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Happy Crowds, Responsive Audiences, and Participating Patrons
2012.10.05 11:06 HolyTryst Happy Crowds, Responsive Audiences, and Participating Patrons
A subreddit for clips of massive audience support for a musician, athlete, performer, entertainer, whathaveyou. Crowds singing along, chanting the name of a champion, dancing in the aisles, cheering until it's deafening, the rolling slow clap, etc. We're looking for the clips that give you a chill and make you wish you were there.
2016.04.07 23:02 LONG LIVE THE PUNK CABARET
2011.02.08 12:01 TechnoL33T Videos of tradespeople and craftspeople skillfully performing their work
This community is a space for curated high-quality video content that showcases the talent and skills of trades-persons and crafts-persons as they engage in and practice their craft.
2023.03.24 07:17 GreenEyedTygeress Secrets of Urthis, a new progressive fantasy book is up for preorder at $0.99
Are you feeling like your spring break is more busy than break? Looking to get away for cheep?
Available for preorder thru March 26 for $0.99 pick up a copy of Secrets of Urthis and join Irwin on the adventure of a lifetime!
Samuel Irwin Miner grew up on a lonely mountain top, his small and ordinary life ruled by his father and grandfather. They mistreat the boy who has special talents and certain feminine ways. Now the nineteen-year-old has seen his father do the unspeakable. Left bloodied and alone to die deep in the forest by that same man. Irwin pulls himself out of the mud and escapes. From that day on, Irwin will never be the same.
He sets off to explore the planet of Urthis where he slowly realizes his Ferro-kinetic powers help him to do more than mint coins, they heal him from death knells and keep those around him grounded. He must learn to survive the wrath of frightening specters that live in the shadows and darkness, avoid creatures who harness the elements, and fight beings who can shapeshift into anything. Only after meeting a beautiful telepath and a ruggedly handsome shapeshifter does Irwin begin to uncover the secrets of Urthis.
Join The Metalist’s Journey and follow Irwin as he navigates the ruthless world of Urthis—a place where Telepaths rule over all; where shapeshifters can lurk in the shadows or trail you from the air; element yielding people can steal your breath or turn you into ash—a world that Irwin’s people are not native to. But he keeps a secret, a power so unique that could change Urthis forever, and if he were to be found out—if someone with evil intentions were to get their hands on him—the fate of the world could be at stake.
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2023.03.24 07:17 EllieSaxon Luca lucked out
Get some proof you were born in Calgary, and get to Canada! Sure being unhouse sucks wherever you live, and Canada isn't perfect, but it's sure as hell better than being in the US with no employment opportunities. Hell, the easier access and more affordable healthcare is reason enough.
They have dance schools in Vancouver
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2023.03.24 07:17 ACurious_TrashPanda Explaining triggers & boundaries to an 11 year old?
What you need to know: ~ I'm my 11 year old sister's legal guardian & I'm fairly new to this part of parenting. ~ My stepfather (her father) was extremely abusive toward me through most of his relationship with our mom.
My sister's father was a horrible human being. He abused me in multiple ways for about 3 years when my mom and I lived with him. This man used to hold me down or hold me against him and give me wet willies, he did it so often that I was constantly anxious when he was around... Of all the things he did to me, that was one of the worst because it made my ears hurt and it was slimy and icky and he would do it in front of people and play it off like he was joking and playing with me. And no one ever stopped it cause everyone thought it was a game so I would get scolded for being upset that he was "playing" with me because he was "trying to be a good dad". He's the only person that has ever done that to me until today when my sister tried to do it while we were play fighting. It was like I watched her try to do it in slow motion and it put me right back in that house with her dad. I stopped it from happening and I yelled and walked out of the game we had been playing. I did apologize to her and everything about how I reacted but I wanna set a boundary with her regarding what happened so it hopefully won't become a common thing that happens. I haven't had this happen since we left her dad & I haven't had to set a boundary like this before with her so I'm not sure what to say or how to say it.
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2023.03.24 07:16 Woodwickward My Journal over the past yearish
My brain is a rampant bull on the loose. When i take the pills, I get a lasso, and sometimes i hook the bull, but it always comes undone within seconds, and soon the rope breaks.
My brain is a star meant to shine bright, and orbit the planets of life, but instead was set on a crash course with nearby astroids.
Focusing for me is like driving with a small child. You try to play one radio station (focusing on one thing) but the child reaches from the back seat and changes the channel. You keep trying to turn the channel back, but the child grows, and grows until its impossible, and the radio is broken.
I know that when I am doing something other than what im supposed to is wrong. I want to do my work so much, but my body has autopilot, and takes control, leaving me like a battered prisoner, locked in a cell.
My mind is a cardboard box with nails hammered inside. I try to function normally, and act like a normal human, but my brain moves around, causing more damage to itself over time.
Sometimes i laugh even though nothing was funny.
Im jealous of those born into wealth, and layed back parents. I want consistency. I want peace, and quiet, and a small room to sit. What everyone else wants is to pull me out of my hole like a snake, and extract my joy and life like the fangs of a cobra.
I have told myself 3 times now to do my homework while typing these. Nothing works
Sometimes I make promises to god that i can almost 100% always complete. Today was the first time i failed.
Im stuck in a loop, and it will not end unless acted on, but my exit key is locked out.
All i have been smelling lately is my own dead braincells. I havent stopped to smell the lilacs, or appreciate nature
Over the day, the world around my brain gets pulled away, and by 5:00 pm, my brain is like a white void with a blank box inside, containing only essential things. My brain fries throughout the day.
If a cog in a machine is not working, you dont reforge it in the same mold. You try something new to shape it differently, to function in society. The same goes for people
Every single day, my brain falls further into the chasm of insanity.
Sometimes I find myself forgetting simple tasks. The dough of my mind is beginning to grow stale, and misshapen.
I want to write a song about my daily struggles, but i cant even focus enough to fucking do that. My brain’s cord is corroded, and nothing will ever be able to fucking fix this bullshit.
The world around me always rotates, and i want to move with it, but my truck’s battery is stuck is depleted, and nobody bothers offer me a pair of jumper-cables.
Music changes the world.
My brain is always divided into 2 parts. One telling me to do things that arent good, and the other telling me to do them, but the evil one always wins. Sometimes my brain works like jeckel and hyde. Constantly contradicting one another.
Music keeps me in check.
12/18/22
Society isn't fair. Those who are flawed aren't able to get to the top. Those at the top do not have flaws. They cannot understand how to help and they cannot sympathize.
