threw all caution in the wind and just enjoyed the time I had with him.
After we had sex the first time things changed. All he wanted to do was fuck. When I was in the middle of a sentence he would kiss me to shut me up. I told him no, repeatedly, that I didn’t feel good without proper protection (I just started the pill), that I was scared of getting pregnant, but he didn’t stop pushing and grew more and more frustrated with me.
I felt pressured and frustrated too and told him that it feel’s like he just wants sex. „What is this, then?“, he asked and kissed me, like he wanted to say „Look, we don’t have sex and I am still kissing you 😊“ and I told him that THIS is him pressuring me.
I didn’t say a god damn thing about his shitty behaviour otherwise, because I didn’t want to be the kind of woman who made unnessessary drama about some kind of friends-with-benefits-situation and because I didn’t want him to feel bad and, to be honest, because I wanted him to like me.
He wrote less after that. Was less enthusiastic. Sometimes a few days without a word. He told me that he wanted to take a few steps back, because he can’t handle rejection well. It was hard for me, because I just realised that I could actually fall in love with this guy… and then he told me that he didn’t want to see me when we couldn‘t fuck. I kind of knew then already that this whole thing isn’t going to work out the way I’d like it to.
We still met up a few times after that and when we had sex everything was… good. I really thought that maybe I could try again with him, after my last relationship burned me so badly. But then I kind of knew that he didn’t see me this way… that he cared nothing about my feelings and that I was just deluding myself. I was happy while with him but miserable while alone with my thoughs and that was one of the reasons I was so glad to be single for so long. That damn feeling that „something“ isn’t right, the overthinking, the doubts.
Monday I asked him if he was even still interested in me. He wanted to tell me in person. We met up yesterday and he told me what I’ve been telling him the whole time: he enjoys his freedom and the time alone and can’t imagine having a relationship in the near future… and also that I was right when I told him that he just wants sex from me. That we should probably end things.
Well, we did. We are still friends and met up yesterday evening with everyone else - excluding his ex - to play. I couldn't look at him. I couldn’t sleep because I can’t stop thinking about this fucked up situation. I am so angry and disappointed.
He was my friend long before we were anything more and still he cares so little about me. It isn’t even about his lack of feelings for me, it’s that he didn’t even treat me like a friend, more like a damn object to fill his needs.
I feel so hurt. I wasn’t in love with him, I think his shitty behaviour saved me from that, but I am so mad that I let him walk all over me. I’m so disappoined in him as a friend. I don’t understand how I can mean so little to him. And I am so angry at myself. I said from the beginning that he needs time to heal and be alone and still I let myself be convinced to meet up wit him over and over again. I was greedy, I felt good and now I – surprise! - got hurt.
What am I supposed to do or say now? I won’t talk to him because he doesn’t care anway and I don’t want drama in our friendgroup… I told my best friend that I won’t be joining our boardgame-nights anymore when M's ex-girlfriend is there. I’m quite done putting myself in uncomfortable situations just so he does have it easier. But what else can I do to get out of this situation with a little bit of grace?
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2023.06.07 10:59 Timely_Huckleberry97 (Part 30 of a series) The Retail Punishment in Clovis
(Part 30 of a series) The Retail Punishment in Clovis Part 29 covered a lot of ground. This installment picks up with a few new points.
Also, I will try and outline the trouble that Clovis officers could find themselves in; ‘Nightmare on Flatiron Parkway’ coming to theaters near you!
(A) Equity Committee in place, any objections?! It is now well established that the Equity Committee is an essential party to these proceedings. Only the OEC is capable of representing equity interests which are demonstrably being opposed by both the debtors and creditors.
Since the OEC opposition, Clovis has made numerous concessions and modifications. This clearly shows the need for adversarial proceedings against the debtor which have yielded results.
(B) Negative Ruca sale price The debtors have made a crippling mistake by allowing Rubraca to be sold for negative dollars! This is something they cannot recover from, and puts the specter of fraud over the entire BK filing. Since they claim to have closed the sale they no longer have an avenue of somehow ‘adjusting’ the sale to take it into a Positive Ruca sale price.
There is an interesting angle here that ESTABLISHES fraud. Let me explain how.
The key question is about the
timing of the decision to include Ruca inventory as part of the sale.
- After the auction: In this case, the bidder had put in a bid with no intent of getting inventory for free. So the company should charge for inventory considering that creditors are waiting for recovery. The company did not do so. It, of its own accord, chose to GIVE AWAY inventory for free. No, you cannot do so, when there are classes awaiting recovery. CLEAR FRAUD.
- Before the auction: If the company was planning to include inventory of $100 mn in the sale, then there should have been a corresponding bid minimum. Since that was not done, we are in a laughable scenario that the company is holding out a hundred dollar bill and singing like a carnival barker ‘Sixty, sixty, do I hear a sixty five, seventy, sold for seventy’. Really?? CLEAR FRAUD.
Sorry Clovis, your fraud has unraveled, and company officers will be paying a penalty and some going to jail.
(C) ODAC debacle FDA had clearly given Clovis two options, EITHER wait for OS data OR go in front of the ODAC. The OS data option was completely infeasible since data would take two years to mature and Clovis did not have that kind of financial runway. So really, ODAC was the ONLY option.
