Age 33
Sex Female
Height 5'4"
Weight 372lbs
Race White
Duration of complaint: ~ 2-3 days
Location: Inpatient at hospital in NE Ohio for upper right quadrant abdominal pain, elevated liver enzymes, unable to eat even clear liquid diet without extreme pain
Any existing relevant medical issues: Gallbladder removed several years ago. Suspected non-alcoholic Fatty Liver disease, but specialist appointment hasn't occurred yet
Current medications: Lexapro, crestor, (Not given during hospital stay), Spravato (not given at hospital), aspirin (hospital only), morphine (hospital only)
Summary: Tue night I started feeling terrible. Very bad belly pain and nausea but no vomiting. I tried all the home remedies I knew for food poisoning because that's what I assumed I had. Nothing worked aftwr 2 hrs and I was in agony so I called the 24hr nurse line on my health insurance card for advice. The nurse said to go to the ER because of my history of liver issues so that's what I did.
ER did a urine sample (it was orange in color), ultrasound, and CT scan with contrast. [I still have not been given the results of these tests despite asking several times over multiple days. The most info I got was I overheard one of the nurses telling another during shift change that my CT scan showed enteritis (not sure if I'm spelling it right). ]. They gave me some medicine for the pain and nausea, and decided to admit me for observation. The ER doctor said he suspected something with a bile duct and that they would probably be doing scopes sometime the next day.
Wednesday, no scopes happened. There was a significant delay (11hrs late) in getting my usual morning Lexapro dose despite bringing it up to staff in the ER and when I was transferred to inpatient. I was ordered to be NPO and hadn't had any fluids of any kind since 2am Wed morning. I had an IV placed but no fluids going in, the tube just sat there. I asked several times for fluids because I was worried about dehydration because I only peed once over the course of 14 hours and it looked almost brown. I was switched to clear fluids diet at 5:30pm. I was unable to handle more than a few small sips of each item before Eventually I was given IV fluids at 9:30pm.
Thursday the doctor came in early morning and said the goal for the day was to get me eating. I was unable to eat the clear liquid diet for breakfast, lunch, or dinner and needed a dose of morphine after attempting each meal to get my pain back to a manageable level. Around dinner time I was told they were going to do scopes down my throat and up my butt on Friday morning, so I needed to start the prep fluids soon. It took some pain meds to get them down, but I managed to finish all the prep fluids.
Things seem to generally be getting better now that my basic fluid needs are met, but I'm concerned at the delays, lack of communication, and lack of information. I try very hard to be a good patient and not bug the staff unless I really need something, but I'm concerned that by doing this I may be getting overlooked. What can I do to make sure I'm being treated, but without annoying the staff or being one of those annoying overly needy patients?

Finnish entrepreneur Thomas Zilliacus says he has submitted a bid to buy Manchester United.
Zilliacus wants to buy half of the club with the other half bought by fans, who will be part of club decision-making.
Later on Thursday, Ineos owner Sir Jim Ratcliffe put in his second bid to buy the club after Wednesday's confusion and extended deadline.
Interested parties had until 21:00 GMT on Wednesday to enter their bids before the deadline was extended.
On Thursday, an Ineos spokesperson said "Ratcliffe and Ineos can confirm we have submitted a revised bid".
Ratcliffe and Qatari banker Sheikh Jassim were the only publicly declared bidders until Zilliacus announced his offer.
As yet there has been no confirmation from Sheikh Jassim but he is expected to submit a second bid.
Zilliacus said
: "Any sport club ultimately should belong to its fans. My bid is built on equality with fans.
"The current development, where billionaire sheiks and oligarchs take over clubs and control them as their personal playgrounds is not a healthy trend.
"The current market value of the club is just under $3.9bn (£3.17bn). That means that if every one of the fans of the club would join in buying the club, the total sum per fan would amount to less than $6.
"My group will finance half of the sum needed to take over the club, and will ask the fans, through a new company that is being set up for this specific purpose, to participate for the other half.
"If every fan joins it means less than $3 per fan."
Zilliacus plans to give fans a say through an app from which they can "participate and cast" their vote "when deciding on footballing matters relating to the club".
It is also understood US investment company Elliott has made an offer to purchase a minority stake, irrespective of who ends up owning the club.
Zilliacus, who has previously been involved with HJK Helsinki and ice hockey champions Jokerit in his homeland, is the founder and chairman of new social media group novaM Group.
He wants to buy United through XXI Century Capital, which is an investment firm owned by his holding company.

Psychology of Survival
It takes much more than the konwledge and skills to build shelters, get food, make fires, and travel without the aid of standard navigational devices to live successfuly through a survival situation. Some people with little or no survival people with survival training have not used their skills and died. A key ingredient in any survival situation is the mental attitude of the individual involved. Having survival skills is important; having the will to survive is essential. Without a desk to survive, acquired skills serve little purpose and invaluable knowledge goes to waste. There is a psychology to survival. The soldier in a survival environment faces many stresses that ultimately impact on his mind. These stresses can produce thoughts and emotions that, if poorly understood, can transform a confident, well-trained soldier into an indecisive, ineffective individual with questionable ability to survive. Thus, every soldier must be aware of and be able to recognize those stresses commonly associated with survival. Additionally, it is stresses associated with survival.
A Look at Stress
Before we can understand our psychological reactions in a survival setting, it is helpful to first know a little bit about stress. Stress is not a disease that you cure and eliminate. Instead, it is a condition we all experience. Stress can be described as our reaction to pressure. It is the name given to the experience we have as we physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually respond to life’s tensions.
Need for Stress
We need stress because it has many positive benefits. Stress provides us with challenges; it gives us chances to learn about our values and strengths. Stress can show our ability to handle pressure without breaking; it tests our adaptability and flexibility; it can stimulate us to do our best. Because we usually do not consider unimportant events stressful, stress can also be an excellent indicator of the significance we attach to an event—in other words, it highlights what is important to us. We need to have some stress in our lives, but too much of anything can be bad. The goal is to have stress, but not an excess of it. Too much stress can take its toll on people and organizations. Too much stress leads to distress. Distress causes an uncomfortable tension that we try to escape and, preferably, avoid. Listed below are a few of the common signs of distress you may find in your fellow soldiers or yourself when faced with to much stress:
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• Difficulty making decisions.
• Angry outbursts.
• Forgetfulness.
• Low energy level.
• Constant worrying.
• Propensity for mistakes.
• Thoughts about death or suicide.
• Trouble getting along with others.
• Withdrawing from others.
• Hiding from responsibilities.
• Carelessness.