Every day is the same thing over and over and over and over. Going on a roller coaster once is fun, but every day numbs your initial joy. Over time, you stop enjoying the consistent, never changing loop that keeps growing more dreary.
I like antique shops. They hold many rare treasures to fill your room with. I prefer these unique items with spirit put into them, rather than a cheap piece of plastic found in every walmart. I like the idea of rarity. Something special to only you. Something to prove to others.
I should really start adding dates. This has spanned over half a year so far…
1/16/23 Sometimes, when i have dreamed in the past, or even when I am really high, i see a delphox, for whatever reason. When I was around 9, I had a little bit of insomnia for a while. During that time, I think my brain just tried to create something to comfort me, so (as stupid as it sounds) I started talking to a delphox in my head about my troubles. Recently I have seen it again, when high.
Im losing my fucking mind
Im becoming a worthless piece of shit. I piss in a bottle 2 times a day, I zone out almost the entire school day, get home and since my brain prohibites me from doing homework, I spend hours on my computer. Often I will venture to sold4u auctions and attempt to buy shit I cant afford.
What if I am trapped in a test created by some advanced group and my whole life has been a lie. Maybe
Whenever im stressed, have a little anxiety, or any trouble doing something, music will play in my brain and it wont go away.
1/24/2023 I really want to write a good song, or make a good film. When i listen to sad music, my soul may be touched or inspired to do this. If i listen to hyper music I get high adrenaline. Sometimes my problems keep me as a prisoner within my own dark and desolate mind.
This is all going on a flash drive from now on. It WAS on a drive, but I need insurance that my journal won't be lost, and that It will be preserved for me.
1/29/23 I sometimes like to almost trick my mind into laughing at like gore on livegore, as if im laughing at it ironically, but then i actually laugh at it.
2/9/23 I like to (try) to draw. I get high, I draw goofy things. Today, my dad dropped me off at home before my mom and grandpa were there, and it was the first time in almost a year that I felt genuinely really calm. Lately I have felt kind of stressed with grandpa here, but with nobody here, the peaceful serenity inspired me for the first time in a while, and i was motivated to DO things. I went out to get sticks for a project, I began to draw, but the second the car rolled up, my stress came back. I like calm, not the scattered heptic that grandpa brings to the house. He needs to go to a nursing home.
3/23/23 Im starting to lose it for real. I like to smoke pot, but i doubt thats the cause. My mental strain is too much for my brain to handle, so its begun to crack under the pressure.
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2023.03.24 07:15 Individual_Iron4221 My discord friends didn’t have an answer
Is listening to pre-2000s rock in the dark at 1:12 in the morning considered normal behavior?
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2023.03.24 07:14 LoveMangaBuddy Read Azur Lane 4-koma: Slow ahead - Chapter 99 - MangaPuma
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2023.03.24 07:14 sop39230984 is there something wrong with me?
i’ve kinda spent the past few years realizing that there’s nothing wrong with me and i’m just personally lazy and unmotivated but i’m kinda starting to question that now
i’ve had times later at night where i hear audio of music and stuff whenever i’m watching a video and i have to really recenter myself and feel like it’s not real. the music makes me feel cozy in some kinda way, like more cozy than just being at my house, more like i’m at home
this after a while if i decide to stay awake more kinda leads to video hallucinations where the normal visual noise i see in the dark gets so so much more saturated and rampant and i start seeing some disturbing images, specifically ones that may have caused some sort of trauma to me before, it’s really hard to stop these and writing it down here is kinda summoning this
i also recently have been feeling intense visualizations about suicide in a pretty violent way, just like some super unrealistic blunt force trauma thing that wouldn’t really work in practice but i still kinda indulge in the idea. this is contrary to my preferred methods of a train and inert gas and i know i shy away from pain, i’m a sensitive person, so there isn’t really any urge for suicide. just intense visualizations that i really really wish were physically possible and i had the mental fortitude to act out
i’ve also had “paranoia” attacks? i’m still pretty sold on how i have to mount cameras in my room but at one point this felt like a high priority decision and people i knew called me paranoid and i kinda felt an aura of discomfort from them, i’m not sure how to put it into words. my ideal setup was a webcam hooked into a raspberry pi that i’d put into my vent. my parents are great and want the best for me but i don’t trust them even a little and i know they know that.
anyways i’m not sure if there’s anything wrong or if these are just byproducts of my lazy unmotivated character. let me know please. and be honest.
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2023.03.24 07:14 Far_Rich_8733 LINUS TECH TIPS SCAMS HIS SUBSCRIBERS
Linus was in on a big crypto scam. He took all the money from his young fans then he uploaded all his old videos in an attempt to get views for the last dance effort. He uploaded everything wanting to ruin his company. He needed retirement money desperately after his 3 warehouses got seized for being obtained by fraud. #LINUSSCAMS
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2023.03.24 07:13 UnderstandingNo7313 Laser or Electrolysis, affecting mental health
For context I’m 20 and middle eastern so I already have some excess hair, however the facial hair has increased rapidly in the past three years and the hairs are coarse and dark. The clinic I’m about to start going to specializes in naturopathic ways to treat PCOS and other hormonal issues, and they offer laser hair removal, what sort of questions should I ask them before booking an appointment? As you all know, the facial hair can take a huge toll on mental health and I’ve struggled so much in the past year I barely leave my house anymore and even put my education on hold. Any and all advice will break so greatly appreciated. Thank you. If any of you could please share your laser or electrolysis story please do, I’m trying to decide between the two. There is only one clinic in my city that offers electrolysis but I’ve never heard any reviews about their services so I am wondering if I should pursue laser instead? For those who have had successful or unsuccessful laser for facial hair, what do you recommend? Do you know what device and setting was used? What do you recommend for someone who is trying to treat hormonal issues naturally (on inositol and drinking spearmint tea, watching diet and exercise, lowering stress and increasing sleep etc). I’m just confused on what to do. Thank you 🙏🏼 ❤️ I’ve posted this in the PCOS sub as well but posting here as well as I’m just so lost and needing all the advice I can get. (Also not totally diagnosed with PCOS yet, still doing lots of tests)
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2023.03.24 07:13 dreadnought_strength Schematic Suggestion Needed
I've posted a couple of things on here about my travels creating some basic, fairly modular PCBs for the purpose of running basic stompbox building classes including introductory theory.