An ODAC presentation would have been something to look forward to considering the stellar PFS data. The whole reason that Athena results were delayed two times was because PFS was so strong it was preventing the requisite event related data. Considering that other front-line drugs were approved on the basis of PFS, it is a given that there would have been strong physician enthusiasm for Ruca.
In the above context, not going for ODAC is completely indefensible, and Pat and other officers can be NAILED on this point alone. Note that Gillian was one of the founders and she appears to have had a difference leading her to exit prior to BK. She needs to be deposed and held squarely responsible for this, unless she turns approver and throws Pat under the bus.
(D) Forensic analysis of expenses since Apr 2022 In my opinion the BK plan started getting crystalized after the fourth and final rejection of the share count increase proposal. Pat then had two goals: run down cash as much as feasible, and prevent regulatory successes that would value the assets higher.
First, we now know that Alix partners was engaged in the July timeframe to explore multiple options. How is it then that in September they entered a sourcing agreement with Isotopia? If cash conservation was the goal, how can one explain the money, time and effort spent on agreements like Isotopia? Was it that Novartis talks were in progress and Clovis was trying to preferentially spend money on FAP?
Second, why were strong headcount reductions not put in effect? This is such a simple and obvious measure to reduce the cash burn and I want to see the written documents where the cost benefit of this was explored and this option discarded. Instead, we had new requisitions being posted!
The interesting point is that Clovis is now publishing monthly results. We see that despite a headcount reduction of a fifth, revenue has not had a corresponding fall! This is the inelastic demand that I have previously written about. We now have DOCUMENTED PROOF that early headcount reductions would have prevented a spiral towards insolvency.
I believe that a forensic analysis of the accelerated spend since July, and comparing it to the prior quarter spending will yield interesting results!
(E) Excuse me, but your goose is cooked The company officers need to realize that the game is up. They can flutter and flap all they want but their goose is cooked. The biggest mistake they made was to underestimate the equity opposition, and now they are in a predicament that they cannot extricate themselves from. I have a poor opinion of the lack of strategic vision of the debtors counsel, what was that name again, Twinkly, Far, and Galloping?!
Pat thought of us as sheep, that he would come to us saying ‘Your money is all mine’! Well, that’s when we sheep turn feral, grow fangs, and get in the mood to leave bite marks that are life altering!
I had previously written that four company officers deserve punishment, but now have changed my view to ALL officers. Why should board members get a pass, being responsible for oversight? We need to go after the whole bunch, with the possible exception of one or two approvers who are willing to sing like a canary.
(F) Equity is in a position of strength We shareholders need to understand that our motivations are above board and can be presented in court. The entities opposing us are stronger than us but they have a corrupt agenda that they cannot state publicly on the record.
Can company officers admit in court that their hatred for retail investors made them act opposite to their fiduciary duties? No they cannot.
Can BP like AstraZeneca or Pfizer dare to stand up in court and state they wanted to neuter the competition in the PARP space? No they cannot, because the DOJ antitrust division is listening and they will be dragged over the coals.
Can the creditors open up that they actually have large short positions so their actual interest is share cancellation more than the full recovery that they claim to want? No they cannot.
These parties entered into this corrupt undertaking thinking that will pull levers behind the scenes and get away with the heist of the century. Well, sunlight is the best disinfectant. Now that the SEC and DOJ are fully involved, these behind the scene players will see the writing on the wall and gently melt into the hedges. The only party that will be left to take the full heat of our rage are the Clovis officers.
Considering the widespread fraud by Clovis officers, it is the Official Equity Committee that will be in the driver's seat going forward with the parallel and supporting effort from the DOJ and SEC. The OEC needs to closely guard the whistleblowers until the right opportunity. I’m looking forward to the DOJ Antitrust division becoming a party to the proceedings. We cannot have Biden’s moonshot cancer initiative on one hand, and on the other, a key oncology asset that promises to displace the SOC for Prostate (a cancer known for poor prognosis) to be rendered impotent (pun intended) in the hands of an insignificant overseas company.
(G) Two options for Clovis officers Clovis officers need to realize that they cannot avoid the consequences of entering into bankruptcy fraud and the intent to eliminate equity. There is no getting around it. They need to figure out a way to minimize the punishment that is coming their way.
- Agree to a liquidation in Ch. 7
If Clovis requests the judge to turn it into a Ch. 7, and let the full company be put up for sale under court supervision, they may still be avoid the worst. There is a pent up investor anger that needs to be satisfied. If investors get a healthy share price, say $12, it would immediately reduce the severity of the remaining punishment. Heck, if the share price is good enough, they may even get the third party release that they so desperately want.
In this case, there is no financial impact to the officers. All that they are doing is allowing some BP to come in and give the proper valuation for the company assets.
- Dig in for a cage fight
If better sense does not prevail, the full investor anger will work its course out.
The first course of EC should be to prove BK fraud in front of Hon. Judge Stickles. Some people here automatically think the judge is on Clovis’ side. That may be incorrect. It is not lost on the judge that Equity Committee approvals are exceedingly rare. On top of that, the DOJ and SEC are fully engaged. Makes her wonder about the fire when there is so much smoke.
In the unlikely scenario that we do not prevail with fraud charges at this first level, there is the three member BAP bench to appeal to. The benefit of those proceedings will be that OEC will be represented from the get-go, and will be able to inform the bench about the seriousness of this case containing antitrust issues.
