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Restrictive eating can be rough, but at least it forces the ingenuity out of us. This sub is for laughing/commiserating about the experience of eating things that're low calorie, and uhhhhh... "creative."
Has anyone else noticed their roof of their mouth getting tender once the break a fast (48+ hours)? I think I get it both with water and dry fasts. I haven't noticed it being a specific food and it seems to happen right away.
I would describe it as just a temporary minor annoyance. It's like the skin is having a reaction to the food at first.
So I’ve suffered with a tree nut allergy my whole life, and to my knowledge it’s always included all tree nuts (had a nice sunburn-like reaction to Proactiv products that I tried years ago as a teen because apparently sweet almond oil is one of the key ingredients). Interestingly, I recently discovered that I’m perfectly fine with all Sol de Janeiro products despite the fact that their signature creams contain a lot of Brazil nut extract. I have also had no problems with Ouai’s scalp & body sugar scrub (which notably has sweet almond oil in it), and I LOVE Rhode even though people have complained that they use some kind of nut derivatives in their products.
If anything, I’d like to hope that I have built up more tolerance to skin contact now that I’ve hit my mid-20’s. None of my food allergies have thankfully ever reached the level of severity where I cannot smell or be around the things I’m allergic to, and I’m starting to question whether I might be able to experiment further with introducing skincare that includes things that I previously thought were off limits completely. I am planning on consulting an allergist for official re-testing at some point, but I know that as long as I don’t ingest any of the products I’ll at least survive some at-home trials.
All of that said…I have been coveting La Mer for quite some time. The only thing that’s stood in my way is the fact that literally ALL of their products contain varying percentages of “sweet almond seed meal,” which I assume is somewhat different than sweet almond oil but probably derived from the same common source. Unfortunately, in all my Google and Reddit searching, I haven’t really come across anyone directly discussing their experience with any La Mer items as someone who is allergic to almonds/tree nuts. I find it hard to believe that there aren’t a significant number of people with allergies out there who have tried the products!
Keeping in mind that everyone reacts differently to everything and even common food allergies can impact each of us in very unique ways, has anyone in this group tried (and had success with) La Mer in spite of an almond allergy? It’d be great if you could specifically speak to the Crème de La Mer or the Soft Cream, but any general testimonials would be helpful. Even the mini sizes cost $85-$200, so I want to get at least some sense for what I may be in for before I sample for myself.
Tldr; You’re allergic to tree nuts or almonds specifically? You’ve tried La Mer? Great, talk to me about your experience with it!
Does anyone else get really upset when a business tacks on a 2-3% fee for using your CC? Because I know I do.
It feels super scummy to me when a business passes on the literal cost of doing business onto the customer. I’m already paying for the good and/or service the business provides, likely helping them turn a profit, why do I have to actively pay for their overhead as well? I hate it.
Imagine going to a restaurant and when your waiter brings you your bill there’s an extra $4 charge on there for “water bill”.
Obviously I can pay cash to get around it but that contradicts the whole “pay for everything with CCs because cashback/travel” thing I and this whole sub has going.
If a business really doesn’t want to pay CC processing fees, just don’t accept CCs. Don’t pass that charge on to me.
My cat, Hendrix (three years old, male) was given to me by my younger sister last month. I have a trip to Maryland coming up next week and will be gone for four days. I live in North Carolina so it will be about a five to six-hour drive.
Hendrix really hates going into the cat carrier and always has. It is a battle to get him inside. My sister keeps insisting that I should just leave him at home with an automatic food and water dispenser. She has left him home for about a week at a time before and feels he would be fine.
The thing is, my sister has another cat so when Hendrix was home alone for long periods of time, the other cat was at least keeping him company. I am looking for a second cat of my own, but Hendrix would be all alone for four days.
What would be worse for Hendrix? Making him travel in the carrier for a long time (which he hates) or leaving him at home for four days. Four days seems like a long time to leave a cat but I thought I’d get some other opinions.
EDIT: I forgot. The person I was going to have cat sit for me will be unavailable.
We're thinking about a second baby and I'm quite anxious about my first labour experience.
My water broke two weeks before my due date, then I spent 28 hours in the hospital with contractions every 5- 10 minutes but no progress, and an additional 6 hours in active labour after being induced.
The whole thing was excruciatingly painful and tiring, every contraction felt like someone drilling into my lower back and I don't want to do it again the same way.
What are your experiences with multiple births? Were they similar? Did it go faster the second time around? Is there a difference between natural and induced labour? If you had to be induced the first time, was the second time the same?
