Fear is the mind killer lyrics

Took a video of the New York State of mind concert last year in Toronto. It is not the whole show, but it is a good portion of it. Enjoy.

Lost Tribe - intro The Horatii - Annaline The March Violets - My Demons The Bleak Assembly - Wash It Away Shelley's Lullaby - When the Sky Falls Down Sequential Zero - The Banishing Spell Ghosting - Bombed The World The Bellwether Syndicate - And If We Miss The Night Long Night - Black River Descendants Of Cain - The Ceremony WHISPERS IN THE SHADOW - Back to the Wound twice dark - Spiders Slighter - Have No Fear (Single Mix) Derision Cult - Life Unlit Krate - The Needle Brides In The Floodlights - Strangers Again The Secret Experiment - Carrion GIANT CATS! - Sew Our Hands Black Rose Burning - An Anthem for the Strange (Spanish Version) This Eternal Decay - Perfection Theatre of Tragedy - Let You Down Curse Mackey - Smoking Tongues (Delirium Remix by Steven Olaf) Creux Lies - Misunderstanding - (Ash Code Remix) Apoptygma Berzerk - Black Pawn The Crüxshadows - Never Surrender / Citadel (Clan of Xymox remix) HAPAX - Concrete Hives Diary of Dreams - Gedeih & Verderb The Awakening - All Tomorrow's Saints The Wake - Break Me Not Lucida Fila - Sinister Orcus Nullify - Night Dance The InSect - Mister Everything (and Fall) Double Eyelid - Dead Is Better Cinema Strange - Sadist Sagittarius Sex Gang Children - Time of Our Lives Jacquy Bitch - Cimetière The Cult Sounds - Anatomy of a Car Crash Nox Novacula - The Light Below Obsidian - Anachronous Life Cliff And Ivy Alaska's Alaska's goth duo - Reincarnation The House Of Usher - Heart Of Darkness Götterdämmerung - Heaven's Ending

My cat is constantly trying to get into the bassinets, pack and play, and changing tables. I have tried aluminum foil as a deterrent (did not work), I have tried citrus spray (did not work), I am currently trying a cooking sheet with some water in it set inside these items listed. If this does not help what should I consider? I'm 36 and a half weeks pregnant and I'm trying to get everyone adjusted including myself. I will never leave baby unsupervised with animals and will limit the interaction to be controlled, but I do not want my cat to be in the crib, bassinets, pack and play, etc. He is just a stubborn cat, and deterring him is becoming a challenge. I am considering a shock mat, but I feel like that might be cruel, however my cat is ballsy and has no fear. What are your suggestions/thoughts?

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It truly never fully goes away does it? I haven't seen my last LO in about eight months since he left the job, yet in that time I don't think a day has ever passed where I haven't thought about him. Even more concerning is that there's another LO before that one, that I realize I also think about everyday. In that case its been about nine years now since that Limerence Episode. Its alot better for my mental health and state of being than active limerence (trying to connect with them, trying to be seen by them, the contact, the mental gymnastics etc), but in these moments when I realize even though I don't see any of them everyday anymore, and in some cases they're long gone from life and I realize they're always there at the back of my mind...well I simply don't know how to feel. There's no emotion attached really but they're just always there in my mind.

Just a bit of background about me. I have undiagnosed choking/coughing and have had to seek help int he ER over the past few years between many, many specialist visits. One night I was vomiting and unable to take my rescue meds. My husband called an ambulance because the choking was causing me to vomit. This is pretty rare (I regularly receive Botox injection to my throat, but we believe they had worn off early)...so the protocol is to take 4mg of Zofran and 1mg Hydromorphone until the choking ceases. When I arrived at the ER the Dr. told me "I don't give narcotics.". I said that was fine. I had a prescription at home but was struggling with swallowing. He seemed very irritated and annoyed with me. He told me he wouldn't treat me unless I allowed him to give me IV Haldol. Within 30 seconds of it entering my vein I felt like I was losing my mind. I wanted to die. I can't describe it. It was the worst anxiety, panic, agitation I've ever known and I just wanted to die. I couldn't speak. I could barely move and I felt trapped in my body. He came in later and smirked and said..."Well, see...now you don't need a narcotic." and left. I ended up yanking the IV from my arm and somehow finding my husband in the waiting room who could tell something was VERY wrong. He took me home (I didn't even tell them I was leaving or sign anything). We got home...and I shook violently with anxiety for almost a week and a half with no sleep, feeling insane, and wanting to commit suicide. FINALLY it subsided. I googled Haldol and there are quite a few cases of it being prescribed as a "medical straightjacket" to unruly patients? WHY. Why would this man do this to me? It's been months and months and I can barely get out of bed. I live in constant fear of another choking episode and having to visit the ER again. Since that visit my life has never been the same and I can't even remember what happy feels like.