In parallel, a class-action can be started. There is a rich $50 mn. corpus that is available. I can imagine law firms falling over each other to get to a $20 mn payout to fully prosecute these crooks, including criminal charges. When there is a jury trial with everyday people like us who have lost our investments, that is when the full punishment will be given out.
If the fraud is proven within two years of the BK (more than enough time), the Ruca assets can also be clawed back and correctly sold in the market, making for even more recovery.
Make no mistake, if the company officers make it harder for us to corner them, our punishment will also be that much harder when we do corner them. By the time we are done with them, they will feel like a chew-toy in a cage of Rottweilers.
I’m hoping that better sense will prevail, and the company officers will ‘choose wisely’. But I have a feeling they won’t. Bring it!!
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2023.06.07 10:58 Wurzelbart420 CH Filigree Tiny Charm Legit Check
| Bought this Filigree Charm from the Facebook Chrome Hearts International Group. Seller is called Zehui Pan on Facebook, price was 220 USD (Seems cheap). Recieved it yesterday and have some concerns. Firstly, I saw some negative comments and bad business from the seller, aswell as accusations on him for selling fakes. Secondly the fact that makes me concerned is that he is not part of the FB Groups anymore. Now for the piece itself - I Compared this piece to photos of this model on Rinkan - in comparison, the 2017 engraving seem pretty thin and not as thick as shown in the rinkan photo. Most of the compared filigree charms i saw seemed to have a nearly as thick engraving of the „2017“ as the „.925“. Especially in hand, the 2017 seems much thinner. (FYI: only the second and third photo were taken by me, the others are his photos. I will add more detailed pictures later). So, the 2017 seems very thin. Also on the „bail“ (dont know if thats the right name here) on the side seems not flattened out like the most items i compared it to. The rest of the details on the backside (small holes, etc.) seem to be quite correct - not sure tho. Also found this pendant on a website from a pretty reputable seller - Risingsunarchive - details on his listed Filigree Charm are pretty similar to mine - 2017 writing is quite thin, not like those on rinkan. I would really appreciate any help - so in case i can open the Paypal Claim. The fact that some people are supposably calling him out makes me really concerned about the authenticity. Thanks in advance to all those who could assist me with their expertise! Thank you and best wishes from Austria submitted by Wurzelbart420 to chromeheartlc [link] [comments] |
2023.06.07 10:58 mso1990 I (33m) and thinking of breaking up with my (23f) girlfriend bc of how she talks about me to her friends
Tl;dr my gf irl and when she’s online (and the immensely hurtful things she’s said about me to her friends) seem like two totally different people and I’m thinking about breaking it off with her.
Emotionally, breaking-up seems like all I can think about rn even though I do love her and care about her. Logically, I don’t know if it’s worth giving her a shot to explain herself or if that would just solidify a break-up.
We’ve been seeing each other for 6mos, exclusive for 4. House sitting for my GF while she’s out of town for work for a week. Hopped on her comp to do a little gaming. She had a browser window minimized with her FB logged in. Got a little curious bc things have just felt weird for a little bit. The ways she talks about me to her friends just hurt so much. Whether it’s hating some of the things we’ve done on around town on weekend (when she’s voiced no objections nor offered any alternatives). Saying how she wasn’t sure how she felt about hanging out with my kids and I (I have an ex wife) when I’ve asked her about it and she said she’s cool with it. Saying how she doesn’t really want her own kids, when she knows I eventually want more. Talking about not wanting to be stuck here, when I’ve told her I want to stick around the area for my kids until they’re adults. Talking shit about where I live (rents $$$$ here but I’m looking to upgrade some time in the near future). Talking to them about my past and using a label to refer to me instead of my name. Complaining that I’m not comfortable with her having very close guys friends when she’s said she wouldn’t want me having female friends. Talking about not wanting to be too attached (yet told me she was falling in love with me after seeing each other not quite 3mos at that point). Just so many hurtful things that she’s not once voiced any of it to me.
The way she acts when we’re together and the way she talks about me to her friends it’s like she’s two different people. After all that and hurting the way I was I did more digging. I also discovered she has?/had a profile on AdultFriendFinder that her browser history said she last got onto after about a month of being exclusive. She also had an account on Seeking Arrangements but don’t know when she was last on it, but I saw a short message thread with a woman on FB just before we started seeing each other about her maybe being her sugar baby. She’s also mentioned about some of the kink discords she was in and some of the nude vid chats people would do, which she (for all I know) stopped only when we became exclusive and I told her I wasn’t ok with it.
There’s not too much more to it, but I think this is the most I can coherently put together rn. I don’t want to say anything while she’s out of town out of a fear she may do something out of spite and serious conversations are best left to be had in person. I have a REALLY hard time opening up to and being vulnerable with people and she’s one of the VERY few people I’ve let ALL of my walls down for so this all just hurts so much. I’m just really at a loss as to what to do.
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2023.06.07 10:55 South-Juice961 The whole story of my wife (f24) and I(m23), help?