Me and my girlfriend of two years in July go to different colleges. My spring break was in March and she came home that weekend because her roommate was sick. She made it very clear to everyone I was not the reason she came home. Her spring break started this weekend, the weekend before Easter so she goes back next Monday. Originally I wasn’t going to come home for Easter because my school doesn’t give off for it and I don’t have my car at school and didn’t want to make my mom pick me up and take me back. My girlfriend then asked if I could come home so we could spend time together and she would drive me back Monday so I could buy a parking pass for her car at school because she can’t buy it in her own name because freshmen don’t have cars. I said yes because I really wanted to see her. She then tells me I’d have to miss my classes Monday because the parking office isn’t open Sundays, I said okay that’s fine even though I hate missing class. On Fridays my last class ends at 4, and when I said she’d get home at 7 she asked if I could leave earlier so we could have more time together. I said sure and told her I’d skip my last class. Yesterday we made plans that I’d pick up some food we’d been dying to try on my way home and as soon as I got home she’d come over. Today we got into an argument somehow about her not doing anything when I tell her I’m uncomfortable. During the argument she blurts out she’s going to Massachusetts the Friday I am supposed to get home. She’s going to get her hair dyed, we live in NY so the trip, the dye job and the dinner she has with her hairdresser after takes up the whole day. She was originally supposed to get it done in may and me come so we could make a trip out of it. I got super upset and asked why she would do that knowing I was coming home for her. She said it was the only time slot available and the only apology she gave was a “sorry”. I told her to tell her hairdresser she had forget she was busy on the day and to cancel considering I was making my mom drive 3 hours to get me to see her that day and we were only going to be able to spend two days together since her family is big into Easter. She said no she was going and I just went off saying what the fuck would she do that knowing everything I was doing for her. I told her to not talk to me and she just liked the message. I later sent her a paragraph saying i probably wasn’t gonna come home if she was going and that it was fucked up for her to do that to me. And I asked her not to talk to me until she actually was going to apologize or feel any remorse at all. That was two hours ago no response. Am I an asshole if I don’t come home? I might just still go because it’s the last time we will see each other until the semester ends in may.
Hi everyone, I am new to reddit and I hope this is a right place to say what I want to say. I would be extremely grateful for your point of view on this whole situation and for any pieces of advice. To begin with, I am 20 years old. I’m from Poland and I live in Łódź. I’m an university student and I still live with my parents. Everything started in summer of 2022. I had just finished my first year of uni and I had 3 months of holiday. In order to not waste my time and ofc earn some extra money I decided to go for a summer job. Initially, my plan was to work for 3 months straight. However, I had realised that I had enough and I needed one month for myself to relax and prepare for the next year of uni. Therefore, I had the whole September of free time. After few days of doing nothing and being bored, I decided that it would be an interesting idea to download tinder. I had never used it before. I didn’t have any serious intentions, I just did it out of pure curiosity and to see what the hype about this app is all about. I started using it, I wrote with some people. Some guys even offered me going to dates but I wasn’t interested enough. Then one day, I came across a guy from Brazil. He looked pretty interesting for me so I swiped right. We had a match and he wrote to me first saying hi. What I managed to learn about him was that he is 21, he lives in São Paulo, he lives with his parents as well, he had already finished university and he is working from home. We wrote for a few days on tinder and then we moved to instagram. And so our friendship began… Everything was ok for the first 4 months. We used to talk everyday, we talked about our daily life, our interests. We had some deep conversations as well as very stupid ones. We used to tell each other about every detail of our lifes and we shared some deep secrets, we opened up about our problems. We even used to watch movies together. We were both feeling special connection beetwen us but well, we were just friends and we both acted like this. Even though I had developed some feelings for him, I managed to kill them inside of me for two reasons. The first reason: We live so far away from each other and it doesn’t have any sense becuase I don’t know if I will ever see him in person. Second reason: He always used to tell me that his type is this typical slavic beauty (ginger or blonde hair, curvy body type) and he always used to send me girls from tinder saying how hot they were. Even though I’m slavic, I don’t look like this (I have dark brown hair and I am very thin). Therefore, I didn’t think he would ever see me as something more than a friend. However, eveyrything changed in January. He started giving me some hints, that he sees me as something more. Not gonna lie, at first I didn’t treat it seriously and I thought he was just joking or something. You see, he is the type of person when sometimes you need to think for some time if he is serious or he is just joking. Therefore, I just ignored it. But things started to get more and more serious. He started to express his feelings more clearly and at some point he just confessed to me that he loves me. And I finally believed him. For a long time I think we had something between friendship and relationship. We acted like a couple, we used to say things to each other that couples say. But we were not a couple… Unfortunately throughout this time we had some conflicts, there was some blocking and unblocking, some toxic behaviours, there were some lies as well… But ultimately, we managed to forgive each other everything. At one point, he started talking more seriously about starting a long distance relationship. Unfortunately, I am a kind of person who is very indecisive, especially when it comes to my emotions. I knew that I loved him, but I wasn’t 100% sure if I want to start ldr. I was aware of the consequences that came with it, for example that he would only be able to see me one time a year, and I was wondering what if it won’t work out and I will just waste my time… I also had some thoughts that he just wanted to use me to get an europass. You see, this is not an easy decision to be made, especially for a person like me. Despite this, he had difficulties with understanding my problem, my point of view and he started to get very mad at me. He started to claim that I am just playing with his emotions, he called me evil and heartless which really hurt me and made me feel guilty. Playing with his feelings was never my intention. My indecision was just killing both of us… We both came into conclusion that this is too toxic for both of us and we decided to put an end to this. However, this whole weird cycle and system had started. It always looked the same, we blocked each other then one of us was unblocked, we started talking again then once again we decided that it didn’t have any sense, we blocked each other and…. this whole cycle had repeated a couple of times. We both came into conclusion that we simply can’t stay away from each other. That maybe we are soulmates, and the cruel fate decided to put us so far away from each other. However, he always used to say that I didn’t give enough from me to start ldr. That it is like a plant that you need to water in order for it to grow… And yes I kinda agree, I didn’t send enough audios and called him enough times, maybe because I am insecure about myself and anxious… Unfortunately, we both have some mental problems. But well… his problems are worse and far more serious than mine, I won’t get into details about them. I always used to tell him that he should go to therapy and now he finally agreed to do it. I am very happy about it, I want everything that is good for him because I really love him… We both came into conclusion that we developed some unhealthy obsession and that we have emotional dependence on each other. So we started to think: Is this really love or we just became too emotionally attached to each other? He suggested that we should take a break from each other. At first he suggested one year, but we decided to make it shorter (2 months) And now the question for you: Do you think that this break is the good idea? That during this time we will manage to figure ourselfes out and start again? We both noticed that during the time when we are not talking we are really mentally unwell and we experience so much pain. But I really hope that the therapy will help him with his feelings and that I will be able to survive this break. Oh God, I have written much more than I expected… I am sorry if this is a little bit chaotic haha. However, I hope you managed to understand my point of view. I am so grateful if you have managed to read all of this. I would be even more grateful for any pieces of advices, your point of view or any comments in general. XO This is the post that I wrote and posted today.
