Mtg lurrus of the dream den

Little back story,Me & him was dating for 10 months. We also worked at the same place but about a month before he passed I had quit. He died in a 1 car accident, he had head injuries. I Got the call, rushed to the scene & followed the ambulance to the hospital. I Sat there for about an hour before they pronounced him dead. Also the car he was driving was my car.
I wanna say a few days after his funeral, I had a dream that I was at the hospital on the day he had his accident, everything was exactly the same from the people that was there, from the things everyone was saying to the outfit I had on that day. (In real life, When they told us the news at the hospital , everyone was outside crying & embracing eachother. I remember dropping to my knees & his aunt & my mom helping me up.) BUT in the dream. Instead of them helping me up it was him. I looked up & he had a bandage wrapped around his head .. He said in an annoyed voice,“Why you keep crying?” I looked back at everyone in the dream & they was still sobbing. As if they didn’t see him standing there, Then I looked at him confused & said “🤔 because I thought you was dead” He grabbed my arm & told me to get in the car,when we got in the car I grabbed his head & kissed his cheeks saying “WHY EVERYONE KEEP SAYING YOU DIED?” he said “OUCH My head” then he look at me & just shooked his head as if he was avoiding my question . He seemed angry but not at me, it was like he was mad at someone or something else.. we rode around the city & he got me food,laughed,had a great time, enjoyed eachother company just like we would always do.I remember while he was driving he kept shaking his head & mumbling to his self “two days, it was two days” Then he dropped me off home, I got sad & said “Wait Where are you going?” He said “To work” All of a sudden I was in the car with my best friend & her sister, I was sitting in the back seat & I asked them to take me to the job, they said “I thought you quit” I said “I did but I want to see if my boyfriend is there” they looked at eachother in a “but he died” kind of way.. then they shrugged at eachother & said “I guessss” awkwardly.. we arrived to the job & I asked security was he there. Everyone looked at me crazy. Then his cousin (she worked at the same place with us too) came out of the work place sobbing & told me “he died remember, remember the accident? Remember the head injury” I told her “no he didn’t,he told me he was otw to work ,I was just with him” then he came walking out the the workplace this time the bandage wasn’t on his head, his head was covered in blood . I asked him again “Why everyone keep saying you died?” He scolded at me & said “BECAUSE I DID” .. I asked him “well how do it look on the other side he said “🤷🏾‍♂️ it look normal” Then I woke up IN TEARS
I had many other dreams about him in the pass month but this one always stuck out to me

Guys, Iam a brazilian guy who are learning english and loves adult cartoons like South Park and Family Guy. I wish I could buy all the episodes of all seasons with subtitles and put it into an external HD so I could watch them all whenever I want. Also all the EPs of South Park, Ricky and Morty, Simpsons and many other cartoons like that, so I could shuffle all the EPs and make a particular huge channel. but I can't find all the EPs for download or buying (DVD or wathever.) Any ideas of how can I make this dream come true?

Guys, I wish I could buy all the episodes of all seasons and put it into an external HD so I could watch them all whenever I want. Also all the EPs of South Park, Ricky and Morty, Simpsons and many other cartoons like that, so I could shuffle all the EPs and make a particular huge channel. but I can't find all the EPs for download or buying (DVD or wathever.) Any ideas of how can I make this dream come true?

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Hello everyone. I'm 38 years old, partnered, working in my dream job in a Mediterranean country, but like many of us I noticed that as we get older, friendships tend to decay. People who used to be very close become much more far, geographically, emotionally or both, and it's hard to find new ones.
I'm looking for a solid friendship, with someone close to my age, and hopefully also close to me geographically, at least for timezone reasons (but people from other places are also welcome!). Ideally, if it works out, I'd love to have daily conversations about anything we like, from the world we live in and our life issues, through literature, art and music, all the way to joking around and whatever stupid topics we both seem to enjoy. I respect honesty, openness and kindness, and I'm genuinely interested in close friendships, in which both sides respect and love each other. I admire intelligence, wisdom, and a healthy combination of empathy and wit.
Talk to me if all of that, or some at least, makes sense to you.