Tl;dr My still technically wife and I have been going through a messy separation, looking for insight listed at the end of the post. Fair warning it's a long one
Made 2 previous posts Me (M23) and wife (F24). This is kind of the whole of those 2 previous posts and all that has happened since
My wife and I originally went to school together and rekindled a friendship in 2021. We began dating on June 26th of that same year while I lived in Texas and her in Oklahoma. She had to kids, both from different partners. While we were friends she vented to me about how her previous partner left because he wasn't interested in being a parent. I was upfront to her that I was in a state where I was working on myself, mainly esteem wise both from a past partner and with my upbringing, and told her I did not want it to become her problem if we were together. At that time, we agreed to be communicative about our own hardships and to speak to each other so we could help each other through hard times.
We were together for about 3 months, during which I would make visits to Oklahoma to hang out with her and her kiddos, spend quality time with her, with them, and with all of us together as well. After this 3 months span, we thought things were going okay enough for me to move in with her. I moved in with her near the end of September 2021 and for a while we were very happy with one another. We were very openly intimate and basically honeymoon phasing still. Since her family helped her out beforehand with child care, and since we still needed it to both work, we moved in with her family in November 2021.
Around this time, we ended up finding out she had gotten pregnant. Her and I kept it between the two of us as she was unsure of her families reaction to it. Her and I were both working still during this time and in February 2022 was when we hit our first bump in the road.
Her and I had always been very open with our phones, and had shared passcodes and the like. In February 2022 she had been acting off, I thought due to her pregnancy she had of course wanted some space to herself. I ended up finding out by looking at her phone one night that she had been sending illicit images to someone on her snapchat. I confronted her about, and the first thing she tried to say was that they were old (they were not, because some of them as a scrolled up said October 2021, the previous year). After this I asked her to explain herself on it, to which she responded that the person was an old F buddy who had threatened to release her photos online if she didn't continue supplying him. I was unsure to about this response, and took some time to deliberate everything.
In my mind I could not just take my own emotions in to account, I had to consider her 2 step kids getting to know me as dad as well as my unborn child. She had given me to no reason to distrust her before that so I was willing to go forward with the relationship on the grounds that we be more open with one another. In the months that followed, she even showed improved resolve, and began showing more affection towards me once again. At times she was still down on herself and beating herself up over it, so I decided in April to show her I was committed to making things work and proposed to her. We got courthouse married in May of 2022.
Things continued on this way, in May 2022 I started a new better paying job and also her family decided to move to Texas, so we ended up paying them monthly to live in the house in Oklahoma. In June my wife went on maternity leave from her job, and we discussed her being a stay at home mother and me being the sole working party. We agreed it would work best so we wouldn't have to pay for child care.
Over the course of the rest of 2022, I ended up working more hours to make ends meet. At times, my wife's mother would speak with her and give her a hard time about not working. After she had these conversations with her mother I would reassure my wife that I would make sure everything was taken care of financially. Our baby was born in July of 2022.
In March 2023, I started a new job with the same company that paid almost twice per check what I had been making previously. I felt like financially, things were taking a turn and that it could be a big improvement in life quality for my wife and kiddos. However during this particular month I had an incident where my stress had overwhelmed me. It was like any other day where my wife handed me our baby as she was putting the 2 big kids to bed. The baby was teething and crying her head of, I had a lot of stress in apartment hunting, working related, etc burdening me and the whole situation overwhelmed me. I threw a bottle toward the wall, my wife came in hearing me throw it and tried to take the baby from me. In my flurry of emotions, I stiff armed her from me to keep her from taking the baby. A few hours later, I went downstairs to her and we spoke about it. I apologized and explained my sensory overload I was experiencing, but admitted it was no excuse for how I acted. I asked her how she was feeling, and she told me she was doing good that the incident had left her tired.
April 2023 is where everything now has fallen apart. I brought up a discussion to my wife because I had noticed that I had been messing up on my end by hanging out with gaming friends too much. I brought this conversation up to her and asked how she had felt about. This is when she outpoured a bunch of issues she had kept quiet on up until this point. She told me she felt like I had more fun gaming with my friends than hanging out with her and the kids, and she admitted to me that from the previous incident she was scared about my reaction at that time. Immediately upon her bringing these up, I tried to discuss with her a plan so I could work to make improvements. When I tried to communicate however, she said she didn't think we could fix things, and told me she wanted to separate. I was devastated because over the course of the relationship I was constantly adapting and improving to my best me for her and our kids and I felt like she was giving up on our marriage so easily. In the days following I worked on improving these things she addressed and we were working towards finding common ground
A few days after this conversation however, she got an incoming call from a person named "Papi" on her phone. When I tried to address it she tried telling me it was "an alarm". When I pushed the issue and told her what I saw she admitted to me that since mid April she had been talking to another man (who was also married). She said they started off talking as friends and complaining about their partners and it turned into flirtation. When I brought up blocking him, she said she didn't feel comfortable doing so, but later on claimed that she did block him since it was hurting me.
From then on we had discussions that ran in circles, I wanted to work for and fight for our marriage, and she said she wanted to be by herself and work on herself. We could not find common ground, and in a lot of conversations she would try to find a way out and said that the conversations for her were draining. Ultimately we both decided we were going to move to Texas, be separate and co parent as we worked on ourselves. We set boundaries regarding ourselves and the children and planned our move. One boundary I was very particular about was that I did not much care who she dated since we were going to be separate, but that if she dated the guy she emotionally cheated with that I wanted him in no way to be around our baby (I did not want this person, who to me was of very questionable moral character to be around my child). She agreed to me and even reiterated that she had blocked him.