For the single knob pedals I've been doing for the introductory classes, I've got builds all based around my takes on the following circuits:
- Light Distortion - Electra with emulated germaniums
- Heavy Distortion - Acupulco Gold
- Fuzz - OKF (builders choice of Coloursound, Ritual, Meathead, etc)
- Boost - no-crackle SHO
- Bass option - Devi Ever Dark Boost
Now I've pretty much got those completely sorted and optimised, I'm looking at putting together an 'advanced' class where we go through things like filters, IC's, biasing transistors, etc. Along with this, I want to go to a modular 3 knob design, and I'm chasing some pedal suggestions.
The PCB's I'm working with are 48x25mm, have room for 3 pots (vol/gain/tone) and are double sided, so I'm not after anything ridiculously complicated. They also all have to be THT for the purpose of the classes
What I've been looking at so far for the 3 knob modular pedals are based around:
- Distortion - 3 knob Distortion+ (original schematic + SWTC)
- Fuzz - 3 knob Tonebender (EQD Black-Ash-ish)
- Overdrive - LP Eternity
- Bass - Zvex Woolly Mammoth (modified for 3 knobs)
Is there anything else I should be looking at, especially in the relatively clean boost field? Something super high gain would be nice too, but I haven't come across something that sounds great and fits the brief/requirements just yet.
Cheers!
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2023.03.24 07:13 AdDiscombobulated959 Savor the Smoky Goodness: Discover the Best BBQ in Guam at Guam Plaza's Restaurants
| https://preview.redd.it/tyusagfrpmpa1.jpg?width=1000&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=8b6c328e83306b2019e7c7edf88d0e435de1d888 Guam is famous for its delicious and diverse cuisine, and one of the island's most beloved dishes is barbecue. If you're a meat lover looking for the best BBQ in Guam, look no further than Guam Plaza's restaurants. At Guam Plaza, you can choose from a variety of restaurants that offer mouth-watering Best BBQ dishes. Here are some of the best places to satisfy your cravings for smoky, grilled meats: 1. Nana's Café Nana's Café is known for its casual, laid-back atmosphere and its delicious BBQ dishes. The menu features classic American-style BBQ, including ribs, pulled pork, and brisket. The meats are slow-cooked to perfection, resulting in tender, juicy, and flavorful dishes. Don't forget to try the BBQ sauce, which is homemade and pairs perfectly with the meat. 2. The President Restaurant The President Restaurant is a fine dining establishment that specialises in Japanese cuisine. However, it also offers an excellent selection of BBQ dishes that are sure to impress. The menu includes items like grilled pork belly, beef tongue, and chicken skewers. Each dish is expertly prepared and seasoned with a blend of spices that enhance the natural flavours of the meats. 3. Meskla Dos Meskla Dos is a fusion restaurant that combines Chamorro, Filipino, and American flavours. The restaurant's BBQ dishes are a standout on the menu. Try the smoked pork ribs, which are slow-cooked and smothered in a tangy BBQ sauce. Or, if you're feeling adventurous, try the Chamorro-style BBQ chicken, which is marinated in a blend of soy sauce, vinegar, and spices. 4. Al Dente Ristorante Al Dente Ristorante is an Italian restaurant that also offers a selection of BBQ dishes. The restaurant's signature dish is the smoked beef brisket, which is slow-cooked for hours until it's tender and juicy. The dish is served with a side of garlic mashed potatoes and sautéed vegetables, making for a hearty and satisfying meal. In conclusion, Guam Plaza's restaurants are some of the best places to enjoy Best BBQ in Guam. Whether you're in the mood for classic American-style BBQ or a fusion of Chamorro and Filipino flavours, these restaurants have something for everyone. So, if you're a BBQ lover, don't miss the chance to savour the smoky goodness at Guam Plaza's restaurants. submitted by AdDiscombobulated959 to u/AdDiscombobulated959 [link] [comments] |
2023.03.24 07:12 MtlChicChic Huberman and sports - an observation
I really enjoy Huberman, Attia and a few others in the same vein. The information they share is really helping me with many aspects of my life.
They all talk about having a good exercise routine involving cardio and weight training. I get it, it's important and I do it.
But I have observe that they barely if ever mention team sports and its multiple benefits. Strength training does not develop balance, quick reactions, reflex, good vision, eye hand coordination, capacity of sprinting ... all essential skills humans should have. Tennis, basketball, hockey, dancing and many others do and are excellent activities for social interactions. I would appreciate if they would put a little more time on physical activities that bring humans together and are keeping us healthy. For many, these feel less like a task so they might be more sustainable.
I understand Huberman podcast is recent and that he has many years of content to come but barely any mention?
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2023.03.24 07:12 Mariahhope92900 (F4M) slice of life long term roleplay partner
Hi my name is Mariah I’m 22 years old I’m looking for someone to role play with me I prefer that we play in first person, I have several scenarios that you can pick from I have two requirements. 1. I prefer that we play in first person, 2. Just be patient with me because I don’t write that much . If you are interested in role-playing with me, just message me I roleplay comfort to dark roleplay I prefer role-playing in Reddit chat because it’s easier for me. I hope to chat with you soon, here’s a list of the scenarios that you can pick from Let me know what scenario you would like to do with me . Please be 18+
Here the scenarios that we can do
First scenario
Here’s the scenario You come home from work and your partner tells you that her parents are having a family gathering at their house and she wants to go. She tells you that she was diagnosed with a fainting disorder so you could be aware of it
Second scenario
Here’s the scenario You come home from work you don’t see me in the living room and you start looking around for me you hear me crying in the bedroom and you ask me what’s wrong
Third scenario
Here’s the scenario You come home from work you don’t see me in the living room and you start looking around for me you find me in the corner in our bedroom having a panic attack
Fourth scenario
Here’s the scenario You are at the store you receive a text message from your partner that they are having another bad mingran and they ask you to bring medication from the store
5th scenario
Here’s the scenario We are going out on a date and I bought a pretty dress and I start thinking to myself will I look good in this dress and you give me good words of encouragement
6th scenario
Here’s the scenario You got home from work and you don’t see your partner in the living room you check everywhere for them you finally find them in the bathroom in the bedroom next to toilet
7th scenario
Here’s the scenario You are at home relaxing from your busy day at work you receive a phone call from your partner and she is crying hysterically on the phone and she tells you that her dad and her got into another argument but it ended bad and she asks you to go get her from her house and take her back to your place.
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2023.03.24 07:12 CinderAmbition Just broke a 85-90 Hour fast successfully :D , Check in/Discussion.
Made it my goal to fast during the week.