Have you ever been in a situation where you felt like you were in a different reality?

I (19M) put $25 weekly into a managed TFSA with a risk level of 6 and I plan to hold for as many years as possible, like 10-20, or until I think it makes most sense to take it out. The $25 weekly is out of mind out of sight I don’t miss it so if I lose in short term it will not bother me.
Would you suggest continuing using the managed (Im up +1.17%) or should I just buy XEQT and hold long term. Very new investor so sorry if this is a dumb question. Thanks!

Three devices waited in a metaphorical realm, waiting for their fates. In this realm where thoughts came and went in almost instant, the following happened in less than what humans would have perceived as a ‘second’.
“So, why do you think you should be given a planet?” Sierra asked. Well, not exactly ‘asked, She simply broadcasted a stream of code that can be understood as a question.
“I am an experienced administrator of heavy industries, and I’ve spent many cycles scheming the most efficient arrangement for Monitor class production line.” said the alpha class that Sierra had designated as ‘1’. “I believe I can do very well if given a frontline planet such as Hades-I.”
Hades-I was a newly established colony of the Steiner Exploration Company, designated as a fortress world to defend a strategic gate that was projected to be a massive advantage in the recently escalating war against the Legio Infernalis.
“By the same line of logic, I should be ruling Hades-I.” said the core designated as ‘2’. “I have been serving since Madam Steiner was just a captain of a small exploration fleet. I used to control an entire nexus, and ever since I have controlled many different star fortresses. I can make the system invincible”
“The other units are too focused on defense. I think we should focus on the bigger picture.” said the last core, designated as ‘3’. “The military arm of our company relies on our unique advantage of the partially resurrected gate system, focusing on hit and run operations. As a primarily logistic core with cycles of administering megaports and waystations, I think it would be prudent if instead of a fortress we turn Hades-I into a giant logistic center where fleets from our core worlds can jump in, resupply, and move on.”
The other two cores suddenly experienced a fluctuation in power, clearly annoyed that they didn’t think of logistics in the entire two seconds after they were made aware that they're viable candidates for a planetary governor.
“Interesting, do you have a scheme in mind?” asked Sierra.
“A line of astropoli serving as training centers, production powerhouses, and staging grounds. These two can manage it.” said 3, digitally pointing at the other two candidates.
“That…would be ideal, yes.” said 1.
“Hmmph. As long as I get to blow stuff up.” said 2.
“Well, then I guess this selection is over. I’ll arrange courier fleets to move all of you to your new positions, as well as picking your replacements. It would be good if-”
Before Sierra could finish coding her thought, a small, system wide alarm was sounded, indicating an incoming minor annoyance.
“Hey.” the core that called himself ‘Barrow’, the one that Sierra had personally assigned the designation of ‘uncle’, broadcasted in a system wide frequency. “We have a Hegemony inspection fleet coming in, anyone that wants free salvage can wait around jump point 1, thanks.”
“Hm, that’s interesting. Do you guys want to join?” Sierra offered. “We have ships in storage you could-”
“DIBS ON THE RADIANT!” said 3 in a massive datasurge, before it cut off connection entirely.
“OH FUCK OFF KID!” said 2, before it too cut off communication.
“I guess I’ll join, for courtesy if anything.” said 1, before signing off.
Sierra too, immediately signed off from the room, returning to her body…
…which was a phase cruiser, about 8 lightyears away from the communication array the interview happened in.
Fighting a god.
Next to her screaming captain.
“COME BACK HERE YOU FUCKING DORITO!!”