As you can see, stress can be constructive or destructive. It can encourage or discourage, move us along or stop us dead in our tracks, and make life meaningful or seemingly meaningless. Stress can inspire you to operate successfully and perform at your maximum efficiency in a survival situation. It can also cause you to panic and forget all your training. Key to your survival is your ability to manage the inevitable stresses you will encounter. The survivor is the soldier who works witht his stresses instread of letting his stresses work on him. Any event can lead to stress and, as everyone has experienced, events don’t always come one at a time. Often, stressfl events occur simultaneously. These events are not stress, but they produce it and are called “stressors.” Stressors are the obvious cause while stress is the response. Once the body recognizes the presence of a stressor, it then begins to act to protect itself. In response to a stressor, the body prepares either to “fight or flee.” This prepation involves an internal SOS sent throughout the body. As the body responds to this SOS, several actions take place. The body releases stored fuels (sugar and fats) to provide quick energy; breathing rate increases to supply more oxygen to the blood; muscşe tension increases to prepare for action; blood clotting mechanisms are activated to reduce bleeding from cuts; senses become more acute (hearing becomes more sensitive, eyes become big, smell becomes sharper) so that you are more aware of your surrounding and heart rate and blood pressure rise to provide more blood to the muscles. This protective posture lets a person cope with potential dangers; however, a person connot maintain such a level of alertness indefinitely. Stressors are not courteous; one stressor does not leave because another one arrives. Stressors add up. The cumulative effect of minor stressors can be a major distress if they all happen too close together. As the body’s resistance to stress wears down and the sources of stress continue (or increase), eventually a state of exhaustion arrives. At this point, the ability to resist stress or use it in a positive way gives out and signs of distress appear. Anticipating stressors and developing strategies to cope with them are two ingredients in the effective management of stress. It is therefore essential that the soldier in a survival setting be aware of the types of stressors he will encounter. Let’s take a look at a few of these.
Injury, Illness, or Death Injury, illness, and death are real possibilities a survivor has to face. Perhaps nothing is more stressful than being alone in an unfamiliar environment where you could die from hostile action, an accident, or from eating something lethal. Illness and injury can also add to stress by limiting your ability to maneuver, get food and drink, find shelter, and defend yourself. Even if illness and injury don’t lead to death, they add to stress through the pain and discomfort they generate. It is only by con-trolling the stress associated with the vulnerability to injury, illness, and death that a soldier can have the courage to take the risks associated with survival tasks.
Uncertainly and Lack of Control
Some people have trouble operating in settings where everything is not clear-cut. The only guarantee in survival situation is that nothing is guaranteed. It can be extremely stressful operating on limited information in a setting where you have limited control of your surroundings. This uncertainty and lack of control also add to the stress of being ill, injured, or killed.
Environment
Even under the most ideal circumstances, nature is quite formidable. In survival, a soldier will have to contend with the stressors of weather, terrain, and the variety of creatures inhabiting an are. Heat, cold, rain, winds, mountains, swamps, deserts, insects, dangerous reptiles, and other animals are just a few of the challenges awaiting the soldier working to survive. Depending on how a soldier handles the stress of his environment, his surroundings can be either a source of food and protection or can be a cause of extreme discomfort leading to injury, illness, or death.
Hunger and Thirst
Without food and water a person will weaken and eventually die. Thus, getting and preserving food and water takes on increasing importance as the lenght of time in a survival setting increases. For a soldier used to having his provisions issued, foraging can be a big source of stress. Forcing yourself to continue surviving is not easy as you grow more tired. It is possible to become so fatigued that the act of just staying awake is stressful in itself.
Isolation
There are some advantages to facing adversity with other. As soldiers we learn individual skills, but we train to function as part of a team. Although we, as soldiers, complain about higher headquarters, we become used to the information and guidance it provides, expecially during times of confusion. Being in contanct with others also provides a greater sens of security and a feeling someone is available to help if problems occur. A significant stressor in survival situations is that often a person or team has to rely solely on its own resources. Remember, what is stressful to one person may not be stressful to another. Your experiences, training, personal outlook on life, physical and mental conditioning, and level of self-confidence contribute to what you will find stressful in a survival environment. The object is not to avoid stress, but rather to manage the stressors of survival and make them work for you.

Warrants for women wanted in Millard case give timeline in Georgia man's disappearance, death

Baton Rouge police are looking for two women accused of partying with a Georgia man as he died of a drug overdose, one of whom allegedly helped dispose of the man's body, documents say.
Authorities on Thursday issued warrants for the arrests of Tabbetha Barner and Tiffany Ann Guidry. Barner is wanted on counts of prostitution and failure to seek assistance; Guidry faces the same counts, as well as a count of unlawful disposal of human remains in the disappearance and death of Nathan Millard.
The warrants were filed days after police arrested Derrick Perkins, who was booked Monday on counts related to disposing Millard's remains and using his credit card.
Millard, 42, went missing the night of Feb. 22 after attending an LSU basketball game and visiting a downtown bar with a business client.
According to the arrest warrant for Guidry, after leaving the downtown bar, Millard stopped at the Greyhound bus station in Baton Rouge to withdraw money from an ATM when he was approached by a bus station employee who offered him help. Millard declined the offer, telling the employee he was "looking for something to make him feel better," and that he was "looking for a girl to take back to his room." Witnesses told police Millard then left the station with a homeless man, referred to in police documents as "J.W.", who introduced Millard to two other people, identified as "L.M." and "C."
Millard, L.M. and C then met with Perkins, who told police he took the group to buy drugs. The four then drove around for a few hours while getting high on crack cocaine before stopping at a Circle K on Nicholson Drive, where Millard was last seen alive on video surveillance shortly before 4:30 a.m. Feb. 25, the document says.
Millard withdrew more money from an ATM and got back into Perkins' vehicle, telling Perkins he thought L.M. and C might be trying to rob him. Perkins and Millard left L.M. and C at the store, and Millard told Perkins he wanted to pick up more prostitutes, who Perkins later identified for detectives through photos as Guidry and Barner.
According to the document, the group eventually ended up at a house on Lori Burgess Avenue, where Perkins told police Millard, Guidry and Barner all began doing drugs while he stepped outside.
Perkins said Millard gave him his credit card to pick up miscellaneous items from the store. Perkins told police that when he returned, he smoked crack cocaine on the front porch while Millard had sex with the two women.
Perkins then told detectives that at some point after the sun rose, Barner asked him get her more crack cocaine. Perkins said he left to pick up the drugs and when he returned, Barner ran out of the home to tell him Millard was dead.
Barner proceeded to administer Narcan to Millard, documents say, but he did not wake up. Perkins told police he attempted to perform CPR on Millard but was unable to revive him.
Scared to call 911, Perkins said he, Guidry and Barner rolled Millard into the carpet he was lying on, and he and Guidry placed the body in the trunk of Perkins' car. The group then drove around for several hours while trying to figure out what to do. They eventually left Millard's body behind the old Rhodes Funeral Home on Scenic Highway.
His body was found more than a week later.
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https://www.theadvocate.com/baton_rouge/news/baton-rouge-police-search-for-2-women-in-georgia-mans-death/article_803bdfba-c9c8-11ed-af2a-1bf8d9bb1445.html

For a long time I was struggling with depression and loneliness and I felt I was worthless and suicidal. I was crying out loud almost every night from the pain I had in my chest. It was all because I could see how all of my friends have had multiple relationships and slept with tons of women and I was the only 22 y/o virgin guy that has never been into any relationships and has never ever heard anyone telling him “I love you”, let alone other stuff. Few weeks ago I finally got a match on tinder and went on a date with her. She was not attractive at all and was mean a bit but I couldn’t let my only opportunity go so tried to attract her. Eventually, we went on a relationship. However, she barely wants to see me and tried to avoid any types of physical touch as she said she is traumatized from years ago which I accepted. Tonight the weather was fine after a long time so I told her to hang out and she finally accepted to come out after hours of arguing about how far she is and bringing random excuses. Anyways, we went to a restaurant and we had dinner(which I paid as always). After that I suggest to have an ice-cream which she accepted while I was so happy to have her we saw a friend of mine in that ice-cream shop. As soon as she saw him, she started saying how cute my friend is and acting like she has a crush on him right in front of me. She asked me about him multiple times and when we met she was staring at him with passion. Something I never could get from her. It shattered my heart into pieces thinking how ugly and worthless I am that even my girlfriend prefers other men. (she has never complemented me for once and keep telling me she may breakup with me for another guy as a joke) I tried to show to her that I don’t like her act but she ignored them and later because I was acting colder she got mad. I don’t know what to do. I’m tired of trying and trying again to get something everybody else has (love). By the way, I’m a normal looking man probably 6-7 out of 10 and 5’10 height. I work out everyday. I do BJJ and I have played tennis for 9 years. I come from an upper class family.I can speak 4 languages. I study in a good university and know how to play piano and drums and I paint as well. But apparently non of these could make me a man with values(I spent thousands of hours learning about how to be attractive for women and how to act to be like a man not a boy) I’m almost done please help. Thanks