Ate good & plenty Saturday & Sunday.
Fasted from monday morning to thursday evening wanted to go 96/100+ into friday but decided to go on a pint of Guinness in the pub so i said screw the last day, overall im happy.
Fasted around the 85-90 hour mark.
Basicly had a big bowl of salad of cucumbers & lettuce and a little bit of cherry tomatoes with mozzarella with lemon & tabasco. Ate it slowly over around 1 hour.
Ordered a pint of Guinness and drank it slowly as well..
Got back home , and over a period of 4 hours i gradually ate.
Basicly 2 whole avocados with some grated parmesan cheese. & 4 thinly sliced lean turkey breasts , 2 Boiled eggs and 2 Sunny side up eggs, 2 Cubes of lindt 90% dark chocolate with sea salt & chili, 2 macadamia nuts 2 brazil nuts & 4 walnuts.
Had some Hot green tea & Sparkling mineral water.
Stuffed to the gills and very happy :]
What do you think about my fast breaking meal?
i know beer and alcohol overall isnt ideal but Guinness is my jam and i coudent t refuse it after a long fast. , just made sure i wont drink on an empty stomach especially after an extented fast.
What are youre favorite Foods to a break a fast with? And how do you prepare for it? Do you add food gradually over time?
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2023.03.24 07:12 Underspecialised The Tyranny Of The Spartan: Are there any other cool ways to do shields in video games, and why haven't we tried them yet?
So. Energy shields in video games.
By this point in the life-cycle of the concept, you know how this works.
The shield takes all incoming damage until it's depleted, and regenerates at a certain rate after not getting hit for a while. It's Halo. It’s Borderlands. It's familiar.
We also have the concept of GATING, wherein any single damage instance that damages the shield can ONLY damage the shield – as best I can tell games like Warframe and Mass Effect 2 use this to implement a “wake up baby you’re getting your arse beat” signal, complete with shattering noises and stumble effects.
Both of these franchises have also implemented, to a greater or lesser extent, a shield negation mechanic – some forms of damage ignore shielding, dealing damage directly to whatever’s underneath. That can take the form of total BYPASS (melee attacks or rachni spit in mass effect 1, warframe’s toxin damage), or BLEEDTHROUGH wherein a fraction of the incoming damage ignores the shield (phasic rounds in ME1)
We might also take a leaf out of the space-sim genre and also think about ACTIVATION PERCENTAGE- if the shield goes to zero, it doesn’t absorb damage (or interrupt its regeneration) until it’s reached this threshold a la Battlefleet Gothic (100%) or Elite Dangerous (50%)
So, my question is this. If, in a FPS (or shootery-rpg) environment with a fairly high time to kill, you could vary all these parameters as you liked (whether that’s by player customisation or by selecting different models of shield generator), do you envision any cool emergent gameplay or strategies arising from the edge-cases?
I’ve been playing around with some of these by laborious tweaking of mass effect 2 (note to others: do not fucking do this sweet jesus there has to be a better testbed), and despite not being able to turn off the gating and attendant stagger, I’ve found that the game plays completely differently if you set these parameters to their extremes – slowing down regeneration rate but changing the delay to a fraction of a second makes the game feel much more attritional but also shortens the core chest-high-wall-shooter loop to a few shots rather than a few kills. Conversely, setting the regeneration rate sky-high but lengthening the delay feels almost heroic – this protection is only here for a little while, might as well use all of it in a blaze of glory, and hope that you can take the hail of return fire long enough for it to turn itself back on.
Here’s an example system that goes further (Which might be better suited to a space-sim or mech game, but here goes). Slow regen rate Zero delay No gating Bleedthrough dependent on shield strength. IE if you hit the shield at 100% full, the shield takes 100% of that damage. If you hit it at 20% full, 80% of that damage blows past the shield and damages HP/Armour instead, and the shield takes 20% of the damage.
We’d wind up with a scenario where your defenses behave very differently depending on the way the attacker’s weapon works, and very differently in the immediate timescale vs sustained exposure. We might, for instance, see situations with rapid fire or beam weapons where the shield comfortably takes the first hit, bleeds through a negligible-but-escalating percentage of damage for the next 20, then settles at a bleedthrough percentage where the shield’s share of the damage is equal to its regeneration rate. On the other hand, a sniper might knock down the shield completely with his first shot, only to find that he’s not done any lasting damage to the target but instead rendered it totally vulnerable to the bloke creeping up behind it with a shotgun.
Anyway. I think there’s scope for doing shields differently than Halo did. I’d like to hear your ideas/scenarios/objections, and any games that do it differently which I haven't noticed.
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2023.03.24 07:11 Naive_Peak_2490 Top 5 Overrated & 5 Underrated Brawlers (IMO)
Note: This is based on Power League, and are in my personal opinions as a Mythic player.
OVERRATED:
- Chester: No idea why players still pick him, he's not that good in any game modes, Even tho he can handle tanks and some mid range brawlers, there's a lot more options better than him like Gus and Janet.
- Jessie: Yes, players still pick Jessie. She's even worse than Chester, her turret can be easily shredded if not placed correctly, and she suffers from the aggressive brawlers like stu, Sam, ash and Max. She has no way of protecting herself from those brawlers.
- Bibi: Surge, El Primo, Stu and bea are just a few brawlers that would thrash Bibi, there's just way too many of her counters that are meta. Plus there are way better tanks that can do a better job, like buzz, Sam and ash.
- Carl: Now I know Carl is pretty decent in the meta, but players just take Carl as their first or second pick. Even tho he's good, he still has his counters like Surge, Buzz and basically any brawlers that can knock him out of his super so it's best to take him as a last or even fifth pick.
- Colt: Right now he's suffering because of indestructible walls, and plus his a High Skill brawler. Throwers would just bully him, and since his shots are very hard to hit, the aggressive brawlers would just bully him some more throughout the match. Plus if your opponent is more experienced and know how to dodge Colt's shots, it game over.
UNDERRATED:
- Gus: He's really good in multiple game modes like Knockout, Bounty, Gem Grab and even Hot zone. He can handle tanks just as well as he can handle those long range brawlers. He can really carry the game sometimes if you play him right.
- 8 Bit: He's a really good mid in Gem Grab (Hard Rock Mine) and Heist (Safe Zone and Kaboom Canyon), Really good DMG, very tank and has a star power to help with his slow movement speed, a gadget to get him out of trouble, overall a great mid lane brawler. Just watch for Bea.