I just started working at Sysco starting at 21.58/hr with the promise of 27.81/hr in about 2 weeks. This is just about a dream come true as I'm so excited to making good money at 18 with a great job so I can support my fiancé and hopefully a kid soon!
After dealing with such annoying low-paying and high-effort jobs it's gonna be nice just working in a warehouse scanning and putting boxes here and there; I really can't wait until the 3rd which is when I'm supposed to start training!
Thankfully I have two brothers working there that were able to help me get in quicker, I can't wait to be able to do all this amazing stuff, especially for my fiancé!

So I bought pathfinder thinking it was the second edition but it wasn't and the reason i haven't bought it is because they are out of stock. I've realized that the first edition isn't quite the same and the flexibility of the second edition is missing. I have also realized that most of the strategy gets ruined by attacks of opportunity, which are nearly removed in the second edition. Is there a way to safely remove attacks of opportunity? Or should I just give up on my pathfinder dreams?

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I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in vain I dream of love as time runs through my hand
I dream of fire These dreams that tie two hearts that will never die Near the flames The shadows play in the shape of the man's desire
This desert rose Whose shadow bears the secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this
And now she turns This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams This fire burns I realize that nothing's as it seems
I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in vain I dream of love as time runs through my hand
I dream of rain I lift my gaze to empty skies above I close my eyes The rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love
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I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in vain I dream of love as time runs through my hand
Sweet desert rose Whose shadow bears the secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this
Sweet desert rose This memory of hidden hearts and souls This desert flower This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love

Hey everyone! I'm currently neck deep in my first of (hopefully) many novels and I'm a little stuck fleshing out the details of the religion. I have decided on a fairly Lovecraftian couple of deities that do exist in my world. One is a formless infinite consciousness with almost ineffable motivation and the other is similar, but chooses to act or appear benevolently.
The first of the two is not evil, just fundamentally different to us. It doesn't share our morals or values and therefor doesn't value human life or well-being. It occasionally plays games with the turn of human history but usually doesn't care to interfere. Sometimes it chooses to appear to people in visions or dreams as a gargantuan mass of flesh and tentacles, or a ball of countless spider's legs and eyes, or a giant creature made from a thousand human arms and hands. Most often however it simply takes the form of an infinite, twisting, black void.
The other is more benevolent but has a tendency to look at the big picture rather than the smaller picture. This means that sometimes it is okay with the ends justifying the means. It has a history of interfering with human history but not in ways that seem good to the people in the moment. When it appears to people in visions or dreams it takes the form of an enormous stag, whose antlers seem to branch out into the infinite, linking a network of stars and galaxies across the infinite universe.
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The people in the world do not know much of the real nature of these supernatural entities but it does seem that once, perhaps long ago, they did. For example: one common exclamation in my world is "great night!" In addition, when they have funerals they cremate their dead on funeral pyres and talk of their dead rejoining the great night above.
I think that the religion isn't going to be a centrally important factor in the societies, for example most people believe that what is told by the religion is true, but its not very explicit or specific so its hard to deny or take any real meaning from it into your day to day life.
What I'm struggling with is the details of:
a) What the people actually believe: This would be a bastardized version of the truth, warped to suit the practical needs of those in higher places within the power structure of the clergy and society at large.
b) What would the religion be called: I'm not totally sure if it would even need a specific 'official' name but at least something for me to be able to refer to it as.
c) What would I call the people within the hierarchy of the religion. At the moment I'm just calling the main figureheads priests as a placeholder but I'm not really happy with that as a long term solution to the issue.
Thanks for reading, I hope the text wall wasn't too much. Looking forward to hearing some of your thoughts. No bad ideas!
Thanks again and take care everyone!

Hello everyone. I'm 38 years old, partnered, working in my dream job in a Mediterranean country, but like many of us I noticed that as we get older, friendships tend to decay. People who used to be very close become much more far, geographically, emotionally or both, and it's hard to find new ones.
I'm looking for a solid friendship, with someone close to my age, and hopefully also close to me geographically, at least for timezone reasons (but people from other places are also welcome!). Ideally, if it works out, I'd love to have daily conversations about anything we like, from the world we live in and our life issues, through literature, art and music, all the way to joking around and whatever stupid topics we both seem to enjoy. I respect honesty, openness and kindness, and I'm genuinely interested in close friendships, in which both sides respect and love each other. I admire intelligence, wisdom, and a healthy combination of empathy and wit.
Talk to me if all of that, or some at least, makes sense to you.