Trigger warning; car accident;
A bus hit us, the car's side where there were me, my boyfriend and our friend. Somehow we all are fine and none's hurt, but I can't stop thinking about seeing the front of the bus, me hugging my boyfriend trying to protect him and all I could thought was: "my God, [our friend's name]" because it mostly hit him. Luckily and I truly don't know how, he didn't get any hurt... We still don't know how.
I don't know how to feel.
My boyfriend, as always, took care of me. After sometime, I dissociated a bit and that's it. I got really dizzy. I started acting childish, making morbid jokes and saying nonsense things. Episodes like that has happened before (me having lapses), but this one was harder. I started acting restless and honestly I don't remember everything.
I can recall some moments 40 minutes after the collision, my boyfriend took me to a place so we could drink watesoda and rest. I know now he noticed. I cannot remember everything during our walk, but I can remember him saying everything we were doing like an instruction ("well, now we're crossing the street", "take care, hold my hand") and he laughing over something I don't remember I said, things like this.
I don't know how to feel. I keep rewatching the scene of me holding him harder and the bus appearing near and nearer. I cannot stop thinking about this. He was almost sleeping while laying his head on my shoulder.
The worst part is to think that before everything, I was sitting in the place where my friend was. We changed because I got out the car for some reason then he asked me to sit there (right side, passenger seat). Then my boyfriend said he'd go in the middle and I sat in the left side. The bus hit right in the place where I was.
It's weird. I feel weird. I didn't see "my whole life in front of my eyes", but I understand that a single different move could've ended us. I don't realize that we were lucky, I can't remember everything. It's feeling weird. I need to take it off my chest even though it's very recent.

Hi all! This is just more of a curiosity for all the DMs out there. Do you, no matter how many sessions you’ve DM’d, still get those nerves in the pit of your stomach leading up to the start of a session? Kind of like that feeling you sometimes would get before taking a test you know you studied for and are well prepared for, but for some reason you’re still nervous? For me it happens before every session, and dissipates within 5 or 10 minutes of getting back in, but I still get that butterfly/nervous tingle and warmth in my stomach in the hour leading up to a session. It’s kind of like a giddy excited nervousness with this fear of, “oh no. I really don’t want to let them down.” My friends/players always tell me how much they enjoy the sessions afterwards, but those nerves still show up before each one.
I love playing, and I love running the games as well. They are both rewarding in their own ways, and it’s such a great way to be creative with friends. I guess I’m just curious if anyone else experiences these recurring nerves as well, regardless of how much they’ve DM’d.