In mid May, we both made our move to Texas. However, her mother was the owner of the house we had been staying at and had security cameras at the house connected to an app on her phone. Her mother had new about my wife's emotionally cheating and had shown me that after I had left the house that the man she cheated with showed up to help her move. And against my wishes, she brought him around our child and even had him carry our baby out of the house. Our plan was for her to drop my daughter off to me a few days after the move, but after seeing what happened I messaged her and asked if she could drop my daughter off to me that same night. She agreed.
During that night, she dropped her off to me and I then confronted her about what I saw. When she was planning the move, she has told me her cousin was helping her move. She tried to lie again and say she didn't know her cousin was going to bring him to help. I was baffled she was still trying to lie her way out. Currently, I only keep in contact with her to update her on the baby, send pictures, or to planned supervised visits to where I am currently staying.
She is currently staying with the man she cheated with. And this person even drops her off for her visits with my daughter. She claims to be sorry but her actions to me tell a different story. I had made mistakes but was willing to put in effort to fix them and she wanted nothing to do with it. I don't feel like my transgressions were bad enough to deserve how she reacted. Even in light of all this, she is trying to claim to be doing what's best for the kids, but is immediately introducing a new male figure into their life after I've been her step kids father for the past 2 years.
I want better insight on to why she might have handled things the way she did. All I feel now is anger at all the lies and betrayal and it makes it difficult to move forward with my self improvements. The only thing motivating me is my now 11 month old daughter. Even in spite of all that happened I don't wish I'll to my wife, but I feel like she has a serious lack of accountability or responsibility. I feel like her actions were very selfish to her own feelings, and that her cutting of communication with me and instead talking to another man rather than working on our marriage is a big issue on her part. I felt our marriage was very fixable yet she wanted to move on so quickly. And honestly I don't know what to believe from her anymore with all the lies she has told. Can you guys provide any clarity on why she might have acted this way, and what I can do to improve myself as well?
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2023.06.07 10:46 Drakolf Dragon Rising- 21. Ultimatum:
Rakdo held out a phone to me, I took it and held it up to my ear.
"This is Imperator Ruuk Stingtail speaking." I stated.
"You had to make this difficult for us." A male voice spoke. "Are you aware what you have just done?"
"Completely and utterly shifted the paradigm of the entire world out of anger and spite?" I guessed flippantly.
"That's a
concise way to put it." Came the reply. "Verify the prisoners are still alive."
I walked over to the Humans, still tied up, after the video was recorded, we'd allowed them to have their mouths uncovered, as long as they didn't do anything annoying or reckless.
"I'm standing in front of the prisoners." I stated. "We're currently recording as we speak, if I were in your shoes, I'd kill them, make it look like we killed them out of spite or hatred. Understand, if they die due to any machinations on your part, you seal the fate of your species."
There was a long pause. "Have them speak."
"One at a time." I said. "I will point to you, and you will say your name and rank."
I pointed at each one, they all spoke their name and rank, some tried to beg for help, but a spark from Prestidigitation shut them up.
"What was that sound?" The voice asked.
"Magic." I said. "A reminder that their well-being is in our hands. They understand that wasting your time and mine isn't going to work out for them."
"What do you expect will happen, if we comply to your demands?" He asked. "What is assuring us that you won't seek retaliation?"
"Eons ago, my God made an enemy of another God. This was before his ascension to Divinity, said God destroyed him and his people, and when the Gods were angry, he simply claimed it was a joke."
"Does this little story of yours relate to the question?" He asked.
"Yes." I replied. "For eons, after my God ascended, his divinity little more than recompense, he waged a war of genocide against that God's children. Just yesterday, at my urging, he chose compromise. They are no less enemies than they were before, but the fact of the matter was, we convinced that God to leave us be, rather than try to exterminate us on the behest of your soldiers."
"So, this is compromise? Holding my soldiers hostage, killing countless people?"
"I want you to understand something, Human." I stated coldly. "What your kind has done to us within the past six months was inhumane and cruel. Evil. Your soldiers' actions, the actions of the companies that denied us basic Human rights, who marched in on our home and shot at us... We are already at war, I am choosing compromise, so that the dead who are here may be the
only dead." I paused. "And maybe, in time,
if there is lasting peace, we can bring them back."
I heard a soft gasp. "Yes, Human, while it is a goal we have yet to achieve, we have the potential to resurrect the dead. There are many of us who have died, from a collapsed mine that we worked tirelessly to save many more, from the bullets your soldiers fired at us... We have loved ones who have died, just as your soldiers have loved ones they left behind."
"I cannot advocate for your success, Stingtail." He stated. "Nor will I. You represent an existential threat to our way of life."
"I represent the true face of the universe." I stated. "The Gods we lived with are lies, or convenient tools of other Gods. And right now, four Gods have been verified to have been on this planet in recent years."
"Whom?" He asked.
"Tiamat, Goddess of Evil Dragons, whose machinations led to my people becoming what we are. Kurtulmak, God of Kobolds, whose exile to this world did not stop him from ensuring we kept our sanity, where Tiamat would have rendered us unthinkingly savage beasts. Bahamut, Dragon God of Justice, whose miracles granted my people enough water to survive the shutdown, whose Clerics continue to serve as a moral anchor for my Empire. And Garl Glittergold, with whom
my God made compromise with."