When I graduated highschool I was ecstatic to go to college so I immediately went. I had big dreams of becoming an Aerospace Engineer with tons of scholarships supporting me so I went to a uni in utah. After a year I decided that it wasn't really for me and moved to a school in Idaho to pursue a degree in Computer Sciences for programming. It was wonderful and I loved it, however I could only see me doing it as a hobby so i'm running out of options of what to form a career on. I used to host parties every other day so I had more woman friends than I could even imagine but the next school year the vast majority of those friends either dropped out or got married so I had pretty much no one. I reached out to my old physics teacher from hs and asked him what are some technology based jobs I can try or just anything else I could try out. He ended up getting me a remote IT helpdesk job, I absolutely love everything about, all I do is change peoples passwords from 9-5 m-f. Unfortunately I only get paid $15hr or about $2000mo taxed, which is nice and all but that's not a stable enough income for me to afford a mortgage. I do have a meme page I run but I make $50-$1000 a month from it, I did just get demonetized for posting those reels about guessing which one of the little toy chicken was playing with a lighter without permission. I want to get 1-3 more of those helpdesk jobs but its so hard to find some that accept my application. Recently I've been trying to start a business of some sort but idk where to even start, I used an old pc I had to make a website server but idk what to even put on there. I'm stuck at home with no more close friends, I don't want to hang out because i'm saving every penny I earn to hopefully have a nice down payment on a duplex. My plan right now is to work for 18 months, buy the duplex, and rent out the other half or rent out both halves then just stay in my mothers basement until I have enough for another mortgage. I don't want to say we're poverty but we've got lucky with money from the jobs they found, my parents bring in almost a $100,000 a year they claim, so they no nothing about starting a business or renting or anything like that so I will have to learn all this on my own, It's a struggle and I need to figure it out or else I have no planned future. The only reason why i'm not depressed yet is because I feel, after I buy the duplex and start making actual money, I'll be about to move to new york or any other east coast and start fresh life making new friends and connects while there. I'm literally running on hopes and dreams. I'd say if I don't have my life together by 26 (6 years), i'm just going to drop everything I own then drive until I feel like stopping. For your interaction, do you have any advice what I could be doing in my life or have experiences you want to share?
TL:DR
Child prodigy, went to college immediately after highschool, began Aerospace degree but changed to Computer Sciences degree , make tons of friends, lost all the friends the next year, found IT job, dropped out and moved home, don't make any effort to go out and do stuff with friends because I want to save every penny I make so I can buy a house, plans to buy a rental property so I can be free from working a 9-5, plans to move to new york and start a fresh life.
Thank you for reading.

Hello there!
So I have a very quick question... I'm going to run our first session of CR: Call of the Netherdeep this very sunday and my players have done a beautiful job with their backgrounds basically by tying them to several Wildemount factions...
I don't know if this post is compliance with this subreddit rules so please feel free to delete it but my main concern is, if you are familiar with the campaign, how to involve Cerberus Assembly (and the Voelstrucker in particular) and the Myriad as well, especially in Ank'Harel and possibly Bazzoxan too.
I was thinking to make the Consortium of the Vermillion Dream be somehow related to the Cerberus Assembly while the Myriad could be linked to the Veil but I'm really struggling to find solid connections here... do you have any cool and "reasonable" ways to do so?
I mean I could have someone from the Voelstrucker be like a spy within the Consortium or the Allegiance of Allsight too but I'm not convinced at all so I really look forward to your knowledge of Wildemount in order to find cool ideas!
Thank you in advance!