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It’s kinda long but want to know if anybody else have a similar story
2 years ago weed started having weird affects on me which I later realized was the start of my psychosis. As I got high and frequencies changed, I thought I could be naturally be high when I went back to normal. Giving me powers from other dimensions in real life. I changed my perspective on the whole world. I created my own little world and put my self in the middle of the universe. I decided to isolate myself and kinda like a seclusion if that’s the right word. I left my parent’s house and started living in my car talking to no one but reading instagram quotes 24/7. Everyday I got high and thought I opened up my brain to higher frequencies and dimensions. I always had mystic, and life quotes pop up on my instagram and thought they were guiding me, like whatever position my mind was at the time I had the right quote pop up on ig that read my mind and guided me. Maybe it helped me heal some parts of my self and really opened my mind a lot about the world. That’s how I got deceived. I then tried shrooms which I captured perspectives and I tried to memorize them and look at life same when I got normal, I thought it would give me perfect focus, foresight, and mind discipline to manifest anything I want in this world. I thought every other human being was sleeping, daydreaming and I was chasing after a wake up. I was trying to learn daytrading at the time and I thought of ideas like getting high on shrooms then creating trading strategies seeing what others don’t see. then I came up with a strategy that if the right conditions were met (trading software, and trading rules) It could make me a trillionaire. But I hadn’t still found fifth dimension yet and I didn’t have the superhuman focus.
If you know the movie “Limitless” which is about A mysterious pill that enables the user to access 100% of his brain's abilities transforms a struggling writer into a financial wizard, but it also puts him in a new world with many dangers.
That’s exactly the scenario I was trying to do in real life. I thought obsessing over these ideas 24/7 would move me into another dimension and give me superhuman knowledge to takeover this world. I tried to focus a lot. however time went on and I’m still living inmy car dedicating my whole life to this. I really believed and delusioned into the thought that I was the chosen one , the mahdi. I thought when I made the trillion dollars I would collab with mafia organizations and remove this money from europe and usa, which would result in an economic collapse. I really started working on my role. I started talking, and walking tough, I started messing with real tough guys I saw on the street. I threatened a sergeant . I threatened all my friends. I was moving like a mafia, ruthless. I gave everyone scary looks, and I’m not gonna lie ladies liked it a lot, and i liked it a lot. btw I wasn’t aware this all was psychosis, I thought this thinking was mystic ability given to me. I was researching a lot as I had nothing to do. I learnt a lot about free masons and illuminati and how they moved. I read they discovered higher consciousness, and that’s how they ran the world with very private info about human mind and it’s abilities making everybody else puppets. I decided to make illuminati my enemy
However, I was getting nowhere and it really started stressing me out as I dedicated my whole life to this. Day by day I would obsess more and more into my ideas like a monomania. And I though these illuminati people tracked everybody iphones, and they could prevent me from achieving a higher conscious and alter my instagram quotes which were guiding me. and what I thought became true. One night I saw a subliminal writing that was very specific about my situation and I had a panick attack. My subconscious got messed up. And the panic attack gave me dpdr. And I didn’t know nothing about dpdr nor psychosis at the time. So I thought dpdr was the 5th dimension or my brain open up to it’s full pottential. I had panic after panick. I saw tens of militiary helicopters flying and thought they were trying to send me subliminal messages telling me we know you discovered the higher consciousness and watching you. I was fearing for me and my family’s life.
Now it’s 8 motnhs later and I still have 24/7 dpdr. 4 months into dpdr I was still paranoid 24/7 if the illuminati would forgive me for my plans. Like I was sweating day and night of paranoia that’s how intense of a nightmare it was. 5th month I read about other people’s stories and being out of body with dpdr and experiencing yourself from third person view , I figured out everyhting that it was all psychosis.
Not going to lie dpdr really gave me improved focus and a different perspective so I had the chance to develop my trading strategies . Which is still kind of creeping me out and giving me anxiety as I’m starting to come off dpdr. Which having an unusual strategy would make me a financial wizard and put me in a dangereous spot. I need to talk to a therapist because I need reassurance . I don’t know men I’ve been long away detached from reality 24/7 for a long while. My brain is fried. I’m tired.

Just wanted to share something that has happened to me recently, hope it's okay.
Brief introduction: I am 30yo and as a kid I drove my family crazy with irrational phobias and tantrums and oddities (like being unable to go to the bathroom alone and hating wearing clothes sometimes) . But I was hyperlexic and very school-smart (and very people-dumb too) and well-mannered other than that (I HATED being scolded but I didn't know what I was doing wrong or how to avoid it - I was locked in a room without my games when I "misbehaved" and remained quiet, if sad, for hours) . They took me to a lot of professionals and eventually I got an OCD diagnosis but SSRIs made me aggressive and so they ended up taking me to every church in the book and changing routines until I calmed down.
Needless to say, I grew up as a depressed teen who did a lot of research on Psychology and eventually ended up in a major and was bullied because I was TOO stereotypically autistic really. Like... too much, down to tiptoeing and hating friendly touches.
But I learned through pain, scolding, being locked up, grounded, bullying and breakdowns how to behave more or less like a NT person, to the point that when I went after my diagnosis as an adult I had my requests for a formal evaluation rejected by a lot of professionals.
And I thought of a metaphor these days: being an undiagnosed autistic person is like being blind except you don't know you are blind, other people don't know blindness is a thing, and for some reason you live in a world where everyone asks other people's opinions on pictures. You can't win. People ask you "what do you think of this picture?" so you go "what?" and they get annoyed. Some will leave you alone and hate you while others will bully you into "WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS FUCKING PICTURE?" until you reply "i-it's lovely" and next time someone asks you'll automatically reply "i-it's lovely" like a well-conditioned fearful white rat. And then people will get annoyed at you for giving always the same answer. And then you will ask someone who actually sees if the picture is actually lovely, find patterns in their descriptions (like "every lovely picture has a sky") but sometimes they will fail (because not every picture actually has a sky but you didn't know that) and through trial and error and fear you'll perfect your technique to the point of replying, when someone asks you "what do you think of this picture" something generically correct - "wow it's lovely, this artist's technique is great! Who are they? By the way, what's this detail here? I can't see very well but I probably need to change my glasses. You see, I went to the ophthalmologist the other day, and I was waiting for hours on queue, gosh I just hate doctors (talks for 3 hours so the picture is never mentioned again)" . And then people start believing that you are an ophthalmology expert because you think everyone is faking and no one told you that only you and a select few are fucking blind and it is not a choice. And no doctor wants to claim you're blind because they will sound like a fucking fraud when YOU are the fraud.
Anyway, introductions aside. Sorry, that was longwinded.
I am a Psych bachelor and am in Law school right now. I am clearly "Humanities inclined" but no one knows that's only because I ran away from college level Physics like a bitch and I also ran away from robotics class because I was the ONLY girl there. So I introduce myself as a specialist and people buy it.
Right now I am an intern at a small claims court. There my supervisor told me they had to tell me "something" about this other intern before she arrived. And he goes "you see, she is autistic and needs our help". Of course he knows I know what autism is because of my background. He does not know I managed to get formally diagnosed in my late 20s because that's not something I go around telling people, among other reasons because my neuropsychological evaluation had to be signed by a medical doctor to have any legal effects, and even my former psychiatrist avoided signing it. It's not that he disagreed - he agreed with it but he didn't want to SIGN it and I didn't want to push.
So for any legal effects I am neurotypical and not struggling. But I do have a few other formally diagnosed issues like migraines and malformations so that's what I tell people to explain why I am "weird" but unassisted. And anyway people don't know shit about autism and are generally ableist soo it's not an entirely bad thing that I grew up the hard way back when support was even less of a thing.
And of course I said "sure" but I had never worked with an "officially" autistic person before so I didn't know what to expect, other than get along well.
She is way younger than me (maybe 10 years) and behaves in a stereotypically autistic way. Honestly she is delightful to work with - polite, clear, very smart actually, and helps me a lot because my entire experience in Law school has been a huge "I don't know, at this point am afraid to ask and being poor doesn't help" so she helps me with those things because, well, guess she wasn't afraid to ask. On the other hand I know from theory and experience how to make autistic people feel safe and don't think much of her "quirky" ways (other than "relatable because some things don't change as we age") and can explain how the NT mind works like "pictures often have beautiful skies" . This much is going well!
On the other hand I do feel a bit "pffffft lol" on the inside whenever someone is ableist or whatever. People seem to assume we get along well because I am kind and gentle and a Psych expert ... for now. And that my occasional hardships stem from having been a lazy student (probably with a crazy nightlife, definitely not struggling with executive dysfunction, malnourished from not cooking nor playing gacha until late at night, noo) not because I was afraid to ask the obvious ... for now.
In other words I am waiting to see how long it takes for them to catch up. So far, nothing, apparently. And no don't plan on saying anything as for practical purposes I am just an undiagnosed autistic person with migraines and shit just like I was some years ago. But yeah just glad I can explain things like "by the way, autism isn't the same as intellectual disability but we as a society don't know this yet yadda yadda" as a pro lol. Fuck people who say self-advocacy can't be a thing. Take this.