Do you know what I just found out a couple of minutes ago? That this whole time he had feelings not only for me but also for another girl that lives close to him in Brazil in the same city. Instead of telling me truth in the beginning he just decided to hide it. Now the best part: his excuse is that he can’t control his own feelings and I didn’t show him enough love. I feel ashamed that I suffered so much and loved someone like this… I will never be someone’s second option.
This long post is made out from 3 texts that I've written on my Twitter account and YT channel, and it summarizes the full theory:
Almost every clue fits perfectly if you see it from the ancient angle. Even the often used phrase 'they are feeding from our 'life energy'... Our ancestors often presented sacrifices to the 'gods' mainly in blood. Even the legends of these so called 'pale vampires' that need our blood so they can live forever might come from these encounters.
But as legends go they often get twisted when passing on further generations, yes they are greedy, they are ancient, but they were not drinking blood. So all those sacrifices were for nothing, a misunderstanding of their 'craft' and just a desperate plea to the 'gods' who left, by the so called 'vulgars' or the unworthy of the knowledge.
There is an ancient craft, a way to mimic nature and speed up the process, a way to create medicine that will give you knowledge and power. The secret societies, all symbolism and rituals might not be only for fun as they say. But mostly it's garbage to hide the truth. The alchemy which roots started in Egypt by Hermes and lead to the creation of today's chemistry hold the secret, but it's full with misinformation, often written in cryptics and full with lies.
They choose very carefully who is worthy of the secret. In this hypothesis my speculation is that humanity is much older than we think, and there is a group of 'humans' just like us that are simply gods because they keep this knowledge hidden.
So in this scenario 'They walk among us', 'They look just like us', 'They are feeding from the life energy', 'The technology is so simple everyone can create it, so in the wrong hands it can became very dangerous', 'Sombering truth', 'The history needs to be rewritten' all fit perfectly.
The ancient literature is full with these 'gods' that look just like us who suddenly come from nowhere to share the knowledge so far ahead of the time and then disappeared. But like every trickster they don't reveal the main ingredients even though those are present in the literature but you need to decode them and separate them from the dangerous misinformation.
These ancient humans are flying these UAPs, they are the 'aliens' and I have more to elaborate on the abductions and why they are not reveling themselves. In a way they are in charge and the secrecy is not from the 40s, it goes way back in ancient times.
Remember what some pro-disclosure people said 'we started this process and it seems like there is no reaction from them, so that's a good sign', are we expecting retaliation?
They might presented themselves as Gods in the past, now as Aliens, and even today some Generals in Pentagon call them demons.
The most powerful people in the world are part of these mystical societies, they swore an oath not to reveal the secrets and the rituals. There are many levels and only a few of the most powerful people might end up finding out the true secret.
But I even doubt that this is happening these days, it's possible that all these societies have lost the 'craft' or very few might still have it or pass it on to new people. Some kept the secret because they understood that the time was not right for the secret to be free for all people, but most kept the secret out of their own jealousy, ignorance, egotism and corruption.
The core of this secret lays in how nature itself works, by trying to mimic nature you too are capable of creating the secret stone. One of the greatest scientists Isaac Newton was devoted to unlocking the true secret of the Universe though alchemy, but today he is mainly famous by his work in physics and math.
We often hear that the Pyramids were 'factories' for free energy, or they tap into the free energy source which is all around us. Also the stories of Nikola Tesla who discovered the infinite energy and that we can all have this energy today for free.
But I think this also might be a miss interpretation, we think of this energy in the form of today's electricity in our homes but that might not be true. I think this is the same energy that you are taking in when you breathe, and when you eat and drink. It is the energy that powers all forms of life the so called life-energy.
Ancient people possibly even before the recorded human history or maybe even millions of years ago have developed the technology to extract this energy and become the 'Gods'.