M(26) Doctor, We were together since 2013 and she broke up saying that " Our professions would not let us live together, And she doesn't want to be in a relationship where there's uncertainty regarding cities we both will work in and that I've still got years into my residency" I have a pretty stressful job as I am in my pre clincial years I was not able to give her enough time and care she deserved but always loved are more than anything, I've tried therapy, Been drunk past 2 months on a daily basis to ease of my pain, But the thought of her being with someone else after we dated for 10 years is just killing me , I have dreams of her without fail , I feel my profession fucked it up for me that I couldn't be with the girl I love , I wake up shivering, disoriented, Can't focus on anything, I tried contacting her she said she is " Trying her best to move on as she doesn't want to force herself into a relationship which has uncertainties" I gave assurance of everything, Both of our families were knew about us all this while , I feel very low self esteemed that maybe I wasn't good enough for us , we imagined our whole future together but now I don't see anything as she's gone, Life feels waste

I was fortunate enough to land a job which seems like a dream come true. This job is basically in the location where I want to live and in a field that I am really interested in.
Unfortunately my dad passed away and my family is just three of us. I have been trying my best to help them out but I also want to live my life. One of them is okay with me leaving but the other is not happy. They can survive without me but it would make their lives easier if I stayed. He had no will and there will be a complicated probate/court process.
I really want to leave as soon as possible and I could start in July which is 5 months after my dad’s passing. Is it too soon to leave or should I stay and help them. I want to follow my dream but I feel guilty leaving them. I have done my best to help as much as I can but it never feels enough. Also I really hate living back at home and my current city. I feel really depressed and hopeless since I came back here.
So do I follow my dream or stay with my family?

I'm (17 f) falling for my (25m) HS teacher. I'm in senior year. I know it's not okay but I just can't help it. He's hot af and all girls in our class are crazy for him. Everytime I see him he makes me go weak on my knees. He got those big muscles which makes him super attractive. I could see that he goes to gym daily and I feel he's very caring and affectionate towards me like He always asks if I'm doin okay in my studies or do I need anything. He always assures me that I could come to him anytime if I get in some trouble. I always thought he doesn't like me in that way. But few days back something happened. I went to his house to return Some stuff of his which he forgot in the classroom (yes I know I could return the stuff next day at the school but I just wanted to see him so bad haha so I just went) I reached at his house I knocked and he opened the door and I was literally flabbergasted to see him cuz he was all shirtless ,just had a towel on. my dream came true lol I was manifesting this from a long time. (it felt like my ovaries were screaming) lol but then he said thanks for returning his stuff. But when I was about to go, he asked if I want to come in and I said yes sure. Then he offered me something to eat. We had some chat and when I was about to leave, he hugged me, and kissed me on my cheek and he said thank you once again. When he hugged me my heart started beating fast and gosh I got a kiss from him I'm so fucking happy . But now from past 2 days he has been ignoring me.Does it means that he has feelings for me and if he doesn't then why he gave me a kiss I'm so confused I just want to date him so bad. Should I talk to him about this?

Ive really enjoyed the idea of digging deep inside of me and finding more about who I am as a person. This has helped me with my self esteem and has made me build a deeper connection and relationship with myself. My psychologist told me I should write them down and I like that idea. Here’s one I’d like to share. It’s a bit long and a ramble a bit but if you manage to read everything I’d really like your input. I’m really proud of myself.
I realized that I portray an image of intelligence and moral perfection that exaggerates how I really am as a person. I do this because I try to convince people and myself that I am smart and morally good. I feel like this all stems from the self worth I give myself. I try to be the smartest person in the room, I have a high ego, I’m obviously pretentious and I try to be deeper than what I really am. I recently signed up for the psychology program and it’s made me dream big. I have fantasies of being a therapist and helping people. What really interests me is the idea of finding solutions to problems with the people I help. The thing is, I dream big because I know that that’s the only way I can be proud of myself, because I rely on that external validation and aiming high is the only way I can make others and therefor myself proud. I started being afraid that I’ll start the program and half way through realize that what I actually need is to be proud of myself and feel like I matter, no matter what I do or who I am. The same is said with my new promotion at work, why am i doing this? So I decided to feed myself with affirming phrases like “I matter” and “I’m enough”. as I was doing this I felt more anxious than before and I didn’t know why. I realized that it was this image of confidence, intelligence, moral perfection that came crashing down. I felt the same way as how I felt when I was doing drugs and had my psychosis. A while back I was thinking about my self esteem and whether it has gone up, down or stagnant in the past few years. I knew that during high school I had low self esteem, as little as I had noticed then, but I know this because I was very insecure, had a high ego, was judgemental and constantly put people down. I feel like that never stopped after school but when I started doing drugs, everything that I had kept inside like that image I portray to people had been flipped inside out and I felt broken, anxious and I felt worse but my self esteem hadn’t changed, it was just that the barrier that had protected me from my low self esteem and trauma had disappeared. With my new promotion and the college program, that barrier is coming back because I need to feel a sense of worth, those things aren’t giving it to me and I’m struggling to find who I am or what I could be. Hopefully with time I will replace that nothingness I feel under this image I portray with genuineness and sincerity.