1) Night time map and/or day/night cycle - Night time map requiring you to take up an attachment slot for a flash light and night vision/thermal scope and having night vision goggles be a rare item drop/find.
2) Raids/Dungeons tied to DMZ - Like The Cycle that has dungeon/raids in the world of the game and I think DMZ should do something like this too. The raids they have been introducing over time would fit nicely in the map as a secret and accessible by some super rare key. Just cut the story stuff and would be a pretty cool thing to do in game. Doesn't have to be the raids they have made but something like it.
3) Dynamic weather system - Would be cool if say on Al Mazrah a desert came in making super poor visibility and maybe 1 tick of damage every second forcing people inside/making it not ideal to fight/travel outside.
4) Economy and storage - Nothing to really say here like everyone wants this cause as is loot and money means absolutely nothing right now. Should be able to extract and hold in storage one extra plate carrier, kill streak, self revive gas mask and other stuff.
5) Radiation Map - Spawn in with durable gas mask and have omega tier loot in the map. Lots of radiation blockers and gas masks around the map and killing AI drops gas masks like the chemist AI circle.
6) Crafting - Should be able to make molotovs and stuff during the game and outside with being able to extract stuff/materials. This of course would need a storage system like I wanted/suggested earlier.
7) Player Reputation system - I believe this was leaked or something or this was just for AI factions? Would like good actions to other players give you good reputation and killing people gives you bad reputation. For example: you kill people and are in the bad reputation levels your name would be red and say you do good actions like inviting other players or joining them your name would be blue for other players.
8) Expanded player interaction - This goes along with the reputation system. Would love to see more gameplay interactions with players. Example being you can res enemy squads. If you down a player you can res them no matter if they aren't a part of your squad. This would give good reputation. Obviously a lot more could be done. Maybe a surrender option: Example you can be decimating a team and you don't want them to join you or something you can use the interaction scroll wheel to give them the option to surrender and you can loot them without killing them and they can't shoot you and have their hands forced up or something. Probably not a good change at all but just anything to give more interaction between teams would be nice.
9) City map - Lots of zip lines to roof tops and jump off them into windows and stuff and no long range visibility. Lots of tactical gameplay checking rooms for campers and such and needing recon drones to scan buildings.
10) High tier guns/pro tuned guns (Meaningful contraband) - In a match you can loot "pro tuned" guns that have more attachments and/or perks like being able to shoot through riot shields or something. Gives more meaning to contraband guns cause as is you just want your insured guns.
11) Bigger maps - Al Mazrah is kinda small hope they add larger maps.
12) More story/lore/secrets - Al Mazrah has some cool lore pages and stuff, geeky pastimes made some cool videos about these lore things and hope there are more cool Easter eggs and maybe tie it into gameplay like maybe collecting stuff could eventually lead you to a cool key that unlocks some cool thingy.
13) Heavy chopper - Don't care how imbalanced it might be would be cool to me if it was in the game I mean DMZ literally gives you a skin for it for whatever reason.
14) Better stealth gameplay - Should be able to sneak around knifing people (Melee should one shot enemies) and doing take downs on AI and not just insta alert all AI in the area. To expand upon this there should be distinct enemy AI that should be able to alert other AI to your presence. Watch Dogs had this where certain enemies could call in back up and DMZ should have this too. Along with this there should be a few seconds before other AI that can tell and alert nearby enemies of your presence giving you a brief moment to take them down before they alert enemies.
15) Solo quad perks/advantages - Solo players should get a self revive off the rip, a 2 plate and if you play multiple games by yourself the game will give you time off your insured slots.
16) More worth while grind/unlock bonuses - Key pouch for when in a match so they don't take up inventory. Could be a cool late game unlock that gives more meaning to the grind. Maybe more things like this but idk what else could be added.
17) No mini map - Controversial opinion but there shouldn't be a mini map unless you pop a UAV. The regular map can still be opened though.
18) Bigger Squads need penalties - If you have 5 or 6 players should mark your squad on the map. You open the map and see permanent advanced UAV pings of them on the map.
19) Home base (Tarkov hideout system) - Would just make the game mode feel more fleshed out and would be cool to have the shooting range from the load out screen be in there. All the missions and load out stuff be selectable there and not just at the deployment screen.
20) DMZ only perks - Like perks like ghost and stuff perks should be balanced around DMZ and there should be new perks for DMZ. Like reduced damage from AI and stuff.
21) Buffs - Like a buff that is obtained somehow don't know from what but just imagine at your hideout you get it or something have no idea. Buffs like faster health regeneration or something.
22) More identifiable factions AI/Faction zones/New contract - With the leak about faction stuff there should be AI that should have blue marks above the AI or something to friendly AI/the ones that are for your faction. There should be a building/zone that you can just chill out if you're aligned at that faction.

• Along with this there should be a contract that can start a faction war that you can raid the faction zone with your faction AI and take down a boss and/or players inside. Players of the faction that is being raided will be alerted and can have the option to accept the contract to come defend the zone.

23) Riot shield/Pistol whip attachment interaction - DMZ only where you can run both and you can be like the AI and shoot around the shield. Counter play needs to be added to this which is #25
24) Armour piercing - This ammo should pierce riot shields. Right now tier 3 riot shield AI are so annoying and this change is also to combat riot shield Pistol buff.
25) Forest Map - Would be cool to have a forest map with very few run down buildings and stuff.