- Bonnie: I'm really surprised that barely anyone picks her, she's basically a terrorist on most heist maps, great assassin in Knockout, super tanky, and has a huge burst damage in her second form, long range in her first form to deal with the long range brawlers, she way too good to be this underrated. Just watch out for Bea and Collete, cuz they counter her.
- Janet: Can you believe that throughout all my games in mythic, I haven't seen Janet? It amazes me cuz Janet is arguably the best controller brawler in the game, her super basically makes her untouchable, unstoppable and Unpredictable. She can use her super to go aggressive and push back the enemies or go to her teams base with all the gems, she can even assassinate players by landing on them and two taps them (If the enemy is low heath). Has a gadget that prevents enemies from healing, she good in Gem Grab, Hot Zone, and even bounty.
- Otis: Has a super that can prevent a brawler from attacking, using it's super, nor Gadgets and there you have a tanks nightmare. He counters the meta tanks like Sam, ash, El Primo and buzz. Has a gadget that's great for taking out totems behind wall, has a star power that increases his ammo, and can handle those mid range brawlers pretty easily, he's great in Knockout, Gem Grab and Brawl Ball.
Some Honourable mentions for Underrated:
Lou, Fang (As Last or Fifth pick), Meg, Grey, Squeak and Lola.
Some Honourable mentions for Overrated:
Mortis and Edgar.
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2023.03.24 07:11 lilanonym Anxious new owner
Hello, I just adopted a female sugar glider joey last night and put a piece of my pajama I've worn inside her cage. When she first came, the breeder said she's tame but she crabs a lot. When I held her first time, she didn't bite but was quite jumpy and didn't stay in place. Anyway, though she's still scared, she's already eating and exploring her cage. She chose my pajama to sleep in, which I think is a good thing? As she will get used to my smell soon right? RIP my pajama though since she peed and pooed there, hopefully I can still wash it and wear it later 😅
This afternoon, I didn't see her moving so I was worried and checked on her. Luckily she's just fast asleep in my pajama. I gently talked and petted her through my pajama. She crabbed at first but eventually calmed down. Then I gave her a treat and put her back in to continue her sleep.
I am unsure if it's normal or not but is it possible for a tame sugar glider to crab a lot like this? What are the tips to bond with her? I had only hamsters before and I'm still scared of getting bitten despite that (the kind of bite that draws blood), so any tips on not getting bitten by a sugar glider? I was told that my sugar glider is tame and never bites like that but the way she's crabbing makes me worried.
Also I'm getting her a friend, another female joey soon as her friend is still not at the age to be weaned yet (around next week) so I'm confused how to bond the suggies once there are two of them?? Will having a friend make my sugar glider happier and be more open to bonding with me or will it cause them to be more scared to bond with me? I'm just anxious as I'm not even close with my sugar glider yet, not to the extent I'm not afraid of touching her and her not afraid of my touch, but I'm going to add her friend soon 😅
Any advice or tips will be welcome! I came from a place where proper care of sugar glider isn't really being advocated so I'm afraid I'm doing things wrong though the local videos or people said do this and that. Since I've seen suggies that are quickly bonded (can be touched/petted/sleep in the owner's palm) as soon as they're adopted from here so I wonder if I'm the one doing things wrong... I tried to do it slowly with my sugar glider but not too slow (as I would do to my hamsters), but people seemed to be doing it quickly here (grabbing and petting their suggies on day 1) and it seemed to work?
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2023.03.24 07:11 atamajakki [Meta] Does Rule 9 apply to RPG releases? (Imperium Maledictum)
Just a brief question here: Imperium Maledictum, Cubicle 7's spiritual successor to Dark Heresy and the other d100 games, came out today with just under 400 pages of 40k goodness. There's no adventure content or narrative to worry about "spoiling," but I'm curious if things still apply normally to the TTRPGs Rules-wise. I'd love to share some info on the Macharian Sector, but I don't wanna get in trouble!
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2023.03.24 07:10 great_name_all_yours Impressive TAGS from the NEW MANAGEMENT TEAM!!!
2023.03.24 07:10 Ok-Investigator-4062 new event idea
How about an event called "The Plague's Return"?
In this event, a deadly plague has swept through the bayou, infecting both the living and the dead. The infected monsters are more aggressive and powerful than ever before, posing a greater threat to hunters. Players must navigate through the infected areas while avoiding the plague and taking down the infected monsters to prevent the plague from spreading.
The event could introduce new infected monster types, such as plague-ridden hives or swarms of infected rats, and offer unique rewards for completing event-specific challenges, such as finding and burning infected nests or collecting samples of the plague for a researcher in the bayou.
To add to the atmosphere, the event could feature a dark and eerie soundtrack and limited visibility due to the fog and mist created by the plague. Players could also be required to wear protective gear, such as gas masks or hazmat suits, to avoid contracting the plague themselves.