"You are implying something." He stated.
"Tiamat currently moves unopposed." I stated. "Bahamut is hunting her down, to mitigate the damage she can do."
"Why demand to be acknowledged as a sovereign nation?" He asked.
"Because being a citizen of yours led to our near extermination." I stated. "Do
not ask such a stupid question again, our demands are non-negotiable, and I have given you a generous amount of time to consider your options."
"Our options being to negotiate with hostile creatures?" He asked.
"This is not about salvaging a bad situation, this is not about saving face. You will comply, or there will be war." I stated. "Do not twist my words for your own benefit, you have been the aggressor in this situation. We are simply fighting back."
I ended the call there and turned off the phone.
"Turn off all phones." I stated. "If they wish to communicate, it will be face to face, not over the phone. I want this wall secured, and this outpost manned. Moreover, all weaponry belongs to the Empire now. Gather the remains, those who are still intact will be put into coffins, those who are not, we will piece together. We don't need every piece, a hand, a head, anything will do. Ensure you gather the dog tags, in the event we need a True Resurrection."
My warriors got on it immediately. I faced our prisoners. "Prisoners." I said. "Until such a time that your freedom is negotiated or you are to be executed, you will be provided food, water, and clothing. Even if we don't recognize the Geneva Convention at this time, we will operate under the assumption that
jus cogens applies." I regarded them. "If you ever address me, you will address me as Imperator. I will point to each of you, and you will acknowledge."
Each one replied with, "Yes, Imperator."
"Good." I smiled. "In the interests of ensuring you retain your Humanity, such that your leaders can consider you safe, sane, and unharmed, you will be held outside of the range of the Gate. Attempts to escape will be met with lethal force. If you wish to defect, you will be required to state such on video, Otherwise, we will keep you alive. Is this understood."
"Yes, Imperator." "Good." I looked for a pen and paper and wrote out my orders, then I had one of my warriors run it into the city. By evening, the holding cells were built, which our prisoners were led to.
The cells were the size of an average Human bedroom, with a bed, a toilet pot, a pot with sawdust, and a roll of toilet paper provided from our newly acquired base.
None of us really missed modern amenities all that much, we got used to what we had to make due with, so even though going on the internet was just as easy as riding a bike, I felt no particular draw toward the time-wasting activities of trawling through social media.
As I walked through the streets, my subjects celebrating, my father, a Ranger, approached me. He was one of the Beast Masters, those who formed an almost supernatural bond with our loyal pets.
"Imperator." He said, saluting me.
"Is there something you need, Baruk?" I asked.
"No, but Brutus does."
I smiled. I hadn't seen much of Brutus since I finally opened myself up to the Warren. Though he was still as big and friendly as he was back then, there was a glint in his eye, a wildness that hadn't been there before.
"I'm sorry for not visiting." I said. "Between the water crisis, the Gods making themselves known, everything else..."
"Ruuk." He said, the use of my name was deliberate, he was probably one of the few people I'd allow to address me so informally. "You've been working your hardest to keep us all alive." He hugged me, Brutus nuzzled his way between us. "I am proud of everything you have done for our Warren."
"Thank you." I said softly.
He let go and we walked together. "I take it you've been staying in the Rangers' Lodge?" I asked.
"For the most part, yes. Adena- that's what your mother calls herself now- has been spending her days in the nursery, taking care of the Warrens' eggs. She was always at her best, taking care of you hatchlings." He paused for a moment, then shook his head. "Of course, we spend our time together as often as we can."
"I'm glad she has something she can do." I remarked, smiling.
"She's a Cleric, you know." I raised my brow ridge. "You
didn't know?" I shook my head. "She joined Bahamut's Temple shortly after you did, I could have sworn you'd seen her."
"I didn't spend that much time at the Temple." I said. "Did she-? Was she-?"
"Ruuk, your mother never once thought of you as a traitor." My father looked me in the eye as he said this. "She knows you better than that. Hell, the Temple excommunicated her
because she refused to think of you as anything less."
"I had no idea." I said.
"For what it's worth, they did welcome her back, though I think that was mostly Tallyn's efforts."
"Do you often talk with Tallyn?" I asked.
"He often comes to
me." He said. "For a while, he was just so
angry, he yelled at your mother. Now, I rarely spanked you and him as kids, only when you did dangerously stupid things in spite of our best efforts to get you to stop. You bet your ass I bent him over my knee and made
certain he regretted his words."
I nodded. "Dad... Does it ever bother you, knowing I've had to kill people?"
"Son, I've killed my fair share of people as well." He replied. "When the soldiers got close to the nursery, your mother and I gave them
hell."
I smiled. "Please let her know I'm proud of her." I said. "And let her know she's welcome to drop by at any time. So are you, for that matter."
He nodded. I gave Brutus one more hug and head pats before heading back for the Fortress City.
It was going to be a long year, if we were lucky.
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2023.06.07 10:42 ChelseaMourning I don’t know how to do this
Freshly separated since last Friday (me 37F, stbxh nearly 39M). The gravity of the situation has hit me over the last 24 hours. We’re still having to live together for now until we can find the time to actually sit down and talk about the situation sensibly. We have a therapy session on Friday so we’re holding off until then. I just don’t know how I’m going to cope with all of this.