Hello, first post here. Been playing Skyrim since it came out and been modding for a little bit. I consider myself pretty amateur though, still have to follow how to videos. Haha. I just got back to Skyrim on PC after an extended hiatus and decided I would follow the STEP Guide this time. Started with that, tested it to confirm stability and then installed some overhauls and other mods I wanted. Mostly my game runs very smooth but I have one problem. I am getting exploding meshes/vertices but ONLY while in combat. I tried disabling a few mods that I thought may be the culprit but have had no luck so far. Hoping someone here can point out a few to start trying. Through research I THINK something is altering the player weight during combat causing the mesh to go all crazy. I tried to attach a screenshot but can't figure out how. Modlist is from MO2. Everything was installed per STEP instructions or mod instructions and sorted with loot. Thanks for the help.
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#Mod_Priority,#Mod_Status,#Mod_Name
"0000","+","Unmanaged: Bashed Patch, 0"
"0001","+","DLC: HearthFires"
"0002","+","DLC: Dragonborn"
"0003","+","DLC: Dawnguard"
"0004","+","Creation Club: ccQDRSSE001-SurvivalMode"
"0005","+","Creation Club: ccBGSSSE037-Curios"
"0006","+","Creation Club: ccBGSSSE025-AdvDSGS"
"0007","+","Creation Club: ccBGSSSE001-Fish"
"0008","+","Address Library for SKSE Plugins"
"0009","+","Crash Logger SSE AE VR - PDB support"
"0010","+","Papyrus Tweaks NG"
"0011","+","Papyrus Tweaks"
"0012","+","Scaleform Translation Plus Plus NG"
"0013","+","SSE Display Tweaks"
"0014","+","SSE Engine Fixes (skse64 plugin)"
"0015","+","Unique Map Weather"
"0016","+","Grass Cache Fixes"
"0017","+","MCM Helper"
"0018","+","Sound Record Distributor"
"0019","+","Spell Perk Item Distributor"
"0020","+","Unofficial High Definition Audio Project"
"0021","+","Skyrim Landscape and Water Fixes"
"0022","+","Unofficial Skyrim Special Edition Patch"
"0023","+","Cathedral - Plants"
"0024","+","Particle Patch for ENB"
"0025","+","DynDOLOD Resources SE"
"0026","+","DynDOLOD DLL SE Scripts"
"0027","+","DynDOLOD DLL SE - SKSE64 Plugin - Skyrim Special Edition 1.6.40"
"0028","+","Far Object LOD Improvement Project SSE"
"0029","+","Static Mesh Improvement Mod"
"0030","+","Skyrim_Realistic_Overhaul_Part_1"
"0031","+","Skyrim_Realistic_Overhaul_Part_2"
"0032","+","Skyrim_Realistic_Overhaul_Part_3"
"0033","+","Skyrim_Realistic_Overhaul_update"
"0034","+","Major Cities Mesh Overhaul"
"0035","+","Enhanced Lights and FX"
"0036","+","ELFX Fixes"
"0037","+","ELFX - Exteriors Fixes"
"0038","+","Static Mesh improvement Mod - SMIM - Quality Addon"
"0039","+","Static Mesh Improvement Mod Improvement Mod"
"0040","+","Assorted mesh fixes"
"0041","+","Unofficial Material Fix"
"0042","+","Majestic Mountains Lightside"
"0043","+","Majestic Mountains Lightside LOD pack"
"0044","+","Majestic Mountains Double-Sided Patch"
"0045","+","Flickering Meshes Fix"
"0046","+","Landscapes - Cathedral Concept"
"0047","-","(TEMP) Cathedral LAndscapes - xLODGen"
"0048","+","Mesh Patch for Various Mods"
"0049","+","RUSTIC CLOTHING - Special Edition"
"0050","+","D13 Faster GET UP STAND UP animation vanilla friendly SSE"
"0051","+","Dual Wield Improved Animation SSE"
"0052","+","Ice skating fixed for real - No more attack sliding movement (NEMESIS compatible)"
"0053","+","Realistic Boat Bobbing SE"
"0054","+","Run Sprint and Jump (Special Edition)"
"0055","+","Stronger Swimming Animation SE"
"0056","+","XP32 Maximum Skeleton Special Extended"
"0057","+","3D Junipers - Trees and Berries"
"0058","+","3D Snowberries"
"0059","+","3D Snowberries HD Texture Option"
"0060","+","8K Night Skies - Stars and Galaxies - Cathedral Concept"
"0061","+","aMidianBorn Book of Silence SE"
"0062","+","aMidianBorn Content Addon"
"0063","+","aMidianBorn imperial light and studded"
"0064","+","aMidianBorn stormcloak officer armour"
"0065","+","Arctic - Frost Effects Redux"
"0066","+","Armor and Clothing Extension"
"0067","+","Armor Mesh Fixes SE"
"0068","+","Barenziah's Glory SE"
"0069","+","Bellyaches Animal and Creature Pack Revamp"
"0070","+","Better Dynamic Ash SE"
"0071","+","Better Dynamic Snow SE"
"0072","+","BetterFalmerCaveCeilingGlow"
"0073","+","Blackreach Tentacle Mesh Fix"
"0074","+","Blended Roads"
"0075","+","Blue Palace Dome Windows"
"0076","+","Book Covers Skyrim"
"0077","+","Book Covers Skyrim - Lost Library"
"0078","+","Creation Club Open Helmets"
"0079","+","Dark Brotherhood Tenets Restored - Performance Edition"
"0080","+","Deadly Spell Impacts"
"0081","+","Deathbell HD - All-New Textures (2K-1K)"
"0082","+","Detailed Rugs"
"0083","+","Detailing the Eldrich - Higher-Res Riekling Architecture"
"0084","+","Dragon Masks Retextured SE (4K - 2K)"
"0085","+","Dragon.Priest.by.Kajuan"
"0086","+","Frankly HD Dragonbone and Dragonscale - Armor and Weapons"
"0087","+","Dragonbone Mastery - Weapons Retexture"
"0088","+","Draugr.by.Kajuan"
"0089","+","DROPS By Ramccoid"
"0090","+","EASIER LOCKPICKING - Without Cheating - Nordic Retexture"
"0091","+","Elemental Staffs SE"
"0092","+","ElSopa HD - Ants SE"
"0093","+","ElSopa HD - Briar Heart"
"0094","+","ElSopa HD - Dirt Blast SE"
"0095","+","ElSopa - HD Keys Redone SE"
"0096","+","Embers XD"
"0097","+","Enhanced Blood Textures"
"0098","+","Enhanced Vanilla Textures - Shrines"
"0099","+","Enhanced Vanilla Trees SE-Basic"
"0100","+","Aspens Ablaze"
"0101","+","Aspens Ablaze Add-On - DynDOLOD 3"
"0102","+","ETHEREAL CLOUDS - Special Edition"
"0103","+","Falmer.by.Kajuan"
"0104","+","Fixed Mesh Lighting"
"0105","+","Cathedral - 3D Lavender"
"0106","+","Footprints"
"0107","+","Frankly HD Thieves Guild Armors"
"0108","+","Gemling Queen Jewelry SE"
"0109","+","Giant.by.Kajuan"
"0110","+","Glacier LOD Meshes"
"0111","+","Hagraven.by.Kajuan"
"0112","+","Hardy Hares"
"0113","+","HD Dark brotherhood door"
"0114","+","HD Executioners Block SE"
"0115","+","HD Misc"
"0116","+","HD Pondfish"
"0117","+","HD Reworked Horses"
"0118","+","HD Road Signs - 2K and 4K"
"0119","+","HD Stone Quarry and Clay Deposit SE"
"0120","+","High Hrothgar Fixed"
"0121","+","High Quality Food and Ingredients SE"
"0122","+","High-Res Dartwing (Dragonfly) Texture"
"0123","+","Highland Cows More Wooly (High Poly Model Restored) - Cut Content Restoration"
"0124","+","Horncandles.by.Kajuan"
"0125","+","Hybrids HD Plants and Herbs Retexture"
"0126","+","Iconic's Real Hay (Legacy)"
"0127","+","Iconic's Remastered Paragon Gems"
"0128","+","Immersive Dragons"
"0129","+","Immersive Smilodons"
"0130","+","Improved closefaced helmets"
"0131","+","Improved Sparks"
"0132","+","Improved Sparks-impact sparks"
"0133","+","Improved Weapon Impact EFFECTS Correct Metal SE"
"0134","+","Just Ice"
"0135","+","LeanWolf's Better-Shaped Weapons - All in One Installer"
"0136","+","LeanWolf's Improved Enchanter Candle Meshes SE"
"0137","+","Mammoth.by.Kajuan"
"0138","+","Markarth - A Reflective Experience"
"0139","+","Metallurgy - Ingots Ore and Veins HD"
"0140","+","Nightingale Prime HD"
"0141","+","Northfire's Skidmarks SE 2K-4K"
"0142","+","N-R HD Display Case"
"0143","+","Obsidian Mountain Fogs Tweaked"
"0144","+","Pilgrims Delight - High Hrothgar Shrine Retextures"
"0145","+","Quality CubeMaps - HD Cube Maps"
"0146","+","Rally's Hanging Moss"
"0147","+","Rally's Hooks and Saws"
"0148","+","Rally's Instruments HQ"
"0149","+","Real Wood Textures - Farmhouses"
"0150","+","Realistic HD Baskets Remastered"
"0151","+","Realistic HD Pickaxe Remastered"
"0152","+","Realistic HD Woodcutter's Axe Remastered"
"0153","+","Realistic Water Two SE"
"0154","+","Remove Small Rocks"
"0155","+","Retexture for Bread - Hearthfire"
"0156","+","Retexture for Soup"
"0157","+","Retexture for The Scroll"
"0158","+","Ruins Clutter Improved SE"
"0159","+","RUSTIC AMULETS - Special Edition"
"0160","+","RUSTIC ANIMATED POTIONS and POISONS"
"0161","+","RUSTIC ARMOR and WEAPONS SE"
"0162","+","RUSTIC AZURA'S STAR - Special Edition"
"0163","+","RUSTIC COOKING - Special Edition"
"0164","+","RUSTIC DAEDRA - Special Edition"
"0165","+","RUSTIC DEATH HOUND and GARGOYLE - Special Edition"
"0166","+","RUSTIC DRAGON CORPSE - Special Edition"
"0167","+","RUSTIC DRAGONS - Special Edition"
"0168","+","RUSTIC ELDERSCROLL - Special Edition"
"0169","+","RUSTIC FROSTBITE SPIDER - Special Edition"
"0170","+","RUSTIC RELIEFS"
"0171","+","RUSTIC SOUL GEMS"
"0172","+","RUSTIC SPRIGGAN - Special Edition"
"0173","+","RUSTIC WINDOWS - Special Edition"
"0174","+","SABRECAT.by.Kajuan"
"0175","+","Security Overhaul SKSE - Lock Variations"
"0176","+","Security Overhaul SKSE - Add-ons"
"0177","+","Security Overhaul SKSE - Gems Patch - The Cause Chests Secured"
"0178","+","Security Overhaul SKSE - Regional Locks"
"0179","+","Security Overhaul SKSE - Some More Locks"
"0180","+","Soul-Cairn Objects Secured"
"0181","+","Skeleton.and.Human.Bones.by.Kajuan"
"0182","+","Skygazer Moons SSE - Masser and Secunda HD Textures - WITH GLOW"
"0183","+","Skyrim - A Mountainous Experience"
"0184","+","Skyrim Objects SMIMed - Glazed and Nordic Pottery"
"0185","+","Majestic Mountains - More Accurate Collision"
"0186","+","Skyrim Redesigned"
"0187","+","Skyrim SE Improved Puddles"
"0188","+","SSIRT v4.1"
"0189","+","SSE - Skyrim Sun Enhanced"
"0190","+","Stalhrim Source"
"0191","+","Superior Chaurus 4K"
"0192","+","Superior Mudcrab - 4k Retexture"
"0193","+","Sweet Mother - the Night Mother Improvement"
"0194","+","Dawnguard Rewritten - Arvak"
"0195","+","Troll.by.Kajuan"
"0196","+","Vivid Landscapes - Tundra Moss Revised"
"0197","+","WEBS S.E"
"0198","+","White Phial Replacer SE"
"0199","+","Whiterun Mesh Fixes"
"0200","+","Whiterun Skyforge - Reforged"
"0201","+","Whiterun Trellis Redesigned SE"
"0202","+","Wispmother.by.Kajuan"
"0203","+","Acoustic Space Improvement Fixes"
"0204","+","Audio Overhaul - Immersive Sounds Integration (AOS - ISC Compatibility Patch)"
"0205","+","Immersive Sounds - Compendium"
"0206","+","Audio Overhaul for Skyrim (4.0.0)"
"0207","+","Better Animal Footsteps"
"0208","+","Better Horse Pain Sounds"
"0209","+","Dragons Shout with Voice"
"0210","+","Guard Dialogue Overhaul - UHDAP Patch"
"0211","+","Heart of the Beast - Werewolf Sound and Texture Overhaul"
"0212","+","IHSS - Improved Horse Step Sounds"
"0213","+","Lower Sounding Thieves Guild Door"
"0214","+","Realistic wolf howls"
"0215","+","Regional Sounds Expansion (SRD - Wilds Dungeons Towns Ambience - Fixes)"
"0216","+","Reverb Interior Sounds Expansion"
"0217","+","Sound Hammering Sounds"
"0218","+","Thundering Shouts"
"0219","+","Ultra Realistic Bow Shoot Sounds"
"0220","+","Ultra Realistic Crossbow Shoot Sounds"
"0221","+","Hvergelmir's Aesthetics - Beards"
"0222","+","Hvergelmir's Aesthetics - Brows"
"0223","+","Female Vampires Have Fangs"
"0224","+","Lore-Corrected Races"
"0225","+","Lucien Lachance Restored - Immersive Spectral Assassin"
"0226","+","More Realistic Hair"
"0227","+","Natural Eyes"
"0228","+","Northborn Scars"
"0229","+","Simple Children"
"0230","+","Superior Lore-Friendly Hair - HD textures"
"0231","+","Vanilla Body with UNP Textures"
"0232","+","Tempered Skins for Females CBBE"
"0233","+","Caliente's Beautiful Bodies Enhancer -CBBE-"
"0234","+","Tempered Skins for Males - Nude Version"
"0235","+","SSEEdit Output"
"0236","+","TK Children"
"0237","+","Vanilla Makeup HD - HD Racial Colors and Makeup for all Races and Genders - SE"
"0238","+","Vanilla Warpaints Absolution"
"0239","+","Battle Ready Candlelight Fixes"
"0240","+","Bug Fixes SSE"
"0241","+","Butterflies Land True"
"0242","+","Critters Ain't Snitches - Animal and Monster Crime Reporting Fix"
"0243","+","Don't Push Me Around"
"0244","+","Eye Normal Map Fix SSE"
"0245","+","Fix Note icon for SkyUI (SKSE64 plugin)"
"0246","+","Fuz Ro D-oh - Silent Voice"
"0247","+","Hearthfires Houses Building Fix"
"0248","+","Hunters Not Bandits"
"0249","+","I'm walkin' here NG"
"0250","+","Invisibility and Eyes Mesh Fix by HHaleyy"
"0251","+","Labyrinthian Shalidor's Maze Fixes"
"0252","+","NPC AI Process Position Fix - NG"
"0253","+","powerofthree's Tweaks"
"0254","+","Raven Rock - Fix Exit on Horseback"
"0255","+","Scrambled Bugs"
"0256","+","Shadows Of Sunlight - In Small Exterior World Spaces"
"0257","+","Skyrim Project Optimization SE"
"0258","+","Soft Shadows"
"0259","+","SPID for Footprints"
"0260","+","Unlimited Bookshelves"
"0261","+","Unnecessarily Fixed Fixed Dragon Stalking Fix"
"0262","+","Waterbreathing Breathless Emerge SSE"
"0263","+","Complete Alchemy & Cooking Overhaul"
"0264","+","Complete Crafting Overhaul Remastered"
"0265","+","GIST - Genuinely Intelligent Soul Trap SE"
"0266","+","Weapons Armor Clothing and Clutter Fixes"
"0267","+","AI Overhaul SSE"
"0268","+","Better Stealth AI for Followers"
"0269","+","Faction Fixes SE"
"0270","+","Follower Trap Safety"
"0271","+","Ghosts Mechanics and Shaders Restored - Cut Content Restoration"
"0272","+","Realistic AI Detection (RAID)"
"0273","+","Run For Your Lives"
"0274","+","Simple Offence Suppression"
"0275","+","Spellbreaker Spell Reflection and Ward Visuals Restored - Cut Content Restoration"
"0276","+","Tavern AI fix"
"0277","+","Trade and Barter"
"0278","+","Butterflies Unchained"
"0279","+","Disease Descriptions for the Immersive Adventurer"
"0280","+","Get Snowy"
"0281","+","Go On Ahead"
"0282","+","Guard Dialogue Overhaul SE"
"0283","+","Improved Traps"
"0284","+","No Lockpick Activate (SKSE) - Updated"
"0285","+","Point The Way"
"0286","+","Reasonable Movement Speed"
"0287","+","Relationship Dialogue Overhaul Lite"
"0288","+","Simple Drop Lit Torches SE"
"0289","-","Simplest Horses (and other mounts)"
"0290","+","Torches Ignite Oil"
"0291","+","Alternate Start"
"0292","+","At Your Own Pace"
"0293","+","Even Better Quest Objectives SE"
"0294","+","Gildergreen Regrown"
"0295","+","Here We Go Again - World Interactions"
"0296","+","Savos Aren's Regrets Restored - Cut Content Restoration"
"0297","+","The Choice is Yours"
"0298","+","The Paarthurnax Dilemma"
"0299","+","Timing is Everything SE"
"0300","+","Enemy (R)Evolution of Skyrim - EEOS"
"0301","+","FIZZLE"
"0302","+","Lock Overhaul"
"0303","+","Odin - Skyrim Magic Overhaul"
"0304","+","ODIN spells for NPCS"
"0305","+","Skyrim Skill Uncapper for SE and AE"
"0306","+","Smart NPC Potions - Enemies Use Potions and Poisons"
"0307","+","Vokrii - Minimalistic Perks of Skyrim"
"0308","+","Vokrii Perks For NPCS"
"0309","-","A Clear Map of Skyrim and Other Worlds"
"0310","+","Atlas Map Markers SE - Updated with MCM"
"0311","+","Better Container Controls for SkyUI"
"0312","+","Better Dialogue Controls"
"0313","+","Better MessageBox Controls"
"0314","+","CoMAP"
"0315","+","Convenient Reading UI - SE"
"0316","+","Font Overhaul - Natural Typefaces for Skyrim (FONTS)"
"0317","+","HD Local Map"
"0318","+","Horse Stamina HUD - Script-Free"
"0319","+","Immersive HUD - iHUD Special Edition"
"0320","+","Informed Mail Delivery - Vanilla Style"
"0321","+","Lore-Based Loading Screens"
"0322","+","More Informative Console"
"0323","+","moreHUD SE"
"0324","+","Oxygen Meter"
"0325","+","QUI"
"0326","+","RaceMenu"
"0327","+","Show Player In Menus"
"0328","+","Skyrim Character Sheet"
"0329","+","SkyUI"
"0330","+","SkyUI SE - Flashing Savegames Fix"
"0331","+","SkyUI - Ghost Item Bug Fix"
"0332","+","Smaller Vanilla Cursors"
"0333","+","Whose Quest is it Anyway NG"
"0334","+","Wider MCM Menu for SkyUI"
"0335","+","Yes Im Sure NG"
"0336","+","Bring Out Your Dead"
"0337","+","Cutting Room Floor"
"0338","+","Farmhouse Chimneys SE"
"0339","+","Hearthfire Extended"
"0340","+","Helarchen Creek"
"0341","+","Landscape Fixes For Grass Mods"
"0342","+","Oakwood"
"0343","+","Oblivion Gates Remade"
"0344","+","Smooth Shores (Grass and Ground Remastered)"
"0345","+","Snowy Landscapes in Snowy Regions"
"0346","+","Worldspace Transition Tweaks"
"0347","+","Ambiance - A Vanilla+ Ambient Lighting Overhaul"
"0348","+","Cathedral Weathers MCM"
"0349","+","Cathedral Weathers and Seasons"
"0350","+","Enhanced Volumetric Lighting and Shadows (EVLaS)"
"0351","+","Lanterns of Skyrim SE - MCM version"
"0352","+","Relighting Skyrim SE"
"0353","+","Storm Lightning for SSE and VR (Minty Lightning 2019)"
"0354","+","Wonders of Weather"
"0355","+","WoW Dragon Mounds CTD Fix"
"0356","+","Project New Reign - Nemesis Unlimited Behavior Engine"
"0357","+","Step SkyrimSE_Nemesis Output"
"0358","+","Circlet USSEP Fixes"
"0359","+","kryptopyr's Patch Hub"
"0360","+","Realistic Boat Bobbing Patch Hub"
"0361","+","Smooth Shores Patches"
"0362","+","UVCPC - Umgak's Vokrii Compatibility Patch Compendium"
"0363","+","Vokrii - Complete Alchemy and Cooking Overhaul Patch"
"0364","+","Step Skyrim Special Edition - SSE - Guide"
"0365","+","Step Skyrim Special Edition - SSE - Guide_CACO"
"0366","+","Step Skyrim Special Edition - SSE - Guide_CCOR"
"0367","+","Step Skyrim Special Edition - SSE - Guide_TCIY"
"0368","+","Step Skyrim Special Edition - SSE - Guide_Lighting"
"0369","+","Unofficial Skyrim Creation Club Content Patch"
"0370","+","JK's Skyrim"
"0371","+","Wet and Cold SE"
"0372","+","Realistic Needs and Diseases 2.0"
"0373","+","Campfire - Complete Camping System (Supports Skyrim VR)"
"0374","+","Frostfall - Hypothermia Camping Survival"
"0375","+","PapyrusUtil SE - Modders Scripting Utility Functions"
"0376","+","Campfire and Frostfall - Unofficial SSE Update"
"0377","+","Hunterborn"
"0378","+","Immersive Armors"
"0379","+","Immersive Weapons"
"0380","+","SKSE64"
"0381","+","SKSE64 Output"
"0382","+","Winter Is Coming SSE - Cloaks"
"0383","+","Cloaks of Skyrim SSE"
"0384","+","HDT-SMP (Skinned Mesh Physics)"
"0385","+","Realistic Ragdolls and Force"
"0386","+","A Quality World Map"
"0387","-","Beards of Power"
"0388","+","Realistic Needs and Diseases - Frostfall patch"
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I was able to orgasm using only my hands last night, which is something I’ve never been able to do! I’ve always considered myself low-sensitivity and have always needed a high powered vibe to feel any sensation. I’ve had pleasureless orgasms for the past ten years and while these weren’t exactly pleasurable, I feel like I’m on the right track to getting there.
Current theory: I have hypertonic pelvic floor, which can cause the muscles to be so tight that they restrict blood flow and thus lower sensation. When I was able to have pleasurable orgasms, I think maybe I overdid it (I would have maybe 20+ every session, maybe as often as three times a week, which I didn’t realize was unusual?) and strained the muscles even more. I’ve also always used high powered vibes so perhaps I’ve conditioned my body to only respond to that kind of stimulus. So I think the combination of those three things have caused my muted orgasms and inability to come without high vibration.
What I’ve changed: Acupuncture. Myofascial release on the mons pubis. pelvic floor stretches. Psoas stretch. Lightly touching my vulva area for ten minutes every day to try to retrain it to recognize low powered sensation.
The result: Five orgasms in maybe 45 minutes from only hand stimulation.
My question: The orgasms I had were still not pleasurable. Just sensation-less releases. Do you think they’ll get better over time? Do you think my theories seem logical and I’m on the right path or am I missing something?