This extracted life energy can cure all diseases, prolong your life for 1000's of years, sharpen your mind and EVEN create new life... Now this 'new life' raised my eyebrow, they said that this life energy is capable of creating new species or even mix animals between them and create fully healthy hybrids that can even breed.
And what is our ancient history full of? Yes, cryptids, mintoaurs, centaurs, why not even Bigfoot? This would explain the strange phenomenon of people witnessing these cryptids and researchers connecting the dots to UFOs. Many cryptids were seen near lights in the sky.
This is one of the dots that connected in my mind along with 'They walk among us', 'They look just like us', 'They are feeding from the life energy', 'The technology is so simple everyone can create it, so in the wrong hands it can became very dangerous', 'Sombering truth', 'The history needs to be rewritten' that I mentioned previously.
Have you heard the game 'broken telephone'? You start with a sentence then you whisper the sentence into the ear of the person sitting next to you. That person then whispers what they heard to the next person, and so on until the message reaches the last person in the group. The last person then says aloud what they heard, which is usually quite different from the original message.
Now in the game of the phenomenon the whispers are coated with false information, deception and encrypted messages. So, the final sentence will be almost impossible to decode.
That's the main weapon of the secret societies and that's the best way for the most wanted recipe to be protected. It is in our DNA to withhold information that benefits us from the public, if we don't do that, then we lose the advantage.
There is gatekeeping in every level of our society, and you too are guilty of this sin. In this post I'll start from the past, back in ancient Egypt. The survivors of the 'The Younger Dryas' a climatic event that occurred around 12,900 to 11,700 years ago, were remembering a time of great technology lost in the cataclysmic event. As they started rebuilding their society, they passed their stories of the technology to the new generations. Just as the game 'broken telephone' the new generations ended up with the stories of the gods who lived 1000s of years, the wars, the secret mana, the food that gives you eternal life etc...
It's possible that from these rumors even today you can hear that the Pyramids were used as 'energy factories' but my speculation is that they were not producing electricity, they were producing life energy.
The blood offerings that the ancients were simultaneously offering in different and unconnected parts of the worlds are uncanny to be a coincidence. But why?
They knew something but not the whole picture, as I said before many legends were born from true events. The 'vampires' didn't drink blood so they can live forever, they were probably extracting the energy from the liquid, this might sound crazy, but it gets even crazier.
Let me try to explain as I'm struggling to get my thoughts in less text, (word salad) 'As above, so below' means that things above us macrocosms: planets, solar systems, galaxies and things below us microcosms: atoms, follow exactly the same principles. Nature operates in cycles.
We have days, months, years, which are all cycles. Then we have the water cycle, with water being evaporated by the sun, forming clouds and then raining down again. It is these cycles that cause growth and development, in all other forms of life, and the Earth itself.
Similar cycles also occur in larger systems, such as solar systems and galaxies. In order to create the philosopher stone you'll need to create the same conditions (cycles) and Nature will do the job.
These are all paraphrases from the book https://archive.org/details/TheBookofAquarius/page/n81/mode/1up
I don't know if I believe this book, but if you don't, you can try the process of creating the stone. You will need URINE, yes.
And again because of the 'broken telephone' syndrome, there are people today who think that if they drink urine they will heal and live longer. This is wrong and very dangerous, and it's because of gatekeeping and false information.
According to the book you can make the stone from anything, but urine is the fastest way and it takes from 3 to 8 years to develop the stone. If you think it's crazy, just think about that the food we eat fertilizes in livestock manure which is made of animal waste.
Urine comes from our body and has the life energy and all the ingredients need for the chemical process to extract the energy and get rid of the waste. Plus, the process of creation already started in our body. I won't elaborate more because the book has done the job.
However, I don't know if the process works or if it's a waste of time. The book was written in 2011 by anonymous writer and there was a public forum for readers who were corroborating in creating the stone.
There was progress and just as some of the users created the white stone and one example started turning red the Forum disappeared and the threads are not accessible even from archive.org.
Luckily the book survived. ‘They walk among us’, ‘They look like us’ There might be people who posses this recipe and the stone who are hiding in the shadows, they are ancient and look just like us, in fact they are humans. Possibly they might be different kind of humans from different eras or even our human cousins who might look a bit different than us.
All survivors of different cataclysms that occur probably once in every 25 000 years. They posses technology that we don’t but they still might be depended on us and our resources because they are smaller in number.
So let me speculate a bit… The design of the saucers might correlate with the 40’s because they were too influenced by our era and were using the materials that are in abundance and used by us in that time. They might after all need us.
'They are feeding from our life energy'
They are not feeding from our emotions or life energy, probably this is ‘broken telephone’ syndrome. They are creating life energy OR they might use some of our resources to create the life energy.
‘The technology is so simple everyone can create it, so in the wrong hands it can became very dangerous'
Creating life energy is not that hard if you know the real recipe, so bad people will probably use it for bad things. But they have probably bad people too, so…
'Sombering truth', 'The history needs to be rewritten'
This is sombering to be honest, and indeed, history needs to be rewritten.
In the book there is a process describing how to create hybrids and cryptids with the help of the stone. The phenomenon is full with these kinds of stories, especially the Skinwalker ranch.