Or Disneyland. Or Disneyland Paris. I’m easy, you choose…
But that’s the dream isn’t it? Finding someone to go these special places with.
Recently I feel like my life has been missing a spark and is lacking any physical or emotional connection or intimacy.
Those things are really important to me, so now I’m looking to go out and get them!
So, about me: I’m tall, average build, brown hair with a good personality and a good sense of humour, but can also be sensitive when needed. I have a good job and make a decent amount, and all that’s missing is that romantic connection!
I’m looking for someone I can connect with on every level. Hopefully you’ll have a similar sense of humour and that emotional connection is really important to me.
Ages 22-32 are generally what I go for, but I won’t rule out any other ages!
Hopefully I haven’t scared you off and you want to find out more - feel free to PM! Tell me which ride we’ll go on first :)

Throwaway for obvious reasons:
Generally I don’t dream very often at all and have been that way since I was a little kid. I either have 0 dreams or I wake up with a very very brief feeling that I dreamt but having no recollection of what it was. There are rare occasions I get vivid dreams and they are like movies with storylines and plot twists and everything lol. Those happen about once or twice a year.
Today I can proudly say I am 7 months sober. During the first month or so of sobriety I had a few night terrors but I never remembered them I would just wake up screaming/sweating/with a fast heartbeat. Since that month I’d been back to my regular old peaceful dreamless sleeping until about 2 weeks ago.
I’ve now had 4 vivid dreams in the span of 2 weeks and in all of them I was using. There was no storyline or plot or anything like that it was just what felt like hours of me alone in my apartment using and enjoying the high (listening to music, staring into the abyss, blurred vision, euphoria). They’re so realistic that I almost feel like I’m coming down from the high for about an hour after waking up from the dreams. The most recent dream ended with someone knocking on my door, and me scrambling to hide my stuff. When I woke up I was still panicked and even waited for hours for everyone (roommates) to leave then went and checked the spot I “hid the drugs” in to get rid of them. Only then did I realize it was a dream.
I’m not sure what to do about this because it’s making me crave using and the “come down” after the dream makes it feel like I’m barely a day sober. I’m worried this will trigger a relapse but I don’t know how to explain this to a close friend without sounding/feeling silly and I can’t afford therapy.
I’m not planning on using again but I’m struggling and I just needed to let this out. I’m not sure if it’s possible to advise this situation other than saying “get therapy” but I’d be open to any input.

My (F19) boyfriend (M19) and I have been together for four years and graduated highschool class of 22. We share many goals and values and in that way I'd consider us an amazing match. We agreed we'd attend college after highschool, a year later we'd move in, then later move to an area I can attend school longer and he can work, get married, have kids, etc.... The issue is that he keeps letting me down in major ways that are leaving me to question if this is the relationship for me and what to do in this situation.
Timeline of events that lead up to this...

• August 2023, was supposed to start college, he didn't because he hadn't properly registered for classes and admitted that he didn't want to attend school. He also didn't have a car.
  
  • He got a car and began school in the winter for a welding certification. Then dropped out because he became depressed and said it was to hard managing a part time job, his one in person class 12 to 3 pm, and the HW. Additionally, he took time off of work for this but went back after a week.
• A month later he began to feel sick, dizzy, upset stomach, headache, etc... And took work off for another week and half. He ended up getting fired because he wasn't communicating with them about what was happening.
  

In conclusion...
He is supposed to start councling next week and has a scheduled doctors visit for a mental and physical check up. I see he's trying to put the work in but it's so frustrating and I often feel resentful for where we are. Personality wise I know he's my person but partner wise I'm just not sure. I am considering just not moving in together and seeing what he does instead until we both hopefully graduate.
Any advice is appreciated.
TLDR: My boyfriend and I have these shared dreams about how we want our future to go but he's fallen through on his part. It's leaving me questioning if this is the relationship for me. What do I do??!!,