In my youth my family and I routinely went camping in central Pennsylvania multiple times per year during the scorching summer months. The journey to the campsite took the better part of a full day. This included packing the car to the brim, pulling over at rest stops every hour on the hour, and an arduous check-in process.
To me my father was an expert camper. He laid all tent stakes out with precision, erecting the complete three room tent in less than a half hour. Sizzling bacon and eggs on our portable griddle woke us up every morning. Overburnt s'mores and constantly shuffling our chairs around the fire to avoid the smoke was our nightly ritual. The afternoons were reserved for “chucking” buckets of bait into the nearby lake without many catches to show for it.
Long sessions kayaking left me with scrapes on my forearms from the oars and a sore back from sitting for so long. The lake was narrow but long. Long enough that you could almost feel the curve of the Earth when paddling from one end to the other. The campsites were all stationed on one side of the lake. Densely wooded dark foothills of an old “mountain” lined the shores of the other side. The “mountain” is more of a big hill at this point in geologic history, flattened by erosion and weathering from the 480 million years since these Appalachian Mountains were first uprooted. The lake was shallow but plummeted to eerie depths towards the center.
My sister and I rode our bikes along the trail that went around to all other campsites for hours. Nearly none of the sites were ever empty. There seemed to always be a family doing the same as us. Gravel crunched under our bicycle tires. Tiny cuts and scrapes on my arms and legs stung from the layers of alcohol-based bug spray my mother would apply to us. The campgrounds were enormous, at least to me.
Sometimes it would rain at night. I pretended that I didn’t enjoy those nights.
After I graduated from university I could tell my father felt the need to attempt to make a more concerted effort to hang out in “meaningful” ways. He still does. These efforts always involve the woods, mountains, lakes for some reason or another. The underlying message I gathered from this is that either those locations are a sanctuary for meaningful interactions, or that we need to distance ourselves from the comforts of society to make room for meaning. Either way I’m not convinced.
Nevertheless, I agreed to take a fishing day-trip back to the same lake we camped at so many times as a kid.
I lived in the city at the time and we agreed to meet in the outskirts at a quiet Lowe’s parking lot. He then drove us both out to the lake to fish for the day. The trip there felt quick. Maybe because we met in that parking lot a third of the way there, or because of our conversations about my new apartment and job.
We rented a canoe from the same sleepy “check-in” cabin that hadn’t changed in a decade. The grungy man behind the desk was surprised that we were out there so early on a weekday in April. I think the camping season hadn’t started yet.
We were out in the canoe for a few hours.
We didn't catch a thing.
I guess things really hadn’t changed.
There was the slightest hint that my father was trying to convince me that we were having fun even though we weren’t catching anything or getting any bites. He was trying to read the inflections from my responses to ensure I wasn’t bored.
I felt that I had to try my very best to ensure that I was not giving away any such inflections.
Why would I be? I was the farthest from being bored I think I will ever be.
Maybe he was bored in some way. Or maybe he felt that our not catching a fish worth telling stories about, and certainly not catching any fish at all was a sign that the trip out there on the seasonally warm spring day was a waste.
The boat was cramped. It turned out that you actually could not feel the curvature of the Earth. In fact, when stationed in the middle of the lake we could actually see both ends simultaneously.
Everything was too small. It was all wrong.
I’m not sure exactly when this feeling overwhelmed me. Perhaps the moment we arrived, or after a few casts of our lines, or maybe only when thinking back on these memories.
The trees seemed to shrink around me. The lake began to drain. When turning our canoe the tip of one end scraped the western shore and the other end bumped against the eastern shores. My father and I barely fit in the lake let alone the canoe. The fish fled this dying place. The coal town this lake bordered, once prosperous, now dried up. Grungy “check in” clerks are the only souls that remain.