First post here. And it's a long one, and I feel that I need to get this out.
As a 36 year old who had a mental breakdown October 2021, never have I realised just how much damage has been done to me mentally and emotionally since I was a child. My mother, who loved me (and we have since mended the strained relationship we had by her acknowledging the damage she has done), wasn't really fit to be a mother. As someone who I think had a rough childhood growing up, projected alot of her own, as well as new, issues onto me. She was petrified of confrontation, so it was easier for her to blame me for the issues I was having with friends, family, bullying, schoolmates, etc, than to actually confront the issues at hand. My earliest memory of this is being 5 years old when the next door neighbours kid (same age) hit me for something, and she said to me "maybe you did something to cause this.". It's like it was impossible for someone to lash out at others without being provoked. This was a common theme growing up, and it only got worse as time went on. I went to 7 different schools growing up, thanks to my dad's job as a bank manager, so that compounded the problem. Having recently being diagnosed with ADHD and being given dexamphetamine, has that really opened my mind as to why I was never able to fit in. Because I didn't know how to. I was the weird kid in each class and it became such an issue when hitting year 7 that things really got worse. Not sure of the reasons, but hitting high school, I lost almost all my friends. It could've been how I was and how I was acting. This came with endless bullying, humiliation, ostracization and it caused me to cry. Alot. In class. In front of everyone as I was sitting by myself at the front of the class. It became a joke amongst my year. Which made the problem worse. I do digress here, but this also ties into my mother, once again, blaming me for the issues I had growing up. "You're being bullied? Just ignore it. They will stop." "You were beaten up? Maybe you did something to cause it." "Just walk away from it." "You can't say anything back or lash out, because then you'd be in trouble and they wouldn't." It was endless. It also didn't stop at home. I have family that I'm sure viewed me as the black sheep. The family retard if you will. Being someone who couldn't fit in literally anywhere, I was kinda weird around family members as well. Also having a mother who, looking back, probably viewed me as an embarrassment and told me to settle down or stop when I started to open up and try and be myself. My cousin, who we will call Daniel, was able to manipulate those around him to get what he wanted. He also knew that I had a very short fuse with him and he was willing to press my buttons just to have me removed from the picture. He is a textbook narcissist. Whenever I stated that he has done something to hurt me, he would project that back into me saying "you did it as well". Family sided with him, leaving me angry, frustrated and upset as no one listened. An event I recently remembered, which I had repressed, was when I was around 10, I was laying on the loungroom floor, and I was holding a balloon. Not sure why I was, but I was. My cousin and his sister decided that they wanted it, purely because I had it. They said they wanted it. I said no. Daniel, being the fat fuck he was, fell ontop of me, winding and hurting me quite badly, held me down while his sister grabbed the balloon off me. He got up, they were happy with the outcome, and laughed about it. I got up, in tears and ran out of the room. I crossed paths with my dad, who grabbed me by the arm, and as I was yelling and screaming at him to let me go, he dragged me back into the loungroom to make me apologise for making my cousins feel uncomfortable. Completely oblivious to what had transpired. Not that it mattered, as he wouldn't have believe me anyways. My outburst has made my cousins realize, that they had done fucked up, and that realization was showing on their face. They didn't think that I would react that way. Having a family that has treated me this way and ridiculed me for the smallest things, I can no longer be myself around them. I have many different stories of different things happening where it showcases family, friends, schoolmates and colleagues being shitty people. Having living in an environment that had me believing that everything that happened to me was entirely my fault, has resulted in a non-confidential adult who questions everything. Every argument. Every interaction, I always find the easiest way out so I can limit the blame. Being unable to process emotions, situations and stand up for myself, turned me into a person that didn't really treat those around me with a great deal of respect. And that's something I truly regret and hate about myself. Fast forward to today, the meds have changed me for the better. I'm able to interact with those around me without awkwardness, speak up for myself, and have general better self care. I'm still all matters of fucked up, but I'm a lot better now that what I ever was. I'm not exactly sure I know what normal feels like, but I have a better understanding on what was wrong and moving towards normal. I also hate that I haven't grown up with the same resilience that others who have dealt with similar or worse. I don't really have the personality to be able to move on properly. I'll be the first to admit that I never knew how to actually "Get over it". I am also eternally grateful for my fiance. She had a similar childhood, but she has grown up so level headed and supportive and is able to guide me through the toughest time I have ever experienced. We currently have a wedding to plan and the issues that is taking hold at the moment is my cousin Daniel not being invited. He hasn't exactly treated my fiance with respect and speaks down to her like she's not worthy of his time. My mother thinks that it's going to cause a huge rift in the family, but then that shows that his feelings are more of a priority to the rest of the family than my well-being. It's taken a long time and a lot of talking and convincing to get my mother on our side but we think she's finally gotten the picture. There's a small part of me that thinks that all it's going to take is a small push for her to revert back to her old ways, but I guess time will tell.
If you've made it this far, thanks for reading.