How do we tell our daughter (9)? She’s bright, she knows something is up as I’m sleeping in the bed and dad is on the couch downstairs. It’s too early yet, but the atmosphere at home is sour and I can tell she’s picking up on it. She was reading a book last night where a 10 year old boy was wishing his parents would reconcile (coincidence) and the language was very manipulative with dad desperately wanting to move back in with the family and be “taken back” because it would make the kid happy. How can I convince her that this isn’t healthy? It’s his birthday next week so naturally she wants to get him lots of gifts and spoil him. It feels weird booking dinner for us and buying him lots of gifts on her behalf, but it would be even worse if I didn’t at this point.
How do I deal with the guilt of him sleeping on the couch? I suggested me sleeping on the air mattress in our downstairs office, but he volunteered to sleep on the couch. But every night when I go up to bed I feel guilty that he’s having to sleep on it when I have the double bed to myself. The separation was my decision. I should be the one sleeping downstairs, but he said it’s fine.
How do I deal with the fact that he’s said he’s going to walk out of out daughter’s life completely because he can’t have his family. He said that our town is too small and the chance of us regularly seeing each other is too high and he can’t deal with that. So he wants to move away and not see her again. I don’t understand as he’s a great dad and they’re close. How can he just walk out of her life. I’ve suggested 50/50 and he’s said he doesn’t want “scraps” and he’d rather not see her at all.
How do I deal with losing my best friend? He’s a shocking husband, but he’s been in my life for nearly 20 years. It feels like a death. Even just pulling away from him at home is hard. The in jokes, doing stuff together, chatting. I know these things aren’t reasons to stay compared to how he’s treated me, but I feel like I’m losing a limb.
How do I navigate the future? I’m terrified of dying alone and unloved. I just turned 37 last week and I have no desire to have more children. Of course not interested in dating at the moment, but I know there will come a time in the future when I want to go down that road. Im scared that im never going to find someone and that this toxic, confrontational, sexless marriage was the best it will ever get. I’m keen to be alone right now (I have friends and some family nearby) but I’m scared of being lonely.
Sorry for the vent, but I needed to get all of this off my chest.
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2023.06.07 10:42 letmessleep Missing My Ex-Best Friend
My ex-best friend, let’s call her… June, and I had been friends for 7+ years. The last time we spoke was about a year and some months ago. I still think about her almost every day and I can’t help but wonder how she’s been doing.
It still baffles me how a single mistake I made had been essentially the catalyst for the decisions she made about us, but maybe I should’ve seen it coming.
See, this one day a friend and I wanted to grab a drink and we just so happened to be near June’s workplace which was a cafe of sorts. I was hesitant on bringing my friend there because June and her were also former friends and I wasn’t sure if June was scheduled to be there. After much reassurance from my friend that she wasn’t gonna do anything, I reluctantly gave the green light. Just my luck, June was there.
Thankfully nothing happened between them and we went about our merry days… or so I thought.
June and I would text each other every day, even if it was a single check-up or “Hello”, we’d say something, but that evening, I received nothing. I thought nothing of it and brushed it off thinking “maybe she was just tired or busy”. But the silence continued on and next thing I know, she passed by me in the hallways without a single ounce of acknowledgment.
I was ignored for weeks, no texts, no wave, no nothing. She acted like I didn’t exist, chatting it up with some friends of hers while I watched from afar and waited for her every morning at the same spot I sat in the hall.
At some point, I became fed up with her and sent her a text, asking for an explanation. I hinted at possibly knowing why she was ignoring me, thinking it was because I had brought my friend along despite knowing they were no longer friendly with each other, but a day later, June replied saying it wasn’t because of her rather my attitude that day when I visited her workplace.
June explained that I hadn’t acknowledged her at all when I came by and didn’t even give a “Thank you” when I received my drink. Admittedly, I can see how she thought that, but the truth is, I had greeted her and I did give my thanks. If I had been rude, it wasn’t intended. I was a bundle of nerves at that moment and I’m terrible at social interaction, sometimes my volume would lower without me noticing. I did my best to not make excuses rather explain myself and made sure to let her know that her feelings were valid and apologized for my actions.
Knowing each other for so long, I thought she would understand at least a little bit and hear me out longer, y'know, keep the conversation going, but instead I was once again met with silence and rather than just a week, June had acted like I didn't exist for about a whole month. It was then that I decided to contact her again. I vented some of my frustration and I gave her an ultimatum-- talk things through or we end it here. To my disappointment, she wanted to move on.
Maybe I shouldn't have demanded for a choice so early on and continued to try to persuade her to talk things through, but it was the heat of the moment and I know deep down, it probably would have ended the same way.
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2023.06.07 10:34 Distinct_Dog9659 Players got an easy way to get in touch with Strahd
So, I'm a first time DM and we're having lots of fun so far. My players entered Barovia (I used the Vistani messenger as a hook) and after discovering the real letter decided to carry out the last will of this unfortunate soul (one of my players is a Minotaur which has 2 homebrew abilities and one of them is to once a day discover the last will of the dead creature).