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2023.03.24 07:10 Hearagain3 TYPES OF SPEECH THERAPISTS FOR CHILDREN
| https://preview.redd.it/h4blpk25pmpa1.jpg?width=1350&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c619173c5114a2a9bbdd59495e2a750e69c5415b Introduction Communication is an important knack that one needs to develop just after birth to interact with people. The skills of communication are essential to be developed so that you can correspond with people and able to share thoughts smoothly. But, As there is medicine for every ailment the ailment for every condition is there so as in speech. Where people have different types of speech disorders that they need different types of speech therapies to overcome their communication problems. What are speech disorders and what are their types? What is a speech disorder? A speech disorder is a condition in which the individual finds trouble producing sounds or understanding language. Speech disorders can be caused by physical damage to the brain, such as from stroke and seizures, but they can also be caused by conditions like laryngeal incompetence which is mainly caused by an injury, due to several Neurological and psychological disorders such as autism spectrum disorder and developmental language disorder (DLD) which makes a person hard to deliver the words, proper pronunciation and even elicit sound. Types of speech disorders:- - Stuttering
- Apraxia
- Dysarthria
Role of Speech therapy Speech therapy is important for anyone who has a speech disability. It can help you communicate better by helping you speak more clearly, understand what other people are saying, and improve your communication skills. It’s an important part of the overall well-being and development of children. It can help in • Language development • Communication skills • Social skills • Correction of phraseology • Improvement in speech disorders Types of speech therapy for children 1. Speech Therapy for Stuttering:- 2. Speech Therapy for Apraxia of Speech:- 3. Speech Therapy for Aphasia:- - Speech Therapy For Swallowing Difficulty:-
1. Speech therapy for stuttering:- Speech therapy is proven important for people with stuttering problems. It helps you to observe when you stutter and minimize the speed of your speech accordingly. This speech therapy needs sluggish speed initially it gradually increases with time until you start speaking normally. 2. Speech therapy for apraxia of speech:- In apraxia of speech, the child knows what to ask or what to deliver it’s the brain that tells the wrong signals in the movement of the mouth muscles. It is also known as verbal dyspraxia or developmental apraxia. Causes behind CAS in a child • Due to brain damage. • Complications in childbirth. • Stroke. • Genetic disorder. • Any severe brain injury. The child has to take therapy sessions twice a week better if you prioritize group sessions. • Organizing mouth movements needed to speak. • Practice sessions of scheduling mouth muscle movements 3. Speech therapy for Aphasia:- The treatment is dependent upon the speech therapy approach done by a speech-language pathologist. Some SLPs approach individual methods some approach combination of therapy but it should be well-researched with evidence that it has an impact on the patient. What SLPs are going into speech therapy for apraxia? • Intensive practice of the targeted words during the session. • As CAS is a motor-based disorder the therapist focuses on movements of the mouth for the proper word flow rather than sound. • New targets are practiced as specific targets while older ones are frequently revised. • Therapists give directions to the patients like” slow the movement of the mouth” or “you are doing it right”. • Giving daily homework includes, repeating sounds, rhythm, uses of pauses, etc. 4. Speech therapy for swallowing difficulty Swallowing difficulty is also known as dysphagia. The term is used for the condition where a person is unable to chew or swallow food due to some reasons. Here SLPs provide therapies to patients with swallowing difficulties to help them eat and swallow food properly. Speech therapy for swallowing difficulty has three types:- • Bedside Dysphagia Evaluation:- Visual examination of the swallowing condition. Keen observations on mouth jaw muscles and try to evaluate which suits best according to the condition. • Modified Barium Swallow Evaluation (MBS):- It is done by a radiologist to watch the journey of barium-coated food which gives an accurate report of what is better in swallowing and what is stuck inside the mouth or throat. • Fiberoptic Endoscopic Evaluation (FEES):- where a radiologist will put a small fiberoptic tube from the nasal to observe the activities of the sound box and upper esophagus at the time of swallowing. They give some exercises in homework like swallowing saliva every 10 minutes, Saying the word” HAWK” and Some movement while eating twice or thrice a day. Different types of speech therapy 1. Speech Therapy for Fluency Disorder:- A fluency disorder is a speech disorder that makes it difficult for someone to speak clearly and fluidly. It can make it difficult for an individual to figure out what they are saying, or even to understand themselves. There are several methods for treating a fluency disorder:- Speech therapy utilizes feedback from patients to assist them to improve their speech patterns. This method uses recording equipment like a recorder or tape recorder so that the patient can hear themselves speaking back to them. The speech therapist will then advise changes in the way the person speaks or sounds until they feel comfortable speaking without stuttering or slurring their words again. 2. Speech therapy for an articulation disorder:- speech therapists know how hard it can be to overcome a speech problem, it can be frustrating to try and say something that hasn’t come out right, but when you get your speech back together again, it’s amazing how much better everything sounds! When a therapist started working on articulation disorders, they knew some things would help make my job easier. So they started using these techniques: 1) Always ask the patient what their goals are before getting started. This lets them know what they want from therapy and gives them an idea of where a therapist needs to begin. 2) Make sure the patient has a good understanding of the language being spoken before starting therapy. If you don’t understand the language well enough, then it will be hard for therapists to try to teach you how to speak clearly and correctly. 3) If someone is having trouble with their pronunciation or fluency, practice speaking slowly and clearly to observe the absurd. 3. Speech therapy for swallowing difficulty An SLP is assigned to treat swallowing difficulty cause due to several know and unknown reasons. SLP apply techniques according to the condition of the patient: • Visual assessments of the movement of muscles • X-ray procedures to get perfect results behind the disorder. • Eat smaller food • Frequent meal schedule • Mouth Muscle exercises • Slow chewing and slow swallowing etc. 5. Speech therapy for dysarthria Dysarthria is a sudden change in the ability to speak properly. But it can be solved by regular therapy sessions that involve:- • More breath for a louder pitch. • Muscle exercise to make the mouth muscles stronger. • improves articulation • Enriching breathing support. • Adjusting speech rate. • Frequent communication practice with family members. 6. Speech therapy for late talkers As late talkers generally see in the childhood phase it involves various activities to overcome the problem from the root like:- • Model good speech • Frequent speech practice at home. • imitation of certain targeted words in front of your kid. • Daily homework • Making certain sounds and hand signs to understand clearly what you want to say to your child. • Repetition of certain complex words. • Practice sessions of targeted words and revision of older targets. Conclusion If you find any of your dear ones facing problems in speaking, then do visit the best speech therapist in Gurgaon Hear Agin at once. Hear Again has a lot of information to share with you about your child’s speech and language development. Hear Again is the most reputed best hearing aid in Gurgaon and has years of work experience and is the best Audiologist in GURGAON for occupational therapists Gurgaon and also for treating ailments such as speech therapy, They’ll give you a complete physical exam and discuss any concerns they have about your child’s health. Best Speech therapists will also talk with you about what kind of assistance your child needs. For example, if your child has auditory processing issues, he may need extra time in groups for language labs and practice periods. If he has trouble articulating words into sentences, the speech therapist may recommend that he participate in an intensive phonics program during his recess period. submitted by Hearagain3 to u/Hearagain3 [link] [comments] |
2023.03.24 07:09 CKain08 I am the glass child
TW mention of self harm and suicidal thoughts
" Glass children are those who are growing up in a home where a sibling takes up a disproportionate amount of parental energy "
Well. Disclaimer : I am not a child, alright, I am 20. But I've been thinking a lot about the last 10 years of my life, and I am, as much as it pains me, a glass child and I've been since my sister's born.
Of course, at first, it was (I thought) only because I was the first born, the big sis, you know.
But 3 years ago, my sister discovered Tik Tok. Everyone knows Tik Tok, right? Well, we all know what kind of stuff we can find on that app! I, myself, found the description of a "glass child" there. I use Tik Tok frequently.
My sister always had problems with her friends. When she was younger, she was always in the middle of some arguing between two or three girls, never really had a day where she wasn't coming home with what I call "girl's gangs" problems (you know when two best friends suddenly split and get mad and get other friends to form like alliances and stuff to b*tch on the others? Ya know, old stuff, we've all been there).