‘They might retaliate if we force disclosure’
I think they are in charge of this world, so forced disclosure by our governments without their approval, might be a problem. This will also explain the fact why all powerful governments are quiet about the phenomenon.
Also, even they might be divided in pro and anti-disclosure…
If you are interested to read more about this theory, I have more posts on my YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/@OpenMindedApproach
or on my Twitter https://twitter.com/OMApproach
. Thanks for reading.
So, I’ve been an atheist for like, 5 or 6 years. I feel strongly that god doesn’t exist and there is no afterlife. I’ve also always been into theology and lately have been reading books by a New Testament scholar.
My religious life before deconverting was very concerning. I have bipolar disorder and had very intense religious delusions. I thought I was the reincarnated Virgin Mary, I visited heaven and talked to god multiple times, thought I was a prophet. Thought at one point I had proved a connection between all major faiths proving god existed. I tried to start my own church.
I was also very into monastic life, specifically the self harm for servitude of the lord. Reading this book all about the book of revelations and comparing it to the historical Jesus’s teachings, I realized my own “church” was like very accurate to the historical Jesus and what he preached.
Somehow I find this discomforting. I had this one dream/vision of Christmas one year. I spent the whole day of the 24th on my knees in a stone chapel scrubbing the floors. My knees stared bleeding and the blood ran into the soapy water. This was in servitude to to Jesus.Apparently Jesus was big on serving in the extreme. Full blown poverty and constant servitude to others until you are as low as you can go and then beg god for more strength to serve more.
I don’t know why learning that my delusions lined up more with Christ than the church ever has, but it’s been weird. I know that it’s not real, but it’s giving me weird sensations again and I don’t want to slip back into the religious fervor. Almost joined a cult last time and nearly lost my life.
I know it’s not real, but it feels real in a weird way. And I don’t know how to rationalize what’s happening.
In November (2022), I had the worst flare up of my life. I was colapsing after being in the bathroom for a while. My whole body hurt. My head hurt. Everything. It was my son's birthday, too. And all I could do was drag myself to bed. I couldn't move once I was in it. Fast forward 3 weeks later and I had another flare up just as bad. Due to all of this, and not knowing how to deal with it, I sought my doctor. I ended up going to him in January, this year.
He told me to try keto (again) and that a low carb diet will help me out. I really didn't know if I could believe him. But, being in that kind of pain really sucked. I looked into recipes and all sorts of things to do. And then I started keto on February 13th. This was my 4th time trying it and I didn't get the keto flu at all this time. I've been eating low carb and keto foods since then.
It's been great and all, but I still have issues here and there. I think my IBS issues are anxiety and stress related now more than food related. Did I tell you I can eat broccoli and salad now?! It gives me a little gas, but holy crap it's amazing.
I just kinda wanted to talk about my progress as I can't talk to my husband really - he doesn't get it as he doesn't have IBS.
So... my main issue now... anxiety and stress. Does anyone have any tips or tricks for dealing with anxiety while also battling IBS?
Two days ago our old man chihuahua mix (about 12 lbs, neutered, takes Cerenia for cough due to trachael collapse ) started with runny poop that turned to constant need to poop and bright red bloody stools in small quantities.
Vet did an exam and bloodwork. They did not find an obstruction, pancreas seems fine, kidney function was off (could be partially due to dehydration)and thyroid was low. There was a strange sticture of some sort inside his anus, but she thought perhaps it had been there since birth. She was surprised at how debilitated he was; we are too. She gave him fluids, and we have a follow up on Monday .
Meds: gabapentin (oral), bupenophrine (oral), metronidazole and probiotics. All started yesterday morning.
He hasn't eaten in three days and shows no interest in any tasty food, even scrambled egg. He goes to the water bowl to drink but doesn't/can't. He will take water from a syringe, but just threw some of it back up.
He does not seem to be improving. He still walks (slowly) outside, strains and poops a little blood, somewhat less frequently than at first. He's loopy from the meds, so it's hard to tell.
Is it possible his digestive system is just done? How long should I wait to see if he improves? He doesn't seem to be in pain, due to the meds.
Maybe a stupid question, but what does the yellow-colored texture indicate/mean? This is Williamsburg, Brooklyn for context.
i felt so bad all day. my hip hurts, my foot, my knee... the camp today was way too hard for me and i got beaten and my hip nerve just screwed me over. i know the physical pain is made worse with mental pain and i was feeling like, not fitting in into that crowd. i could tell people were disappointed when paired up with me. There was apparently one or two other days of lessons that many of them had taken in preparation with the coach.
breakfast was well and satisfying even tho that fucking app says its too many carbs. oat meal lovers, unite!!! I stand by that meal. For lunch i had pad thai, it was really tasty and i didnt feel bad since id gotten some exercise in and i knew i wouldnt be able to snack until dinner time. High satisfaction. I had a cookie for snack and just tried to sit the seminar out without freaking out. the girl who busted my lip came up again to apologise while i was sitting alone. i have nothing against those people, most of them are kind and normal people, i just dont know anyone there and theyre the kind of people who make me remind me im autistic. Girls who can come to a practice with a full face of make up and hair style that stays intact during the whole thing. That are smart and nice. Then when i have energy i need to reserve it for only one thing at a time. I feel parhetic in comparison.