“Did you have a clear view of the room?” “Yes sir.” “How did the room look?” “Well, it was all slung about, like there was a fight.” “What did you do when you saw the defendant?” “Well, I run around the house to get in, but he run out the front door just ahead of me. I sawed who he was, all right. I was too distracted about Mayella to run after’im. I run in the house and she was lyin‘ on the floor squallin’—” “Then what did you do?” “Why, I run for Tate quick as I could. I knowed who it was, all right, lived down yonder in that 🇳🇪 -nest, passed the house every day. Jedge, I’ve asked this county for fifteen years to clean out that nest down yonder, they’re dangerous to live around ‘sides devaluin’ my property—” “Thank you, Mr. Ewell,” said Mr. Gilmer hurriedly. The witness made a hasty descent from the stand and ran smack into Atticus, who had risen to question him. Judge Taylor permitted the court to laugh. “Just a minute, sir,” said Atticus genially. “Could I ask you a question or two?” Mr. Ewell backed up into the witness chair, settled himself, and regarded Atticus with haughty suspicion, an expression common to Maycomb County witnesses when confronted by opposing counsel. “Mr. Ewell,” Atticus began, “folks were doing a lot of running that night. Let’s see, you say you ran to the house, you ran to the window, you ran inside, you ran to Mayella, you ran for Mr. Tate. Did you, during all this running, run for a doctor?” “Wadn’t no need to. I seen what happened.” “But there’s one thing I don’t understand,” said Atticus. “Weren’t you concerned with Mayella’s condition?” “I most positively was,” said Mr. Ewell. “I seen who done it.” “No, I mean her physical condition. Did you not think the nature of her injuries warranted immediate medical attention?”