They carried the letter back to the gate. After putting it down near the gate, they had a brilliant idea to also write a note and hang it in front of the gate too, to warn any other adventurers of the danger inside....for some reason they decided to write the note in blood of one of the players. As soon as they hung it up and looked away for a moment, it disappeared (I was just going for spooks, but hey, that's a pretty handy thing for Strahd/anyone else to be scrying on them)
Some time later they are going through the Death House. At this point they hate evil Devil Strahd (they only heard the opinion of the Barovian people about him so...) but have no clue as to how he looks apart from him being a vampire.
They got into the House's dungeon and had an encounter with the Statue. They decided to burn it down, fought 3 shades, after which the Statue snuffed out all of the flames. They are creeper out with it.
And in this situation my Minotaur player decides it'll be an amazing idea to impersonate the statue with his newfound wolf companion.
He stands up in the exact same way, his hand on the wolf's head while the other is reaching out.
I'm thinking "Hey, that's neat, I should do something fun with it". I describe how as he does so, he sees something shine under the Statues cloak.
Our Wizzard hands him his sphere to make the impersonation even more successful.
The shining intensifies.
Our Paladin puts his cloak onto the Minotaur, completing the image.
The shining disappears. A second later the Minotaur notices he now has a ring with blood-red gem in it on his hand. Whenever he tries to remove it, he succeeds, only to find it back on his hand a second later.
He decides to use his other homebrew ability - touch his ancestors necklace to seek their wisdom about this precarious situation. Yet this time instead of a mighty Minotaur in his peak form he sees the person looking exactly like a statue appear. That person scans the group with his gaze, looks at the minotaur (still in a cloak and with a wolf and a sphere), smiles and disappears.
That player can "seek guidance" with his necklace only once a day. And I'm thinking Strahd could be interested in someone trying to impersonate him so hard. Besides, that sounds fun as hell!
So, I'd like to ask for YOUR wisdom, o mighty spirits of Reddit, what would be an interesting way to handle this ability from now on? I was planning to make it a way for me to provide party with tips on how to best some monsters without breaking immersion, but now... Well, I could still do that, but asking for Strahds help? That should never be a trivial thing or a mere "tip". I want his presence to be intimidating and powerful.
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2023.06.07 10:25 DrunkCapricorn Background in Criminal Law/Case Management Leaving Work to be a Stay At Home Mom - What Career Should I Move To When My Child Starts School?
Hello!
As the title states, I (38F) have a background in criminal law (I was a criminal defense investigator, not an attorney) and am currently working as a case manager at a mental health non-profit (I work with clients long term who have persistent mental health disorders, I do not have a Masters degree). I was an investigator at various law offices around the country for a few years over a decade and have been in my case management job for almost a year. My B.A. is in Sociology. I'm currently pregnant with my husband and I's first child, at about 22 weeks (!!!) and plan to leave my job to become a Stay At Home Mom until our child starts preschool or kindergarten. My goal is to return to work at that time but I need a break from jobs that are so emotionally draining. I figure l'll have a few years to prep for the career change and am hoping I can squeeze in some classes, volunteering, interning, etc to get ready. That's where you all come in! I have some ideas about what I'd enjoy and what I don't want, however, getting into the mental health non-profit was my attempt at breaking away from my need to work in a helping profession. Unfortunately, that has failed and I am back to the burnout levels I had towards the end of my career as an investigator. So...I think I lack insight and knowledge of the job market outside of these helping professions and would like assistance.
Some things about me that might be helpful for making suggestions:
I am definitely an introvert. Being around people drains me, doubly so dealing with those who live in chaos with mental health issues. I have major league compassion fatigue and what they call "secondary trauma" in the helping industries.
Prefer a job working from home or where I could control my schedule to some degree, mostly so I can move forward keeping my family as a priority.
I have mostly worked jobs that are severely underpaid for what you deal with. I think the most I made as an investigator was around $25/hour. Currently I make around $17. I'm sick of that.
I am currently in a larger city in the western USA. Not sure if we are staying here or moving somewhere relatively rural out east. We should know for sure within two years.
I LOVE birds, especially parrots. Originally I dreamed of a career working at a rescue/sanctuary. I do also really like all other animals as well. I am truly happy when surrounded by birds and caring for them. I tried the vet tech route a few years back but I washed out of the program due to some personal struggles I was going through at the time plus the financial limitations of the careestress.
My husband and I are working on a list of transferable skills. To give you an idea: critical thinking, attention to detail, de-escalation, verbal communication, ability to get alo g with nearly anyone, conflict management, written communication, persistent and persuasive, familiarity with criminal justice system and to a lesser extent social welfare programs. There are many more with more detail that I can post too if it would be helpful.
My husband makes enough money to support us three but in a large city cash is pretty tight. Point is, I'm not in a huge rush to get working again when I can but it would be very helpful for our financial situation.
Some jobs I have considered: radiology tech, phlembotomist, dental hygienist, vet tech, data analyst/tech (except I have no background or education in this field and suck at straight up programming), donations manager for a non-profit (more interacting with donors than accounting), any remote variation on my former careers (remote case management, investigation). I'm not opposed to pursuing more education but I'd rather not go deeply into debt or have to start from scratch pursing another bachelor's degree.
I'm sure there is something I'm forgetting for this post but it is plenty long enough as it is. Any advice, guidance, encouragement, etc would be very much appreciated. I'm posting this is the dead of night - in no small part because this question often keeps me up at night.
Thank you all in advance and have a lovely day! :)
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