One of the boys there, I've seen him before at these camps/seminars, he looks exactly like a bully from my middle school. I bet the boy is his little brother. Striking image. Gives me a real bad feeling.
Dad hurt his calf and had to chill also. him and other sensei tried to comfort me but i didnt really feel better, tho i appriciated it. That crowd is elite elite and basically im a beginner, it was a mismatch, ill go tomorrow but only for taking notes and my dads sake, the anxiety is making my joints hurt so bad.
For dinner was... bowl of fish and some celery. Not that good but better than nothing. I think my mom is orthorexic. She didnt have dinner tonight. im tired of tryign to argue with her. When she picked me up after not having seen me for two weeks from my boyfriends place, it took her a total of three minutes before she had to rant to me about how she shovves normal amounts food in her face and stuffs herself and has no control. I wanted to fall into the ground. Our vacation was pretty hard with the way she soeaks and eats. "we really deserved this meal after a long day of walking so much". I know food is mot something moral that is to be earned. It still feels bad.
Thought id lost my sleeping pills but found them. Thank fucking god, cried like a baby tho.
I dont want to continue with life rn, i just suck right now. Thinking of starting MMA, maybe that type if fighting will be nicer on my hips.
I thought kittens should be eating food by now.
They had the choice between kitten food, solid food, and Tuna mixed with water.
Is it too soon still?
after a brief relapse (a week tops), i’ve been mostly on track again, and within the span of a few days i’ve gained 5kgs/2.3kg, maybe up to 8lbs/3.6kg idk my “sw”. i know it’s not all fat or muscle, and much is food, water, and… edema.
my ankles swell as if i was pregnant; touching my skin leaves an indent, sometimes. my dietician says it’llcpass, but… why does it happen? i’ve heard it’s easier for the “healing cells” (i can’t be bothered with properly biology terms right now) to travel through water, but idk.
also, sidenote, i don’t have regular access to a scale, just weigh myself here and there to make my mom happy
I was enjoying a lazy weekend today, woke up late, had some food and went back to bed again. This time when I slept I had a weird dream in which I was peeing but it turns out I was wetting the bed for real. As soon as I started peeing somehow I woke up with a horror to realize what I was doing and managed to hold the pee and ran to toilet to relieve myself. Immediately afterwards I removed the bed covers and put them for wash in the washing machine and turned it on.
This is where the major fuck up happened. The Washing machine is kept in my other bed room which I mostly use just as a store room. The waste water outlet from the washing machine is normally connected to drainage through a tube to the attached bathroom. But this washing machine I brought back yesterday after repairs and was kept in its normal place. I had connected it's inlet but the waste outlet was just lying on the bed room floor. So the stupid that I am put the dirty bed covers in this washing machine and started the wash cycle and went back to bed. After an hour I wake up to see the entire apartment flooded with water from the washing machine. There was water in all rooms and kitchen and I spent reminder of the day cleaning up the water everywhere.
TLDR: Peed in bed, put the dirty bed covers for wash without realizing the waste water outlet of washing machine was not connected to drainage. Caused the apartment to be flooded.
Wish List: Teslas below, AA/SS/1S melee below, and rare apparel/masks
I still need the following Teslas: GS/50L/15r,,, H/50c/25,,, Jug/50c/25,,, Med/50L/15r,,, Troub/50c/25
I still need the following AA/SS/1S melee: baton,,, board,,, cultist blade,,, drill,,, gulper smacker,,, hatchet,,, knuckles,,, lead pipe,,, ripper,,, rolling pin,,, sledgehammer,,, spear,,, switchblade,,, war drum Complete Trade List: (Thank you for your time browsing this huge list!!!) FIXERS:
AA/25/15r,,, AA/25/15v,,, AA/50c/15v,,, AA/50vhc/25,,, AA/50L/25,,, AA/AP/25,,, AA/E/Dur,,, Ari/25/15r,,, Ari/E/15r,,, Ari/E/25,,, B/25/15v,,, B/50L/25,,, BAP/25,,, Exe/50c/25,,, Exe/AP/25,,, Exe/E/25,,, F/50c/25,,, GouE/25,,, GS/50c/25,,, GS/E/25,,, H/50c/25,,, Jug/50c/25,,, Jug/AP/25,,, Junk/25/15r,,, Junk/50c/15v,,, Junk/50c/25,,, Junk/50L/25,,, Junk/AP/25,,, Junk/E/15v,,, Med/25/25,,, Med/50c/25,,, Med/AP/25,,, Mu/AP
/25,,, MS/50c/25,,, MS/AP/25,,, N/AP/25,,, N/E/25,,, Q/25/15r,,, Q/25/15v,,, Q/AP/25,,, Q/E/50,,, St/50c/25,,, St/AP/25,,, St/E/25,,, Su/50c
E/25,,, T/AP/25,,, TS/25/15r,,, TS/25/15v,,, TS/50vhc/25,,, TS/AP/25,,, V/AP/25,,, Z/25/25,,, Z/E/25 HANDMADES:
AA/E/15v,,, Junk/25/15r,,, MS/E/25,,, Mu/E
/25,,, Q/50vhc/25 HEAVY WEAPONS:
AA/25/90 AGL,,, AA/25/15r Cryolator,,, As/25A/90 Fatman,,, As/25/90 Gatling Plasma,,, B/E/Gho 50cal,,, B/25A/90 Missile Launcher,,, B/50vhc/90 Missile Launcher,,, B/50L/90 AGL,,, Exe/50c/15r Flamer,,, Exe/25A/90 Gatling Plas,,, Exe/E/25 LMG,,, Q/25/15v LMG,,, Q/25/Dur LMG,,, Q/50L/90 Minigun,,, TS/50vhc/90 Broadsider,,, TS/25/15r Gatling Gun,,, TS/25/25 LMG,,, TS/E/25 Minigun,,, V/25/15r 50cal,,, V/25/25 Gatling Gun,,, V/50L/90 Harpoon Gun,,, Z/E/90 LMG MELEE:
AA/SS/1S Death Tambo,,, AA/40P/1S Gulper Smacker,,, AA/SS/1S Pole Hook,,, AA/50c/15v Power Fist,,, AA/SS/1S Super Sledge,,, Ari/SS/1S Shovel,,, Ari/SS/1S Sledgehammer,,, As/40P/1S Chainsaw,,, As/40P/1S Drill,,, B/SS/1S Bowie Knife,,, B/40P/1S Deathclaw Gauntlet,,, B/SS/25 Gulper Smacker,,, B/SS/25 Meat Hook,,, BSS
/1S Power Fist,,, Exe/50c/1Sv Power Fist,,, Ext/SS/1S Drill,,, GS/SS/1S Chainsaw,,, I/SS/1S Death Tambo,,, I/SS/1S Golf Club,,, I/SS/1S Power Fist,,, I/SS/1S Super Sledge,,, Jug/SS/1S Power Fist,,, Junk/SS/1S Power Fist,,, Junk/SS/1S Security Baton,,, Mu/SS
/1S Deathclaw Gauntlet,,, Mu/SS
/1S Power Fist,,, MS/SS/1S Shishkebab,,, Su/SS
/1S Power Fist,,, Su/SS
/1S Spear,,, Troub/SS/1S Bowie Knife,,, Troub/SS/1S Golf Club,,, V/SS/1S Combat Knife,,, V/SS/1S Mole Miner Gauntlet,,, V/SS/1S Pole Hook,,, V/SS/1S Sledgehammer,,, Z/SS/1S Fire Axe,,, Z/SS/1S Knuckles,,, Z/SS/1S Pipe Wrench RAILWAYS:
AA/50c/25,,, AA/50vhc/25,,, AA/E/15v,,, AA/E/25,,, Ari/25/15r,,, B/50vhc/25,,, B/E/15r,,, B/E/90,,, F/50c/25,,, F/E/25,,, GS/50c/25,,, H/25/25,,, H/50c/25,,, I/25/25,,, I/50c/25,,, Junk/E/25,,, Q/50L/90,,, Q/AP/25,,, St/50c/25,,, Su/25
/25,,, TS/50L/25,,, TS/50vhc/25,,, TS/50c/15r,,, TS/AP/25,,, TS/E/Dur,,, V/25/25,,, V/50c/25,,, Z/E/90 TESLAS:
AA/25/15r,,, AA/50L/15r,,, AA/AP/25,,, B/25/25,,, Exe/25/15r,,, Ext/25/15r,,, F/25/15r,,, I/25/15r,,, Q/AP/25,,, TS/25/15r,,, TS/25/25,,, V/25/250,,, V/25/Dur,,, V/50L/15r,,, Z/25/15r
AA/E/25 Assault Rifle,,, AA/25/25 Assultron Head,,, AA/50c15v Crossbow,,, AA/50L/25 Enclave Plasma Rifle,,, AA/25/25 Gamma Gun,,, AA/E/15r Hunting Rifle,,, B/AP/25 Compound Bow,,, B/25/25 Gauss Rifle,,, Exe/50c/25 Combat Rifle,,, Exe/E/25 Hunting Rifle,,, Exe/E/25 Lever Action,,, F/50c/15v Thirst Zapper,,, Gou25/25 Lever Action,,, Junk/50c/25 Enclave Plasma Rifle,,, Mu/50c
/25 Crossbow,,, Q/50c/25 Assaultron Head,,, Q/25/15r Combat Shotgun,,, Q/25/15r Plasma Rifle,,, St/50c/25 Crossbow,,, TS/25/15r Combat Rifle,,, TS/50c/25 Combat Rifle,,, V/50c/25 Bow,,, V/AP/25 Crossbow,,, V/50c/25 Gauss Rifle ARMOR:
Aristocrat's Heavy Robot left leg with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Assassin's Heavy Raider left leg with AP/Sentinel,,, Assassin's T-45 right leg with AP/Sentinel,,, Auto Stim Raider Power left arm with AP/Sentinel,,, Auto Stim USA right arm with AP/WWR,,, Bolstering FSA chest with 7%LED/WWR,,, Bolstering Sturdy Combat left leg with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Bolstering Trapper chest with AP/Cavalier,,, Bolstering Trapper right arm with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Chameleon Raider Power right leg with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Chameleon Robot chest with 7%LED/WWR,,, Chameleon USA chest with 7%LED/Cavalier,,, Chameleon USA