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In town for a night coming from Kelowna BC, just wondering what the best weather site is for Montreal and how snow would affect our plans? Is the city well equipped for snow/should I expect airline delays?
Any suggestions on what to do if the weather is rain/snow? Just had down the usual touristy areas (downtown, old port, miles end, etc)

I’m scheduled for my 3rd cesarean next Thursday. I assumed this weekend would be finishing up things for the new little guy and relaxing. Apparently my husband had other plans. Our moms have offered to help us with other two kids and our pets (5 year old and 20 month old) next week when we go in for baby eviction. The moms had decided to get together sort of game plan on Saturday. My husband doesn’t think this is necessary (he also will not take any part in the planning nor is he worried about it because he assumes I’ll handle it). He announces to me yesterday he wants to have his cousin and his pregnant girlfriend over on Saturday instead (just a FYI recent info came out about her to my husband and I. We both aren’t super fans of this person, long story). I told him I don’t want to host people I’m tired. My last day of work is tomorrow and on Saturday I have no intention of entertaining people. He doesn’t understand why is it a big deal, “they want to do something nice for us”. How is them doing something nice for us coming to our house so we can feed them when I’m a week away from giving birth??! Also we just went to their gender reveal last weekend it’s not like I’m keeping him from his cousin. Then he goes on to say well if I won’t let him have them over he will go out to dinner with them alone. Your wife is 37 weeks pregnant her last weekend before having your third human together you’re going to go out with other people because she doesn’t want to host anyone in her condition. Somehow in all of this I am being unreasonable and he has no idea why I’m upset at all…I’m crying in a bathtub because this whole situation has led to contractions. I just I don’t get it.