She was never wrong in those situations. She was coming home laughing about how she was the peacemaker and never creating problems of some sort. Thing is, I know my sister. Like the back of my hand. Alright? I just... know when she's lying. Still, to this day, she always brags about how good she is to manipulate people and make them do what she wants. Alrighty girl, weird flex.
Well, she got to high school (what we call secondary one in Canada), and then, she started having anxiety. Like panic attacks and all? I've had those, still do these days, so I understood. I became her protector, her therapist, calming her down when my mother critized her for exagerating. I knew what to do, and I gave up all my energy to take care of her, of her mental health, as a good old sister does.
She made it to the second year of high school (secondary 2) with difficulties. Panic attacks again and all. 3 years ago, as I said, she discovered Tik Tok. I know Tik Tok and its algorithm : there are specific fyp where you can find videos about the same topic over and over again. I suspect she was in a dark side of Tik Tok, a depressed one, where you can see all sort of sad/depressing things and stories (I know, I've been there too, now trying to avoid it as much as I can because it affects me mentally and I start spiralling).
Cutting her hair short ( I guess the "funny mentally hill" trend where you cut your hair on a headbutt and dye it, I know, been there too).
Sexuality explored too. Like she was trans for a while and wanted us to call her another name (she isn't anymore, she told me so about 3 months in). I always respected her choices and calling her what she wanted to be called at that time. She was a kid, she was 13, so she was discovering herself and her preferences and all. No problem with that.
She started hanging out with some people like that too. She had a non-binary friend, a trans one, a furry one, etc. She was having fun with them. Great people. She finally had a group.
Some of them, however, had the same experiences we all hear about on Tik Tok. You know, some of them not in a great home, or in a bad relationship with parents, depression, anxiety. Hate to say it, but you know those people on Tik Tok who (unfortunatly) are bullied on the internet for being... like... huuuuh (wondering how to say that without insulting anyone) like stereotypical? Like... you know those who wants a cat litter in a classroom in a unironical way? Some of her friend were a little extremist on that plan. Again, never really bothered me.
We have two parents, a mom and a dad. They divorced when I was 7. My sister was 3. They never fought in front of us, never heard them, it was really a suprise. They went their separate ways. Me and my sis got used to go to each of them for a week, and then go back to the other for a week. It was fine, working good. My parents are both accountants, my mom teaching it too. I had a strong disagreement with my mom in 2019 about one of her (numerous) boyfriends. The only one i really hated with all my heart. This resulted in me leaving her house for about a year. My sis was still doing 1 week/1 week. Apart of that, my parents are pretty basic ones, never abused us and we always had everything we needed.
I started college. I loved it, still do, and was finally starting my life as an adult, I started a great job, was doing good in school and... was still helping my sister and my parents with her anxiety/ panic attacks. Even learn in my degree how to deal with people who disorganize.
Then, the cutting started. A lot of her friend were doing it, she told me. And then she started having those episodes where she was cutting herself. Never with something sharp, like a knife or else. But with like compass and crayons? Then, she started having suicidal thoughts. Then, and that is where it all went down, she called 911 for suicidal thoughts. She was home alone and the police called my mom.
What had she done? Scratch herself... with a pencil.
I've had panic attacks before. And suicidal thoughts that crossed my mind but I never acted on them. Never. And I can't imagine myself doing it. I talked about it, of course, with my best friend, someone I trusted and it was making me feel better. How did I know my sister was doing that and having those thoughts? She just said it, casually, at dinner with the whole family. Like... girl? It really got the mood down, everyone worried and she was like... glowing? I don't know how to say it.
She was always a bit dramatic and had a way of making everything about herself, but it was never about negative things. More like flexing a good grade or whatever. She was always talking about how depressed she was, how she was suicidal, and the things she was saying were... like straight up a depressing tik tok. Like one day I found something she said ( I think it was like "you don't understand how this feels it is like blablabla i don't remember) WORD FOR WORD in a Tik Tok. It is like she wasn't expressing her feelings, but made up phrases you find on the Internet when you type "panic attacks" or "depression".
After a second call to 911 for taking 10 advils, she got admitted to psychiatry. At that time, I was watching my parents fall appart, running around to appointments for her, my dad having stress acnea (at 45) and both of them exhausted. It was a real drama. Everyone in the family talked about it. It was the only subject of discussion, the only thing that was on everyone's mind.
I was hanging out my seat in class with my phone on my belly to be sure to feel it vibrate if something happened. We were all in a bad place.
And then, we got a diagnosis of autism.
I'm sorry, what? Where does that come from? I mean, alright, we'll deal with that one.
But then. That's where all went down for me. Sis started therapy, changed school, went to an adapted classroom for people like her and with disabilities. My parents were still all over the place.
Except where I needed them.
I was 18, at that time, starting adulthood. I have ADHD. It is really hard for me to respect a schedule, think about every appointments I have, every homework, every luggage I can't forget to bring to mom's or to dad's. I was also giving my all in school, never missed anything, straight A's and working my ass off.
I started realising that everytime my parents texted me was to ask/talk about my sis.
Every. Single. Time.
They'd ask me to bring my sister her lunch that she forgot, to go get her when she was down, or get her to her appointments like I didn't have a whole fu**ing life I was trying so hard to keep on line.
I gave all my free time to her needs and my parents's. I educated myself on autism, defended her when my mom was thinking she was faking because I wanted to prove I was there for her. That I was the life saving good sister. I never, ever, heard her say thank you.
Never.
The only compliments my parents were giving me is "thank you for getting your sis for us. Thank you for being there for her. Thank you for doing things with her."
I went trough some stuff, at that time. I hurt my knee and was failing my physical tests. It got to the point I wasn't even sure I liked my degree anymore. I was having a really hard time. But my parents never saw my pain. I have a tendency to hide things, sure, but I was really trying to talk to them about how I was feeling. They were listening, and letting go. Why didn't they start worrying for me like they did for my sister? I don't know, don't really care now. I was having suicidal thoughts too, I wanted to yeet myself in a tree and even stopped driving so it wouldn't give me options. They left me alone, because everytime I tried bringing up the fact that I was not in a good place, my sister was disorganizing at school and they needed to go to the hospital to be both there for her while she fainted from hyperventilating. Every fcking time I was talking to my sister, she was acting like she lived trough everything and was telling me she knew more about suicidal thoughts than me cause she went to psychiatry. Excuse me miss gurl, but who was fcking there to help you trough your panic attacks hun? How do you think I know so much?