left arm with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Chameleon USA right arm with 7%LED/WWR,,, Cloaking Raider Power right leg with 7%LED/WWR,,, Mutant's Excavator left arm with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Mutant's FSA chest with 7%LED/WWR,,, Nocturnal Excavator right leg with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Nocturnal USA right leg with AP/Sentinel,,, Overeater's Combat left arm with +25 Cryo resist/Cavalier,,, Overeater's Excavator right leg with luck/cavalier,,, Overeater's Heavy Raider left leg with Charisma/WWR,,, Overeater's Heavy Robot chest with +25 Rad Resist/Sentinel,,, Overeater's Metal left leg with +25 Cryo resist/Sentinel,,, Overeater's Robot right leg with Endurance/Sentinel,,, Overeater's Trapper right arm with Luck/WWR,,, Overeater's T-60 left arm with +25% env resist/WWR,,, Overeater's T-60 left arm slowed hungeWWR,,, Overeater's USA chest with slower hungeSentinel,,, Overeater's USA left leg with Agility/WWR,,, Overeater's USA right arm with Endurance/Sentinel,,, Regenerating Heavy Raider right arm with AP/Sentinel,,, Troubleshooter's Marine left arm with AP/Sentinel,,, Troubleshooter's Sturdy Metal right leg with AP/Sentinel,,, Unyielding FSA right leg with +25 Fire resist/WWR,,, Unyielding Heavy Raider left arm with Luck/Cavalier,,, Unyielding Metal chest with AP/HDT,,, Unyielding Robot right arm with Agility/Sentinel,,, Unyielding Sturdy Leather left leg with 7%LED/Sentinel,,, Unyielding Trapper right arm with 7%LED/HDT,,, Unyielding Trapper right arm with Intelligence/Sentinel,,, Vanguard's Excavator right leg with Intelligence/Cavalier,,, Vanguard's Heavy Leather right arm with 7%LED/HDT,,, Vanguard's Heavy Robot right arm with 7%LED/HDT,,, Vanguard's Sturdy Robot left arm with AP/Sentinel,,, Vanguard's Sturdy Robot right leg with 7%LED/WWR,,, Vanguard's USA right arm with AP/Cavalier,,, Vanguard's Wood chest with Strength/Sentinel,,, Zealot's FSA left arm with AP/Sentinel,,, Zealot's USA right leg with AP/WWR PLANS:
Assault rifle,,, Barbed walking cane,,, Baseball bat rocket,,, Baseball bat searing puncturing rocket,,, Bear arm,,, Bear arm heavy mod,,, Boxing glove lead lining,,, Camo Backpack,,, Cave cricket tube,,, Civil war era suit,,, Civil war era top hat,,, Confederate hat,,, Deathclaw gauntlet,,, Dense marine armor torso,,, Dense trapper armor torso,,, Fire station bell,,, Flannel shirt & jeans,,, Halloween skull mask,,, Hatchet electro fusion,,, Junkyard fountain,,, Machete sacrificial blade,,, Meat Tenderizer,,, Nuka Girl area rug,,, Pepper shaker,,, Pitchfork Flamer,,, Protective lining Marine underarmor,,, Protective lining raider underarmor,,, Puncturing pole hook,,, Radioactive barrel,,, Raw cement barricade,,, Scorchbeast queen plushie,,, Scorched tube,,, Sheepsquatch staff,,, Shielded lining casual underarmor,,, Shielded lining Marine underarmor,,, Skeleton costume,,, Skiing outfit,,, Sledgehammer heavy searing sharp rocket,,, Small vault girl statue,,, Snallygaster plushie,,, Spiked walking cane,,, The Fixer,,, T-60 BOS knight paint,,, TV Aquarium,,, Ultracite emergency protocols,,, Undershirt & jeans,,, Vintage water cooler,,, Witch costume,,, WV state bird rug,,, Yao Guai tube,,, Cranberry Bog Healing Salve recipe,,, Fasnacht donut recipe,,, Fasnacht sausage recipe,,, Formula P recipe,,,Stimpak Diffuser recipe,,, Tato salad recipe APPAREL:
Asylum Uniform Pink,,, Clean Spacesuit,,, Emmett Mountain hazmat suit,,, Grey Fishermans Overalls,,, Hunter's Long Coat,,, Longshoreman Outfit,,, Skiing red and green outfit,,, Straight Jacket Clean,,, ,, Winter Jacket and Jeans CHEMS:
Addictol: 145,,, Berry Mentats: 302,,, Buffout: 1395,,, Calmex: 299,, Daddy-O: 981,,, Day Tripper: 525,,, Disease Cure: 400,,, Mentats: 1000,,, Overdrive: 483,,, Psycho: 2564,,, Psychobuff: 1258,,, Psychotats: 1041,,, X-cell: 310 FOOD:
Canned meat stew: 45,,, Salt: 1671,,, Spices: 988,,, Sugar Bombs(w/rads): 332,,, Pepper: 1675
Enclave plasma aligned flamer mod,,, Enclave plasma aligned sniper barrel mod