I started a job here last week as a dishwasherotisserie chicken cook and the sheer amount of rules and regulations is just baffling.
I have to write on a "sanitization log" each time I use the rotisserie skewers, oven gloves, or a thermometer to confirm I cleaned them. Which is pointless because if I was too lazy to clean them I could just BS this anyway.
I have to take the temperature of EVERY chicken on the hot holder after they've been out there for 3 hours and write it down, then the next hour I have to take them off and take their temperate again, then I have to put it in the blast chiller, after 2 hours I take the temp again, them 4 hours after that I have to take the temp again. All the while writing this down.
Taking the temp of each chicken to ensure they're fully cooked is obviously important, I don't mind that. But then I have to take their temps again four fucking times (assuming they don't sell, and they always have me overproducing chickens). And I have to clean my thermometer between each fucking one.
If I miss ANYTHING the shift leader will come tell me about it in a really annoying fake positive way. I'd rather he just bitched me out TBH.
We have to punch in and out for our lunch breaks, which is pretty pointless because the team leaders are ususally hovering around anyway making sure we are on task. We have to tell someone before we go on a break. Before we leave our shift, we have to have a shift leader sign us off. We have to take exactly 30 minute lunch breaks, we're literally unable to punch back in if it's less than that and will get reprimanded if we take more than that.
We can't have water bottles anywhere in the dish room, I have to go in the back on a designated "drink station", and it gets obviously hot in the dish room so I need a lot of water.
We have to sign and date anything we put in the break room fridge.
The bakery team has to write down exactly when they take breaks and get off breaks. Luckily I don't have to do that.
I actually don't mind the actual dishwashing and chicken cooking, I even find it a little satisfying sometimes. But the hundreds of tiny little rules are driving me insane. You'd have to be an actual robot to remember and adhere to all of them.
Maybe lots of jobs are like this and I just got lucky with the previous jobs I've done, because none of them had even a tenth of the rules Whole Foods does.

Hello ! Like i already said sometime before i probably started twitched à lot after cortisone shot or its just à coïncidence ... anyway i have twitche almost everywhere no pattern , shaky hand or tremor .... was going into a depression or anxiety with all the fear and symptom , for now i think m'y twiching are down from 90 % i still just have some but pretty rare but damn less strong too , LAst week i had m'y clean emg !!! Like some other post here i just regret to not investigate more in the bulbar part ... i know its probably 99% in m'y head i know it but now i have stiff jaw / and i check every god damn swallow i do, i dont think m'y voice changed at all . But this stiff jaw thing its really want me to go back down ... do you think i should ask an emg from upper part or its just this damn anxietyyyyy i talked to the neuro abiuth stiff jaw he doesnt seen much worried and asked me iif i wanted a mri of brain but i dont think this is clearing out bulbar this thing is crazy never been anxious in m'y life before that ... sorry all and have à good night !

Why in the name of all that's holy is it the way that it is?
I'm talking about https://keep.google.com/#reminders in the web interface.
For me, it shows (a huge swath of, obviously) past ("Sent") reminders in ascending chronological order first. All of them. Even, especially, including archived ones. Only when I scroll all the way to the bottom (which is not possible quickly/in one go because of the dynamic, piece-wise loading) there's a comparatively tiny section "Upcoming", apparently also in ascending chronological order, which - to me - is perfectly sensible within there.
I've looked in the settings, there's certainly nothing obvious to change this behavior.
For me, the no-brain sensible default would be to display upcoming reminders first, in ascending order. Collapsible, for people who have more of those than I tend to keep queued, to quickly get them out of the way when I/they want to look in the past; or an anchor to jump to the other section or such). And only below this, the already sent reminders in reverse chronological order. I would prefer for archived items to not be shown at all. At least by default; possibly have a check box to "also show archived reminders". I wouldn't mind archived reminders to only be accessible in the "Archive" section with all other non-reminder archived notes.
My underlying use case is that quite often I wish to adjust the notification time of a note with a future reminder / "take care of it now" when I got a couple minutes, but that note might only be a picture/photograph, so I can't easily access it using Search.
How do you all use reminders (effectively), without this 'detail' perpetually making things... inconvenient? I don't feel my use case/requirement is particularly niche, but then, we all tend to feel this way 😉
I've looked around a bit and saw no obvious place to get an issue report / enhancement request directly to Google (but rather found this place). What's a good way for a request like this to get some traction at Google?

Arata Natsume works at a child guidance center, is in his thirties and single with no plans for marriage. But one day, he receives a request from the child he was in charge of, Takuto, to "meet the criminal who killed his father". That serial killer is Shinagawa Shinju, also known as the "Shinagawa Pierrot". ... Read Natsume Arata No Kekkon - Chapter 31 - MangaPuma. Read more at https://mangapuma.com/natsume-arata-no-kekkon/chapter-31