Seeing I had practically no support from my already exhausted parents, I took matters into my own hands and started going to therapy. My doctor also prescribed me with anti-depressants. I was going to be ok... on my own. I've had really bad days, real hard ones. But I got back on my two feet. At least, I think so.
School was over and it was time for summer break. I had a job I loved on a boat. I've had a blast on that boat, I wasn't jumping from a house to another, I wasn't always in luggages, I had my own room like a little appartment of my own on the ship. I slowly started to discover a backpacking/adventurous side of myself. I needed air, was travelling far from home as soon as I had a week or two off of the boat.
At the same time, my sister had stopped self-harming and having suicidal thoughts. She's was now in a school for adults to finish her 4th and 5th year of college. She wasn't in a special classroom anymore. Changed friend group.
But here's the thing. Cause there is always a "but".
I started realising how much my sister was toying with us, with my parents. As soon as the diagnosis fell, she became unsufferable. For example, when I say I hate loud noises and strong light, she says she has it tougher because, ya know, "i'm autistic". I can't say something without her saying she has autism and that's why she has it worse.
When I have a good grade or I've hit a PR at the gym, I tell my parents because I am happy. I try to see life the good way, now. I'm quite proud of all the personal work i've done.
But she can't have a normal day.
It is always "ho I hated school because the light was making a sound" or something to point out she has autism.
I talked to one of my friend who is a social worker, and he told me autism is usually apparent in children. My sis was diagnosed at 15. But, and hear me out, all the things that make her autistic according to her psychiatrist... she's never really had them before.
You remember at the beginning of this rant how I told you I know when my sister is lying?
Well. I don't think an autistic person possess the flex of "being able to manipulate people so easily to get what you want".
She's always bragging about how smart she is compared to us because, you know, "ShE cAn FeElS eNeRgiEs AnD pEoPlE AnD iT AfFeCts hEr". Well, honey, I don't think that is autism. It is always little comment about how special she is because she can't do this, or that. Like I have ADHD, alright? I'm stimming all the time. I don't point it out to people for fun, actually, i'm quite ashamed of it sometimes. She bought all those fidget toys and brings them ALL to school to show how much she needs them.
One reason of why I am mad, as you can (unfortunatly) see, is my father's attitude.
The fact that my sis had episodes of suicidal thoughts and acts traumatized him. With reasons, don't get me wrong.
But now, she's clearly living well of drama and stereotypical behavior she never had before.
My father is fucking afraid of telling her no.
Like man, I don't think that if you ask her to unload the dishwasher ONE FUCKI*NG time that she's going to kill herself. Like come on.
One time, she called him cause she fainted cause she was hyperventilating cause the cleaner at her school wore a different hat than usual. Or another time where she learn that two teachers were eating togueter at lunch and not in the cafeteria?
I know my sister. She is clearly using him. She's got him hooked with a silent threat of hurting herself or making it impossible for him to receive a phone call without thinking she committed.
And. She. Fucking. Knows. It.
She left my mother's house because my mom wasn't buying her shit.
She left with all her drama about how she could appologize but she needs her space to think about what she (mom) did.
BRUH did what?!?!?!? It was so sudden, what are you on about?
All her life, she was good at one thing : breaking people's relationship.
I know, because I'm not blind.
She's the type of person that looks at you after saying your deepest secret in front of everyone and be like : "oups teehee🤪 you know i can't keep a secret" or she plays dumb "i didn't know it was a secret oupsis" with this little dumb face that I know by heart means "I win you fuck*ng idiot".
She broke the good relationship my parents had by pretending mom told her something when it wasn't right or vice versa. When she's at dad's, she always talks about all the things mom does that sucks. When she was at mom, she was always talking about how bad it was at dad.
I was in the middle like , bruh, it isn't even that bad. And of course, my parents both being proud individuals started feeling supperior than the other and downgrading the other in front of us (wich you know my sis was repeating over and over to everyone).
But because my parents are fucking blind they let her riled them up against each others. So now they don't talk. And when they do, it is always to argue about how to take care of my sis.
To make a clear example of how she gets everything she wants :
She always tells me that she wants a Mira dog. Like a service dog. She's going to keep creating dramatic scenarios like that until my father cries and decides it is the last option we have.
But no. After the dog, it is going to be another need for neurodivergent people that she's probably going to see on Tik Tok.
Because yes, she faints and yes, she is hyperventilating. But I can create scenario in my head and make them real too (maladaptive daydreaming oups). Anxiety works like that : if I start hyperventilating for 45 seconds, my body jumps to survival mode and the mammoth thing ang boom, there you have your panic attack.
Yes. She is mentally hill.
But she's not autistic. She does not need a service dog. And she can't continue leading people on like that.
She's in need of negative attention. She hates when we compliment her, she hates when we wish her happy brithday and all. But she's always talking about how she did bad at this exam and ho people please comfort me. There's always something going on with her.
She stopped self-harming and having suicidal toughts. People started living normally.
So she restarts panic attacks but she already has a psychiatrist so she needs more.
Lets go to the hospital, something's wrong with my heart. Then she's got the pleasure of walking around school with a machine to record her heart thingy.
Nope. Nothing wrong.
People start forgetting.
Whoops now she's fainting and we don't know why.
Hospital trip yeah.
Nothing's wrong.
Then she buys a machine to keep track of her blood pressure.
Does a doctor prescribed it?
Nope. You can just buy it so she did. And she could do it like in the morning, at lunch or at night, but no, she absolutly needs to do it in front of everyone, making noise in class while the teacher is talking.
And i'm starting to get fed up.
About a year into this nightmare, 3 years ago, I stopped feeling.
I wasn't able to feel anything. And that is why, today, I can write this and unfortunatly for some, it will be controversial.
After my downfall, when my sister was in need...
I did not care.
At all.
She could do whatever she wanted to do. She could have as much trip to the hospital as she wanted.
I . Did . Not . Care .
I was going to class.
And my phone was on silent.
I don't want to know. I don't care. Don't you get it? Mom, dad, leave me alone. You did it well, right? Continue.
I am an horrible human being. My best friend tries to comfort me saying that my heart of stone is a form of self-protection, a defense mechanism that I developped 3 years to protect myself and not live trough what my sister put us trough without knowing (or caring?).
Still.
I am an egoist.
But I do not care.
You want to make me feel like a glass child?
Alright alright.
I'll deal with it.
But now the glass is fed up.
And it is about to break.
Good bye and thank you for coming all the way here.
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